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Martha Schofield.
Darby. Delaware Co.
[Pennsylvania]
Strictly Private.
Diary.
1860 1861 1862 to [February]
November 1st 1860 Again I commence a new book, but who
can tell what may happen before it will be full perhaps
I may be summoned before the external Judge ere it is half
filled. If so I trust my Spirit may be as pure and unblemished
as these spotless pages, it, like them must receive
impressions, yet I hope they will be such as only to make
it more valuable and may the record of each day of my life
be worth something, even if that something be no more than
pure thoughts and holy feelings - these are calculated to elevate
the mind and purify the Soul - making it more fit for eternity.
This morning we attended meeting, it was very small, being so
soon after our Quarterly meeting, but just before the close our
young friend, John Bartram arose and said "Hearken! be still
and know that I am the way and the life etc. etc. etc." - after he sat
down the silence was very solemn, and many were affected
that one so young in years (not much over 20) should thus
rise up in our midst. He has always been a quiet young man.
After dinner Jennie, Lide and myself went up to Sharon, spent
a very pleasant afternoon - she had not been there since Aunt
Rachel left and thought it much changed. When we came back
to Darby found mother and Aunt Jane who had come from the
city, left Sallie and her little son doing very well.
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2nd Busy sewing all morning, after dinner Jennie and I went
in to see Sallie in the evening went down to Broad and
chestnut to see the great parade, it was a beautiful sight
so many Arch lights, it was three miles and a half long.
3rd Rainy all day, so Jennie could not go home. I baked for
Sallie and then we had a real nice time - baby very good.
4th Cleared off quite cold Sam Jennie and myself went down
to Race [Street] meeting which was very large and we had a
most excellent sermon from Dr Truman, I do think his sermons
are so elevating, so pure and high, I never get tired of listening
to his eloquence or being instructed by his doctrines, there is
so much gospel in his preaching it cannot help benefiting -
We attended the same meeting in the evening but it was silent -
5th Sallie's nurse left this morning, but we got along very well.
Jennie went home in the afternoon - dear little Howard is
very good indeed, and grows finely. Sallie is gaining, dear
creature I cannot feel too thankful that her life was
spared, to bless us and guard the precious blossom that has
been intrusted to their keeping. it is the first volume of
their united lives and the pure pages will receive its first
impressions from them my prayer will be that they may
not make H an idol, but always remember it is lent
from God and he may call it to His home though I do
sincerely hope it may be His will to let it grow in goodness
and live a long and valuable life.
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Sixth of November - This day thousands and thousands of hearts
beat with anxious feeling, it will be the end of a great
campaign - a day to be remembered in the history of the
nineteenth century, as each hour of the night comes in
the electric wires, bring with lightening speed the news
that the Republican party are gaining the victory, yes
before to nervous dawn we know that Abraham
Lincoln is chosen president of these United States
and Hanibal Hamlin vice president - this is a
great victory, the south will no longer rule and tho
he may not be an abolishionist, he is better far better
than a Democrat, and his being elected is an evidence
that the people have been roused from their lethargy, and
have seen that their freedom will be taken from them &
they made to submit to Southerners laws - but a good
time has come and now we may hope for better things.
I spent part of the evening at Aunt Rachels, when I
came back found "Cousin Beckie" Earl and James Shin
we had a real nice visit from them - they are so kind.
7th I went down town to do so shopping, when I came back
found Father and mother had called and left Lyd on
their way to Hectors - In the P.M. called to see Lide Price.
I came out home to tea, found cousin Mary here. It was
dark so she staid all night with us - had a real good time.
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8th - I went with cousin M down to Darby, then to Dr. Ash's -
came home and then we went to meeting -
This evening we went to the Lyceum, which was quite '
large and very interesting, just as we reached home
Lide fainted away, they carried her in, but she was a good
while coming too - Rebecca staid all night with us.
9th Commenced raining this afternoon in the eve Edward was
so kind as to come up and stay all night with us -
it was very nice as our family is so small only three -
10th Cloudy though it did not rain any - I was very
busy sewing, sat up quite late to finish, which I did.
11th Many many times to day memory has carried me
back to the past, the past! how much is meant in
that one word - my thoughts have been very very busy
with words and actions that were long ago. I know
not why but some things have come before my minds
eye that I thought were blotted out long ago. I think
that this vision of today may be of benefit and I
might say for years, that had not been so many though
of what has happened - so much comes plainly before me
sometimes causing pain sometimes pleasure - two
great drama's of my life never to be forgotten, and
known only to me. "After the storm sunshine comes tho xxx."
Nathan Sellers spent the evening with us very pleasantly.
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12th We were very busy all day but finished washing and ironing
by five oclock. Mary Jones and Edward Andrews spent the evening
with us, he staid all night as our folks had not got home.
13th A beautiful day, though quite warm and windy. In the evening
Edward A. and Ben B. brought Maggie and Beckie Heys down soon
after Will Bartram and two Mr Rhoads came from the city, we all
spent the evening very pleasantly. had a real nice time they left at 10.
14th Another most beautiful day, after dinner, Mart Jones, Phebe
Bartram and we went to take a walk to gather burs, we had
a long and pleasant ramble, in many places the grass was
springing up a fresh and the small plants put their green
heads above ground, not corresponding with the leafless trees -
Soon after our return Father and mother came home after an
absence of just one week - had a very pleasant visit at Hector's.
15th I did not attend meeting, as we expected company. Sallie, Anna
and Thomas Child with two children spent the day with us.
16th This morning Lide and I took a long walk for burs and acorns
went over John Bartrams new house, then down to the creek.
17th After dinner Sam, Sallie, the baby and Ben & Lyd came out, it
was our dear Sallies first visit since she became a mother, little
Howard was very good, precious child he is, and would stand a
chance of being spoiled among so many Aunties. it is best he is not always here.
18th Dull morning though the sun shone out a little while, there were
a great many callers here - Anna Bell & Sallie took dinner with us.
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19th Ben and Sam went to the city in the cars in the P.M. Father
and mother went in and took Sallie and the baby- Jesse Bond here -
20th Our monthly meeting which I attended and was benefited -
This afternoon we went to Cousin Ephraim's had a real nice time -
O. told me what he has heard but I told him no it was not could not be.
This evening Mary Jackson gives a large party of Li, Lide, Lydllie Cooper.
Lide and I were not invited, Lyd was but did not attend because
of the slight to us. we know no reason why she should act
thus, always speaks so sociably, there were over seventy invitations
nearly all the young people around here - I am more sorry
because there can not be the same feelings after, still I will try
to do my part rightly, and then I am not to blame - I do not
believe in her heart she did not want us, but had been influenced -
21st Father and mother started for Chester, where they would take
the boat for Salem, to pay, a long talked of visit - This P.M.
we had quite a snow squall - after tea we went to the Lyceum
which was very interesting indeed, Lide and Alice Pearson read.
22nd I was very busy making a shirt for brother. Cousin John here -
After tea we went to the School House where we had a most
excellent, eloquent and instructive lecture from a young girl
not yet 18, Anne Dickenson, her subject "Woman and her
Position." It was a grand good thing and done admirably -
all were pleased and they must have been very dull
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who were not the better for hearing that young and noble
creature so feelingly and truthfully portray the true position
of women, it was entirely extempore, and the earnest words
fell from her lips as though she were inspired by God,
indeed who could say she was not - she is working in a
noble cause, and never can the impression of that young being
pleading so beautifully for one half of the human race
be driven from my memory, you would not call her handsome,
though as she stood there with her soul beaming from her
eyes and purity stamped on every feature, and over all
shining a holy light. I thought her beautiful, she is very
modest, and so young looking dressed in plain good taste
and short hair which waves over a noble forehead, and
covers a head which one glance at shows to be well proportioned
and evenly developed - but, I can give but a small tribute
to the name of Annie Dickenson, if her life is spared, she will
have a great work to do, and ere many years a crown of
honor will be laid at her feet, I feel proud, feel the better for
having had the grasp of her hand and received a kiss from
those pure and unsullied lips. We spent an hour with her
afterwards, and she would have remained with us all night
had she not had an engagement for the next evening and
had to return home. oh! the noble hearted girl, may
she be strengthened to fulfill her mission.
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23rd Dull and rainy nearly all day and high winds at night -
24th Cold and very windy, tried to snow, Lyd went to the city
This afternoon Lide and I walked over to the Bell, called at
Thomas Bonsalls as we came back, real pleasant chat.
25th Very cold thermometer down to 14. we attended meeting, spent
the afternoon in reading John Bunting here to tea - I finished
Euthanasy which contains many good and beautiful truths.
26th Just as we finished ironing Father and mother came, having
been away nearly a week, had a very pleasant visit at Salem.
27th Rainy all day, but notwithstanding, we all four went to
Thomas Bartrams to tea, we young folks had a splendid time
in the sitting room, "Friend John, Sarah Jane, Ebenezer & Tabitha."
28th Mother went to the city, we read Longfellows Hyperion, which
contains very many beautiful passages. J Bunting & Lucy spent the [?] here
29th Mother came out from the city, we attended meeting, two sermons
mother spoke of A long Thanksgiving day. It is a beautiful
day and many churches will be opened and many sermons
preached, and I hope that all may ascend from sincere hearts.
I have thought much of it and felt there was need of thanks always.
This afternoon Lide went to Sharon Mother to see E. Bunting, soon
after Edward Nelson came, he staid to tea - Ben Bartram & Edwin
came and took Lide and myself up to Heys, we had a real
delightful time, Cousin John was there, the girls played and we
danced a little, enjoyed the evening very much coming home I told Edward about the party-
30th Father & Mother went to the city to attend David Ellis's funeral rainy this P.M.
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December 1st A cold windy day, towards evening Uncle Thomas
Bell, wife, and Carrie came. Anne was here & [?] in the eve.
2nd One year ago John Brown was hung "high up in the Heavens free
air" and the "image of our God was placed a dangling victim
there"; when will the dark spot of capitol punishment be blotted
from our country, when will the law be such that no life can
be taken. I hope it may not be long before all are enlightened.
After dinner I drove to Cousin Ephraims took Aunt E & children
came back in time to go to Josephs to tea. Edward & Hill B. here. I
sent for Lide, had a real pleasant time. I wrote to Edward Willets.
3rd - Uncle Charley went home, and Uncle T. wife & Carrie to Chester County
4th We were busy sewing, it snowed all day, quite hard
5th A beautiful day and every thing robed in pure white, we
attended the Lyceum which was very interesting indeed,
a debate on Capital Punishment, and a good number of the [?]
