Martha Schofield diary, 1865-1866

Martha Schofield
Strictly Private
1864.





1.

Diary.

1864. July 1st.
A pleasant morning, and I begin
another new book - strange thoughts come and go with
this but I will not put them here -. I attended the funeral
of Mary Ash, she suffered much, has gone home at last -
After dinner Hall Price, & we went up to Sharon.
good many there to attend Wilson's Sale, & all sold well -
saw many we knew I came home early with Father -

2nd Sam's are out for a week -. Oldden here & we had a
long talk - I respect & honor his principles more than ever -
yet I tremble for some of my own sex - that see not the
blindness of their course -. Why will not some one tell them -

3rd Not very well this morning - Writing this P.M. when John
came - he did not stay to tea, I was up & had a long
precious talk with Sarah Bunting, dear woman I love her -.

4th The anniversary of my dearest friendship has again
come round - yet I will leave no written record - thought &
heart can keep it sacredly with other treasures - . Quite a
display of fireworks at our neighbor's - we had a good view -


[Top margin]
Weight
May 9th 1865 116 lbs.
June 19 1865 110 lbs.
June 20 1865 111 lbs. Chester [County]
June 29th 1865 115 lbs.
July 21st 1865 116 lbs.
[August] 5th 1865 115 lbs

5th. Sallie and I went over to Summit House Hosptial
to give out more fans - we were going through one of
the Wards when an Officer stepped up and inquired
if my name was Martha Scholfield -. I said yes, & he replied
"I am to inform you, your presence is no longer needed
in this Hosptial" - One look at his countenance showed
he was proud of his authority, so I merely said "I
was glad Ladies could use their influence outside if
not in -" We then walked in another ward and I had
a tumbler of jelly for a sick man - I had seen - but
was now dead, I asked Lieut. Woodroff - who had
followed us for permission to speak to one of our
old nurses some distance off - he refused - & the
man had his back towards me or he would have
come -. We took the rest of our fans & went over to
the Camp - very soon he followed with an armed
guard, forbade our going farther - & escorted us
to the gate - a hundred poor soldiers, gathered round
mad with rage & indignation -. We bade them
good bye & left - I was not home [half] an hour
when some came over & the whole day they were


3.

July 1864,

coming here to express the meaness & injustice of
Dr Taylor - one said they would burn the Hospital -
I hope they will do nothing to bring punishment
on themselves -. I shall use every effort to remove
him, this may be, the result of my letter to [Secretary] of
War - as I told him the facts in regard to the Summit.
John was up - took Lide & I to get ice cream -

6th About [half] past 7. Lide & I started to pay that
long talked of visit to Wilmington - Went in
the cars & found Clarkson Taylor waiting for
us, went to his house - Spent a delightful day
Aunt Sarah - Mary & her sweet babe, Haye's
wife, & Annie Wallston all there -. grand time

7th They have a beautiful home - we took a pleasant
walk to the woods - then all went to Wilmington,
to spend the day with Aunt Sarah - elegant time -

8th After breakfast took a ride to Joseph & John
Richardson - a nice call they live elegantly -.
Had an early & went 5 miles out to Edward Mendenhall
and Annie Marshalls -. Elegant ride and nice
times - We are enjoying this so much -.


4th

9th Very warm indeed - & rain much needed -
Quite a company at Harry's where we both took tea
and had a nice visit -. Afterwards Willie took us
to get ice cream - also brought a box of candies -
We went to Granville & Mary Worrill -. They
have a lovely happy home - & so comfortable -

10th I did not go to [Meeting] - The city is on great
excitement for the Rebels are near Baltimore -
Clarkson's & Aunt Sarah are in - we called on Mr Heald.

11th Took an elegant ride nearly to New Castle -
They are all so kind - I fear we can never repay them -
took tea at Aunt Sarah's - Willie took us to get ice cream
& we then took a pitcher home to Mary - !oh the fun -

12th After breakfast "Aunt Sarah" sent the carriage round
and we went to the depot -, in an hour were at the
Island Road where Samuel met us - We found
Father was very ill for a day or two, is getting better -
I went down to see E. Steele, she welcomed me
kindly - a soldier came over to see me - poor
fellows they so much appreciate kindness -


5.

13th Samuels went in to-day -. I here in the eve -

14th Great excitment about the raids around
Washington - it has been threatened, & some cars
on the P.W. & Baltimore rail road robbed & burned -
I went to [Cousin] E. with Josiah Wilson, 7 to Sharon -
I called to see S. Palmer & apply for Miss
Price's situation - Wrote to the Medical Director for Pass.

13th Better news from the army, rebels leaving -
We went early to Glen Oldden to pick blackberries.
home in time for dinner - I was quiet all eve -

16th John said he was coming up as he had something
to tell me -. I felt quiet, but the opportunity came -
we had a long talk under the shadow of the moon
at the gate -. I was not in the humor to say much. he did.

17th Thomas C. out many here - Father worse -
I sat up with him till 2 oclock - wrote to J. & Edward -

18th About 9 P.M. May Ivins came - we are so glad -
I had long letter from Anna Webster & Lizzie S -.

19th Father is slowly improving -. Dr out of town -

20th I went to see Director, hoping to get the school -.
John up, he is a good kind soul - Yesterday we went to [Cousin] E.


6 -

21st Mother was taken with severe pain - we were
quite alarmed as it was an hour before relief came -
she was poorly all day - me in bed several hours -
Company here too - Lizzie Johnson, sister etc. etc. -

22nd All seem better this morning - very cool -.
John came up, and again we had a long talk - I
so much enjoy these pleasant, free conversations, it
is helping both of us I guess - I strive always to
have him be good, and honorable and just - He
is I guess too, I respect and love the manliness
and nobility which I see when others do not -.

23rd Busy at usual housework - In the evening
Hector & Maggie came - I up also awhile -

24th First day morning - I went to [meeting] to please
Mother. Child's out all day -. I am very tired
to-night & yet have not done much - but my
mind, that aches with thoughts - all the time
I am silently pondering on my erring brother's life -.


7.
July 1864

26th We are lucky enough to raise plums - also, plenty of
little insects that sting them so they will not ripen -
This morn we picked a peck & a half & put up for winter -
It was our Monthly Meeting and Cousin Mary C.
Jackson and Isaac Clothier "passed" - It must have
been a solemn thing; this giving one's heart & life into
another's keeping -. I wonder if I ever will - No - ! I guess
not , I have often been burdened with the consciousness
that my life's mission would be over thorns - trod
wearily and alone - no reward, save the winning of
the crown which can meet no mortal eyes - I have
struggled hard to be resigned to this -. & hope my
efforts will not be in vain -. Even all my blessings
do not drive the sense of utter loneliness of heart when
I picture the trials that must be mine if I walk
in the path I have chosen -. The hope of saving my
brother is the sweet recompense I look forward for -
A letter from Edward Willets, saying Aaron Haviland
was buried the day before -. O! Such a sad loss - a motherless
wife and six young children -. God pity them and
strengthen her - Typhoid fever - J up


8.

27th How strange it seems that he - a strong man
should now be silent in his last resting place -
How will I remember his many kind words to me.
so joyful - so full of life - yet, he has gone - &
many whom might have been spared are left -.
Am I needed here? When I hear of those so useful
being taken away, involuntarily the thought
comes -. O, if I had been taken instead - yet I
will wait, wait patiently till the doors are open for me.
- We have had callers as usual very warm -.

28th Father rides out every day & Lide or I go as driver -

29th I took Mother over to the Home found Sarah & M.
Child here when we got back - It is sad to see
Mary looking so miserable - that strange - unearthly
expression which whispers of sorrowing for her parents
heart - yet - she may be spared - I hope -.

30th All away to spend the day, so my time
was all my own -. I enjoyed it and yet - towards
night I grew sad - it came unbidden & I
could not drive it off - even when Sallie &
the children came out -. Sam afterwards -.


9.

31st -. This warm Sabbath morning is the last
day of July - oh - what a record of suffering it
closes with - The Rebels have entered and burned
the principal part of Chambersburg - homes desolated
and destroyed - Mothers & children filling
the streets with anxious wailing; They will know
now the realities of War - I cannot mourn for the
losses of the Copperheads but do sincerely for the patriots -
We went to meeting, dry & warm - afternoon read
the Atlantic Monthlies let by Mary Jackson -
Evening callers - G. T. Alice P. J - etc. -. E said some
unkind words me, I returned in the same manner -. she
went to bed - I was too much hurt -. so sat down by the
open window and cried my sorrow to the stars -.
Ah! I can keep back all emotion - all burning
pain -till I get alone, & then the bitter waters
must flow - , old as I am - striving always to
overcome this I never succeed -. She called
me selfish - I never am in my prayers -. They
always seek blessings for all - even those for
whom I sometimes suffer most -.


10.

August 1st 1864. Mother went to Concord
Quarterly Meeting - Sallies went home - As we
walked up the street with R. Verlinden & Miss Crag's
Captain Smith overtook us & all spent the eve -

2nd Father & Lide went after Mother - Oldden & sister here -
Charles Leitzenberg died this morning - he was
much respected & a useful citizen - only 47 -
and so much needed in his family - .

3rd Very warm - more putting up fruit - Maris
Batram sent us an invitation for an Excursion -

4th "J. Sill" came down for us, his wife was very sick -
Mother & I went up - poor thing - what is money
or a fine house to her - it is not home -. He is afflicted
with fits - married this young motherless girl -
His mother made their outward home comfortable -
but she is sharp - disposed to find fault - yet
never does any work - Poor Annie my heart aches
for her - I was there nearly all morning - made
the bread - which was as she left it night before -
Went up and prepared some supper for the invalid -
I did her real good as she was weak.


11.

5th Attended the funeral, which was very large, every
business place in the village closed - So it is - the man, not
the work that wins respect - He was a blacksmith;
yet esteemed by all - a useful citizen - and greatly
mourned -. - After dinner Mother Lide & I
went to the Home then called at G. Hancocks and
Martha Jones -. She is very miserable - News of
another invasion & a call for 36,000 men for the Emergency -

6th Our twin sisters are to-day twenty nine - they
and we are getting on in years - Uncle J & S here - up.

7th Very warm - McAllisters spent the day. good time.
Uncle Isaac's here also - Ridgways up

8th I went to city in 7 cars - did some shopping, dined
at Thomas Child, took tea & staid all night at
Uncle Isaac's, first visit - they have an elegant
home, and I enjoyed it so much.

9th Went to see Lyd - Wilsons, called at Hancocks
and home - very tired -. bought a calico dress
and gave 44 [cents] a yard -. So much for War -

10th R. & C & L. Bell - spent the day here - very pleasantly -
rode to Uncle H's after tea - Happy [letters] [?]


12 -
1864.

11th They left early for Avondale -. Hector dined here -
I have been adding up my accounts since [January] 1863 -
I know I have not been extravigant - yet little
things count up -. I have given presents to the amount
of $12.12. - none were very handsome - only a little to each -
& I so love to give - if I were rich nothing would
give me greater pleasure -. To Doctors for trying
to cure frosted feet I have paid $15.25 -
Postage stamps - that add so much to my happiness
$3.70 - But then I save it in other things - I
deny myself many little things, that others would not -

12th Parents went to the Home - Aunt Esther here - Cap!

13th Allie Wilson came out - Thunder Shower -

14th of August - The birthday of some of my dear
friends - We attended meeting - Maris here to invite
us on an Excursion next 5th day I gave stamps for sealing letters

15th Mother & Allie went to city - Shower in P.M.

16th Mother came home and tonight Howard. T Bonsall home!

17th I was lying down all morning - May [?] out. -

18th I took Parents to Darby Road - to go to Maryland
to pay a visit at Bonsalls & attend Quarterly Meeting.


13.

George Ridgway took Lide to the [?] , to go on
the Excursion -. Rachie Ivins came out - otherwise
I was alone all day - wrote some letters - and in the
eve John came up and read me some of Ruskins
beautiful thoughts - He is an exquisite writer -.

19th We drove to [Cousin] E. & called at Uncle Williams -

20th Went to Biddles & took 50 fans - bread, & jelly for
the poor soldiers at the Summit House -. In the eve
John and Mr Ware came -, neither hard to entertain -

21st Attending [Meeting] - Alice P. here awhile & John to tea -
as we promised him corn fritters - poor fellow - don't get them at
home - he left after for Herman was there - we wrote letters
till nearly 12 oclock -. I congratulated G & L. Hancock for
their little boy - Am so thankful it is over - & she will recover.

22nd My dear friend [Captain] E. P. Wilson came in this morn -
& spent the day with us - He is home on a furlough for
10 days -. He had so much to tell me -. and the love &
affection manifested, touched me deeply -. The separation
has strengthened our friendship -. I see him greatly changed
for the better -, & am so grateful - He loves me very much
I can never doubt it now - a pure friendly love - & I treasure it.


14.

23rd Parents returned last eve - we went to [Monthly Meeting]
to-day, & heard a slow sermon from John Parrish -
he dined here afterwards - Letter from aunt Jane -

24th Mrs. Bannister came over and spent the day
very pleasantly with me -. Her first visit -. To see E S [?]

25th Parents away, I had a sweet long letter from Anna .-

26th Lide Howard & I spent a delightful day at Eph
Ridgway's - Han is so nice & we talk unreservedly -

27th I am real disappointed to-day - Oldden & I were
to have started for Crosswicks - It is worse because
my last chance - Yet - I will try & bear it
patiently, without murmuring the complaints I feel -
We called at Uncle Williams after tea - callers here -.
Our beautiful canary is dead -. Been sick all day &
a little after 8 - closed his eyes & died -. We loved him
well - so bright & cheerful always - poor cherry - where
is the little life that sparked in the black eye - that
warbled such sweet music - Howard is so sorry &
asked "if the Heavenly Father had any more in his house
that he would send down" -. We will miss him so much -
Sallie & Rice came out to pay us a visit -


15.

August 1864.

28th Samuels all out - I did not go to Meeting; Oldden
came up - he had been to Washington after a Substitute
and could not get here yesterday -. The draft worries him -.

29th They all went to town - I was alone most of the day
restless & sad -, darkness I cannot throw off - & no ruffling of
the shroud - all is still & peaceful with the burried dead -.
I dare not trust myself to be alone or unoccupied to-day -
So I keep very busy with the present, & conquer at last.
Sallie H. came out again to spend a few days with us.

31st We went to Uncle Williams to help mend a beautiful
vase given to Mary, but accidently broken -. We succeeded -
Eph Ridgway & Han here - She is a dear good girl
and I love her well - love & sympathize with her -. My own
heart is sad - because my friends have not always strength
to keep from the path of evil - I mourn in secret -
We have been reading Agatha's Husband - It has satisfied
me more than any work of fiction read for a long time -.
One character is so much very much like my dear
friend -. Every little act just the same - O. Nathaniel Harper
how plainly I have seen that beautiful expression


16.

1864.

which the author gives to thee - on another face, sweet
and dear to me -, the same noble purposes, inflexible
command of will, all, all -, are the same -. There are but
few such - but I know the character is not over drawn -

September 1st 1864. Samuels came out early, afterwards
Uncles Paxton & Hallidays - so we had a family party -
After dinner came the dressing for the wedding & oh such
a time -, we children had fun fixing up the old old folks -
got 10 started in time for Uncle Williams. It was
a bright beautiful day and Mary Jackson & Isaac
Clothier became husband and wife - me, in heart -
& life - They said the ceremony well - and all passed
off agreeably, about a hundred there & very fine entertainment -
Nine here to stay all night - It is pleasant
these family meetings & I like them - although my own
heart has been very sad -. because - Ah - I must not
write the faults here which [Crossed out: my] I would try to hide
from all - though in secret I do all I can to cure them -

2nd Nearly all of them got off - Howard with Uncle Paxons.
Sallie H. Lide & I burried our dear cherry - in a metal coffin
under the shade trees - We found he could not be stuffed molting -


17.

3rd I had a long letter from Edward, & it is a sweet peace
to know that I am his best friend still - That in all
things he loves & trusts me-, that my friendship has helped
save him - I am unhappy about some things, yet so proud -
even to-night when my hand was taken in that firm grasp
& the silence begged forgiveness, I met all coldly -; there
was no response -; a little stronger, more torture to both & all will [?]