Oldden was here after we left so I did not see him which I
regretted. Mary Jones called awhile also J.N.P. The snow going
6th Another pleasant day, attended our usual 5th day meeting
had some very good thoughts I endeavored to think right
Went to the post office, received a letter from J. J. P. and L. M. B
This evening Lide and myself spent with R. H. Boyd, pleasantly
7th This afternoon Lide and myself took the carriage and started
out begging for the Anti Slavery Fair, went to Elizabeth Bartram
Ben gave us some turnips and potatoes, called at several
other places but did not succeed in getting much
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8th This morning it Snowed very fast, but Aunt E. and self
went to the city, dined at Aunt R took tea at Sallies, came home.
9th Aunt E's went to Uncle W's to dine, after meeting
Mother's text this morning was Guard well thy thoughts, our
thoughts are heard in Heaven, she spoke beautifully.
This afternoon dear little Howard was to have an anurism cut out
I hope he will not suffer very much & his mother can bear it well [?]
10th Uncle and Aunt left for Crosswicks, Mother went to the city
and as it stormed very hard did not come back to day.
11th Lide and myself went out begging for the Fair, made several
calls but did not get a great deal. After dinner we went
to the city, to attend the Fair held in the Assembly Buildings
I was waiter at the eating table and we were very busy -
went to Sister Sallie's to stay all night, dear little Howard grows.
12th At the Fair rooms all day and evening. Saw a great many
friends and acquaintances - enjoyed it very much indeed -
Abi James went to Sallie's with us, a rea nice visit from her.
13th I took charge of the babe while Sallie went to the Fair awhile
then I went down afterwards - This evening G. W. Cartis was to
leacture but the Mayor thought he could not protect both so they
would not let him, a scandlous shame - in this country of free speech
Lizzie James staid all night at Sallies. George and Jesse were with us
14th Went shopping awhile then to the Fair Rooms, they looked very
beautiful, the fern table was magnificent and beautifully arranged.
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at 4 we bid all good bye and came home, George and Lizzie
with us, soon after tea Ben and Edward came and we all went to
Jones's where we spent a very pleasant evening, R. Hey & Cousin , John [?].
15th They both returned to the city. After dinner our folks all went
to Cousin Mary's. I had a real nice quiet time alone.
16th A beautiful first day. In the evening Father mother and
myself went to Sharon, found Joseph & Mart there, we
went into meeting, mother spoke most beautifully to the
girls, also offered up an eloquent and fervent prayer, both
for the pupils and teachers, Jane was very much affected.
17th Aunt Esther and Cousin John here to tea, he asked me
to write some invitations for him which I did, he is grooms
man, and they were for the wedding of William Bartram and
Mary Anna Garrett, both unknown to me. I was quite
busy as I wrote and directed fifty, but finished them all for him.
18th Amos Bonsall brought Emily Fell here, we had a real
pleasant time, in the evening the Lyceum committee met
here, and we transacted our business. Parents both [?] at [?] [?].
19th Dull and rainy, we attended the Lyceum which was very interesting.
20th Cleared off towards night, Rebecca Lide & self spent the eve
with Lizzie Bunting, had talked of it a long while.
21st The shortest day in the year and commencement of winter,
but, very war and beautiful, we spent the day at Aunt Esthers.
22nd Did our hog work. Lide & I took tea at Isaac Bartram's real nice time.
John brought us home, found J. H. A. and wife here.
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23rd Another beautiful first day. I attended meeting and must
confess, my mind was running on many worldly things
Ben Will Phebe and Sue Mc A spent the evening here.
Father and mother, with Cousin M. were at Pusey's -
24th Cousin Mary, Maryetta and myself went to the
city to shop bought her a new cloak, bonnet etc. came
home in the afternoon. she went home with George.
25th A bright beautiful Christmas morning, and though
it may prove a happy one to many hundreds will
know no joy and feel no happiness, poverty, sickness
and death will cast shadows over many homes. Then we
that have plenty cannot be thankful enough that
our lot is cast amid the blessings which we may
always find. Dave and Kate came out and we went
down to Cousin E's - had a good dinner and a pleasant
time, Heys, Cousin John, etc., were there and in the evening
between thirty and forty. we all had a real lively time.
I staid all night. It was beautiful and moonlight.
26th Cousin E. and I had a real nice talk this morning early.
George came home with me. Lide returned to Sharon with him.
27th This evening Charles Summer delivered a lecture in the city
to a crowded audience, subject LaFayette, it was 2 1/4 hours long.
28th This eve we heard Anne E. Dickenson deliver a most
eloquent and impressive lecture on Temperance. The .
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room was full, and it was splendid, she certainly has
a natural gift for speaking and I do not see how any
one could hear her without being benefited. It does my
very soul good to listen to such powerful arguments.
29th We were at a company at Heys, a very pleasant time
but my enjoyment was marred by seeing the wine cup
passed round, oh I plead hard with some of my young
friends, and though it is unpleasant to censure one in their
own house, I spoke my mind to the girls - and warned
them of the wrong of setting such temptations before others.
30th Mother was not well enough to go to meeting. I went alone
and had quite a good one; my sympathies and feelings
were with Uncle Jonty and his family, their heart are
bowed down with grief for they have said their last
farewell to the idol of their household - dear Aunt Fanny
has passed to the higher life, there to watch over and
wait for the cherished ones life in her desolate home -
31st This is the last day of the year 1860 and it has been
one of the most eventful of the 19th century, one long
to be remembered by the people of this nation, the Japanese
Embassy, the visit of the Prince of Wales, the election of
Abraham Lincoln and the secession of South Carolina all
combine to make it a year never to be forgotten by the
American People. I wrote a long long letter to E. H.
which kept me up most long enough to see the year depart.
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Eighteen Hundred
and
Sixty One.
January 1st A bright beautiful morning and the first
of the new year, and as soon as I awoke I thought
of the many changes that had taken place since
twelve months ago, then came before me broken resolutions
and good desires unfulfilled. I made others and hope they
may be adhered too. 'Twas upon this day the first of the
new year that one vow more was made, it with the other
two I feel to be registered in Heaven. These three I trust
will never be broken, the two made long ago have been
kept sacred and I hope this last one may be also, daily do
I think of them and always receive strength to keep them.
I finished a beautiful pair off slippers for H.O.R. took
them to Darby and met E. so sent them immediately.
This afternoon Sam Sallie Lyd and dear little Oliver H.
came out to spend the rest of the week with us.
2nd Most all dined at Dr. Ash's in the evening we all went
to the Lyceum which was well attended and interesting.
3rd They went to Grand mother Ash's and spent the day.
I went to [Meeting] and had a very good one indeed.
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4th . Quite a snow squall this morning but cleared off
beautifully in the afternoon. I called at Jones's a while.
5th Just as we were starting down to Cousin Ephraim's Uncle
Paxson and little Rachie so they went with us we left her
at Sharon spent a pleasant day and came home to tea.
6th Charles Longstreth and Betsy Bonsall both buried
yesterday. This morn John Hunt was at meeting.
The house was full and he spoke very well.
7th Uncle Paxson and Rachie left for home, Sam went to the city.
After an early dinner Lyd and I took Sallie and the baby
home. I drove all the way in as Father was not well & did not go.
8th Quite a bad sore throat all day tonsels swollen and ulcerated.
9th Been warm for several days does not seem much like winter.
10th Sent a long letter to J.J.S. not able to go to [meeting]. Edward here in eve.
11th To day I sent a letter that caused many sober thoughts before it
was written, but at last my pride was humbled enough to
obey my ideas if right [though] I may lose friends by it, still I have
done no more than my duty - may it be thought of and may
they see the wrongfullness of handing wine etc. in social parties.
Now that it is really done I feel more easy and better about it.
This P.M. I finished a shirt for my brother & wrote to him.
12th This morning Lyd and Lide took me down to Cousin E.'s.
After dinner they returned as it was snowing fast. I marked
some shirts, and a little after dinner Eph. and I started off on
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a sleigh, we had a very pleasant ride indeed, reached there
before seven oclock found all pretty well & glad to see us.
13th A very clear cold morning, thermometer six degrees below zero.
Edward W. spent the morn with us. Eph left after dinner
and Aunt Jane and I had a real nice time went to bed early.
14th Snowy nearly all day and we planned many merry sleighrides
Uncle was busy filling the ice house. weather was warmer.
15th Cloudy all day and getting warm, snow melting. C.T. here.
16th Quite rainy but [?] all spent the day. Carrie Oakford too.
17th Cleared off a little but still very unpleasant. We have made
up near 40 [yards] of muslin, not visited any tho' so stormy.
18th Dull again, but marked for Aunty, did not feel very bright.
19th A beautiful day at last. Temples here to tea, also Samuel Webb
and William, we had a real pleasant time & I enjoyed it.
20th A pleasant day about 12 Hall and I went over to Eaton
Kennet Square, saw Allie and the Byberry girls who seemed
quite delighted. I also met Mart Townsend who was on a visit.
we went back to Temples to tea, other company there and
among others J.A.W. who was very attentive to me and I
thought afterwards many a young girl would have taken
those softly spoken words, and deep looks all for earnest, but
I have steeled my heart so that it can not be impressed very
easily. I hope he does not act so to many or he may do harm
and yet I can truly say he was very gentlemanly and
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there was nothing soft about him. Hueys were there also.
21st Aunty and I went to Hamorton also to see a Sick woman
This eve G. took me to a lecture, all the company we met last
eve was there and we had a real nice time. J.A. & S. very attentive.
22nd Aunt Jane and I went to Thomas Hoopes spent a very pleasant
day, came back to Isaah to stay all night, a real nice visit.
23rd Went out and made some calls on Grand mother etc., then to [Doctors] to
dine and out to Phil Paxsons awhile, saw Dellie home to tea.
Afterwards went to lecture with A. driving the evening took an opportunity
to reply to C. so that hereafter there will be an understanding
between us I am glad of it. I had a long letter from home today.
24th Rainy nearly all day, but we spent it at Mary Wilsons.
25th I had a very bad cold and cured it by abstaining from food
and drink for 48 hours, which cured it entirely. We went
to Hueys, called and took temples, had a delightful visit
at L.N. & M.W. there, beautiful and moonlight coming come.
26th We went up to [Monthly Meeting] dined at S. Hoopes. it snowed hard
all day. we had a sweet visit, Sarah is so lovely. I had a letter
from Eph saying he could not come up this week.
27th Clear and cold, G. was here early to invite me to ride this eve.
He attended Birmingham [Meeting]. Mary & Samuel Allen there.
This P.M. Hueys were here, after tea we all went and took a
long and elegant sleighride, it was beautifully clear, and
I enjoyed it very much indeed. called at Temples awhile.
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28th This P.M. Aunty and I went over and called on Painters
Han was away so we did not see her long. I was very sorrow
29th Cloudy, so we went down to Concord Quarter in the carriage
I expected to go home, but did not of a certain way from
the cars. so returned with Uncle P's. Saw a good many
at [Meeting]. Edward gave me a letter, it was from C.L.H.
and I was quite surprised tho' do not regret following the
course I did: the way seemed plain and I followed in it.
We dined at S. Painters, then back to Sunny Side when we
got there found William W. had left an invitation for me, so
I went with G.T. and we had a really nice time. I accepted the
invitation to come home with him. Father & Mother at Uncles.
30th Colder to day, this P.M. we all went in a sleigh to Isaac Mendenhall.
made a call; then on to J. Cox's where we met with a warm
welcome and had a real nice time. Will very polite indeed.
31st Josiah's out here to spend the day, about 3 oclock G. came &
then we started for home, had a real nice ride, stopped and
eat oyster at a Hotel, then came on found all well.
February 1st The anniversary of my birth day, to day I am
22 and oh! how earnestly I have desired to live as He directs
to, be faithful over small things, to do right, act justly and
think only pure thoughts. There are moments when I feel as
though my love for higher and holier things is so great that
I would willingly live my life for God, but soon
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worldly things occupy my attention and I become too
much interested in earthly pleasures and sometimes forget
that they are all good gifts from above. I am getting
old, and yet feel that there is much to do, and me so
feeble to fulfill my part which could not be done without
strength which can only be received through earnest prayer.
This P.M. we three went to Sharon and then to take
a ride home to tea, and to the city in the evening, went to
the Signor Blitz which was very amusing. Then got ice
cream etc. and home in the eve past 10 car. quite rainy.
2nd Foggy and rainly all day. G. went home this morn. Lyd to the
city. Mother and I called at Sharon. E.J.R. here awhile
3rd Several of the Sharon Scholars here awhile, we all attended meeting
Oldden here to dine and tea, we spent the evening at Jones' meeting.
4th Cleared off this P.M. and really is quite warm. W.D.S. here.
5th Father, mother & Lide all went in to attend Philadelphia [Quarterly Meeting].
I had a nice quiet time to myself. Mother came home in the
9 oclock car father staid to attend the lecture of John Rarey
the great horse tamer at the Academy of Music, he had
several vicious kicking horses all of which he tamed down.
6th This afternoon I walked to Sharon to hear Ann Preston's
lecture which was very good indeed, she spoke most beautifully
to the girls, and her advice was excellent. Several of the girls
are sick in bed with the measles, Anne and Carrie among them.
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7th I again went to Sharon and took my post by the bedside
of the sick, seven were in bed, and though none of
them very ill all needed attention. I remained all day
but came down to John Andrews' to tea as we had all
been invited there, Bartrams were also. Sade and her dear little
Maggie were up, Joe was on from La Cross and we had a real
nice time, he and E. waited, on us home, and it was one of the
windest nights I ever was out, we could scarcely walk.
Lide came out from the city this morning and she was there too.
8th Thermometer 4 below zero, yet it was still I walked to
Sharon without suffering very much, Lide went to Darby with me.
I found all the sick ones better, still, I staid all night and
slept in a sick room to wait on them I was much afraid
Cousin Jane would be worn out. Mrs. Price was there a few days.
9th Came home and made cake etc. in the P.M. seven of the Sharon
girls came Beckie P. Hattie J. Amanda A. Annie T. Edy S Alice W and S.J.P.
we did have a real nice time and such fun, Ben & Lyd came
out and in the eve Cousin John and Chalk B. Cousin Jane sent
for the girls at eight oclock. They enjoyed their visit much.
10th About ten oclock Ben and I went to the city, left Lyd home.
found Sallie and the baby pretty well. he grows real fat.
11th Sallie went out and I took care of Howard, in the P.M. I went
down to 2nd [Street] for the spoon. To day is Samuels birth day 32.
on the tea table were two box's one contained a silver spoon & fork for Howard on his
fathers birthday from Cousin Beckie, the other a mush spoon from Sallie to Sam.
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12th We had a nice quiet day to ourselves. Nettie called awhile
Humphry and Mary spent the evening here. then Lyd & [?].
13th I went down town to do some shopping came back to dinner
and at two Ben came in his carriage to take us home, we
shut house, and came out baby was very good all the way.
After tea we went to the Lyceum which was very interesting
long lecture from Dr. Jones, the Wreath was very good.
14th A beautiful morning, I attended meeting. Phebe was with me it letter from Sade & Anna
was preparative meeting, Sade R, was there with little Maggie.
15th Rainy nearly all day, tho' the Sun was out a while Mart D here.
16th A lovely morn Samuel came out. Lide went to the Germania with John.
Rainy in the evening. Humphry was here. Sade R. etc. this P.M.
17th A bright sunshiny morning, all went to meeting but myself.
I took care of Howard they are dined at Dr. Ash's. Thomas Bonsall & wife here.
18th Mary Jones & sister were here awhile this P.M. I am not very well.
19th All went to monthly meeting except Lyd, just before the
shutters were closed I felt that Lide had fainted, I turned and saw
her leaning on Beckie Pearts shoulder, I immediately opened
the door and we carried her out, she soon came too, the heat
had caused it; when we came home found Mary Christian
she had come from town and was not at all well. At 3 oclock
Lyd, Sallie and Howard went to the city. Edward spent eve here.
Answer contemplations.
20th Oldden was here to dine, also Major Wilkinson who entertained
us with an account of his troubles in Slavery and his buying
himself, he is writing an autobiography and we subscribed.
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21st George came and took Mary home. Father went up to Hectors
to spend a few days. Very windy and cold this P.M.
22nd The anniversary of Washington's birth day. at seven oclock
this morning thousands were at Independence Square to
see a flag raised, in the helping of which Abraham Lincoln
the president elect took a part he is on his way to the
White House there to take the highest office conferred to any
man in these United States. may be bring Peace to this
distracted country is the heartfelt prayer of thousands.
Large numbers meet and welcome him everywhere.
Ben and a friend of his were here awhile this afternoon.
23rd Warm morning but rainy afternoon. Father came home from Hectors.
24th Windy all day. I was at meeting but my mind was unsettled.
25th Lide went to Sharon to see about going to New York, Cousin
Israel thought it would do her good, she concluded to go
26th Lide and I took mother into the city, she went on to Bristol
we came home soon, she was going to stay all night.
27th Mother came home, after tea we went to the Lyceum
which was quite full, though many absent, real interesting.
My contribution was signed K.Y.Z. & the editor wrote that
"The above is a very interesting Algebraic Equation - given the
article, Love with a long dissertation thereon to find out the 3 unknown
quantities "K.Y.S." Mr. Neal is an interesting debater
and says so much that is good and worth hearing -
No one waited on us home shows the gallantry of Darby gents.
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28th Attended meeting, the last one Lide will be at for
some time, Hattie J. went to the office with us, Father
mother and Lide went to Cousin M. to dine, this P.M.
while I was alone, Hattie and Edie L. came, when they
left I went to the car with them. Mary Jones was here awhile.
MARCH 1st A little before eight Father and I escorted
Lide to the cars, found Anne & Carrie, Jennie Bunting and
several others waiting there, so it was quite a merry company.
Israel went with them to Kensington - When I came back the
house seemed quite lonely without our youngest one, tho
baby of our household, and though over 20 summers have
passed over her head she still seems like, our little sis.
Her health will most likely be improved and it needs it,
while at the bureau this morn she fainted entirely away.
2nd We were all prepared for Hector and Mary but they did not
come, Lyd came out, also Arthur Ivins and George Child.
We had a letter from Lide mailed in [New York] they arrived safely.
3rd. Sam and Sallie out to dinner afterwards Dr. Child & family
J & E Newport, George Truman and family etc. in the eve. Mart
Richardson & John, her parents etc. after all had retired I wrote a
long letter to Lide. did not get to bed very early.
4th Astie and I took Sallie and Lyd in town in the carriage
5th This eve John & Rebecca came for me to go to meet the
committee I had a real nice time. we all had fun.
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6th Soon after tea the bell rung and who should it be
but Ellis Ridgway. I was very much surprised, but
very soon we were chatting merrily. There was to be a
special meeting of our Lyceum, so we went and it
proved to be quite interesting not a great many there
but the Constitution was discussed and altered, also [?]
officers elected Mr. Verlindin Vice President, and myself
Recorder, we had a real lively time and enjoyed it.
7th We took a walk this morning, called on Rebecca, then
came back and went to Meeting, where people were
anxious know who the strange young man was, we
walked to the office in company with Edward Gill & Phebe
before us Mary Bunting between Mary and Lizzie Jackson.
After dinner, Ellis and I went to Cousin Mary's had a real
nice visit, Oldden came back in his carriage then they two
went to Cousin John to stay all night - went where he was.
8th Ellis and Oldden came to dinner, after I ran over to see if
Mart Jones could go to see Hattie Johnsons, she could not go
so we three went, she was not home, but they were so kind
insisted on our going [?] and they would send for her, so
they did, and we had a most royal time, her sisters
very pleasant, do not know when I ever enjoyed
a visit more. They enjoyed very much, and
we were so glad we went, quite dark coming home.
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9th Very windy most all night and this morning raining
hard, notwithstanding Ellis left in the 9 oclock car.
Part of the morning the rain came down in torrents, and
much wind, towards evening it ceased, and after tea who
should walk but Hector, Mary, Maggie, & Ella Child.
10th All went to meeting. I rode home with Oldden, found
Lyd here, after dinner, Father, Hector & Artie went to C. E. Mother
to visit the sick, members of [meeting] O. and I had a good long
talk about P. which was satisfactory to both of us. I
wrote to Lide and told all the news. Ellen's visit etc. etc.
11th H & A. went home, this P.M. they went to [Cousin] E. just as I finished
ironing John B. came for me to Jones's, I did and we had a
real nice time, he his violin and Mart played on piano.
12th About eleven who should walk in but Aunt Jane Price,
just in time to see Grahmes Dodgsons etc. that [?] her to tea.
John Bartrams moved to their new house to day.
A letter from Lide telling me who Contemplation was [?].
13th Father took all to town but mother and self. I called
at Rebecca's school, also to see Sarah W. Bunting.
As I was going to the Lyceum met Hattie Johnson coming
up. we called for R. Edward and Ben B. waited on us. the
Lyceum was quite interesting, I read "Is it any bodies business"
which was loudly applauded. Hattie came to stay with me all
night then staid quite late and we had a merry chat.
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14th Quite snowy but notwithstanding, Hattie and I
left in the 10 oclock car. I went to Mrs. Jones to see R.
Tilton but she was out so I wrote a note and left it - then
went to the wharf where I met Dr. Truman, we went
together in the cars to Burlington where he left, I got off
at Bordentown where I found Jennie and Ell waiting.
it still continued to snow hail and rain, but we arrived
safely. Uncle Charley had that morn left for New York.
13th Cloudy all day but Joe Middletown took Ell and me to the
Reading Circle, which met at Hannah Ann Shotwells
about fifty there and we had a real nice time, good order
selected reading and much better and more interesting than
I expected. Ellis was very polite & I saw man I knew.