4th Mother has Rhumatism & not able to be up - A heavy
lovely rain and we girls did not go to meeting -.
I wrote several letters - In the morning we finished
Agatha's Husband which is the best light novel I
have read for a long while - Such a good impression -

5th Very rainy all day in the eve - - was here and I
was mad because I thought it impudent !!!!

6th Still rainy Lide took Sallie to the depot -

7th I had such a dear letter from Anna yesterday -

8th Could not get a washwoman so Lizzie & I did it - tired

9th Lide & I drove in to Hancocks, found Lizzie down
stairs and a dear little babe - so plump & fat.
Then I went to a Public School 20th & Coates - called at
Jones's and brought Sarah Bunting home with us.


18.
[September] 1864.

10th In the afternoon we went to [Cousin] Ephraim's and
round by Uncle Williams - Oldden here awhile -
goes to Harrisburg to-morrow as he has a position
in the Quartermaster's department - . I tremble
for the influences that may surround him -
John was up this eve - He intends going to [Massachusetts].

11th Rainy Sabbath and not feeling well did
not attend meeting, wrote long letter to Anna &
John came up to tea to get it - Had one from [?].
The anniversary of Lide's birthday -. Time flies -

12th of [September] 1864 I went up to School several of the
Directors there, opened with 33 and busy [?]
books and classes - Not so very tired -
A letter came from Anne Bell saying her
father was worse - About two weeks ago while
visiting at Yonkers, he had a hemorhage, since
another - & this P.M. a telegram came telling us
he had gone - Dear Uncle Thomas, how we all
loved him -. Parents went in the city this eve -
if well enough will go on to-morrow -


19.

13th Father came home, not feeling able to go -
Mother aunts Jane & Rachel went on at 8 am.m. -
It is hard to realize that our beloved Uncle is no
more - He was always so gentle, loving, and kind
so truly a christian, and entirely resigned, never
uttering a word of complaint - Dear, dear Uncle
all loved thee, & I can never forget the many acts
of kindness, the gentle words and loving care over me
when I was away from home and with them.
I had letters yesterday and this morning
from Edward & feel a [?] greater responsibility,
for he says he will do nothing, till he tells me
& receives my advice and encouragement -.
Oh! the great deph of his love for me would not
be understood by those unable to appreciate his nature -.

14th Some of the children are very naughty, They
have been used to doing too much as they pleased
and I shall have to be very strickt with them
for a while - I have nearly forty - & full of mischief -.

15 I wrote to Anna as I know how anxious she
is to hear from me & my school - She managed it so well.


20.

16th Today being the last school day, all the
reports have to be made out for the week - It
kept me very busy, and I was real tired when
school was over, & soon after the children had gone
Father called for me to take a ride on the new
carriage. I knew it would do me more good than staying
so I went, found it very comfortable and pleasant -.

17th This evening Eliza and I went round to Alice Pearsons
company, in the lower room of her school house - It was
a meeting of the Penn Parlor committee of the Central Fair &
Alice invited her friends - About 40 and it was a
rare treat, reading of Tennyson's last Poem, by Ryland
Warriner, and several pieces spoken by N. H. Richardson
the great elocutionist. They are both equal to J. E. Mundock
in my opinion. Richardson recited one of his own pieces
on the Face of Atlanta also Barbara Fritche, On the Cumberland
by Boker and the Bridge of Sighs -. O. it was splendidly
done and drew tears from any eyes -. Altogether it was a
delightful evening, the room was papered with maps, benches
covered with shawls etc. - but velvet carpets & rosewood furniture could
not have added one iota more to our real enjoyment. Fruit handed.


21.

18th Went to meeting and had a sermon from John Hunt -
spent the afternoon writing to Edward, and Anna Willets -
Took a ride, which I enjoyed very much indeed -

19th Second day morning, again in school, find myself
very tired after I get home - I try to take it quietly
but my nerves are in the strain - all the time -.

20th Have to punish some of the children severely -
I try never to get in a passion myself - often when I am
burning with anger I can speak quietly and cooly with
them - because it would make them worse to see me angry -
Yesterday Father went to the city for Mother, she came
from Bayside - after a weeks time with Aunt Eliza -
On 4th day dear Uncle Thomas was buried from
Yonkers at Greenwood. That beautiful burying place -
there we may mark his resting place - but him, his
spirit is not there "he has arisen" - and the memory
of his pure and noble life should prompt us to greater
virtue -, his humble, christian, true life has made a
monument in our hearts - which cannot decay -
I wish it could have been my privilege to have
communed with a spirit so near & so fit for heaven -.


22.
September 1864.

21st My school keeps me busy all of daylight & I am
generally very tired of evenings - Have to be strict -

22nd Parents were down to [Cousin] Ephraims -

23rd Quite a little excitement - Mr Palmer was up awhile when
the class was called two of the children refused to say lessons telling
me their mother said they should not - because of the length -
I refused to receive any message through them - & required the
lesson to be learned - They were impudent & had no right -
Had the reports to make out sent their's to them as they
did not return in the afternoon -. So it is with interference.

24th Samuels all out to stay over 1st day - We had
Institute at School quite interesting - Letters from Edward -.

25th First day morning attended [meeting]-. In the P.M. I
was up & brought me a long letter from Anna and she
said she had nothing nice to send so gave me a pretty
little Prayer Book -. I value it for her sake though
I do not always make words of my prayers - only just
open my heart & feel that our Father sees all -. Very
often in the midst of care and busy life there goes up the
simple appeal, "My Father strengthen me" -.
I wrote to Sadie she is visiting in Purchase -


23.

26th Beginning of another week of work - & poor me
has many an unspoken ache - yet I will not
draw back now - I began this for the good of my
brother & for him I will go on even though I get
weary, though the flesh fail - I will hope to help
him and turn back towards goodness -.

27th Mother not well Rhumatism again - John
was up & at last there has been an explanation -
It has really done me good, for this growing
unpleasantness was making us both unhappy -.

28th Not much of interest - except a little excitement at
School - I was supeaned at Square Maul's at 7 oclock -
Went - & gave my testimony in regard to John Boyle, one
of my new scholars that had threatened to strike a little
girl - They have been very troublesome out of school -
Irish -. Got in last 1st day & sole a number of things -
we sent for the Directors, questioned & found them
guilty on 2nd day - They did not come to school - but
abused my children the next day so we arrested them -
The Father said he would not give bail -"let 'em go awhile
it will frighten 'em !!! - Ah - Parents set the example -


24.

He was very impudent to one of the directors - They
are a naughty set -. Poor little sinners. Their
parents are not fit to take care of them -.

29th Major Price wife & Jennie here all night his
first visit since his return from the army after an
absence of three years - A blessing some are spared -.

30th My children brought me some elegant flowers -
Charley Baird the most beautiful Passion Flower
I ever saw - It was elegant -. & I value their kindness -
It rained and we only had one session, yet I
did not get home till past 5 - so busy looking
over books and getting them in order - Ah -
School teachers spend much more time than
from 9 till 12, & 1 to 4-. many many a weary
hour -. This evening I wrote a long letter
to Anna the first since I got hers - and the
prayer book - dear girl! we know so well how
to sympathize with each other in every thing -.
We seem to grow nearer to each other, and I
hope neither will find any change -.
The carpenters here fixing the End of the house it leaked -


25.

October 1st 1864 - Here comes autumn, touching
nature with her delicate hand of beauty, even
the green things are greener for a while - & it is sad
to think how soon they will wither and decay.
I called to see Sarah Bunting - she gave me some
splendid flowers - oh - how I enjoy the beautiful
Lide went to Clifton & brought Sallie J. back -.

2nd Mother not so well - Sallie went to city as
she & Father leave to-morrow for "Aunt Sarah's" in
Susquhanah County - she to spend the winter.
Dull and rainy out -. I wrote to Edward Wilson.

3rd Sallie and Howard came out to see Mother. Father
pulled the last of our peaches and they put some
up elegantly -. I am so sorry all are gone through
we have enjoyed them very much. Letter from [?] -

4th Still dull & rainy. Sallie & son returned home -.

5th Mother not so well. The man from the farm, Mr
Tomlinson here brought some of the Principal. John came
up & took it to invest in Bonds. 7.30 save me the
trouble of going to town-. O, there is nothing like
having good honest friends you can trust with anything -


25.
[October] 1864

6th Mart Dodgson stay all night with us -. I was
busy all evening making out reports - nearly 50 -

7th Sweeping morning. I did all up stairs - dusted &
then came to school - but was very very tired - I am
afraid this constant employment at home & exceedingly
busy brain time will be too much for me long -.
I cannot do sewing of evenings - am so tired - & ache -.
Every since I began there has been unusual things
at home. Mother away or sick & Lyd cannot be
with us -. I knew when I took it this was so
& as I did it entirely of my own accord - will not
complain -; though it is harder for me to bear - as I
only know that all my hard work is given away -
given to him who has not proved worthy -.
But - only one month has passed and I must
not think of being discouraged -. I have funny
times - tied a boy, his mother came over in a great rage
& stormed at me -. I made no reply and she
soon cooled down - & tried to apologize - I
had to tie him again - & she dont care now -.
No scholar or parent shall ever see me angry -.


26.

8th Some elegant weather now -. Cousin Mary & Maryetta
here to dine -. In the afternoon Lide and I went over
to Buists had a good call & they gave us some most
elegant dahalia's -. John up in the eve -. We had talk -

9th Remained from Meeting to make out report for Directors
kept me nearly all day, Isaac Jackson dined with us
and T. Garrigues, brought some elegant dahalia's -.

10th I took Sadie's letter to Office -. Very busy time
in school all so naughty -. mischief is catching -.
Parents went to the city to stay all night -.

11th Children less noisy & I much less tired. Alice
Pearson called & wanted me to walk with her - I had
21 names told them I would keep them in next day &
then took a pleasant walk with her - it did me good.

12th I went to store bought some flower pots then was
busy till school time putting up plants for winter -
Cannot bear to see them die - They are so very beautiful.

13th Parents started on the long talked of visit to Hector's

14th John was up this eve awhile - Lide & I seemed a small family -

15th After school we called at Bairds - real nice time. Their
children left school to-day - I am real sorry as they move to [?]


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16th We had Institute - in the P.M. I called at Sills -
then a little while at Buntings. Rebecca here in the P.M.
After tea John took us to the "Penn Parlor Committee" at John
Sellers - about 80 there, Richardson recited several pieces.
It was a splendid moonlight night and we enjoyed it all.

17th Attended [Meeting]. John was up to tea - I was several hours suffering
with my feet. O. I cannot bear to look forward to
the coming winter knowing so well what I shall have to bear.

18th Parents came home from Hectors - we spent the eve at Purvis's
with Miss Smith - pleasant time tho I was tired -

19th Sarah & Ellie Child & Martha Anthony spent the day with
us - I am very busy in school.

20th The autumn leaves are gilded with rare magnificance -
& the warm pleasant sunshine makes the country lovely -.

21st At noon Mary took my school & went to the city
to see Dr Elliger - found he had not returned from Europe
so went next door to his son in law Dr Pearsol - he thinks
it is want of vitality in the circulation of the blood -.
Gave me two packages of medicine, I paid him
4 [dollars] it will last 7 weeks - I must be cured if possible
they are so much worse every year -. I went to Samuels found


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October. 1864.

quite a company & Amos Hillborn & his bride had a good
evening - 11 ladies & all were or had been teachers -.

22nd Came out in the first car. The afternoon being so lovely we
took the children walking they behaved very well in Darby -
we went the old route up the creek. Pretty soon some of the
first came crying a boy is in the water - it was only a little
way, but when I got there two girls had pulled him out -
It was well they had presence of mind, for he had been under, and
it was 10 feet deep - Poor child, was well frightened - he was only
5 years old - & too little to come to school - & then so heedless.
He was Miss Siplers pupil & she took him home - We
realized the danger & it marred our enjoyment constantly
fearing some of the rest would be in the same scrape -

23rd A good rainy day. I was busy recovering a bonnet for winter.

24th A beautiful, did not have a very good meeting called
to see E. Shel afterwards - I do not get to see her so often as one.

25th The beginning of another weeks work. We were annoyed
all day by factory boys - sent for directors. McSerrill &
the constable came up but the boys had disappeared -.

26th Made on a call on two fathers whose sons had misbehaved -
They were obliged & said they would punish them severely.


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27. A lovely autumn morning -. Found Aunt Rachel at home
also two of fathers friends to dine -. In the eve - Major
Price came - just from Baltimore - Been looking for him -

28th Lide went to the city with him - came home in the P.M.

29th We had Institute - In the P.M. called at E. Steel's - Lyd &
Howard came out -. I up a little while - sisters sick.

30th Went to Meeting took Howard - Josiah Bond was there.
In the afternoon - Parents and I took tea at Uncle Williams.
Mary and her husband were there - they seem happy and
I sincerely hope it may prove a true congenial marriage -.

31st I had five new scholars, factory boys and some quite
large. they seem to think they can do as they please -
I had to be very strict with them for they set such a bad
example - I punished one severely & it quieted him down -.
When I went home found a good many Quarterly [Meeting]
friends -. Hall Price came back and spent the P.M.
with me - afterwards Aunt Jane came and we had a
long talk about E's. 3 - I am more tired than
usual because my school was large and the boys
unruly - Hall & I sit in the other room most of
the evening - where I could lie down on the sofa -


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November 1st 1864. I was in school till [quarter] past 10 then
Mary took charge and I went over to [Meeting] found
Dr. Truman speaking - and it was a beautiful sermon
so full of truth and purity - the "daily bread" which we
need - Several others spoke but his will do me most good.
Afterwards we had over 30 to dine and set the example
of doing without desert - it is so much less trouble & expense.

2nd Again in School - & much troubled with a big, bad boy -

3rd Many of the children staid away to see the degation that
was going to the [Republican Meeting] at Chester. So we took all the rest
down were gone about a hour - it was pretty 60 horseman -
band of music etc. - I had a letter from L. Johnson with a
real pretty collar in - Lide had one also -. Letter from Edward -.

4th Stormy at noon I only had one session. Mrs White &
Serrill were here - I was very hoarse - We have talked
them into paying us. What we first expected - me 300 a year.

5th Last night I was afraid of illness - I lay down all eve
had high fever & my head almost burning & sore throat -.
Thankful indeed I am that this morning I am no worse -
but much better -. called to see sick folks -. Annie, Mary
Hillborn & Anne Blakely came out -.


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6th We walked to Sharon - my first time since the
Catholics moved there - it brought back many memories
and I felt it was now desicrated by a bigoted, narrow
minded set -. So different from dear Uncle John
We had a nice visit from the girls they left this
P.M. I was busy writing to EW & to E. Willets not to vote -
it worries me because he is democratic - so good to -

7th Very rainy only had one session. Major Price
was with all night on his way from the funeral of Captain
Hawkins - He died from a wound received one day before
his 3 years time expired. Left a wife & 4 children -

8th of November 1864 How anxiously we wait this days
results it's [a] Presidental Election -. Many a heart has
prayed to-day for the re-election of Abraham Lincoln. It
is dreadful to think of any other result -. Alice W was out -

9th Father took Lizzie and I to Darby Road and we went to
Media to attend the Teachers Institute - We took a room
at the Charter House ate dinner then went to the
Court House -. It was so very rainy, the attendance was not so
large as usual. There was an interesting discussion on "Whether
the Semi Monthly District Institutes were beneficial -


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10th Another very rainy morning -. But cleared off by noon &
the Sun came out beautifully - I was so glad for at one my
cousin Ellie Satterthwait becomes the wife of Philip Price. It
seems like a strange match, with 18 years difference - but they
have been acquainted long enough and only they can know whether
it is a true marriage -. A small wedding, they got to Susquahana
[County] to his aunt Sarah's. We had some interesting times
to day Mr Apgar made the subject of Geography very interesting.
his system of drawing mamps is most excellent -. In the eve
J. Shortledge Principal of Concordville Seminary delivered
quite an interesting lecture in Chemistry. Afterwards about
25 of us went to Miss Sue Pierce's and we had a real gay
lively time til nearly 12. After we returned to the Charter House, we
had several good laughs, as some of the gentleman had not
engaged rooms & could find no place to sleep. They packed
two in single beds, & as we could hear the conversations were amused.