16th So much snow fell last night we all took a grand
sleigh ride this morn, called for Ede Middleton then
went to Crosswicks, Joe washed our faces & we had real fun.
This P.M. we went to Bordentown, all warm and clear.
17th Attended [Meeting] had a good sermon from H. W. Ridgway. We
took tea at Will Reads, Ellis's, Mr. Marot, Ridgways etc. were
there and we had a real nice time. I declined the invitation.
18th Cold and raw, we attended the funeral of Jacob Satterthwait
which was large. Uncle C. & Lizzie came from New York.
19th Sunny this morning but cleared off - we girls had nice talks.
20th I enjoy being here so much all so kind I wrote home.
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21st Real cold to day yesterday. We took tea at H.W. R. a delightful
time and I was so much pleased with Em. A long letter
from Rebecca also a paper - I had a talk with E. about 1st day
22nd Cold all day - We attended the R. Circle at Dr. Dewers, a grand
time, met Mrs Earl and many others - I wrote to Lide & Mother
23rd Jen, El, and I went to Bristol, Uncle to the city, found Cousin
C's pretty well, Ruth Anna and Josh both at home -
24th Attended [Meeting]. dined at Emmie's took tea at John Wildmans.
It was beautiful and moonlight and all enjoyed it much.
25th Emmy called and we all took a beautiful walk over to Bath
the Gas Works etc. Uncle came up and dined with us then we
went back to Crosswicks having spent a delightful time
26th We went to Anna Eliza Robert's to tea and had a nice visit
several others there - Joe Hendrickson took E home & Joe M me.
It was beautiful and moonlight and we enjoyed the ride
27th Rainy most all day - we talked in the house - a good time
28th Ell went to [Meeting] I wrote a piece for the Circle signed A.Z.Z.
29th A lovely morn, took a walk in Reeds, down in the woods,
killed two snakes, Sallie R is a real nice little creature -
We went over to attend the last Reading Circle at Rogers, it
was very large, several original essays mine was addressed
"To Our Circle". Soon after I had a long talk with Ellis he acted
very gentlemanly and we soon settled it. Poor fellow.
30th We took tea at Aarons, Joe & Ede there, all enjoyed it
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31st Went to [Meeting] had a good sermon from Henry - it does me
so much good to hear him speak, it is such plain practical
preaching that all can understand. A beautiful P.M.
Will Satterthwait, Lib, Miss Resden, John L. and W. Applegate
all took tea with us, Joe M. & Ells in [though] we we had a
real nice time, I had my fortune told for the August.
APRIL 1st Very unpleasant day for so much business.
The April Fooled all day Ben R. called awhile.
2nd Ell and I went to Shotwells awhile, then called at Rogers.
Spent the evening very agreeably at Amos Middletons
3rd Considerable company here to tea Buntings Reeds etc. - Joe M. etc.
Ellis and I had quite a conversation, I know he is sorry and I forgive.
4th Jen and I spent the morn with Cad & Sue. We took tea at
Will Decau's, their place is most beautiful, such elegant [?].
5th A most lovely day we had intended going home, but the smallpox
is so bad Uncle did not want us to go - We took a great walk
over to Ann Robert's. Aby Bell came last eve & he was with us.
Joe Hendrickson and Ede Middleton spent [though] we here "Enemies sworn."
6th A most beautiful day - Aby, Dave & Joe M. took us to Aaron Buntings.
They had an invited company and we spent a delightful
evening, danced a little etc. E. asked me to ride next day -
7th Attended [Meeting] and saw many acquaintances - after dinner
Ellis came, we took a ride to Bordentown Heights, etc. saw
Bonaparte's old place and met some of the most beautiful
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views, one where the River could be seen for miles and Trenton
plainly visible. We had a most delightful ride, pleasant
afternoon, I guess both of us will remember it for a long time
as the subject of conversation was interesting to both. Nate Decou
Dr. Reed & Edgar Brick spent the eve with us, Ellis and I had
quite a talk - With all his faults there is something about
him that I like. I believe there is much good, but it needs
a skillful hand to draw it out. I sincerely hope he may
be lead in the right path and walk uprightly. We parted
the best of friends and I hope we may remain so forever.
8th I have finished working a pair of slippers for Ben. Tomorrow we
leave for home and I shall be very sorry to bid farewell to Jersey
my visit this time has quite changed my opinion of the society
I have been very much pleased with it indeed - So socialable.
9th Jennie took Ell and myself to the Boat and we came to the city
met Hannah Ellen Holcomb, saw Will B. etc. we were [?] against smallpox
by having bags of asafoetida & Sulphur with us. we did our shopping
then went to Sallie's where we staid till most dark and then came
home, after I had been absent nearly 4 weeks - hurrah for Jersey.
10th Father and mother went to Plymouth. We sent Joe M some "original
Composition" all fixed up in packages. After tea went to the Lyceum
which was interesting, a good many there, Hays girls etc. etc. etc. - John
Bunting and Oldden waited on us home, the caller staid all night.
11th We were up early to take Joe's letter to the office -. Went to [Meeting]
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I had a letter from Ellis. most of it in regard to our talk
during Our Ride. I answered it this evening hope it will satisfy.
12th Took a walk to the office before breakfast. about 9 oclock I heard
Rebecca Boyd was married So Ell and I dressed up and went
to call on her, found them both in, and she was real glad
to see me, married last eve at 9. then came out, she is
nicely fixed and my sincere desire is that they may be
real happy, be enabled to bear with each others faults and
live in harmony - He has four children I hope they will love her.
Eph, Oldden and Edward A. spent the evening here.
13th Quite stormy most all day. Will B and E. spent eve here
we took a walk this afternoon, called at Pusey's, Ell lost pin -
14th Beautiful day went to [Meeting]. Mary Jackson invited Ell to
come with her to dine I said "thee come see her" she remarked
"no Ell I cannot call on thee suppose thee knows the reason
why" and was gone before we get an answer. I am sorry
Father and Mother went to Cousin Mary's Oldden was here, and
about three, George and Charley Hancock came, we had quite a
pleasant visit from there they staid till the 9 oclock car. Charles
and Edward spent the evening here, we had quite a lovely time -
15th Ell and I took letters to the office. I received a paper from [New York] sworn enemies
Rainy towards evening. The Orthodox Yearly [Meeting] commences.
Lyd and Willie [?] came out. Oldden here - all night
16th Rainy all day, I was confined to the house with a very bad cold. M. Jones here
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17th Quite stormy this morning. The paperers were here papering the
sitting and dining rooms. After tea [?] came for me to meet
the committee, but I had another engagement - Edward & Chalk
took us to Cousin Mary's had a real pleasant visit. Moonlight
18th Attended [Meeting], then to the office - after dinner went to Sharon
in the evening E. and Oldden took us to McAllister, very nice time.
19th Took a walk in the woods. gathered moss flowers etc. etc. a letter from Lide
called at the Town Hall where the ladies were making a large
flag - after tea took a walk to the Bell accompanied by R.V. & E.A.
20th A day long to remembered in the History of this country, the
Troops send from the North were mobbed in Baltimore some killed.
The bridges were burned and every thing is swallowed up in [?] that
most terrible scrounge to any nation. The time has come when open
battle has commenced, many of my friends are volunteering &
it makes by heart and soul ace too think of the ruin, and
misery that will be caused - Ell and I went to the city met Jim
did our shopping and came home in time to see the flag raised
it was a solemn meeting, Mr. Accle, & O. Brien spoke well
Thomas Child, Uncle Hall, Ridgways Cousin John etc. were here -
21st Attended meeting, after tea Joseph Powell took mother to visit
families, Father and Lyd took Uncle Hall to the cars. Chalk
Bartram came to take [?] to Haldmans, Edward A. came and took
Ell - I received no invitation from either, but should not have so expected.
Oldden came, and we took a most beautiful ride, round by John
Sellers, had a long confidential talk, one to be remembered, E. E. E.
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John Bunting, Nate Sellers and G. Tuman spent the eve here, they
came from Media about [half] past 9. We did not retire very early, but
when we did I had a long serious talk with Ell about his flirting!
I truly hope she will not be offended - but my duty was plain,
I sympathise deeply with her, and love her dearly.
22nd Ell and I went to the office, met him, 7 finished talking
[?] after breakfast she and Jennie both left. O here awhile -
23rd Monthly meeting, afterwards I had a long talk with Mary Jackson.
She thinks we have nothing to forgive. John A and wife here.
24th Busy cleaning house, about 11 seven came from town to spend the day
I did not see them till 4 oclock - Dr. & Harry drove out, we had
a very heavy shower but everything looked fresh & green after.
Mary Jones etc. called, and we all went to the last Lyceum
which was very interesting for all. Mr. Niel gave us a good lecture on
coal. When we came home found mother had had company, the
person she had invited, they had a long and solemn conversation,
and it proved to be as I feared, he loved her as a sister, my
very soul trembles, at the effect it may have, and I believe the
responsibility that will rest on him will not be easily borne, he
seemed to feel it and at times wept bitterly, but repentance
cannot give back, bright hopes, and cherished affection, he must
and ought to suffer, for though it might not have been
commenced on purpose it should have stopped long ago -
25 Busy all day, but my thoughts were sad, for they dwelt on
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the sad tidings that must be told to the dear and cherished one
of my heart, would that I could ward off the blow, for how
can I bear to see that silent suffering which I know will be felt.
26th I went to the city at seven oclock, during the morning Sallie
and I visited the Bethany School taught by Miss Thompson.
about 14 scholars but she does not keep very good order is
not firm enough, it is her last day, I expect to commence
on 2nd day. In the afternoon went down town
27 [Impression of a leaf laid in] A beautiful morning. Ben and Charley here awhile, at 2
Sam, Sallie and baby went to Darby [half] past John Bunting
called for me and we went to the Germania, where we heard
most sublime music, particularly a piece of Beethoven's
Carl Senty was presented with a brace of pistols as he had joined
the Washington Brigades, he has the most splendid form I
ever saw. Came home to tea and soon afterwards Jonathan and
Elizabeth Paxson came. Joseph & Mast, Humphrey here too.
28th Rainy all day, Elizabeth gave us a good sermon, also others.
Sam etc. went to Grand mother Ash's the rest to Dodgsons. Oldden
here and we had a good long talk, satisfactory
29th Father Mother Jonathan Paxson and wife went to
Wilmington Quarterly Meeting. Sam Sallie baby and
myself came into the city. A little before 9 oclock
I went round to the school house which is quite a
pleasant, well ventilated and comfortable room, I spoke
to them pleasantly and after ringing the bell, talked
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to them about being good and keeping order, I then read
a piece in Kiss for a Blow, just in the midst of it, Joseph
Truman came in but I went on; I had 19. and tho' some were
pretty good there are some great specimens of ill bred and
neglected children, but I will try hard to bring them all
to order though it will take time and much patience to do so.
30. Again went to my school which I find keeps me busy
it seems as if they had never been taught any thing on
the way of good behavior, but I think I can manage them.
MAY 1st Yesterday Lide came from New York after an
absence of two months. she has gained thirteen pounds and
looks much better, had a delightful time. Sallie cleaned house.
2nd I did not get home till half past two as I kept some in.
found Lide and Sallie had gone to have Howards photograph.
Just as Lide was going home mother came, so both waited an hour.
I had a long letter from Ell and Anna Willets. dear [?]
3rd Quite rainy this afternoon notwithstang I went down to [?]
for Mothers teeth then out home in six oclock car, after
tea wrote to Ell and then Oldden came. I gave him the
Brush, Comb & glass (all in one) that I bought for him, he thanked me kindly.
4th A real heavy rain, but I ran to the office with Ells letter.
I have made a mistake, it was too night Oldden came.
I was busy all day sewing on my dress. [Mozambique]
5th A heavy frost and real cold, but beautiful and sunshing -
Lide and O went to ride he left me the letter to read
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which I did and thought it would do very well. I rode
to [meeting] with him we had an excellent sermon from
Mother, Edward or Chalk did not speak to Lide & self.
After dinner Father Mother and Lyd went to Grosses, Ash, Cousin E's
Olden and myself went to Aunt Esthers, staid to tea and
had a real pleasant time, when we came home found
all had retired. Oldden did not know but what it would
be his last visit as his company may go any time, we
had a long talk, he makes me his confidant & I will keep
it sacred, I will miss him so much & feel dreadful at
his going, my most earnest prayer is if he returns, it
will unharmed in character & untainted in heart & soul,
he will have to receive strength from above to withstand
the many temptations that will surround him, I hope
he may be able to adhere to the resolutions formed.
I gave him the letter I had written, poor fellow I may never see him again.
6th Very rainy but I came into the city, went to school very small
Ben and Humphry were up, rainy all the evening.
7th Went down town before school, then taught late one oclock.
my scholars rather better though some bad enough.
8th Cloudy all day, had but 17 scholars, yesterday I
visited the homes of some of them, saw many children
surrounded with poverty and dirt, and I felt sad
that they could not enjoy free country air & cleanliness -
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9th Quite cold yet though a beautiful day - wrote to Anna
10th Lide & Mart Jones came on. About three oclock Lide and I
started shopping it poured with rain and we got very
wet though we had a large umbrella, went out a 6 oclock
found Aunt Jane Hall and Sallie there, Anne & Carrie Bell.
and Uncle & Aunt. quite a house full of company.
11th Nearly all went to but Aunt Jane Lide and Self. I was
busy baking then sewing, in the afternoon Phebe Beane
Aunt and I went and called on Rebecca and Sue Truman.
When we came back Lide & Mart Jones went to the Camp
Ground, Hall Sallie etc. came out went to John Bartram's
Oldden here, also R. Hancock & W. Bradway, from Select [Meeting].
Lide and self were up very late sewing my dress done.
12th A most beautiful morn, Oldden came for me and
we went to the city to attend [Yearly Meeting], the house was
full and I saw a great many, we dined at Sallie's
then drove out to West [Philadelphia] which was beautiful from
there we went to Suffolk Park, where over two thousand
Ohio Soldiers are encamped nearly all looked like sturdy, stout
men and yet I felt for them the deepest sympathy, so far
away from home and not one familiar face to look upon.
They had church and two ministers from the city
spoke very well, some poor fellows, wept, they sleep on straw
under sheds, with a blanket thrown around them -
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We walked around for an hour or two, saw them boiling coffee
which they drink without cream or Sugar, some were off
under the trees reading the Bible, and two made me
feel sad by playing cards, I heard but one or two oaths,
and they were generally well behaved, there were about
four thousand people there, I never saw such a
crowd, carriages were in a string for miles just like
a funeral, I waw a great many I knew, we reached
home about seven, Oldden spent the eve with us cow very ill
13. Aunt J. and self came in at 7. found Sallie not much
better, she suffers a great deal with an absess on her jaw.
This P.M. I went shopping then to the [Meeting] house.
Rudolph Watson waited on me home. Hump & Aunt M. in the eve.
14. I had two new scholars yesterday which are very good
indeed, I also turned Daniel Brown out he was so
bad he spoiled the others. Taylor Brown brought me an
insulting note and I kept him in a long while.
It does seem as though some of them were savages, but
I hope to reclaim them, and will do my best.
Lide and I went down to meeting, it is about as large
as usual and some excellent preaching, saw many.
when we came back found Sallie much better the Dr.
lanced her face and she was much more comfortable.
Uncle Charley staid all night with us. Our poor cow
died after much suffering - calf been dead a day or two.
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15. A most beautiful morning so clear and fresh. Jennie S.
and myself went to meeting there we met Ell and
Lide it was crowded the condition of the country seems
to make little difference in the number of persons.
We all took tea at Sallies, Charley Steele & others there -
16th Another lovely morning, we all went down to [Meeting], which
was crowded, saw a great many I knew, Eph. was there.
Ellis went home to dine with us also Cousin Mary & [?].
Attended meeting in the afternoon, which was very large, George
and Lizzie, Jim & ell, Oldden & a good many others took tea at Sallies
we had a real pleasant time Oldden gave me a letter to deliver.
17th Real cold this morning, I went down to Race [Street] before it
was out, heard a little preaching, saw a great many friends,
we dined at the [Meeting house], then went down town, called
at Aunt [?], came back, dressed and went to Dr. Moore's to tea
had a most splendid time, Charley Steele, Lukens & [William] Heacock
waited on us home, it is the last day of Yearly Meeting.
18th At five oclock, Charley S. and we four girls went out to
Fairmount Park, had a most splendid walk, it was about
three miles, we came back in time for breakfast at Seven.
Ell and Jin left in time for the boat, Lide and I went out at
six, I see a great change in the country in a few days.
19th A real beautiful morning though a little cloudy, but
the trees are so magnificent all covered with green.
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Attended meeting which was very large, a short sermon
from Mary Levis, all the afternoon I felt very sad indeed
know not why, but somehow my spirits were depressed.
Ben, Sallie & baby came out Sam on the cars. John B. here to tea.
Oldden came, and after all had retired we had a long talk,
my sympathies are with him in these great life trials.
he is very sad and many serious thoughts fill his mind,
he thanked me for my friendship, and my heart was
almost too full for utterance, I scarcely know why we
are so intimate, and yet we are just like brother and
sister, he has no female friend he places so much
confidence in, and I have none I would sooner trust.
I can use a freedom with him I could not with others.
I cannot yet realize that he is going away -
My sincere prayers will be for his happiness & good.
20th A real rainy morn but I came into school only had 12. I wrote to ----
21st A beautiful morning, Lyd came in to stay all night
22nd Another lovely day, Lyd went to [Doctors] to have her dress
made, Sallie & & went for her & we went shopping, I bought a
light coat, also a green calico dress. Humphrey spent the eve here.
23rd Quite cool though very pleasant, some of my scholars are
very bad, but I try and hope to manage them. Ly went out
24th Lovely morn I called at 1712 Green to see why one of my
girls had not come found them very polite - could not spare her
One boy struck me but I kept cool & put him out of the house.
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25th Samuel had to see some men on business, so in the P.M.
Sallie and I started out with the baby, and bundles we had
quite a time but reached home safely. Oldden came up to see me.
26th I went to meeting and my earnest prayers were for my
dear sister whose very soul is bowed down with grief, my
deepest sympathies are with & I hope she may be strengthened
to bear it her hopes, her confidence her trust must be on God.
No earthly power can give comfort like that found by placing
our burdens at His feet - Mother away this P.M. visiting sick familes.
This morn we heard the terrible war news, of the battle at
Sewels Point 84 of our troops killed & wounded - the flags
are all at half mast on account of the death of [Colonel] Ellsworth.
Oldden and I took a ride in the eve: he did not stay so late as
I told him to go, our folks cannot understand how we can be such
intimate friends without being lovers, but they do not know
everything, we always will be friends like brother and sister, I
told him what mother said & he thought she did right but of
course I could explain etc. - He talks of joining the Scott Legions.
27th Sallie and Lide brought Sam and myself in the city.
Charley Steele, Humphrey and Amos H. here in the evening.
28th In the afternoon I went to Doctors, Samuel went to Darby and
I spent the evening alone. I wrote a long letter to Lide this morn.
29th Showery early this morn but cleared off beautifully -
Samuel home to dine. Spent the evening sewing.
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30th Maian & sister here awhile. Jo. Truman brought the desks up
to my school. I had 20 pupils though they come very irregular.
31st A lovely morning the weather is beautiful so warm &
pleasant on my way to school found a little girl crying
she had been sent on an errand and was afraid of the dogs, so
I took her hand and went with her. found pleasure in making
one heart glad. We shut up house and I went home in the [half] past 4.
Dear little Howard looks fatter than ever his mother is improving.
JUNE 1st I was up before five oclock and out working among
the flower beds, I made a fence of cord and sticks (8 rail) nearly all
round the house, it looks very pretty, but was real hard work.
I did not go in the house till most [half] past 11, except to eat
my breakfast, was very tired then. Oldden and Eph here. Oldden
has joined a rifle company at Chester, and will likely go soon.
2nd A warm pleasant morning, all went to [meeting] but Sallie, Amos
Hillborn dined with us in the afternoon, went to take a walk,
J. & Earl Shin with us, were caught in a shower but took refuge
in McHenry's boat house - then walked home in the sunshine.
3rd Misty morning I came to the city [half] past 6. Sam also
Sallie & baby has concluded to stay out another week, as Pa & Ma
expect to visit Bucks County. Oldden came up but had to return
to the Girard houses. his company are there staying. I spent the
eve alone. I miss dear little Howard so much. & Sallie too.
4th Oldden came up and took breakfast with me he says they
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are ordered to move to West Chester to day, I am sorry it is
not some place father away from such a town, though it
will be nice to have him so near he will be here 5th day -
I cannot believe he is going away so soon. Samuel home to night.
5th Very much cooler and still cloudy, my scholars do not attend
regularly, no one knows how much patience is needed and
yet I hope to succeed in making them mind and also
in teaching them to be something more than savages & brutes.
6th A real stormy morning, Humphrey spent last eve with us, and
quite cheered me up, somehow I have been very quiet lately
partly on account of Sallie's absence and partly because I have
had very sober things to think of, sometimes the past will
come up and I go over again the two great eras of my
life, strange how much one mind can pass through and
still move on without outward sign of all the conflict
within, I am quiet and happy now for I have learned
more of heavenly things; though sometimes the deep feelings will
push open the lid of the casket which I strive so earnestly
to keep down and burst forth in one wild longing, but I
overcome them, and try hard to be cheerful & feel contented.