11th I went to the Depot then called on Mrs Bromwell had
a pleasant time then went to the Court House - Morning
session was interesting -. After I went to Miss Pierce school
house & at [half] past 2 took cars for home - on reaching Darby
Road, walked on as the carriage was not there. Reached home



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safely & found Parents had gone to Westchester -. Phebe
Bartram came & staid all night, though I was away -.

12th Called to see my poor sick friend E. Steel -

13th Attended [Meeting], wrote letters in the P.M. till John came -

14th Found one of my nicest children absent, sick. I was
going to see her after school but at noon, found she was
dead -. Poor dear child, she was so lovely & a great favorite
only found-days illness, scarlet fever. I can scarcely believe
her bright young face will never meet me again -
She was an only daughter - the other having died as
suddenly while attending here two years ago. I want
very much to go to see her, but on account of the rest
I will not do so - though it is a great trial to me -.
Lide spent the eve at Smiths. I was alone -

15th This P.M. sweet Georgianna Lincoln will be
consigned to her last resting place -. My heart aches
for her bereaved parents -. She was such a lovely child.
Parents came home from Chester County -.

16th A lovely day - I have two young men in school -
one Henry Clay [Colored] Contraband - the other William
Dougherty been 3 years in the War - both good & studious -


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17th Lide went to city yesterday now family is quite small.
John came up in the eve to bring a note from her.

18th Eph & Han took tea with us last eve - nice visit Maryetta
was up and remained all night. I had letter from E. Willets
and find we are just as far apart in politics as ever but
he is so sincere - and I know him to be a christian.
Our folks were away and I was alone all the P.M.

19th A dull rainy sabbath. I went to [Meeting] but my
feet were so dead I had to rub them a long while -

21th A very rainy day yet I had 45 scholars & was very
busy -. Hector Ivins spent the night with us - I read in
to-days Press the opening ceremonies of the Cathedral of St Peter
& St Paul -. 18 years being builded - It must have been solemn
& imposing - but differs widely from our religion -

22nd Aunt Esther here all night -.

23rd John was up & I gave him 350 [dollars] to invest in 7.30 loan
for me - [Cousin] Pierce, had part of it. He took up Lide also -

24th Thanksgiving - even amid all the desolations of this
War we find time and need of thanks -.
Samuels were out & I spent the day busy sewing -
In the eve wrote a short hasty note to Anna.


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[November] 1864.

25 In school again - Had Howard all morning.

26th Attended Institute, afterwards I went to city -
did some shopping then went to see Dr Pearsol -
He thinks mine a very peculiar case. I then went to
Sallie's and staid all night - Alice & Sallie H at Darby awhile -

27th We all went to Race [Street] and had a splendid
sermon from Dr Truman - surely he is inspired - Told us
that Jesus came to proclaim the immortality of the soul, to teach us
to look upon God as our Father -. Also that, the soul when standing
on its throne of peace & purity & christian goodness was higher than
altars - higher than temples, churches, or Cathedrals - After all
this good - eight of us went to the Great Cathedral at 18th & Race
where were about 2500. The music was grand, but the pomp & parade
of priests was sickening to me & so different from Dr Trumans gospel words.

28th Came home & to school -. Sallie Cleaver paid me her
first visit - was at school - all P.M. we had a grand time.

29th Ma & Sallie went to city: former staid all night .

30th Lide went to pay her long talked of visit to
Chester County -. Lizzie Y & I drove to [Cousin] E. she
staid with me all night & had just 50 -
A letter from dear Anna Webster. She passed the Examnation.


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December 1st 1864. A lovely day and we
took the children walking as we passed our house
saw Hall Price & Dave Satterthwait so they went
with us - a real nice visit from them- .

2nd Warm and rainy towards night -.

3rd Cloudy all day toward eve the western sky was red and beautiful
I went up to see Sarah Bunting a little while. In the evening
made out my Monthly Report - John was up, he is good and
true and faithful to me - as of old-, it would be strange if I
loved him less - Anna had again gone to teaching, and I am
so anxious to know how she is getting along -. Dear girl -.

4th I did not go to [Meeting] having so much to do - in the P.M.
Warner was out. I called at Sills - T. Bartram spent eve here -.

5th I took letter for Annas Willets & Webster and Edward Wilson
a heavy white frost but the sun shines warm for winter.

6th Very foggy all day - our folks spent the eve at Pusey's
Yesterday after school I walked up [one quarter] mile to see Georgianna
Lincolns mother - poor woman she seems heart broken, has burried
7 children - Georgie was only sick 3 days & a half but suffered
extremely, then passed quickly away - she was filled for an
angel so pure & lovely -. I did not get home till after dark -


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7th Still cloudy & dull -. I was tired having been ironing & [?]

8th Parents took tea at Aunt Esther's - Letters from Lide & [?]

9th Quite cold - one of my [?] is nearly dead most of the time -
At noon I went to see the Fathers of two of my boys -. I had
never before to complain, & since there had been so much
improvement, I wanted to tell them -. When I said I had
come to speak of the boys at each house - the Parents face
expressed intense fear & glares passed around - but when I
said it was for good - oh! how changed -. It well paid
me for my walk -. tho' so cold - Our folks at [Cousin] E.

10th We had Institute at our house - as the ground was covered
with snow the first of the season -. I was in Darby awhile -
Lyd and Howard came out, her friend Jeannie was not
able to accompany them - she is very delicate.

11th Rainy so we did not go [Meeting]. very unpleasant all day -

12th Although very snow and cold - I had 39 pupils - some of the
poor little things ought to have staid at home - but they would come.
Lyd & Howard went on -. John came up in the evening -.

13th Still cold -. Pattie Horn died on 1st day evening -

14th Wet & slushy - When I went to school at noon


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[December] 1864.

found Mr McCracken the County Superintendent -.
He went up in my room & remained an hour & a half -.
My children were very good & he seemed satisfied - Said
he would take Mr Dean's certificate & transfer the numbers
for me - if I would send it to him. We took the children
down to sing -. I am glad I did not know he was coming.

15th The Blind man came & taught them one piece -
The Vacant Chair - children brought the money -

16th Snow like & cloudy. Mother went to city all night. J &
I were to have gone to Kingsessing but it stormed, he was up.

17th I hurried through my work and was very tired not feeling
exactly well - Ma came home -. I had a letter from Dr & medicine.

18th [Cousin] C. Pierce came, had a very interesting day with him.

19th Cloudy & wet - I very hoarse. I am again reading Compensation
find some true and beautiful thoughts in it - yes, there is
compensation for all those who strive earnestly to do their best -.
Marie found it at last - but it was sufficiently to satisfy her -
and even Fanny found the vacant place in her heart filled,
even by one she disliked, so it is sorrow - and suffering brings
out the great depth of such a nature as Tante Octavis, it
reaches down and raises to the outward the pure & true -.


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20th I had a long letter from Brother, it was affectionate
and kind, yet he says he cannot accept my earnings -
I wish he would - I had made up my mind to help
him in this way, and can now do it cheerfully - It was
hard at first to bring my mind to this - but I did it and
now want to continue in my resolutions - to devote my life to him.
Mother knows I got a letter & wants to see it - I do not want
her or any of the rest to know I offered him this - but
there are some things in it to comfort her - & I will let her
read it -. O. I wish he would accept my gifts so
that S might be paid off -. I want justice done -.

21st Snowing very hard - I went to school - but soon became
so hoarse, Lizzie & Mary took the children & I came
home took Homeopathic medicine every [half] hour and was
very much better by night - Mother not well either -

22nd Triming up my room with Evergreens for Christmas -

23rd Letter from Edward with his photo - not very good -
I closed school till after New Years - The children were
not very glad some said they would just as leave
come - I felt glad to have a rest for a little while -
though I like teaching very much - & get along well -


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24th Samuels' came out - Lyd went to New York yesterday
to spend some time with Aunt E. Lide is still in Chester [County]
I called to see E. Steel - & got some toys for the children
after they were in bed we fixed the stockings, put
a steam engine in one for Howard - his mama bought -

25th This a lovely, beautiful Christmas, I did not go to
[Meeting] but wrote to UU.EM.ARE. and Sadie - wishing
the former & HH the compliments of the season -
In the P.M. they went to Ash's - John was up &
brought me "Algers History of the Doctrine of a
Future Life" - He got it much cheaper than I
for 2.62 [dollars]. I am going to give it to Cousin Cyrus
from Lide & me - I have always wanted to make
him a present for his kindly guardianship over
us -. He will like this it is so good & true -.
This hardly seems like Christmas - a year ago
I was at Bayside & received handsome gifts -

26th Samuels went to Woodland Terrace to dine at
H. Christians, had a splendid time and dinner.

27th They went home -. dull day weather - letter
from Superintendent with Certificate -.


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28th Still no sunshine , it would cheer us up so - I am not
very happy these Holidays, yet scarcely know why - it may
be the dull weather - I hope it is no foreshadowing of ill -
Mother went to sew for the Contrabands. I was finishing
my cloth saque, made of father's overcoat body - & bound with blue.

29th I spent some time with E. Steel in the P.M. went to the city -
did some shopping called on Mary Clothier, then to Dr &
on to Samuels, found Lidi there and son - Cousins Phil, Ellie, Jennie
and Lizzie came, so we had a real nice time together. Allie over.

30th - The first lovely day, I spent the A.M. in Race [Street] School -
in the eve Prices etc. went to the Academy to hear Forest.

31st - Very snowy, Sallie & I went down town -. I hated to leave
but was afraid to trust to 2nd day morn so started home
about 4. it was snowing & I was a long while getting to
Darby Road but was very very glad to see John there,
we waited nearly an hour, the car was crowded - but we
managed to get along, somehow - He came up with me -
It was well he was there - I always feel safe when
he is about and I know he will take good care of me
always -. The last day of 1864 -.


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Eighten Hundred
and
Sixty Five

January 1st First of the year, month and week it has come white
with purity, bearing to each an unwritten volume, on
whose spotless pages each must trace eternal records.
May our Country write peace on hers before its close.
It was so cold I did not go to [Meeting] -. Yet the day was
filled with thinking -. I was up in the eve awhile -

2nd Again in school after a weeks Holiday. Jennie S. came
out to see us -. A letter from Cousin Cyrus, thanking
for the New Years gift -. I sent him Algers History
of the Doctrine of a Future Life -. I know he will like it.

3rd L. & L. spent day at Aunt E. in the eve we went skating
with John - it snowed before we returned -.

4th Very cold -. I had Lizzie's pupils yesterday, because
Rebecca Bunting was ill -. she died at [half] past 11 - only
a few days sickness - & it only seemed a cold -. So it
is death seems ever ready & waiting -.


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5th Clear and cold. Jennie left us for home. Lide and I went to
the Town to hear a Lecture which did not come off -. will next
week, got home and found Morton Morris & H. Ogden
had been to see us -. I was sorry for Lide's sake -.
John came up and read to us some beautiful poetry
afterwards gave me the book. It is Drifted Snow
Flake, compiled and just published by Mrs J.
Hamilton -. It did me so much good, and I
think I never saw a book with such exquisite
pieces in -. so ful of elegant thoughts -. I am very grateful
to him - tho I did not express muech then - my heart
was too full - it had been suffering all day for B sake.

6th I had letter this week from Sadie and Anna -.

7th Very stormy indeed, much wind and snow -

8th I did not go [Meeting] -. In the P.M. read to E. Steel -
I quite return the old ladys love - she is always so glad
to see me - and the other day gave me a very handsome
Peacock feather fly brush - never been used is splendid.

9th I am suffering a good deal with my feet -.

10th Rainy & wet all days - 4 [?] [?] [?] -.


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1865.

11th Quite cold & windy. Last evening Lide & I went to the
Town Hall and heard a most thrillingly interesting lecture
from [Captain] Calhoun. He is a Kentuckian was travelling in
Texas when the War broke out and not knowing much of politics
expected to join the South, till arriving at Memphis they saw
the Starry Flag torn down & trampled in the dust, from that
moment they resolved to fight for it or die - At Lookout
Mountain he was captured - badly wounded, and after
many weeks of suffering traveling was put in Libby
Prison Richmond - The sufferings were terrible, and hundreds
died, at last after 54 nights of continued labor they
constructed a tunnel and many escaped - but a number
were retaken - himself had arrived to what they hoped
was our guards, but on going nearer the limit [?] and
they were recaptured. 11 more months passed & he had
suffered with gangrene & pneumonia - when they
were exchanged of the 413 of our men - only 37 could
walk off, the rest carried on stretchers - for them 500
fat, hearty rebels again went to rebeldom -.


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12th Parents went to [Cousin] E. Father sprained his foot quite
badly -. I was up in the eve I wanted much talk
him alone, but Mother had to read the paper through
so I said nothing - Yet when all were in bed my heart was so
sad that it wept many tears - I was better then.

13 [?] went to city & get [?] & see [Doctor] -. I had charge of Lizzies
school as she was attending a funeral - It made me tired.
In the evening J & we went to Verlandens - had a real pleasant call -.

14th of January 1865. In the afternoon we called at Sills - in the evening
Oh! it needs no record here - the trust, the confidence, the good
the nobleness so rarely found in human nature is indellibly impressed
on my mind and heart - Never, never in all my life
can it be forgotten - Not one word can be effaced, the beauty
and truthfulness - the fidelity manifested must be and will
be unchanged - Another link, that binds with eternal strengths.

15th I was writing and reading nearly all day. Will Bartram
and his father spent the eve with us. Will is just the same.

16th Mother went to city - In the eve we again went to
hear Captain Calhoun repeat his lecture. The house was
full, along the band from the Summit House -.


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1865.

17th I called to see E. Steel - In the eve J. was up -

18th Lide is getting the mumps she must have caught
them in Chester [County] but thought she would not have them.

19th Mother went to the city again - My school is large now.

20th The end of another weeks work -. I am glad - yet
I do not murmur because of these tasks -. The
weather has been very cold for a few days snow last eve.

21st [?] standing it snowed fast I ventured to call on
Thomas Powel's bride found her absent so stopped to see [?]
Bunting who has been sick for a week -. Ma got new teeth.

22nd Did not feel able to go to [Meeting] - Fall Price & Dave
came to dine soon after Haines - they staid till evening.

23rd Quite wet & rainy all day. John up and invited us to go
to George W. Curtis's lecture to-morrow night at Concert Hall -

24th Cold and windy at [half] past 5 Lide and I started in the car
found John waiting at the depot for us - then all to the lecture where
he had secured reserved seats. Saw Sam & Sallie awhile, then
listened to the eloquent words of Curtis. His subject was
Political Infidelity and he mastered the [?] - drawing
the comparison between some of our great men who had proved
unfaithful to the principles of our country - John C. Calhoun


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and old John Brown were the two greatest fanatics in
history, one on his last moments had shown to enslave
millions, the other condemned as a criminal and hung
on the scaffold, had stooped on his way to death
and picked up one of the degraded ones and kissed her -
then describing them now wound up with their bodies lie
mouldering in the grave whose soul is marching on?
Many other beautiful sentences were given in his sweet
winning voice - and we greatly enjoyed it - Came home
the [quarter] past 10 and got her [half] past 11 at [?] now -

25th A long spell of cold weather - Ma at Contraband [Meeting] -

26th I was suffering very much with my feet - the
last package from Dr Pearsol has not relieved me - I
had a nervous chill, teeth chattering for an hour &
Mother and Lide rubbing me a great deal - then
entire exhaustion, my spine & head ache or -

27th So much trouble and pain with my feet I had
to close school and go home - another heavy chill & had
to lie down all the evening - so weak afterwards -

28th Very cold mercury at 3. yet I went to the city
at 7 oclock - kept warm till I got out & 7th & Market -


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then went to Dr Child & told him about my feet - He
looked at them & said it was want of circulation, (Dr Pearsols
words) that going to Savannah would cure me - I went to
the Druggist and got the prescription filled out then
did a little shopping, had my ring made smaller &
then went up to Samuels - remained there till [half] past 11
then came on home - It had moderated a great deal.

29th I was busy making out my monthly reports
then went & read to E. Steel & wrote letter for her. T.
Child out in the P.M. Many is very poorly indeed.

30th A pleasant morning. Lide took Parents to the
car on their way to Concord Quarter - We were busy
all evening making patches for the Soldier quilt.

31st Lide went to Smiths, shut up house - consequently some
one came - Joseph Kenderdines son - to invite to Uncle
Isaac Wrights son funeral - died very suddenly -. The young
man came up to my school - Towards eve our folks came.
Great news - The House have passed resolutions
to amend the constitution - and abolish slavery
for ever -. This is the good from the War.


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1865. [February] First.. All day I well remembered that a
new year was beginning with me, twenty six of mine
have passed - done with the eternal -. And at the birth
of each new one, resolutions are formed and promises
made - This will be particularly memorable for - I received
a sweet poem written by my dearest friend - one that
does not forget these dates concerning me - Ah! there
was more than this, there was that renewal of perfect faith
and trust which binds with stronger ties a friendship
that increases with time and grows higher as we near
to Heaven - even there will be undimmed - because founded
on purity and unselfishness. kind words & thoughts are mine -

2nd When I went home to dine found Cousin Phil Price
his bride and Lizzie - The married ones are very happy.

3rd The young folks went to [Cousin] E. & Uncle Williams to tea
Parents went to the city to attend funeral of Uncle Isaac Wrights
son David Henry - died suddenly and left a wife
not 23. with two children - poor thing how sad it is -
she was unable to shed a tear -. He was found insensible
and never came to - not even for the last word -
Was on business with his father & doing so well -


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4th Ellie & her husband went home -. Thirteen years ago
our beloved Father passed to his higher life - would
that the mantle of his christian life could be left for
some of us who so much need it -. and that we may
be as ready and willing for the time as he was -. I
have no fear of the coming change -. For in my own mind
I am aware that only a slight chain binds me to earth
which at any time may be snapped by circumstances -.
An inward vital weakness which I often feel - yet - if it is
not severed by sudden shock I may live on well for
years -. I hope - an examination after death may show the cause.

5th We did not go to [Meeting] Mother & Susan
Hibberd went to see E. Steel & we girls took tea at [Uncle] Williams

6th We had many visitors at School to see the Quilt we
have just finished for the Soldiers. Pupils bringing a
patch - and we marking them with names & sentences -.
I made several put on one "This quilt is especially for Soldiers
not commissioned officers." I also made a Flag and
put inscriptions on it - "Our Flag the first man that
insults it shoot him down" - & etc. -. Lide made a sheld
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made this a Shield for all Nations" etc. etc. I put
references from the Bible [Galations] 6 [chapter] 9 verse - 5 [chapter] 1 verse Matthew
25 [chapter 34d to 40 [Matthew] 5 [chapter] 16 verse - [Ecclesiastes] 9 [chapter] 10 verse - 12 [chapter] 13 & 14.
Poor fellows it may give them something to do -. Alice
Pearson & her school were here besides many others -

7th Parents went to [Quarterly Meeting] - Pa returned very snowy -.
Letters from Lyd & Saide - Lyd is in Brooklyn with her -
Poor Edward Murray starved to death in a Rebel Prison -
He was a Copperhead - Better he than some others -
thought I guess he found his friends ill treated here :
I hope he saw the error of his ways and repented -

8th The girls are spending the time reading, me at school.
It is very bad under foot - and many stay away -

9th John was up and about 9 we went round to
Morgans pond - were were many skaters -. Unfortunately
Lizzie got her feet wet just as we got there and I
came home with her fearing she would take cold -
Answered Mr McCracken's letter about the clergy women

10th Mother went to the Home & the girls down to Christian - J. came
& brought skates for me on the ice, but the girsls were too
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11th I had expected to have gone to city, but was awake so
much with sad sorrowing thoughts gave it out - Lizzie
started in at 10 - soon after Cousin Oliver Wilson & his
wife came - their first visit & we enjoyed it so much
tho they returned at the P.M. After tea I called
at Sarah B's & just reached home when Cousin Will
Schofield came - He is one of the nicest folks -

12th The greatest snow storm of the season continuing
all day - We had a quiet easy time in the house -.

13th Will started for city & I waded through banks
of 9 foot to reach school - (M was not there & I only
had 10 - boys made a path all the way home for me -

14th Received by mail today three of Brook's Arithmetic and two
Keys - with the Complements of W.S.S. Wrote to him.

15th It has been raining snowing and hailing all day
Yet John came up to bring us our interest on our 7.30 loans,
as we had asked him to collect it - Kind soul that he
is and kinder to me than all - Because no matter how I act
he always is just the same, willing to make reparation -.
We are not going to hear Anna Dickenson she has been spoiled
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16th Much warmer & the snow melting fast - making it
very bad underfoot - I found E. Steel very poorly indeed -

17th A lovely warm morning overhead. We expect Lyd
will leave Bayside to-day for Philadelphia -. I had
letters from Anna Willets - and wrote to Sadie -.

18th Splendid day. Samuels came out & Lyd with them she
looks fatter and is better than before she went away
Eight weeks ago. Harry grows and can say some words.
O the sweet innocence of children ! it is indeed beautiful

19th Instead of going to [Meeting] I went to see E. Steel
poor woman she is suffering dreadfully - and as I saw
the multilated form which is a slow death of agony
my inmost soul prayed that she might be released
if it were Gods will & he would spare me from ever seeing
such agony - almost any death is preferable to this.
All of we young folks went to Verlendens to tea & had
a real pleasant time, she is so nicely fixed -. J was
here in the evening and waited on us home.

20th A lovely day our head and my school is quite filled
up again near forty -.


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21st News came to-day of our possession of Charlestown
once again the Stary flag waves over the city -. I could
almost wish they would burn everything but the staff
where it hangs. Not one remnant should be left, for
there in that den of traitors - Secession first breathed &
they who strengthened and supported it should meet
with the same fate - The arms of our great Generals seem
to be reaching round the traitorous foe and will no doubt in
the end conquer -. though I fear we must yet suffer
much for they are strong in spirit & wicked indeed.

22nd Being Washingtons birthday and a lovely afternoon
we took the children walking, did not go off the planks.
I came up in the evening and staid quite late - we were not alone.
Lide was busy reading & I would not ask her to stop.

23rd A dull wet day -. Mary Hazelhurst was married in
Church - we intended going over but it rained too hard.
Just as we were done tea Isaiah came -. I knew it
might be his last visit so soon after parents retired I did.
He and Dr have bought a farm way down in Maryland
near Leonard's Town - expect to move in April -
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24th Father and Isaiah went to the city together -.
I came up in the to bring a Book Will S. got for me -
School Economy by Wickersham. Lide was sleepy [?]
Well - there is no use in putting anything down here for
I cannot say a word of the sweet confidence placed in me -.
I believe after all it is because I am so fully trusted
and yet every thing not belonging to me is held so sacred -
There is great freedom of thought & sentiment but such sacredness
that it is like a halo of purity around our words -.

25th I went to town at 7. spent more than hour with Dr
Truman - He gave me medicine for my feet & then
was so interesting showing me his drawings - So kind -
I did some shopping - got [?] Snow Flakes for Sallie
& Lyd went up there to dine - It rained in the P.M.

26th Attended Race [Street] & was so disappointed not to
hear Dr Truman - Sam Levick spouted on nothing.
Soon after dinner - we went to George Hancocks - their
little Harry is lovely and beautiful - Sarah James
was down & we had such a nice time - I
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27th I left for the 7 oclock car & reached home at 8 -
all vacernated -. then right in School again. Busy at my report.

28th Poor E. Steel is very low - I went at noon and she took
me up stairs and gave me a dress of hers - the material
is beautiful madonna - but will need some altering.

March 1st 1865. A spring like day threatening storm -
Mother went to town to see Brother - her heart and mine ache
often - & for her I grieve - I must help him more although
he refused my pecuniary offers - I would not let him return
what I sent tho' it pains me he does not pay S. I
sent enough to cancel the small debt & want it done.

2nd About noon began to rain unfortunate for those attending
John Andrews sale which is to-day -. I took Clara Esrey
home with me it was so stormy -. Called to see E. Steel.

3rd A real rainy morning and my school was very small
only 16 and we had but one session. J. up in eve -.

4th of March -. Rainy so I did not go city -. About
12 the sun came out and that time our Re-elected
President Abraham Lincoln, again took his oath to
faithfully perform his duty to the Government -.
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5th A Beautiful Sabbath -. While I was writing to
Anna - in came John Bunting and David Maule Esq.
We had quite an agreeable call from them -.
J. brought me "Looking Towards Sunset - by L. M.
Child - my New Years gift to Mother - but the
first Edition was sold & he had to wait for this -
I gave it her & then went down to E. Steel. found
she was alone -. The Woman gone to city - I went
home and told the folks, then returned and
spent the night with her -. She was very weak
and I would not have been surprised if death
had summoned her any moment - yet I was not
fearful I knew that if that hour should come
He in whom I so trust would be with us, and give
me strength -. I rose in the night & found her
quietly sleeping -, then went back to my own room -
It is a strange mystery - this nearness of death to life.

6th The President Inaugural Address is short but
full of beauty and truth - deep - deep & so good -.
J called to leave note from Sallie and one for me -.

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7th This eve we had fixed to go to Biddles & although
it was beautiful all day it rained at [half] past 4.
I was suffering much with a pain in the back of my
neck was lying down most of the evening - was up and
the little Opera difference was settled -. there is solemn
& noble in a friendship that is unselfish and can make
sacrifices -. this the 7th of March - can not be forgotten because
a faith, and trust was made stronger and must endure as
"long as we both live" -. It is a sweet thing to feel that angels
can gaze on this intimacy and not disapprove -.

8th Rainy and wet -. I to see E. Steel - There is
much Small pox in and about Darby - but I am
not afraid though we use many precautions -.

9th Real March weather so windy & rough - Lide

10th was at School & I took all through Gymnastics.

11th I went to town in the 7 oclock car to see Dr Herman found
him in - got one powder - paid a dollar -. then did a little shopping
bought cashmere for Howard and a piece book for Lide - 1.25. then
went to Samuel's soon after Aunt Jane came in and surprised us -. In
the P.M. I went out to Jone's to tea had a real nice time - John
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12th A beautiful 1st day, the sunshine is elegant
I went to see Pattie Bunting and E. Steel - our folks
spent the evening at John Bartrams I finished
"Victoria, or The world overcome" - A tale of witchcraft -
It was dreadful to think how the innocent became
victims to such dreadful deaths - Maud Sollinstall -.

13th Aunt Jane Price came out - they went to [Cousin] Ephraims.

14th They took tea at Uncle Williams - We were to have
gone to Biddles - J. came up, but Lide had a head-ache
so we did not go - I was all dressed, but did not care
much -. He read to us in Algers' book -. She fainted -

15th They went to Aunt Esthers - she was away, they were at
my school in the afternoon - I was very tired all eve -.

16th I am scarcely rested yet - the warm weather & winter

17th clothes - make me feel so weak. Ben came out and
we had quite a nice visit - Lyd & Howard went in -
Brother also -. and Lide, John and I paid the long talked
of visit at Biddles -. had a real pleasant time -

18th Aunt Jane went home yesterday -. We had
Institute - I mended books and was very tired - took
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Took tea at Doctors - John called for me and we went
to a Soiree at The Academy of Music - I enjoyed it
very very much. such beautiful music -. He then went
with me up to Samuels - where I staid all night -.
as he did not think it fit for a lady to ride in these late cars.

19th Sallie and I went to 18th and Walnut [Street]. Phillips
Brooks's Episcopal Church - It was the most liberal
sermon I ever heard from a clergy man - but the forms
were needless, for me - for true worship . In the eve
we heard Joseph Dugdale - I like Dr. Truman best.

20th -- I came home in the 7 oclock car - & in school -.

21st J. Dugdale was at our Monthly [Meeting] and in the P.
M. they came to my school and he spoke beautifully
to the children - Then we took them walking -.
"Rettie" Bannister came to tea we had expected Lizzie
Biddle, but she was disappointed I was so sorry. Mr
Elliot came in the eve - and we had a nice visit - It
rained so Mrs B. staid all night. Her narrative of
[Captain] Grangers escape was so interesting - He spent many
months in Rebel prisons then escaped - and never would
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guided them, poor fellows, they were nearly starved, when
our gunboats picked them up -; one place a colored
woman hid them under the bed, & her young children
threw the roasted potatoes to them -. They were near
being captured several times - Had been when trying to
escape before. He came home a strong abolitionist.

22nd J. & Ruth & Pa & Ma went in to Monthly Meeting. Mrs. B.
and Lide came to my school & I took the children through
Gymnastics. She staid to dinner - I like her - so fascinating.
Yesterday - I had a letter from B. saying he would accept
the money - but requesting me not to dictate how it was
to be used -. O. the agony & disappointment of my heart
were almost unbearable - for I had fondly hoped this
might help release my dear Mother from her many burdens -
But I will try to bear - still hoping that as God has
strengthed me He will still be my stay - and in him
must be my trust, if I am worthy he will remove this
cup from me -; till then I will strive to bear meekly -
Mrs. Bannister came to tea - & Mr Elliot in the evening. I
was sorry Lizzie Beadle was disappointed she has never been.
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22nd Folks all went to city so "Rettie" spent the day with
Lide, called at my School awhile - She is so nice -

23rd I am still lame having sprained my heel - I wonder
why people confide in me so trustingly - to-day Mary
came in & just opened her heart to me -. I knew she had
often said things by which I could have drawn her confidence -
but never did - now she seeks my sympathy
and advice - I, I hope may lead & give it to her right -
I know she will learn to trust & lean on me - & I
feel the responsibility of accepting such a friendship.

24th Last eve J. helped me make out my reports.
Parents went to the Home the P.M. as J. Dugdale was there.

25th Parents went to [Cousin] Ephraims. Lide sent note out by John.

26th I wrote to Anna Webster. I do so much want a letter from
here. John Kesters dined here. I went and read to E. Steel.

27th Took letters to office -. Aunt Esther spent the day here -.
J. came up to bring note from Lide. Not during April -.

28th Went to see E. Steel - she seems quite smart, walked up to the
grave yard yesterday expects to move next week.

29th Sent in the material of my madonna dress for [?] by Express.

30th E. Steel gave me a nice little low chair. J. helped me make out reports -
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31st - A wet rainy day - the last of March -. Well
during the month of April - we wait in patience -.
I had but one session it stormed so -

April 1st 1865. Spent Institute in getting cinders out of
stoves - I rode with Father to Kinsessing - then to E. Steels -
The April promise is faithfully kept - always governed --.
John came to bring a packaage from Lide. My [yard] of muslin.

2nd I went to [Meeting], the first time since Christmas on
account of my feet, an Englishman spoke well -.
Parents went to [Crossed out: Daniel] Humphreys Brooks funeral -
It was such a lovely day I walked up to Phebe
Bartrams Lide was there staid to tea - J. & Phebe came
home with me and we spent the eve at D.S. White -

3rd Mother went early to the city. In the afternoon
heard the Town Hall bell ringing, and sent down to know
the cause - word came that Richmond was taken -. It
is almost impossible to believe it, and although in the
silence of my own heart I uttered prayers of thanksgiving -
I had the children show their joy by patriotic songs.
At [quarter] past eight this morning [General] Whitall and the [colored]
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feelings of our prisoners, after such suffering -. Every
where there is rejoicing and excitement, Business
stopped, cannons fired, bells rung, & everything to tell
of this great victory - Yet many a poor soldier has
fallen - many homes will be made desolate.
I have still another reason to remember this the third
of April 1865. Nothing can ever blot it out - Two
hours of agony, and yet there were some sweet memories
only the third of April - how little we see into the
future - sickness comes unbidden -. What a wonderful
thing is human will, before which all else bows.
Eleven - that fatal number. That two hours of sleep -
no wonder the brain needed rest -. We often think, we
will remember things, and time sweeps them away, but
this never never can be erased -. I wish it could, all except
the silent vows - they must and will be kept - deep [?] angry [?]