Oldden came in the afternoon and stayed all night they are
now at Camp Wayne Westchester, but ever since they went the
weather has been cold and damp, and the poor fellows have to
sleep on straw, eat bread without butter & drink coffee without cream.
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7th He went to Darby but called here again before he left for the Camp.
Father and Mother came in to bring Sallie and Howard. I went with
them to Amos's & Dr. then home to tea, the country looks lovely.
8th I took a letter to the office for Anna, busy sewing on Lyds dress,
we had quite a heavy shower which prevented our going to Cousin E's
about five oclock, Martha Mitcher, Prissy, Rebecca, Isaac & the
baby came, they are clever hearted country folks, fathers cousins.
9th A heavy dew last evening. We all went to meeting
and had a very good sermon from Sarah Hoopes also a
prayer - In the afternoon, John Bunting came, we went to
call on Joe and Emma but they were not at home, took
a walk and returned to tea, afterwards P. & S. Hoopes, Dodgson etc. came.
10th I came to the city at Seven school pretty well attended.
I do hope I may be enabled to guide them aright, not
only their intellectual faculties but their moral and
religious qualities, my interest is in their Spiritual good
and I pray that I may not fail in the duties before me.
I have faith to believe, their immortal Souls may be
made to feel the goodness and glory of our Heavenly Parent.
Earls wife too tea with us: it clouded up by 10 oclock.
11th Quite stormy this morning. Tho' the sun came out occasionally
Kind Joseph Truman sent up some ice, & has ordered it
left at my school door every morning. It is very kind.
The Shin family numbering seven took tea with us a very nice time.
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12th This afternoon Sallie and myself went down town, I
purchased a new dress at Norris Hallowels very cheap [?].
So many goods sold at a sacrifice. I pity the merchants.
13th Uffy came in he is going to board with us now, soon
after tea Lyd came. then we went to call on Sallie Wilson
but she had gone home. All day I have felt a restlessness
of mind & soul, I know not why, but it seems as though my
Soul was yearning after something more than earth, it is not
satisfied, but is stretching after more, longing for a great.
14th A most beautiful morning, Lyd goes down town & then
home. I went out to West Philadelphia then home. Soon
after tea Uncle Paxson and Aunt Jane came. Dodgsons here awhile.
15th This morning Father Mother, Lyd, Aunt Jane and Carrie Bell
started for Long Island, Uncle went home and Lide and I were
left to keep house I was busy clearing up while she baked,
about twelve Hattie Johnson came and we three girls had
one royal time, in the afternoon Hump spent a couple of
hours with us, about six Salle Sam & the baby came out, after
tea we walked to Sharon with Hattie Eph Ridgway went with us
and we had a real pleasant time, a moonlight ramble.
16th Just as we were preparing for meeting a very heavy
thunder shower came up, which prevented our getting
off till after ten but we had a long sitting, and sermons
from Rachel Moore, Henry Ridgway and another man,
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the last part of the first I did not like, it was too hard
on those who feel it their duty to go to War, and there
was not charity enough expressed for those who belong to
other denominations. Henry spoke beautifully, he thought
it was a time for individual reflection, it would not do
for men to preach peace with their mouths unless
their everyday lives practiced it. I was very sorry
he had so little time for speaking it was a pity both came
at once. Sam & Sallie took tea at Grand mother Ash's John B.
spent the eve with us he read for an hour or so "The Woman in White".
17th I came to the city in the cars. went down town shopping. bought
a dress at Hallowels, then out home. J. Dodgson & Mart J over.
18th I came in to school about two oclock Lide and Sallie came
in then we shut up house, and started out, Annie went home.
After tea Humphrey came up and he and went to take a ride
on horseback, a delightfully pleasant moonlight evening.
19th I came into school after I closed went up town to see a
poor woman, took her some milk which I brought in also
some eggs, and sugar and lemons as she has three sick
children and has few friends here came from Alabama not
quite a year ago. I stopped at the house, fixed Joseph's
room then went down town and out home. H.A.A. there awhile
20th A nice shower early then cleared off beautifully. I came
in school went out at [half] past 2. Lide and I walked up
to Sharon before tea. Sam came from [New York] all well. Cousin M. here.
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21st I was up early sewing watering flowers, picking peas etc.
came in at seven, Samuel and Humphrey, also. Went home
this afternoon and was very much surprised to see Cousin
Edward Williams, Ellen, John, Rachie and Carrold, it was
the first time the first two had ever been to our home in Darby -
Beckin Peart came out to tea, afterwards she, Lide, and Uffy
went to Sharon, Cousin John went with us all to Darby and
treated us to ice cream and strawberries very kind of him.
22nd About [half] past eight our Bucks County friends left, we had
such a delightful visit from them, all so kind & sociable.
The other thing to be regretted was Father and mothers absence.
Soon after they left Hattie's father came, and Lide and Beckie
went with them. Sallie and I were busy fixing up the house.
I had a letter from Anna and note written at the close
informing me of the death of Mary Griffen, one of my scholars
and a very lovely girl, an only daughter and dearly beloved
by father and brothers, she had been sick with typhhoid
fever for ten weeks, her system was very much seduced.
That makes two of my little band that have gone to their
heavenly home. I feel much sympathy for her parents.
Humphry took Mart Jones and myself up to Johnsons to tea
we had a very nice time indeed about thirty there and
a most beautiful moonlight evening, delightful ride home.
23rd Attended meeting but was quite restless and did not get
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much good. Anna Bell went home and dined with us,
in the afternoon George Ridgway was up. Sam etc. went to his
fathers to tea. I walked part way home with Anne Warner with us
Mr Steele brought Hattie and the girls down, about nine we
went to take a moonlight ride, and had a real nice time
Humph seems quite attentive to Beckie. he was with us.
24th Sam Uffy Beckie and self came in our carriage,
went out in the afternoon She and Uffy took a ride on horse back.
25th I came in the cars. J. Truman at School to day; about
eight oclock Parents came from [Long Island] had an elegant visit.
26th While coming to the city it rained quite hard. I went home
at two was quite poorly all the afternoon and evening.
27th did not feel much better, went without breakfast, came
in town in the carriage, with Sam, Sallie Howard and Lide, Ben
came up awhile and I gave him his slippers which I had
made up for him, Lide and Mart Jones came and we three
went out in the carriage. After tea Lide went on reading
The Woman in White which we found very interesting and fasinating
it is a deep laid scheme, and some most noble characters.
I think so far Marion Holcombe has proved herself all a woman
could be, her kindness and judgement with Hartwright has to me
been grand - hers was not a week silly womanish nature, but
noble and magnificent, yet cultivated and refined, hers was a
mind capable of the deepest feeling yet strong enough to bear great
sorrow without making others miserable. noble glorious creature.
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28th A pleasant morning and to day I close school I must
say sorry, I love to do it and though my pupils have
not improved as much as I would like they are
better and I am afraid in the two months vacation
they will spend so much time in the streets with
evil companions I will have to go over my work
again I trust even in this little time I may have
done them some good. Joseph Truman and Sallie spent
the morning in my school, at the close, each scholar was
presented with a small gift, those that had been the best
and were most regular attendance recieved the handsomest.
All were entirely satisfied but A. Mayhew, she would
not accept any, her disposition is jealous, but I think
she was sorry afterwards, we closed school quite
pleasantly and many said they were sorry but hoped I
would be there at its next commencement. S. Walker
brought me a most elegant boquet of flowers.
It was almost seven when Aunt Jane, Lyd and Sam
came. Aunty was very sick and for several hours was
vomiting every little while. I told her it was sea sickness
and it was, they had come from [New York] to Amboy
round the Island, it was rough and I wonder
she kept up so long - it made her very weak, but
we took her to bed pretty soon, she was bad & never
having been sick before [?] It seem worse when
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29th I waited on Aunty to the Westchester depot
then I took the cars and came on to Darby, arrived here
before twelve - After dinner Lide and I drove to Sharon
just after passing the bridge, a man in a handsome
carriage told us 5 [dollar] fine for passing over the bridge
in a trot, we soon discovered he was either drunk or
a fool so did not carry on the conversation.
Annie took it quite hard because Carrie did not return
with our folks. Hattie came back with us, did not stay long.
W. Jones and wife spent the evening with us.
30th Cloudy and cool, attended meeting and had a
very good sermon from Josiah Bond, he did not
have the Quaker tune yet what he said was very
good indeed, though he did have a small boquet
and as he sat down picked it up and took a
smell - He was here to dine - soon after we were
done, Ben and a Mr. David Fling came, we
spent quite a pleasant afternoon, the aforesaid
David was quite interesting and made himself
agreeable. Hump was here awhile - After tea Pa
and Ma went to Joseph - Lide and I went
on reading The Woman in White which
continues just as interesting as ever. Poor Sir
Percival received the fruits of his folly and paid
the penealty of his life.
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July First. Quite cloudy this morning but cleared
off after dinner Father and Mother went to the city
brought Lyd home with them. She does not look so well.
2nd A heavy rain in the night, and real cold this
morn, at [half] past ten I went over to the "Home for
Colored Children" at Maylandville - it is a large
handsome one mansion surrounded with noble
old trees, and although out of repair is just
fitted for such an institution, so commodious and
well built they purchased it very low in deed
They have over twenty children to be educated fed
and clothed, we were busy sewing most all the
time till afternoon when the Pic Nic came.
Ailen Longstreth explained her mode of object teaching
which was very interesting. Dr. Moore & Rachel, D
Parrish, Richard Price and many others there we
had a nice supper and I guess all enjoyed it very
much, William Heacock, Uncle N. & family were there.
3rd Getting warmer, A Foulke here awhile. After dinner
Father, mother and Lide started for Hectors, Lyd to
Sallies and I am left to enjoy the quiet and comfort
of a few days spent at home alone. Soon after I
went up stairs a lady called to cut dress patterns. So
I let her cut mine and paid 18 pence, it may do both good.
Thomas, Anna and Lizzie Child came out.
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Fourth. A most beautiful day, I attended meeting, which
was quite small. Poet came up and took tea with me
we had music, and in the evening we walked up the
plank to see the fire works some of which were very
beautiful, altogether we had a very pleasant time.
he did not leave till most [half] past ten and yet the
evening was short, so clear and beautiful comet plainly
visible, a large head, but all appears wrapped in a
misty cloud... To day Congress meets to see
what may be done for the country and for freedom.
5th For two nights no one has been in the house but
Lizzie and myself, yet I do not feel afraid. The
days are spent pleasantly in sewing and thinking.
We finished "The Woman in White and I don't know when
I have read anything with such uncommon yet true
characters, Marion Halcombe and Walter Hartright
were two noble beings, they were friends he was a true
man and she a true woman - Poor Count Fosco, was so
smart in his wickedness, and showed so much sense in
all his actions, that he was not to be entirely despised -
His great power was in always keeping his temper, and
never forgetting the little pleasant courtesies of every day life.