3rd 4th I went down to bid E. S. farewell, as she moves
to Walters in Chester County - How strange that
she has lived this long -. I will quite miss her
for it taught me patience & did her good for us to be
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Darby again - No doubt will miss her many friends here -

4th Lyd & Howard came out with Mother from Town -.
Soon after my school called the Superintendent
J.W. McCracken came - I did not mind him at
all & the children were as well as usual - they sang for him.
I have been living in another world all day - every
things seems strange - not real - only a dream - a dream in a
never forgotten sleep - will this haunt me for long -.

5th Petersburg is ours captured the same day as Richmond.
O. how many thankful and rejoicing hearts at these
successes - It seems like a beginning to the end -

6th Cleaning house - Mart D. to dine. I wrote to Anna [?]
not having heard from her for a long while -.

7th Rainy afternoon the last of a wearisome week -
wearisome because on my mind made me sick -
real sick, the vitality seemed crushed out of me.
I went to see Daniel Doughertys father, and he says the boy
shall come to school -. I guess he will do more than
the mother -. Made several other calls, tho' it rained -
I wrote a letter to relieve my mind - for I have
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8th Cleaning house. Had a letter from Aunt Jane, saying
she had seen E. Steel, was nicely fixed & quite comfortable.
John came up in the evening -. I was sad. Scarcely able to
keep up, the sickness overwhelmed me -. He is ever
thoughtful of my feelings. On 3rd day was quite sick &
started home, but seeing Mother & Lyd on the car, got off &
waited for the next one, fearing they would come & tell me & I
would be worried -. Now this was kind - very kind.

9th I was not well - Uncle Isacc's to dine and tea - I
wrote a long letter lying on Lide's bed - Think of me.

10th Notwithstanding the rain I went to Post Office
and there heard the glorious news that Lee had surrendered
to Grant -. How it thrills every heart, the news
reached [Philadelphia] at 9 last night, thousands turned out,
bon fires lighted, bells run & engines whistled, such an
overflowing of joy & thankfulness in peoples hearts.
They men ran through Darby in the night shouting
the news ringing bells etc. -. It seems too much to
believe -, I allowed my children to sing for [half] an
hour & every heart throbs with the hope of the War
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11th The demonstrations of joy are every where seen,
in the cities, it is still kept up, business places
closed - and all kinds of excitement going on -
We go on with our duties, and mine have been
very trying for a few days. My bad boy D. Dougherty
has ran off or not come nearly every day - I see his
father & he beats dreadfully but it does no good.

12th Long letter from Sadie, with an invitation to the last
Sociable - at Dodworth's [?] 137 Montague [Street] Brooklyn.
It was quite a fancy affair - entirely too dressy for me -
Sadie must have looked beautiful, with white Swiss and
a blue sash with white silver fringe - I am so glad she
enjoyed it - I had long letter from Anna Willitts - dear girl.

13th Been dull & rainy all the week. To night Emma
Hardinge gives her last letter - we wanted much to
hear, & I offered to take Lyd. What is the use in always
needing a man. We went at [half] past 5 reached Music
Hall in time to find good seats, soon Isaiah & M.P.W
came in, and sat with us -. She is a noble speaker
dressed with taste -. very eloquent, and when warmed
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of Reconstruction, and ably handled - She said that in all
America had ever endured, or been, or suffered, she never
in 75 years made such a lap in progress, as in through
[?] terrible four years of war - that in that dreadful
crucible all party had been weighed, much evil stirred
up, etc., - then in speaking, of our President said that she
thanked God, as much for Abraham Lincoln the
preserver of his country as George Washington its father -.
Oh! it was grand - grand & I am so glad we went.
tho' we had to leave before it closed, and then came
out in the 10.10 car, very well indeed, a most quiet Set -
and a splendid moonlight night - I think we did well.

[Side margin]
Parents at tea at Dr. L.

14th 1865- Hundreds of loyal people will assemble
to-day to witness the raising of the grand and
glorious American Flag high on the Fort, where
the first rebel guns insulted & abused it - Four
years of such misery and suffering has made us
love it all the more - & now henceforth & forever
it will be the one greatest treasure of the greatest
nation of the world -. Those that have made the
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15th This [Crossed out: mourning] morning the great heart of this Nation
receives its most bitter blow - like lightning it flashes
over our whole country the [Crossed out: most] terrible news, our
President has been assascinated -. Yes, last night sitting
with his family in a private box at Fords Theatre, some
fiend shot him in the brain, then jumped over the stage
& exclaiming Sic semper tyrannis, (Virginia's Motto.) made his
escape -. No words of mine can describe these days of
horror and sorrow -. Every loyal heart feels as if a friend had
been taken -. G. Ridgway brought us the news, and
amid the sobs of the family I read the messages -;
Still we hoped that the worst would not come -,
About the same time, a man entered [Secretary] Sewards
house, and on false pretences, found his way up
stairs, then severely injured Frederick Seward, & too
nurses, and rushing to the [Secretary's] bed, cut him
severely with a knife or sword -. This plot has
been deeply laid to take all the Cabinet - Grant
had expected to have been there, but came to [Philadelphia],
where the news reached him at midnight -.
Samuels came out, but it was as solemn a meeting


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as if death had taken one of our inmates - They
brought word that he, the greatest and best
President died at 22 minutes past seven oclock this A.M.
It is hard to believe this, and we can do nothing
but sit and mourn, even while bitter revenge
calls loudly for some dreadful punishment - yet
the instigators are nearly as bad as the doer.
It was on Good Friday a day of rejoicing in the Church.

16th All went to [Meeting], Mother spoke beautifully from
[Deuteronomy] 4. 30. "When thou art in tribulation, and all these things are
come upon thee, even in the latter days, if thou turn to the Lord thy
God, and shalt be obedient unto his voice, he will not forsake
thee, neither destroy thee, nor forget the covenant of thy fathers."
Many shed tears, strong men that are unused to
weeping. A! thousands of sorrowing hearts will offer
up prayers in this day of darkness and trial - .

Soon after we came home, Charley Comly and
Waddington Bradway came -. J. up in the afternoon, &
brought us the Bullet containing beautiful sermons - C &
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17th We gave holiday because all the people were
so rejoicing over the victories and were going to have
a grand illumination -. Alas, this day proves
one of the saddest in American History. Amid the
joy comes the wail of a murdered President and
all hearts are bowed with sorrow -. No language
can express the deep feelings every where -. Samuels
returned to the city, & Father came from Salem. Mother
was expecting to go with him, when the news came she gave
out -. John brought me two large mourning flags -

18th A sad sad school day, a long talk with the
children, and many of them wept -. I could
scarcely teach - a quiet day for all -.

19th of April 1865 - I could devote pages to this
memorable & then it would be little to the reality -
Lide & I went to the city, & never did I see it so
quiet & subdued, every public & private dwelling
draped with mourning, flags heavily edged with
black at half mast -. oh! it was a solemnly impressive
scene - never to be forgotton -, but, more than all was
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thousands in the streets & scarcely a word spoken -
all places of worship opened - and hundreds flocking
thither -. We went to Race [Street] where Dr Truman
spoke beautifully - expressing my opinion when he
said it was not "in the Providence of God," that it
was done by a wicked soul fearing neither God or Man,
& the Almighty Father would not appoint such to
do His work -. it was eloquent & beautiful -. The
business of the [Monthly Meeting] was postponed till next week.
We went to Phillips Brook's Church, where we listened
to some sweet music, & heard another good sermon.
At 12 oclock the funeral took place at the White
House & at 2 moved to the Rotunda in the Capitol
30,000 loyal hearts met to pay tribute to the honored
one -. Millions mourn to day in sincerity, this is not
for show, but because Abraham Lincoln had
grown into the hearts of the people, his truth,
integrity honesty and great worth, winning for
him a love that no other man living or dead
ever had -. I came home at 5 oclock
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20th I have had all my school shutters bowed, and
put up five flags draped in black, & two pictures.
Never do I want to forget this impressive time,
and I want to impress the children with the
weight of it -. Let them learn to be loyal now -.
I do not feel much like teaching, it seems as if
I wanted to get away in the quiet - The Ladies
of [Philadelphia] had a large [Meeting] at Concert Hall -
& decided to wear a tricolored & crape bow for 90 days -
I do not feel like getting or seeing new clothes -.
not even writing letters, tho I sent short ones to A & E. Steel -
the latter has been quite poorly again -.
No service at my school in the afternoon. J.A & M.D dined.

21st Wet and dull all day - corresponding with my
feelings - this great sorrow presses on me heavily -.
We are reading "The Schonberg Cotta Family it is
quite pretty - showing the mistaken views of Gods requirements.
Poor Fritz thought it possible to lay aside
all human nature -. I believe no true man or
woman can do this without parting with an inexpressible
fineness of temperment which is a gift of God.


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22nd In the morn we had Institute Mr McCracken
the [County Superintendent] attended also Alice Dearton & M. [?].
At 3 oclock Sister Lide and I went to the city
and found the streets filled, we reached the church
steps at 18th and Arch, where we met Sisters &
Isaiah -. and there we waited till nearly dark, at [half]
past 4 the booming of the minute gun announced
the arrival, yet we waited till nearly six, & then
came the great procession -, Military, Lodges, Societies,
the hearse containing the coffin, was splendid to see, being
of black trimmed with silver fringe, it was up where
all could see the coffin - being 16 [feet] high - drawn by
eight horses, we had a good view, as the gas was
lit & it stopped opposite us -. following it were miles of
people, 2000 colored troops, with muskets reversed, in
all not less than 30 or 40,000. It was two hours
passing one place - & had it been before dark, would
have been grandly solemn, it was any how; for there
was scarcely a sound save the slow music of a dirge
as the bands passed - all flags draped; how different
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welcome, no loud hurrahs, and uncontrolable cheers -
nothing but the immensity of a nations grief
pressing upon all - This would seem a mockery
only there is sincerity in it all & each one wishes to
pay the last sad tribute to a beloved & honored ruler -.

23rd Before 6 oclock we were in Chestnut [Street] and
found the line already above 9th - we took our
places, and waited patiently - Sam. & Sallie, Uncle P.
and myself. Major L. & Lide, there we stood, moving
once in a while a few feet - met many of our acquaintances
who told us to get out of line & edge
through the crowd but we would not -. The police
& military were not out soon enough, & there was
much disorder at 5th [Street] - but we kept our places
and at 11 [minutes] past 10 we reached the steps -, just
four and half hours waiting -, and we entered the
Hall where lay the consecrated remains of our dearly
beloved and honored President -. What a throng of
memories rushed over me as I stood in the
presence of all the earthly of Abraham Lincoln.
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in peace, though I better remember the pleasant
smile that I had seen in life - We were hurried
on, but words fail to describe all my feelings, or the
beauty of the room where he lay, nearly all the
portraits were draped, but at the head, was the
old Liberty Bell, that proclaimed liberty throughout
the land, ninety years ago - there were magnificent
flowers everywhere -. The entrance & exit was made through
two windows on each side, & the floor and steps carpeted
so no noisy footsteps, disturbed the solemn
stillness -. From here I went to Furness's church
and heard a good sermon and beautiful music
afterwards to [Brother] Samuels to dine -. At, two, we went
down to the Hall and heard a splendid funeral oration
of Miss Emma Hardinge. I cannot remember half enough
of it, she began with his early life and went on to the time
he reached the White House, "when he took the oath
for President he took the weal or woe of this nation on his
shoulders, bowed to it as an altar, read it as a Bible, bound
it to him with his heart strings and now lies wrapped
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said if the mantle of Abraham Lincoln had not
fallen on Andrew Johnson that of Andrew Jackson
had -. She told us what the people must do before
reconstruction could be complete -. It was very
eloquent indeed - the house was crowded everywhere -
Afterwards, I offered to go with Sister Lyd to see
the President again, so we walked down to Chestnut
above 2nd & took our places in line - as we reached
4th [Street] the crowd was immense, and we passed to the right
and were admitted through a special place for Ladies -.
I left Lyd, to take out a fainting lady, & after she was
safe returned to her - we waited two hours and a half and
then again entered Independance Hall, where for the
second time I gazed on the dead face of our murdered
President -. It was nearly eight when we left, & then
had to walk all the way up to Samuels - as no cars
run on 1st day -. I must have walked ten miles
and stood in the street more than seven hours -.
Two unpleasant things occurred, one conscientious refused to take hat off.
As we stood in line a 11 year old boy was laughing loud, & making rough
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where you are going? he replied yes to see Old Abe - this
was too much. I pulled him out and said no your're not
he says I don't care, I quickly put my fingers on his collar, and
told him if he said another word I would have him in the station
house in five minutes, get the police to arrest him! He turned pale
& seemed so frightened, & the [half] hour we remained near him he
never said a word - I could not bear it from any one -
The great sorrow has made vengeance stronger in our
hearts -. No one will bear much from copperheads. -

24th I came home in the first car, was very tired all
day and at the evening had to lie down -.

25th O. I cannot describe how at times every nerve aches
with intense pain. I almost wonder I am not sick, I
hope in a week to get over the effects of this. Pa at [?].

26th Cleaned the sitting room - I am still very
tired, have a great many school books to mend.

27th When I got home found Isaiah Price there, he is a
good kind friend - Presented me a very pretty book by
H. B. Stowe, House and Home Papers. I had read part
of them, and had always wanted to see the rest -. He also
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28th Mother went to city, Lide & Isaiah kept house.
He had three reserved seats for Anna Dickinsons
lecture, & as they wanted me to go I concluded to -
At [half] past 5 Parents came home and in an hour we
started in , just at the door of the Academy we met
Mary, Allie and Samuels. The house was nearly filled
She came in dressed in black, with the mourning badge
on her arm, crape trimmed with white, she looked very
pretty, yet, subdued all the time, did not get
excited or enthusiastic, but spoke beautifully -. I was
glad to see such solemnity -. She came down hard on
Robert Lee the leader of this Rebellion -. Yet spoke
beautifully of our late beloved President -.
Every where the cities are draped, and millions of
people mourn him, in sincerity and truth.
How strange things come to pass, even now before
he, the loved and lamented one is placed in
his last resting place, the murderer is caught
and sent to his last home - Traced to a barn
in the swamps of Maryland - & refusing to give
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the death suited best, for he did not deserve even
the trial which all criminals can receive - He lived
three hours, poor miserable wretch, slaverys tool -.
We then went to Samuels to stay all night -

29th I came home early and sewing all day -
We heard they had sewed up Booth's body and
dropped it in the ocean - I am glad for there is no
spot of United States soil but what is too good for him.

30th Went to [Meeting] -. I am still tired and weary
do not feel rested - although I went early to bed.
In the P.M. went up and read to Pattie B.
John came up awhile and read us two pieces
of G. W. Curtis. they were both beautiful: then
I went to bed at [half] past 8. I need so much sleep.
Sometimes I think it is the capacity I have for going
to sleep immediately that rests me so. I often take a
nap in five minutes. I have felt my own weakness
much more the last week. I had hoped to get along
through this Spring without my usual sickly spell -
I am doing better than usual, my health has been
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May 1st 1865 A dull rainy day. Parents went to
Wilmington Quarter. When I went home read a
long account about the obsequies in New York -
180,000 persons viewed the dead face of our loved
President, and nearly a million in the streets.
I was so tired I slept all the evening. L. writing.

2nd beautiful cold morning. Mary S. Sisters is teaching
in her place she is sick - and not able to be at it.
In the evening we were all about asleep when John came
in, it is the first time in May since I had seen him.

3rd We are having elegant spring weather, I wrote to
E. Steel, I am much thinner, all the flesh nearly
from my body gone, and bones so prominent - I feel
a good deal of weakness in my chest, sometimes as
if my vital organs were unable to perform their duty -.

4th I tried taking a walk this morning, it was elegant.
then took the battery. I must do something or fear I
will not hold out till school closes -. Found
Aunt Esther at our house to dine. Andrew Johnson
has offered $100,00 for Jeff Davis, they find he was concerned
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Anna E. Dickenson lectures to night at the Academy.
I wanted much to hear her, so invited several; Alice
Pearton etc. -. She gave out, but we concluded not to.
I wanted Sarah B. to go it would have been such a
pleasure to her, but they were going to have company.
I was very tired in the afternoon, got home at five,
took a nap, then dressed and met the 6 oclock car,
found LIzzie Rebecca & "Betsy" in it, we went right
to the Academy & not having reserved seats I did
not know who we would fare -, being early we concluded
to sit in the family circle, where we had comfortable
seats, and got along very well indeed - She
spoke truthfully, well, and oftentimes eloquent -.
Told us & proved how poorly women were compensated
where they did the work equal to men and
how the honor of thousands hung on a thread or at
the point of a needle -, how they suffered, and starved
before they gave themselves to infamy and shame -
Four years ago, 8000 women walked the streets of
New York outcast, & abandoned - now there were 14,000
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5th I am weak and hoarse much of to-day. We
took Howard to the barber and had his hair cut -.

6th I had intended going to the city to see Dr Heirman
but it rained very hard. I wrote a note to John but
Lizzie was too slow -. he did not get it. I have
suffered a great deal to-day yet tied not complain -.
have been on the sofa nearly all the time, scarcely able
to speak out loud, so much weakness and pain on breast.

7th Samuels came out - a lovely day I am some better, still
very weak, yet do not want to give up. They returned to city.

8th Lyd went in taking Howard, he has been out 5 weeks.

9th Very rainy all day. I had my order checked at D. White -
was also weighed & find I have lost 11 [pounds] only 116.
A letter from Saide, they saw the procession but not remains.

10th J. was up. I gave him a note asked to invest $50 on the 7.50
then I am going to send it to _ requesting him to give it to [?] S. from [?]
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11th Lide went in to help Sisters sew yesterday. [Crossed out: took Howard with
her.] I had a short noon and at 3 went to town, to see
Dr Heirman, had a long talk with him, he gave me one
powder, yet it must be powerful, for he thinks it sufficient.
I have great faith in his medical skill -. While there
a terrible storm came on -, I staid till it stopped raining
then went up to Market [Street] and came to Darby cars,
while on my out it again poured; with much thunder
and lightning, but stopped so that I got home without
being wet - it then rained all night -. & blew -.

12th Made out my Reports -; and closed school for the week.
Aunt Esther & Lizzie Thomas at our house awhile - Thomas
Powell & his wife spent the eve with us -. John also bought
me the [?] loan - was very kind as usual -.

13th Parents went to Select [Meeting]. Han & Eph took tea with us
& Cousin Halliday Hoops, came out - & Samuel Rees with parents.

14th Went to [Meeting], had a long sermon from S. Teas -. he is
more interesting in private than public -. To day came
the official report of the Capture of Jeff Davis & family
by the 4th Michigan Calvary - he tried to run away
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We had to give opinion of disposing of him - I really want
him hung, he is not fit to live - and does not deserve less.
Tillie McCallilster came to dine with us - in the P.M.
we walked partly home with her - She is so nice -.

15th Parents & the friends got off to Yearly [Meeting] -. It has
been a lovely day -. Howard came out with Lide 7th day -

16th Another beautiful day - I am feeling much better
than for three weeks, have finished a letter to Anna W.
Yesterday had a note from Uncle Halliday containing
a 1000 [?], spelled by the Teachers at Chester
[County] Institute. it was very kind in him. I am busy
in the evenings making patches for another quilt for soldiers.

17th Lide went to the city to [Yearly Meeting]. I came up and
there was so few of us, he remained all night-! Howard
was restless I have felt quite uneasy about him.
It is the responsibility that I always feel when alone that
makes me timid - . I am glad to have someone stay.

18th A beautiful morning, but clouded up & was cool [?] eve.
John told me last eve, he would come again, but had to see his sick
cousin first -. It rained, but I knew he would come _ & he did, at
ten - I was tired, making out reports -. did not sit up long.


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19th J did not stay till breakfast. I have been very glad
to have him while our folks were away, it would have
seemed lonely at nights especially this last one when the
storm beat so against the windows. I trust him so truly
that I always feel safe with him. I know now that he
would protect me under all circumstances. So many things
have occurred lately, to strengthen our friendship and prove
it was founded on respect, of the deepest & most lasting
kind, no human conditions can change or altar this -.
He was at Yearly [Meeting] heard the memorial of [Joseph] Dodgson.
I suppose they will close to day. how strange that I was
not in once, but, I have done my duty at home I
hope and been repaid. I cannot soon forget this week of May [1865].
When I went home found Side Allie & Sallie J -.

20th Parents home this morn, in the P.M. Samuel Child
wife. Mary and Sister Lyd came -. Mary looks much
older for her long sickness, but it is such a comfort
to feel there is some hope of her recovery.

21st A rainy Sabbath, I wrote to Sadie. J. up awhile.
Our folks went to Dr Longstreth's. Their dear little
Helen was buried last 6th day -.


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22nd Aunt Jane came this morning. All busy
sewing for Lyd - she goes to Boston in a week -.

23rd Another thunder shower in the night, but clear
and cool this morning -. Mary seems to improve
they ride out when it is pleasant, aunt went to-day.

24th Last eve after tea Mary was able to walk over to
Hyles, and around the yard, she has not walked so far
before, Samuel came out & this morn they all went
away. Lide with them and Harry drove out with her
in the eve to bring our horse and carriage back -
they have had him five or six weeks -. J. up.

25th We are busy preparing for a grand May Party at
our School, the children are studying their pieces.

26th Our folks went over to the Festival at the Home
had a very pleasant time, brought me some ice-cream.

27th Rainy & wet but I went to the city, up to Sams,
& helped them sew till after dinner then we all went
down town, and I bought cloth for a summer coat -. etc. -
Bid Lyd, good by, as I will not see her again -
Left my coat to be cut out & came home having
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28th Went to [Meeting] had a good sermon from mother. Towards
evening called at Sarah Buntings, and Sills. Willie grows.

29th I wrote to Levi Harley, expressing my dissatisfaction of such a
letter as he wrote to M. J. Lenney -. It seemed my duty.
She was full of love to a girl 11 years old - name on quilt.
Isaiah spent the day and night with us -.

30th Lovely weather, yesterday, Lyd started for Boston,
Mrs Sargeant with her, Jennie will meet them in
Boston, and then they will go on to Great Falls [New Hampshire].
This P.M. Father took mother to city, he came back -

31st Elegant day -. Mother, Dr Truman, M. Lippincot Richard
Moore, Sarah Hoops, Samuel [?] Clement Biddle
& Deborah Wharton, left for Washington, they
were appointed by the committee to take the address
that was sent by our Yearly Meeting to the President
and Cabinet in regard to the death of our loved Lincoln.
They go right through to Washington. Ah! I
would not care to go there now, it seems as if I
never wanted to see another man in the position he
held - the monument he made in our hearts is
like an altar, at which, we bow in reverance.


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June 1st 1865 At [half] past 6 I went to the city tried
my coat on, then met Lizzie Y. at Furnass's found
it was not open, so we went up to Chestnut [Street]
went over the Continental - grand Hotel, yet I
would not like it, give me the quiet of a home -
Went to Church and heard some beautiful music,
Brinkfield's Band without drums, played a dirge
and two funeral marches. they were so sad -.
He gave us a good sermon, told us neither devils
nor angels had been at work, but all the glory
and all the gloom of the last four years, had
come from the mysterious human heart -. That
Abraham Lincoln was so beloved because of his
common qualities, that it was the absence of what
is rare in those who become famous that had had
placed him so deeply in the hearts of his people.
Many beautiful things were said of him -.
Afterwards Mrs Ware walked down the street with me.
Isiah, Lide & I dined at Samuel Child's, then went
up to sister S's - very warm indeed -. I came home J. up -
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2nd Up early & swaping, then came to school, very busy preparing
for the grand day to-morrow, trimming the School room etc.

3rd Beautiful morning, up early & did our work, then
came to school where numbers had assembled - then
we had the Coronation of the Rose, about 40 girls
took part, each did well, both in singing & reciting.
Jennie Serrill was crowned, they were all dressed
beautifully, she in white Swiss, with two rows of [?]
trimmed with black velvet, several in white and a
great profusion of flowers everywhere, wreaths on their
heads, the marching was beautiful - A great
many guests, soon crowded, afterwards we all went
to Powells woods and spent the day, took dinners.
It was a joyous time for the children, I begged
enough money to treat all that could not buy ice cream.
When I reached home was too tired to sit up or talk.
Found Samuels out & soon Mother came - just from
Washington to-day -. all of us very tired.

4th [Meeting] while Ellie Child came & Harriet Stokely
a number here in the afternoon all wanting to
hear about Mother's trip - Uncle Williams T. G. etc.


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Isaac Newton met them at the depot and went with
them to the Boarding House the next morning, they went
to see Edwin M. Stanton [Secretary] of [WAshington], he welcomed them
cordially & thanked them kindly.


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5th Samuels went in & Father to see R. Bradway -.

6th Cool again -. and looking like storm. I am quite
busy braiding a marseilles basque with black [?].

7th Dull & storm like, though it does not rain, we need it -.
I had a kind letter from Anna E. Webster inviting me
on there - How much I want to go & see her -

8th Yesterday P.M. Aunt Esther & Rachel & Nettie
were to se us - Unfortunately Mother was in town -
This P.M. our folks went to Upper Darby -. after
school Lizzie & I walked over to Bairds woods
where the Sunday School had their Pic Nic - May
Sipler, Mr White & M. Barry called on their way back, wrote to A [?] W

9th Very warm again, real summer weather [mercury] 82.
Samuel Kees here all night. Very heavy rain - J. up

10th At 8 oclock Lide, Mother & I started for Swarthmore
drove up, found a great many there, Uncles & Aunts from
Chester [County] Crosswicks etc. - the exercises were interesting, the
sleeping sentinel was recited, at noon we had a grand
dinner under the trees, over 20 of our family there -.
The I went walking with Sallie Cleaver, Jess J. Mrs
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back long when the rain came, all ran for the tents, the
seats were taken up & converted into sheds, there was a
cessation of all exercises, & a general scattering, many as
could went to the cars, we were in our carriage till they wanted
it to take folks to the cars. then ran to the tents & got real
wet, soon after drove home & had to change all - wet thro'
It was quite an unfortunate ending to the Reunion where
all had anticipated so much pleasure - about 800 there.

11th After diner went to Verlendens to call on Oliver & Cynthia
Holcomb. Isaac jackson, J & M & R Buckman here -.

12th Sent letters to Lyd. I am filled all the time with one
thought, going to Boston. Anna seems so anxious & I want
so much to go -. I would enjoy it more than any other
trip and it would do me so much good - body & mind -.

13th Parents went to Germantown then on to Uncle Georges
when I got home found Isaiah, after tea I called
at Verlendens with Lizzie Yarnall - had a very happy
evening talking my trip to J. Lide & I [?] [?].

14th Lizzie Yarnall staid all night with us long
letter from Saide, dear good girl - she is to me -.

15th Lizzie dined & staid all night with us. Sadie wants me to stop [?]


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16th This week has been a sad one for it is the
uncoiling of a long chain of circumstances, my school
closes and I may never take it again, even if I do,
many things will occur before that time. I feel [?]
at leaving the children for I am quite attached
to them -, and then my situation here suits me so well -
Later well it is over, and all have gone, except
myself-, very busy putting away books, & cleaning up at
[half] past 3 all were in my room and I was giving
them one more lesson in Gymnastics, they spoke to them
a little while, and bade all good bye -. Lide &
Marrietta were here awhile even they have gone, and
I sit here with sad thoughts so wrote to my friend.
then felt better and went home [Cousin] M. there
John came up in the evening & took us to get ice cream.

17th This P.M. LIde & I drove over to West [Philadelphia] [Hospital]
took 10 dozen fans, had a very satisfactory visit
they seemed so glad to get them 2200 there -.
Sam & Sallie out & Ben spent the eve with us.

18th Very warm, H. A. Oakford dined here -. I called
awhile to see dear Sarah Bunting.


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19th Sallie went in & left Harry out here the
first time she was ever away all night - J &
Captain Phipps spent the evening here -

20th Father took me up to the cars and I came on to
Uncle Paxsons, Bennie Wilson & his two sisters and Nettie J
were, Sadie met us at the depot & we came over here.
are having a grand time - Drove to Mendenhall to
leave the little girls after tea, quite a shower -.

21st Spending a delightful day, here, dying etc. Aunt J
and I drove over to See E. Steel she was better than
a few days before, wonderful that she lives so long -.

22nd A splendid day, and so cool & lovely here -.

23rd Six of us went to Uncle Hallidays to spend the day
had a grand time, Nettie & I picked 5 or 6 quarts of
elegant raspberries real feast, good time altogether
they have a lovely home tho' I fear Uncle works
too hard, we left Aunt R. there & drove home after tea -

24th Nettie went to the city - we had a good day here -

25th Isaiahs family all here he filled three teeth
for me. it hurt me a great deal - Drs here to tea -
I wrote to Lide & Anna Webster -


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26th Rainy all day, letter from Sadie I am enjoying this
visit so much we just have a good time -

27th Beautiful day me not very smart -. Tho' better
than when I came gained one pound in 4 hours after I
came - since the day before eat a big dinner -.

28th Sallie & I went to see E. Steel found her not quite so well
I read her the account in Friends Intelligencer about the
address to the President & Cabinet -. We called at Temples Dr Moore died

29th Sallie took me to Chadds Ford and I came to the
city did a great deal of shopping called on J. E. Rhoads,
then wet up to Sallies, & found them out of town, laid
down & took tea at Wilsons and came home feeling better.

30th Parents at Hector's. Sallie was helping me make
my traveling dress and sacque - went in at [half] past 6
very heavy thunder storm, we saw two fires, barns
struck by lightning - Thomas & Anna Child out
finding our folks away - returned - It is
the warmest day we have had, mercury
at Thomases 93 in the shade, we get the
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July 1st 1865. May Wilson & husband here to tea
Allie & Mr Good came after -. We went
down & got ice cream - heavy thunder storm
Parents came home about [half] past 8. Letter from Anna

2nd They went in town -. In [Meeting] Warmer here &
we went to get ice cream. I went to read to Pattie
Buntig staid to tea - had a nice time with S.

3rd Lide went to town - J. up and we had a long talk on the
porch, it was so lovely & moonlight -. My things up stairs -

4th of July I was busy sewing all day, traveling dress -
Newton & wife called -. Fireworks at nighttime - I
walked up to "Jones little gate" -. 4 years ago.

5th Parents went to [?] Dr Moore's widow - Poor woman
I pity her much, her support has gone -.
John and I spent the eve at Biddles, Mrs. Bannister
was not there yet we had a very pleasant time -

6th This morn I had a letter from J. E. Rhoads saying
I was appointed a teach by the [Pennsylvania] Association for the
Relief of the Freedmans -. It was quite a trial to
Mother when I read the note -. I tried to be cheerful
but my own heart was aching. Spent the P.M. at [Cousin] M.


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7th Busy packing - very warm. J. up & took my
valise down with him, he is going in with me, as
Father is not well enough to take me in the carriage.

8th of July 1865. J. & I left in the [half] past 6 car. he took me
to Vine [Street] Wharf -. Sam & Sallie went to Camden with me.
& I was soon on my way to [New York]. The road was very
dusty and Sandy - so the window was closed. it was
through stunted trees, and barren fields -, much of
the time - A young girl went in the next car to
bring a drink to a child, & coming back while the car
was in motion, her hat blew off - the poor think
cried much - She had to ride 6 or 7 miles in a stage.
When we reached Port Monmouth the view was grand
the white waves of the ocean touching the horizon -
the fresh breeze and clan pure atmosphere -. We went
on the Jessie Floyd, & was covered with dust I
unrigged and washed, then laid down, for I found
the old sea sick pain attacking me. I kept still
& rested and as soon as we came in the Bay I was
better - reached [New York] about [quarter] of three, & found dear Sadie
waiting for me with their elegant carriage - open [?]


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9th It is so warm we staid in the house I wrote some
letters, and we spent the rest of the time in talk.

10th At 9 the carriage came, and we rode out to
Greenwood, one of the grand, beautiful, resting
places of the dead. the sun was behind the clouds,
and we had the top of the carriage down so we
could take in the magnificance, some of the views
were splendid, the tombs and monuments at our
feet, & far in the distance the great ocean was
visible, just so - we are here now, yet a little
distance is the great ocean of eternity - Even
the horses trod softly here - among the quiet sleepers.
It was full of a sweet peaceful enjoyment -.
We then called at Emilys & Louisa's & reached home
at [half] past two. Oh, my heart is happy here with Sadie.