Mary Jones called and we went to see Hannah Amash -
John sent me a note and the paper. I was writing all the evening
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6th We were up early and I was busy clearing up the house
soon after breakfast Lizzie was taken quite sick had to
go to bed, consequently. I had baking, her work and my
own to do. I was real busy till nearly two oclock, one thing
kept me later, in the midst of pie baking, the fire
went out and I had it to make over, then cake to bake etc.
which employed my thoughts so much I almost forgot
my dinner but I was not hungry and so a piece of pie
satisfied me, In the afternoon Beckie White, sister & Amanda
Noble called here awhile. Uffy was here also. Sam, Sallie, Lyd
and baby came out, a real warm day, but pleasant.
7th We all went to meeting which was very large, soon after
taking my seat I noticed Susan Hibbard was alone in the
upper gallery, so I got up and went and took my seat
by her. A few weeks before I had told her I pitied her
for having to sit alone, she replied "dont pity me but come
and sit by me, I asked shall ? would thee have me? she said
yes, so I went and thereby fulfilled my promise, I have
often thought it was too bad, for one friend to sit alone in
the gallery when we had so many elderly ones that would
look well there, I freely confess, it was a great trial to me
to have to appear so conspicuous, but I did what I believed
right, fulfilled my promise. I felt that all eyes were
directed towards me, and did not look up once during the
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whole sitting, in fact did not see a person, though my
own meeting was a good one. Susan turned round and
thanked me, and several friends told me they felt
it as a rebuke, T. Bartram and Isaac Hibberd, spoke of it.
I do not feel sorry though I know it will make a talk.
As we were sitting down to dinner, Ben and Charley Betts
a young Lieutenant came, spent most of the afternoon
and then went to Sharon. John was up, brought me some
pinks, "Compensation" and a sweet poem that he showed
me yesterday. After tea Sam and wife went out. Warner
was here awhile but left in the cars, then went and had
some ice cream, called a few minutes at Rebecca's, after
we came home I wrote to sheets full to Hattie. Retired at 11.
8th Busy all morning, after dinner Poet came and read me
the Presidents Message which I think very good indeed.
Our folks came home in the eve, having had a delightful
visit at Hectors, Jonathan Paxons etc. A hot day mercury 97.
9th Very extremely warm, busy preserving fruit. I wrote a long
letter to Anna after the others had retired, a nice rain fell.
10th Cooler awhile but soon became very warm. Sam and Sallie went
in this morning. She felt better than she did yesterday.
We were busy cleaning the Library. Ah! me, why will the
past come up before, I have striven hard to forget those fatal
words, and am very guarded that I do not show anything.
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This afternoon we went to see Cousin Mary, poor woman
last first day she fell down stairs and put her shoulder
out of joint and was very much bruised, we found
her much more comfortable. A very heavy thunder shower.
11th Cleaned the parlor then went to meeting, had some
good thoughts. Took a ride to the Bell & called at Lizzie B's in eve.
12th Busy all morning fixing up my room, made the
carpet etc. and now it is all done and I so much enjoy
sitting in it, often write an hour or two after the others
have retired, called at Dodgsons and spent the eve at
Jones's Phebe Bartram there, the comet has almost
disappeared. Read a little in Compensation, very good.
13th Out in the yard working among the flowers,
as I was starting to the office John came up, had
our letters. I had to go to the store and we walked
back to-gether, had a real pleasant chat, he gave
me an envelope containing a note poem etc. Photograph
all of which I shall value highly. [?]
It rained in the afternoon, but Samuel Child, wife
and daughter came out to stay till Second day.
14th Attended meeting, and had a good sermon from mother
In the P.M. the married folks went to Cousin Mary's.
J came up and we had a very pleasant afternoon &
evening, so much more intellect about him than some
others. I was writing till after eleven oclock. [?]
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15th I went to the office early and as John was very
busy remained awhile to assist in putting up the mail.
Company left at night, the weather quite cool but
warmer than yesterday - I spend many moments in
my dear little room, here I come to think seriously &
here I come to pen my thoughts in this my diary.
it is a relief to write here, though the most sacred feelings
cannot be known in words therefore remain unexpressed,
perhaps it is best so - ah! I guess it is well I sat in
my room listening to the sweet muse which the
gentle summer breezes brought to my ear from Marts Piano.
16th Went to the city at seven had a sweet little note to
read on my way, and as I find the request was made for the
pleasure of having it granted, made up mind to grant it.
I went down to the wharf to see about the New York
boats, then to the Post Office where I got the advertised
letter, it was from Nellie and contained one for a mutual
friend, I did my shopping then went to Sallie's to
dine, in the P.M. we went down town and I had
four small Photographs taken. returned there to tea
and came out home in the [half] past seven car, though
it was late when we went up stairs, I wrote a long
letter to Nell. also answered the note telling of my
final conclusion - Endeavored to repair the wrong I made by
guessing.
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17th Warm but very pleasant, in the afternoon our
folks went to Cousin E's Phil, Mart, John, Phebe Bartram
and John B. spent the eve with us. did not leave
till quite late. then in my own room I wrote
to Oldden, also quite a long note, in answer to one
received, these little paper missives how much
they tell, they carry with them the joys and hopes
of many a heart. When another name is added to
my list of friends I am happier and better.
The hour of midnight has been borne to my ears and
now all things must be laid aside to visit dream land.
18th Carried my packages to the office - After breakfast
Father and self were making refined [?] soap. Then
went to meeting received a drop letter and believe it .
After tea took a walk to Palmers and was weighed - 121 [pounds]
lost a great deal the last few months, we then
went to Dr. Ash. Uff brought out my Photographs
which are pretty good but not very, I am going to bed
early and take the advice of a friend. Returned Compensation.
19th Had to go to the office, though it was raining a very heavy
shower in the night, thunder etc. a sweet note written late.
At 12 oclock we started for Caslte Rock about twelve miles from
here, had an elegant ride up went to his Uncles then walked over
to the spot known as Caslte Rock and oh, what a grand old
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place it is, the heart is filled with awe when gazing at the
wonderful grandeur of the immense stones which have apparently
once been a solid body, but some great convulsion has burst
forth leaving them in beautiful confusion, some caught
by the trees, others having fallen in such a manner as
to form large caves, others again have suddenly moved off
yet showing accurately how they once fitted to each other -
they are very high and as we clambered our way up
we gathered moss and ferns which grew in abundance
on all of them, the stone is so hard it cannot be melted &
yet nature has covered its roughness with her own
beautiful plants, we mounted to the top and took seats
upon a moss covered stone, J. held the umbrella so we
did not suffer from the heat, and we spent an hour or
more talking, singing, sketching etc. - the time to leave
came all to soon, we returned to his Uncle's took tea &
after eight started home, having spent a delightful
afternoon and enjoyed the ride home in the moonlight
reached here about twelve, & we will not soon forget this day.
20th Rainy this morn but I took a letter to the office for Jen. Had a
sweet note - Dr. Longstreth's here to tea, Uncle W. invited but did
not come - Eph Ridgway here to tea also - Our folks know this man.
21st At [half past] 4 A.M. I was writing a long letter and "granted the
request". Attended meeting. J.B. here to tea, Mart Jones here.
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22nd A dull day outwardly and to me inwardly, I was
sad and serious all day, Lide went to the office, early at
ten I went and received a letter from Anna. I was not
very well, and my heart was so heavy, in the afternoon
I was borne down with grief and could not help pouring
forth the cry, oh! God where will the weary soul find rest.
a prayer was uttered and then relief came and I was better.
It rained this eve so we did not get our moonlight ride.
Humphry was up here and brought the news of a terrible
battle at Manassas Junction, awful to think of the hundreds
of souls that are hurridly ushered into eternity.
23rd Our monthly meeting we attended, the last meeting was kept
waiting a long while for the men, entirely useless many thought.
I was entertained by learning that sweetest & truest of sonnets
"God bless thee" from mon chere ami, an angels influence must
have been hanging around the author when it was written.
Went to the office and found a long letter from Sadie. In the
afternoon, went to Cousin Mary's, Ben & Mr. Walker came out.
A little cloudy, but at 9. John came and he Lide and self
rode over to the depot on the upper deck. it was grand, when
we got that far found the same car did not go on, so on the
spur of the moment jumped out and started to walk back -
It was beautiful and moonlight, and being late no carriages
made a dust. we stopped often, on the way to rest and reached
home about 12. not very tired but delighted with our walk of four miles.
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24th I went to the office soon afterwards Father, Lizzie and I started
for the city, called at Aunt R's for Carries trunk then took our
baggage to the wharf - he went & did his errands then home I
did my shopping for Anna etc. then to Aunt R's to dine, found Jennie
there, we remained at Samuel Childs all night, a nice visit.
25th Harry went to the Steamer with us, Nellie Bartram and Warner
also were there to bid us good bye, at [half] past 9 we started off, it
was a beautiful clear morning, and we enjoyed the trip down to
Cape May, exceedingly, a great many landed there, soon after
we were on the Ocean. I was quite sick, though not so bad
that I had to go in my state room, between times was well and
none can know how I enjoyed the beauty and grandeur of the sun
set, it was far beyond description, I had anticipated seeing the
moon rise, it was somewhat cloudy, but we staid out late after
ten, the Captain showing us every kindness, and attention, brought
us nice arm chairs, took us in the Pilot house, had a large blanket
to keep me from catching cold, took his fine glasses for us to see the lights
in the distance, offered us his arm in crossing the boat & every
thing that politness could suggest. Jennie was not sick
at all and had her laugh at me, we retired before 11, had
a light burning all night, though we both slept well.
We had eaten quite a harty dinner & had some elegant cakes John
made on purpose for me - we did not want any supper
though. The sea was not very rough, tho a good many
were sick - I was not near as bad as before -
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26th The Captain knocked at my state room door at 4 oclock
and in 15 minutes I was out on the deck waiting to see the
sun rise, the clouds were beautiful and the air so still and
fresh, then the quiet stillness, and softly breaking morning
light was so lovely shedding a quiet peace and holy
calmn over my soul. My heart was full and I longed
for a friend that I knew could enjoy it with me. Jennie
was too sleepy to get up. I would not have missed
it for a good deal. The view as we came into New York
was grand so many white sails, and the Islands around
were covered with summers lovely green, we reached the city
a little after six, went over to Brooklyn and took breakfast
with dear Sadie, met with a warm welcome from all.
Remained there till [half] past one then came up in the boat
to Flushing found Aby waiting for us. Aunt & Uncle had
gone to Westbury Quarterly Meeting came home to tea. I sent a letter home.