11th Cloudy all day, yet we had a good time on the house -

12th I wrote Lyd yesterday - had one from her just before
it started. It was dull & stormy all day -.

13th This afternoon we took a splendid ride down
to Fort Hamilton, it was not dusty, and for miles
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it was grand and beautiful, the waves rushing
against the rocks and stones, the steamers, sails, etc.
dotting it all over, & beyond the magnificant hills
of Staten Island, at last we came in full view
of Fort Hamilton, Richmond and Lafayette, in the
latter were Rebel prisoners, it cannot be reached without
crossing the water as it is some distance from land -.
We had a lovely ride home, this open carriage is so
comfortable with the top down & two elegant horses.
Soon after we came in heard that Barnums Museum
& ten other buildings was burned, took fire in the engine
room about [half] past 12 M. Fortunately the morning performance
was over and the people gone home, or there would have
been great loss of life, as they would hardly escaped -
very little was saved - he was absent from the city -.

14th Before 7 Sadie, her Mother, & myself started for Bayside
(in the carriage) we had an elegant ride up, I stayed
at Aunt E. they went to Bowrons. Aunt Hennie & Nettie
were there, it was quite a surprise to see me -. Sadies
called for me in the P.M. we stopped awhile at Watson B.
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15th Letters from home, J. & A. at 9. we went over to [New York] to the
Jewish Synagogue, found the services very different
from other places. the pulpit is in the middle, the
men all keep on their hats, even Rabbi Isiaacs,
they also all wear scarfs while with closed [?] , the
inscriptions over the ark were in hebrew, & all the singing
and sermon in the same language, except one prayer,
we were not there at the beginning - the book were hebrew
on one side & English on the other - From there we
walked, eat dinner and did some shopping till 3
oclock, then met Mr Quincy at the Astor Library,
this is the finest building of the kind I was ever in
so massive, here we saw one of the first books ever
published, printed by the inventor of the art, more
than 400 years ago -; also one of the first bibles was
printed, and many other valuable relics 90,000 or 100,000 volumes -.
Then we went to the [New York] Historical Society Rooms,
which contains more antiquities than other, It is a
private collection & visitors cannot be admitted
without a pass from a Member -. Mr Quincy had one -.
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before Christ, mummied Priests, cats & dogs, and two
Bulls which had been their gods, (the oldest in existence)
they were all tightly wrapped up with cloths & cords, there
were many interesting small specimens of ages past a ladys
work basket containing netting needle, thread, [?] etc. -
several skulls, with hair on - what had been human
hands, and feet, one of the former had a ring on -. there
were whole histories of lives on tomb stones covered with
hieroglyphics and many thing too numerous to mention.
many of them were from Thebes and Lakkasah -.
There was also a very handsome gallery of painting
& sculpture -. some of the former were exceedingly fine -
many rare specimens from the old masters -. In fact
there was so much to interest and instruct that we
were not through when the summons came that the
building must be closed. From there we went to the
Cooper Institute, and passed through that magnificant
building, dedicated to Science and Art, the Free Reading
Room is a splendid building where any one can go and
read by the hour, the papers, periodicals or books -.


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This great man has used his money while
living for a good purpose, and thousands bless
him. The building is magnificant, has a picture
gallery, school of design for women & many other
noble monuments of science and art -. Before leaving
we visited the American Institute, where we saw
some splendid impressions of leaves, ferns & grasses
from Australia, they were perfectly executed, looking
just like the natural plants, every vein distinctly
visible -, as near as I can recollect - they lay a leaden
sheat over the leaves & by pressing get the exact impression,
then take it from that having the ink the
color of the leaf, fern, or plant -. I was wonderful -
we also saw much beautiful wax fruit - Mr
Quincy is a member here & the officer was very kind -
From there we went to the Mercantile Library, which
is a fine one, containging 50. or 60,000 volumes. Mr Q.
is a member here, also, so we had access to all parts -.
It was now [half] past 7 and being too late to go
any where else came home, well gratified with
our days adventure. Mr Q. spent the rest of the eve here -


105.

July, 1865.

16th The air seems full of rain, & the sun is hid -
We are lounging round, me writing letters -. [?] took
tea with us, he is now Cashier in a Bank at Yonkers,
a responsible position for one so young -. I the
eve Mr Quincy took us to Breckers Church, where
we heard a splendid sermon, it poured with rain
but we felt quite paid, there was so much good.

17th Went in the carriage after Aunt Sarah Willets
the dear old lady I was so glad to see her again -
She spent the day & when we took her home we
all called at James Underhills - Maggies folks.

18th This morn Sadie put on her white, - me her dark
brown, & we went in the carriage and had our Ferreotypes
taken -, hers with her hair down it nearly
touched the floor when sitting, & I am so pleased with us.
In the P.M. we drove up 5th Avenue to Central
Park, the place has greatly changed in the 4 years -
It was beautiful and so many people there
some of the views from the hills were magnificent
we had a delightful ride -
[In pencil: 1914 Sent to his son Frank Bartram]


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19th Company here - our last together - I made a
gay shade, we had some old friends here to tea.
afterwards notwithstanding the pouring rain Mr Quincy
came in - brought us his stereoscope & views, many of them
were very beautiful, a number we recognized of
Central Park and others of the White Mountains,
he had been 3 times to the latter place and enjoyed
its rare magnificance - could explain it
so interestingly -. I like him - there is some sense
in his talk -. others more polished are less worthy.
To-day I lay aside my mourning badge for
our loved President -. This was only an outward [?]
my heart feels it just as deeply, for 90 days I
have worn a crape bow with the national colors or
his picture - The Ladies of [Philadelphia] decided to do this
& I know I once put it on I would keep
it till the full time expired - It has now and
I lay aside with reverence knowing well that
for him we need shed no tear - his home is with the
eternal & his great noble heart at peace and rest -.


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20th Sadie took me in the carriage to the New Haven
Depot & after bidding her an almost silent yet deep good
bye I took my seat in the cars -. The sun shone radiantly
beautiful, it was just 8 when we left, and being the
Express we moved rapidly. I soon knew when we reached
New England soil; the country was so beautiful with its
fertile fields, and clean white cottages nestled amid
the thick green foliage - all along it seemed one garden
of beauty - We passed Rye station, hurriedly. I thought of my
friends only 3 miles away -. Edward Willets. Then on to New Haven,
and Hartford - the view of the Connecticut River was grand
& we moved over it with slackened speed, then through
the valley we could see the glistening waters peaceful in
their quiet rest -. At Springfield we stopped 20 minutes &
I walked round and got quite rested ate dinner etc. -
I here parted with some agreeable companions on their way to
the White [Mountains] we had formed quite an acquaintance in the
cars -. At [half] past 3. I reached Worcester Junction where my dear Anna
was waiting for me -. We went to her friend Mrs. Halls & found a kind
welcome. I washed which rested me much - After tea "Charlie Hall"
a real good youth - took us to Still Water Pond - & we spent two hours
rowing over a delightful lake, I enjoyed it so much - & was not
so very tired after all tho I had travlled 150 miles -. O. they are
all so kind -. I wrote to Sadie & to the folks at home -.


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21st Went with Anna to her school - it was the last day and we
closed early - then visited the wire Mills & saw how they made it -.
After tea all went riding, we drove to Quinsigamond. O what
a grand view we had green hills all around us and mountains
in the distance, everywhere were the white, New England
dwellings speaking of comfort and peace -. Twenty miles from
us [Mount] Wachusett reared its head above all others and
seemed to touch the sky -. The town of Worchester is among green
foliage, many beautiful residences, and 30 or 40000 inhabitants,
it is well striped with Rail Roads as they meet here from
all parts of the state -. We drove to the Insane Asylum, Oread
Institute, a magnificant building of English architecture, the
State Hospital for the sick & wounded Soldiers - The Cemetery
Mechanics Hall, one of the finest I ever saw and containing the
second size organ in that Country -. We had such a nice time
altogether - I will long remember it & the many kindnesses I
have found among those never seen before -.

22nd In the P.M. we bade good bye to our kind friends
and started for Boston -, reached there in good time - went
immediately to the Providence Depot & took the cars for Hyde
Park -. How many strange feelings came over me as I found
myself really in the city, which has so long stood. No one
in my mind, to all other places on our dear old soil -.
We were but a little while coming out. Anna's sister met
us, we then walked up, up, up, till we reached a dear little
white cottage which is Anna's home - it is a dear, cozy place way
above the main village and commanding one of the finest views
I ever beheld, no pen of mine can describe it, the natural growth
of evergreens has not been disturbed except to cheer it with a neat
cottage, the River runs peacefully, the hills seem at rest &
far beyond all the mountains touch the horizon and seem
to end the world -. It is so comfortable & so much ease here -
so delightful to be away from the busy, hurry-along crowd -.
We met with kind welcome & from all -. It hardly seems
possible I am away up here - in Anna's home - in this dear old
state of Massachusetts -. No wonder these New England people
love their own homes best -. I never saw a country so filled
with real enjoyments -. Not one dirty pig pen of a house
not one ragged filthy urchin have I seen since I came
to the goodly land -.


109.

July 1865.

23rd I was not feeling very well so we remained at home
except a short pleasant walk after tea -. One could live
out doors here, with the sweet bird music in our ears.

***

30th All these days my diary has been resting and me unable
to mar its pages -. On the 24th - end day - I was taken with a heavy
chill & diahrrea -. Dr Everett was summoned, and then the battle
began - many things were called to fight off the disease, first a terrible
sweat, two doses of castor oil, nitre, quinine, powders etc. etc. etc. etc. -
the blood rushed fearfully through the veins and ice had to be applied
to the aching head, it was indeed, a weary day, and I too weak to bear
anything - at night had some rest - & the next morn when the [Medical Doctor]
came, the pulse had dropped considerably from is 120 beat -. I thought
I was getting better, so sat up - quite a long while - yet had no appetite
only drank tea to satisfy them - my first cup - but anything to help
me - all were very kind -. On 4th day he came again -, inquired particularly
how long I had sat up the day before, he said I was not so
well -. This was hard to bear -. I knew that the night before I had
only slept two hours - but I was not suffering much - That was a
strange waking I went over so much that had been -. The [Doctor] was
kind & patient with me - & I promised to be good -. So all that day
I lay in bed except one hour in the P.M. It was hard to be sick
way up here away from home, & then there was so much to see, & beyond
my closed blinds such glorious sights - all shut from me - for my
room had to be dark - except just as the sun was setting, this
glorious beauty I could see from my couch -. There were times when
I suffered the most intense pain -. On 5th day -. I was better &
was so anxious to get down stairs - they let me -. Still very weak &
could not eat without forcing it down-. Mr Wyman & his daughters
from Vermont were here & he wanted to take them to Hingham before he
returned so they all went except Mrs. W. & self - Anna would have staid
but I would not let her. The girls Emm & Nel are so lively & we would
have had a good time if I had been well -. The [Doctor] called, thought I
would not need him anymore -. Well - I'm worth 5 [dollars] less for this spell.
I wrote home with a lead pencil - lying down - but did not tell them of my illness,
they would worry so -. 6th day the 28th I was still suffering - no appetite -. The chills
had been stopped = & now it was Dysentery - oh - dear me - I could hardly
bear it patiently -. I took another dose of oil & then Mrs Lawson
send in a receipt & the material, which I will write here


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A half a tumbler of buttermilk scalded well, stirred & drank hot -
I took one does and soon felt better, in two or three hours the other
& have been getting better ever since - it is so simple & well worth
remembering -. I was still weak & not much appetite -

29th On 7th day, sat up a good while relished a little food & was
much more comfortable -. Delia & her cousins went to Boston -.

30th Another Sabbath morn - how little I imagined a week ago I
would be so ill - I hope now I will get well fast & strong -.
I am much better to-day - the air is fresh and pure & I enjoy it.

31st In the morning Anna and I walked to the Office - the longest I
have taken, yet I was no worse for it - At noon 4 of us
went to Boston - visited the renowned Commons, stood under the tree
where Mary Dyer was hung 205 years ago - the [first] of June in 1832
it was partially blown over and has been plastered & built-up - even
now is kept together by large iron bands -. I never saw a tree so
high & spreading as if it would shelter all -. It is protected by an iron
fence - but a policeman was kind enough to give me some leaves -.
The elms here are very beautiful - we then visited the state House
and there saw over a hundred torn battle flags - how my heart
swelled with unshed tears as I remembered the brave ones that fallen
while noble sustaining them - so torn & ragged, yet dear to the people -
The 54 had not a single shred remaining, nothing but the
staff - it was while commanding this brave Regiment that the
noble [Colonel] Shaw fell -. We then went up 200 steps to the
top of the building and a grand view of Boston - below lay the
Commons with is lovely spreading elms - all around the waters
stretched their arms & the railways streaked the surface -
for long ridges and roads reached to many places -. far off
was Bunker Hill - a sentinel over everything - in the Harbor
were ships of all nation and many flags floated on the breeze -
for our great [General] Grant was in the city. Far in the distance
was the broad Atlantic - with its blue waters lengthening the
horizon - the fresh sea air come refreshingly and was much
rested -. We went from there to Washington [Street] the great Shopping
promenade. I bought two napkin rings for my nephews -
had them marked with their initials -. They were very pretty silver -.
I wish I could afford to get handsome presents for all - nothing
would give me more pleasure -. Having to pay 5 [dollars] the
[Doctor] made some difference to my means -. We came back
quite tired -.


111.

August 1st 1865 - Delia & Emma went to a Re-Nic - Ann & I
spent most of the morning looking over letters - it was a treat -.
I had one yesterday from home - John H Andrews was buried on 2nd
day he died at La Cross, Michigan 1500 miles away from home - A
great trial to his daughters who could not be with him .
Mr Ware called on us this afternoon - he only lives a few miles from here -

2nd We all went down to the Hall and after waiting a good while
started with the Sabbath School down to Squantam Beach 8 miles
there were 25 in our wagon & we had a pleasant ride - the place
is quite pretty, so many rocks - we spent the day walking on the
Beach, bathing, etc. - The air was so refreshing, it rested me -
At dinner we had a real old yanke clam chowder, which was
quite good-. but the fun was in the patent spoons which our
gents made of a clam shell fastened into a split stick, they did
first rate, & were quite a novelty -. Some of the party had a gay
time playing games, but as they were kissing ones, I did not participate,
I don't like to be smeared by people I don't love -. Towards
sunset I wandered to to the quiet shelter of a giant rock, and
watched the tide come in, it said many things to me which
other ears heard not - 4 years ago I sat on similar rocks on Rye
Beach and listened to the voices of the waves, now as then the
friendship which was trusting and true is faithful and strong as ever -.
I remained there till nearly time to leave - which we did not do till
most 8. then came home in the moonlight -. there was rather too
much kissing in the wagon by some of the party to be pleasant to
me - a young spaniard was disagreeable to me - as most foreigners are.

3rd Anna & her Mother went to Boston & I had helped Delia
keep house - they returned at noon - after tea we all spent the eve
at Mr Evans, plenty of good music, ice cream & cakes - good time -.

4th I was up yester & this morn to write letters to Sadie, home & J E Rhoads.
Sadie & her parents visited [Crossed out: Lake Chas] Saratoga, Lakes George and
Champlain, Burlington Vermont Boston & Newport -. She would have come
here when in Boston only they were so busy sight seeing - & I did not
know she was there - was sick anyhow so could not have gone in -.
Mr Moran from Worcester came -. other company in the eve -.

5th This afternoon - the Vermont girls left - we missed them so much
yet it was good to be in the quiet -. In two or three hours after
who should come in but John - we had not expected him till next day.
He brought me a note from Sam and Lide - We had a little
shower this P.M. - the first for several weeks - Yesterday Mr Ware came
and took Anna and me riding - 8 or 10 miles - it was very kind in him.


112.

August. 1865.

6th of August Sisters celebrate their 30th birthday, I wish I had something
nice to send them -. It has been dull and cloudy all day -.

7th Dull & rainy - we were busy sewing - splendid moonlight nights.

8th John Anna and I went to Boston, took the cars for Bunker Hill and
were soon out there, paid 20 [cents] admission and after looking at [General]
Warrens statue, started up - the stairs are all of stone and except a
peep hole in a few places it is lit with gas - we went 295 steps and found
ourselves quite willing to rest - The view from the windows was grand -
we remained long enough to get rested and for me to steal a piece
from the rope that held the stars and stripes waving over the grand
monument, then went down, this was harder for me than going up,
we sat in the office sometime then, went to the Navy Yard, saw plenty
of canon mortars etc. etc. -. Called at the Liberator Office. Garrison was
not it, but I had quite a talk with Mr Walett -. How strange
it seemed that from that one room had gone forth so much that
startled the people -, yet it was the great Soul of a true man that
had striven so earnestly to arouse the nation to the knowledge of
the great sin that was cursing our country - American Slavery -

9th This P.M. Anna and I went to Roxubry to call on Ellie Garrison
the house is a lovely cottage, high above the street and looking
over grand rocks that are covered with vines, They call it
Birds Nest and it is indeed delightful -. Unfortunately, she was
not at home, but we saw Garrison's wife, & had a very pleasant
call, she took us into Ellies room and did all she could. I felt
proud to be in the home of a man I so thoroughly admire -
I had never seen Ellie - but Lide went to school with her & wanted
me to go there -. We took the return train for Hyde Park,
a good many soldiers in & being nearly drunk got to fighting.
others tried to prevent & there was a general melee - Some gentleman
took us to the other end of the car & then stationed themselves
between the battle and us, they settled it before long, we were not
frightened, so many tried to protect and several soldiers made apologies
for the fuss -. It was quite a little excitement -. J & D were
at the Depot - and we went on to get some ice cream - letters from J. E. Rhoads.

10th At [half] past two went to the Depot and met Sister Lyd, she had come
from [New] Hampshire -. I was so glad to see here - nearly 3 months since she left.
We came up there, she was quite pleased with the place -
Unfortunately the sun did not set clear - and she missed
of the most beautiful scenes -. We took a short walk after
tea - but it was too late to see far - yet she could get some idea
Mr Wards from Washington spent the day here -


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11th I went to Boston with Lyd this morning, met Mr Sargeant
and Jeannie -, stopped awhile at the Parker House. Lyd and I did
some shopping, for the folks, got Pa & Sam silk handkercheifs, Mother one
and Lide. The Proclamation so written that it formed an likeness of Lincoln,
just by shading the words heavier -; We called & saw William [Lloyd] Garrison
ate dinner then I bade them good bye as they started to [Philadelphia] at 5.30 -
did some shopping then came out to Hyde Park again -

12th J Anna and I went in the city to the State house, there met
[Cousin] John L. Williams, H. Phillips and wife - they saw our names at Bunker
Hill - We did some shopping & then went to Music Hall -. O!
I cannot describe it, the grand organ was magnificent, but the music
was more so one thing the - [blank] was so sweet & beautiful
that I could not keep back my tears, it carried my heart & mind
way off into the soul heaven where the harmony of pure spirits mingle
in unison and are at rest -. The Concert lasted an hour & it was
one never to be forgotton -. We went up afterwards and examined it it has
109 stops is worked by water -

13th A cool Sabbath, I spent most of the day reading & writing - dear
me, I wrote a note the other day which has worried me & a good deal
it spoke so plainly of faults that might be overcome -, it was
closed hurriedly - before I had time to read it - Pardon I have asked -.

14th [August] 1865 We remained at home all day. I finished my letter to
Sarah Bunting - she was so interested in me, I wrote her an account of my
trip -. This is Johns birthday - I am sorry I have nothing to give him -.

15th Anna J. Mary Ella and I went into Boston and from there to Mount
Auburn - it is a beautiful cemetery, and the view from the Tower splendid.
We returned in time for the [half] past 2 train - This is my last day to be
with Anna we expect to start for home to-morrow -. I did not realize
how near the time was coming for me to go again or I should not have
staid till now. J. Lawson and his sister spent part of the eve here -

16th We spent a quiet happy morning at home - it makes me feel real
sad to pack up my things which I have been doing to-day, it
is not likely I will be here again, this has been a happy visit -
At [quarter] of 4 John Anna & I went to Boston, and there bade her good bye -
and at [half] past 5 we took the cars for Providence - The seats were very comfortable
and nearly all went to sleep - as soon as it was a little dark -
We stopped awhile at Providence - where we ate our nice supper Mrs W.
had prepared for us - It was ten oclock - when we reached Groton -
& there went on the Steamboat Commonwealth. We had been unable
to get State Rooms and Boston so I went in when the berths were [?]


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and see if John could get one -. It was so close -. I went out and
got him to take me on deck - which he did when we had a refreshing
breeze and I soon felt better, then went to t my State Room which
was large and very comfortable -. All night the Boat kept on its
way over the Sound - I could not sleep very well - at first - got on
wide awake and nervous, but sleep came at last and then I rested
well -. We reached [New York] at [half] past 6 - & took the 7 oclock train for
[Philadelphia] - . Ate our breakfast and came on rapidly -. I have thought
much of the trip we took four years ago, many changes since then
but we have been true, and faithful friends always - Now and forever -.
It is not likely we will ever travel again together, so we can remember
these times -. This has been pleasanter than I expected -. It has
been nice to have some one take the trouble & care of seeing to things -
and John has been very kind to me all the time - so I trust him -.
We arrived in [Philadelphia] at 11 oclock, & there parted - I went to see
J. E. Rhoads - he was not in so came home and surprised them as
they were not looking for me till 7th day - Lide's at Chester [County].
It is delightful to be at home again - As I came down my heart
throbbed with gratitude that I had a home to come to -.

17th I spent most of the time doing nothing - getting rested. They went
to the Home & to see Hannah Ann. In the P.M. I went to call on Mary -.
Sam and Sallie are here with the sweet children, they were much pleased
with the napkin rings and other small gifts -.

18th Our yard looks green and beautiful, they have had more rain
here than New England -. I do wonder how Anna is - I think so much
of my delightful visit there -. We girls are having a good time -. J Purvis here.

19th They spent a pleasant evening at Uncle Williams -. J. here - brought
a recommendation for Delia - . It was a nice visit. Alike 50 slate.

20th My first Sabbath home, attended [meeting] & wrote letters in P.M.

21st Went to city at 7. called at J. E. Rhoads - had three teeth filled -
dined at L. Child's - saw Mrs Hallowell & came home at 6 -.

22nd Up in night not well - so weak all day - diarrea - Hector out -

23rd Sams went in to do their Peaches up - left Harry out here staid all night.

24th I went to city - Dentist finished my teeth - met Sallie & Sam at one
then went to look at trunks - My kind brother S. said he, Ben & father
were going to give to me, so we got a splendid one - gave 21.00 [dollars] O! my
such kindness overwhelms me - my heart is too full to half thank
them -. I came home to tea - they were going to stay one more night -.

25th Anna Child & Rachie out to spend the day -. J. up - read therefore -
I asked him for my letters, he would not unless I would return his - this was more than I expected that had been my great comfort & I could not give them up - even the thought made me cry - it was so sudden -. We had much talk & he said he would give me mine then -.


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[August] 1865. [September]

26th My new trunk came to-day, beautifully marked -.

27th Attended [Meeting] -. busy fixing old relics -. Pleasant visit at Sarah B. H. Willits here

28th Sent letters to Laura [?] Port Royal - asking about clothes -

29th Went to appointed [Meeting] R. Hicks preached - Mary Jane Field from
Tarrytown dined here, I went with her to Lippincotts - our folks tea at Powells.

30th of August 1865. At 7 Father and I started for Plymouth, called to
see Rachel Moore, then on to Cousin Oliver's to dine - they
went with us as over to Guy's - found dear Sarah very poorly, not
been able to sit up much since last May -. They were very glad to have us.

31st Father & Uncle George went to Gwynedd [Monthly] [Meeting] -. Jesse James and
Sallie Cleaver passed -. We had a nice day to ourselves -
Aunty & [?] can hardly let me go away -. our parting was in
tears - then we went to Cousin Olivers, had a nice visit - . Lizzie
is very lovely & they have a sweet little babe, he just the same -

September 1865 We started early and went to Heacocks at
Chelten Hills, saw one that had been South, then went to
Charles Mitchener's to dine - real pleasant visit, quite a
dusty ride home -. Once going up a shady wooded hill, saw some
play houses on the bank. I got out and put some pennies
between the broken dishes -. It will make some childs heart happy.

2nd Sams & Lyd went to Uncle Halls, to spend a few days -.

3rd Thomas Palmer came up & asked me to open school they have been
disappointed in getting a teacher -. I told him I would for a while.

3rd Did not go to [Meeting] wrote to Anna and Sadie - very warm
showery all the P.M. yesterday sister Lyd gave me a
beautiful silver fork spoon & napkin ring and beautifully marked,
how very kind it was -, my heart seems very full - Mother
said she did not know what to get so gave me twenty dollars.

4th Again opened school in my old place. The children seemed very glad
and I had no trouble getting things to order again -. I had made
each one wrap up books & slates & have their names on - so it was easy getting.
I did not get very tired, & would be quite willing to keep it the whole
year. Messrs Verlenden, Palmer & Seville were here most of the morning.

5th Lide came home from Chester County -. I am so glad to see her -.

6th Parents started for Crosswicks. Lide went to the city to go Fairmont.
Came home at 9 oclock - John was up & brought me my letters. oh
what strange feeling they gave -. I sat late in my own room !!
I will long remember this eve -. How suddenly the long-hoped -for- may come & go -.
Last eve - Mary Sipler - Miss Barry & John, spent with us -.

7th Too bad Lide has to be alone & me busy in School -. Lizzie Yarnall
went home and staid all night with us -. Sam out.


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[September] 1865.

8th The week has passed quickly in school -. Isiah out, & Sam also
as he did not get off to West chester -. The former brought me a very
pretty brush and comb. So kind in him -. The other John brought me a great
big stone bottle of the best ink -. So I will be quite supplied -.

9th I cut & made two pair of drawers. Read most of the evening -.

10th John came up & read us part of "The House of Clarks and Follet" etc.
has finished it -. How can he find time to write so much - yet, I am
so glad - He has talents & it would be a great shame not to use them -
He had an engagement after tea so could not spend the evening -.
I gave him a long letter I had written on receiving all mine back -.

11th Beautiful warm, morning -. I have several new Scholars -.
Sams came home from Chester County -. John could not finish his [?] engagement.

12th Parents came home from Crosswicks, Bristol & Hectors -. brought about
30 [pounds] of Quinces -. I [?] all night to tea Phil was not nominated -.
John came up and finished reading The House of Clark & Follet. Some of
it is very beautiful -. The characters of Margaret Strelyard was good -
womans, faith and constancy proved so lasting -. Charles Follet was a
true man - noble in all things yet modest and humble -. Some of the
sentiment is good & true & pure -. I was so much obliged to him -.

13th I am not feeling at all strong - perceive that the two weeks of school will
wear me down a good deal - Such warm weather - Letter from Sadie -.

14th Cousin Hannah Roberts spent the day with us -. Came to see me before
going South -. I gave my school to Mary for the afternoon -.

15th Brother was out this evening -. I closed school & bade good bye to all -.

16th Attended the examination for Teachers - 14 applicants - it was
given to a Miss Sue Springer -. We had quite a gay time up there -.

17th Amos Stillborn & wife spent the day here -. Lyd & Howard
drove into Sansom [Street] to hear Aden Ballou - back to dinner -

18th I went to the city - bought a water proof 10.75. It rained
hard before I came home. Called to see Dr Rhoads, he says
we will have to keep house -. They send bedsteads, etc. - here

19th Busy all day sewing. G. Ash wife & two teachers spent eve

20th Sams all moved in. Lide took them in the carriage -.

21st Did much sewing as no one was here - Went up to school awhile

22nd Aden Ballou from Hopedale, [Massachusetts] & all of Drs were out - in the
eve - Mr Ware and John were here quite a pleasant visit

23rd - We were expecting aunt Jane down but she did not come -.

24th I was busy fixing drawers, & putting away things. In the
P.M. Lide and I went to McAllisters -. Good time - Matt Ash
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25th Mother went to the city and saw Dr Rhoads, her
accounts are quite favorable -. We go to housekeeping there.

20th Mrs Bannister was here to dine & bid me good bye,
and Phebe Bartram spent the eve here - Maris was here last -
but, Lide and I were down at Marys - so did not see him.

27th We took tea at Aunt Esthers - she is miserable found
Isiah here when we returned -. He came to talk to me.

28th He drove Lide and I to town, we had the horse put
up, & then were all day nearly. Shopping. brought a hat -.
He drove us out of town - is so kind about such things -
Sallie is very busy doing up fruit for me 6 cans came out -

29th This morning had a letter from Mary A Sharp and her
Photograph; both made a very favorable impression on
all of us, so easy and kind Also one from Dr R. saying
the vessel did not sail till next 7th day -.
E. Tomlinson was here all night -. I wrote to E. W. & Aunt E. etc.
telling I would not start so soon -. also to M. A. Sharp & sent
my photograph to her -. I had some Ferrotypes taken 5th day -
We took tea a [Cousin] Ephraims, poor [Cousin] M cried hard [?] .

30th I was getting ready to go to the Horticultural Fair, when Aunt Jane came
down, she brought me dried apples, peaches, and corn -. About
9. John came and brought me No Name by Wilkie Collins to read on the
way-. He took us down to hear John Bromall - he spoke very well.

October 1st 1865. My last [First] day at home. No one can know all
that I am passing through, yet am strengthened to keep up a cheerful spirit.
I can do well in the day, and although I sit up very late on purpose
to get sleepy many a tear is shed on my pillow in the silence & alone -.
There has been much company here - 20 or 30. Kind Susan Hibberd brought
me 6 cans of fruit - tea towels & two holders. Lizzie Yarnall a nice dust
pan & brush -. Sam, Sallie out - Lees here - After all had retired I
burned over four hundred pages, that I had written to dear John -. It pained
me very much - for they had been happiness to him, & a great pleasure
to me to write them -. I wrapped them all in the shroud of the past - and only
on our hearts will there be any record, there they must remain sacred -.
I wrote to him also - How many many memories come over me - Trusting and true.

2nd Aunt Jane went home - Aunt Esther is spending a few days
with us she has been so poorly -. John came up & read us a sweet piece -

3rd [Cousin] M & Han Ridgway were here to tea -. John brought me
up my new shoes and boots -. I went to school and bade the
children good bye -.


118.

4th Busy all day packing my trunk - Major Price came
out and packed the box of canned fruit carpet etc. -. Oldden was
here to tea John & Rebecca Verlenden to spend the evening.

5th This morning I sent in by Express my large Saratoga
Trunk, big box and [Crossed out: writing] rocking chair. Went to
Dr Jones & got some medicine for sea-sickness & sore throat.
I can scarcely realize that this is my last day at home.
It is a great responsibly, and I feel it very much -;
yet hope all will be well and I will be benefited.
At the same time I bid good bye to his my
dear dear diary, it has been faithful and true to me
always - and I am attached to it though there
are many things - worthless & useless -. Lyd came out yesterday.

[In pencil]
Started South to teach [October] 4, 1865
Sister Sarah & Howard went to [New York]
with me & to the Steamer, R R.
all turn up by the War


[In pencil]

1914. [?] - The same rocking
chair is now in my porch
of the house I lived in
Aiken [South Carolina] [?] [?] il l
on the Islands & hemorrhage
of the Lungs - forced me to
Aiken - where I got well


P 16 - account of wedding
of Isaac & Mary Clothier


[August] 30 1864

War Experiences -

Expectancy of her Mission 9, 13

Disposition - Personality
9, 10, 12, 14, 15, 17, 18, 21

Fr. 19

School 19

Leisure
P 20


[Back Board]


[Calling Card]

Marion E. Dean.
Marion E. Dean


[Calling Card - verso]

Miss Martha Schofield
Darby, Harrison
Bayside


[Newspaper clipping - amusing account]

The Tyrant.