27th It is quite natural to be here again and every thing
looks so nice and clean so much more like living. About
11 who should drive up but Robert L. Haviland and his
sister, heard I was here and thought they must stop -
I had a pleasant visit from them, after dinner we walked
down to the Shore, gathered stones etc. We spent the eve at [Cousin] R's.
28th I was up early and wrote to Edward's - we went to [Meeting]
and had an excellant sermon from Deborah Wharton.
I felt there was a letter on the office, but we could not get it on 1st day.
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29th Jennie took Aunt Carrie and self to Flushing, called at the
office and I received a letter from Lide, and a sweet one of 8
pages from mon chere ami, I soon found a quiet place on
the boat, and read and re-read it - so full of feeling. I feel
sorry I did not carry out my feelings and write to him yesterday.
I went to Brooklyn, found them ever ready to welcome me; after
dinner I wrote three sheets to mon ami. In the eve we went out
had ice cream etc. - quite a shower about [half] past ten.
30th Very warm again, we spent a pleasant morn, and at 3.50 I
took cars for Rye found Edward waiting for me, after coming two
miles and while going down a hill the horse stumbled, and fell,
he got out, and I remained in till I saw it was necessary to
have the load lightened then put down my bundles and sprang
out behind, landed safely just before a gentleman who was
coming to my assistance reached the spot. A number of men
were there, and Mr. Leeland insisted on my getting in his large
carriage which I did and his driver brought me here. Edward
brought the broken carriage to the Shop and left it to be mended -
I met with a warm welcome from all the dear ones here - They
had company, but after they retired we three talked for a long while.
31st A lively morning and I do enjoy being back to the dear familiar place
again - so like my home fold - Attended [Quarterly Meeting] and saw a great many
I knew all seemed to welcome be back to Purchase - we had a good
deal of company to dine. I went with J. Motts to D. Barnes, Havilands etc.
then and we had a real nice time I stayed all night
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August 1st A lovely clear morning, Sadie and I walked
down to the orchard returned to breakfast. Robert S. brought
me here before meeting. then I went with Edwards, saw
a great many familiar faces so natural & so kind. I
came here again. Stephens Willets here, I saw Dollie and
it sems so strange she should be married & have such
a nice little baby - Anna and I had a long talk late in the eve -
2nd 11 oclock. I have slipped off to write a little in my diary yet
it will not be much for I can only feel not put in language
the beauty of the country. how much I enjoy it and yet time
has not in the least removed from memory the indellible
impressions of long ago - they will come up. But I will not [?] them,
It was some foggy this morning but at [half] past 4. I was writing
to mon ami - We called at James Underhills & took tea at Uncle Henry's
At noon I received such a nice long letter of 8 pages from mon ami,
it really did me so much good - there cannot be any harm in
our corresponding, where there is such a perfect understanding.
3. I was up early and took my letter to the Office a mile off and
was back by [a quarter] past 6. About 10 [thirty] George Griffin and Daira H.
called and took Hannah & myself to Rye Pond, a pic nic of 25
spent the day there very pleasantly. I enjoyed being on the beach
and going out in a row boat, the water gets deep very
suddenly and makes a difference in the color - We had a nice
time but I felt sadly the want of a congenial friend - not such as
Mr. S who did not strike my fancy - We reached here before 9 oclock.
62.
4th Another Sabbeth morning at Purchase, early the sun shone
bright and beautiful, then a heavy fog prevented us from seeing it.
I am quite curious to know, whose daguerreotype was sent to me at Darby
by mail. I heard there was one, and a letter too - I think it is
too bad Uncle Thomas dont send me my letters from Flushing.
At 3 oclock I slipped off and commenced writing to mon ami, but
was interrupted by a good deal of company, we had ice cream
in the eve & it seemed so natural to see Anna's brothers and sisters.
After all had retired I finished my letter a real long one
surely there can be no misunderstanding when such are written.
5th I was up rather early and added some to my letters.
After breakfast took a walk with Corlies's down on the wood -
It was very warm all day and showers were around but did
not come here. S Willets spent the afternoon here.
6th A beautiful clear morning, we again took a walk, and as
they could not go so far, I went to the Brook and sat upon
the bank reading and thinking. I wished for Pen & papers - I
had a long letter from home, saying brother had been in
Washington several days on Business, returned home 3rd day.
Lide is at Uncle Paxson's and no doubt will have a nice time.
I had a nice letter from mon ami, so full of kindness such
messages do me so much good, and I am sure no harm
To day my twin sisters are 26. how old I am getting to be
time flies rapidly and yet, am I fulfilling life's great mission?
63.
7th Six more closely written pages met with a warm welcome. I
also had a letter from Oldden, written from Anapolis Junction
He sent me his Ambrotype by mail very kind in him poor
fellow how often I think of his hardships and trials, and
in all my letters endeavor to make him understand
the necessity of constant watchfulness to resist evil -
I walked down to Dollie's, made a pleasant call. E. A &
myself spent the evening at Aaron Havilands. cloudy -
8th The weather was so unfavorable we did not get off to the
Pic Nic, but were all content to stay home and let it rain.
Everything has been so dry and parched. At odd times I
wrote two sheets interlined to my friend - I am often
down in the kitchen with Anna, to day made some
bread to prove it could be done out of buttermilk -
9th Clearing off nicely and the rain has done so much good -
I wrote home last eve - making ten letters I have sent in
10 days, but there were so many wanted to hear -
Anna and I called at Havilands, but the boys came
after us as they heard Uncle W's were going to the Pic Nic
so we had an early dinner and then went, had a real
nice time, I was out in a row boat with a Mr. Blunt - a
returned volunteer. Nellie Willets was there and we had
a real nice time, picking up shells - gathering stones etc.
I had some papers from mom ami - sent a letter to-day.
64.
10th Cleared off beautifully, about ten, Edward, Anna Hannah and
I started off for Tarrytown, stopped at the office, found a Standard
waiting for me, I drove over part of the way, then read the papers.
We had a most beautiful ride, no dust and the country did
look charming, just before we reached here and coming down
some of the hills we had such a delightful view of the Hudson.
Found Sadie here and all glad to see us, spent a pleasant afternoon
and soon after tea they returned to Purchase. Saw the new moon.
11th This day of the month two years ago I left Harrison, how
well I remember that ride, when I was sick going through the
tunnels, and the parting on the boat. ah! ah! tis gone now.
About 9. Sadie, Jakey, "Sis Archer" and myself started for Chappaqua
Meeting, went to Esther Havilands to dine, in the P.M. went
with Robert S. to their Sabbath School which I found quite interesting
and no doubt will do a great deal of good. They had
a good deal of company to tea - Charley Hull etc. Hagens etc. - we
came home just as the sun was sinking & the moon
rising and I did enjoy the ride so much - the hills grand.
12th This morning we took a walk to the Grotto, it was beautiful also
called at the office where I found waiting for me a very long nice
letter from mon ami - After dinner we took a lovely ride,
went to the old Dutch Church bearing the date of 1699. then to
the cemetery and as I stood by the grave of Washington
Irving, how my mind was filled with what he had hoped,
and suffered and done. A plain marble slab marks the place.
65.
We visited the ground and many beautiful residences
on the banks of the noble Hudson among others Col.
Webb Minister to Brazil, also the place where the ill fated
daughter of Mr Boger lived when she eloped with her
fathers coachman John Dean. Her father is dead, and
the family having gone to Germany, it is not kept in order - .
It commenced raining just as we came back. Robert S.
and Charley Hull called awhile to see us - I wrote to ami.
13th A dull rainy morning, but it will do so much good we will be
glad to hear it, coming so musically, even though we are
sadly disappointed in not getting to Chappaqua Pic Nic -
I was partially rewarded by three elegant long letters, and I was
so glad to get them. The rain continued all day & most of the night.
14th Cloudy but cleared off beautifully, after dinner Jacob took us a ride
and oh! what a grand one it was, we went to Huricks, then
visited Irving Park, where we had the most magnificent view
I ever beheld, the Hudson was to be seen for miles, the hills and
mountains beyond and then back over the country the eye could
feast on Sleepy Hollow, hill and dale - we went to the top of the
summer house, and I was enraptured with the sight,
no pen of mine can describe the beauty and glory of it.
When we returned to the house found the Malloroys there to call.
Then we went to Mary Jane Field to tea had an elegant
visit, their yard opens right into the Hudson, called at Quimby
Forbes and Aunt Hannah! To day is the 14th birth day wedding day.
66.
15th At half past 6, we went in the carriage to the boat, I felt
sorry to leave my kind friends at Tarrytown - We took passage
in the Broadway - had a delightful trip down the Hudson
the view of the shore, palisades etc., is charming, I bid Sadie
good bye and hurried to the Flushing arrived just
before the first bell began to ring, came up in time to attend
meeting, and out here afterwards, having been away over two
weeks and having the most delightful visit all around.
I found a litter from Lide, and Oldden, all went away in the
afternoon and I wrote to mon ami - After tea called at Cousin Roberts.
16th A most beautiful day, Uncle and Aunt went to see Uncle Gilbert
Jennie Aby and self walked to the shore then went out boating
and I enjoyed it so much. We went up the creek, and across the
Bay, I rowed [three -fourths] of a mile and wore blisters on my hands.
we came back about [half] past 11. Jennie had a head ache -
Aunt, Jim, Aby and myself took tea at Thomas Wilson. I had a letter from O.
17th Uncle T. & Aunt E went to Yonkers as Philip E. Thomas was very ill -
J. and I were were busy all morning - Josiah & Mary Wilson came, brought
me letters from Aunt & Jane and Lide, the former is very anxious
for me to apply for Parkerville school, and I don't know what to
do about it, want to teach, and yet would rather go to the city -
I will have to hear from there first - and can scarcely tell then -
I think I might do more good there, and feel willing to try -
I had a long and cherished letter from mon ami -
I was writing letters till after 12 oclock. Home. Sam. Oldden, Edward's Anna
67.
18th I was writing by 5 oclock this morning when every thing
was so quiet and still and lovely, just in a fit state for
communing with friends - After breakfast all the rest rode down
to the shore & remained to finished my letters and had five ready
for the office. We went to meeting, mine was pretty good -
In the afternoon just as they were getting the carriage to
take a ride, Cousin Phebe came, so I staid with her - how
often to day I have wondered if anyone was writing to me -
I wish letters did not have to go till 2nd day morn -
19th Aby took Wilsons in and brought Aunt & Uncle out, Richards
called here, also Martie Willets to invite us there on 6th day -
How I wish I was not so sensitive about small family affairs
though I say nothing, I cannot help feeling. For the last few
days my brain has felt the effects of so much deep thinking
and I have been in so many quandaries - poor me, has trouble -
and yet I am very thankful to have such friends as I do, oh
I cannot half write or tell how dear they are to me, and how
thankful I am. They are such bright links in the chain of my
life they illuminate all the rest. We took tea at Cousin R's
quite a company there and we had a real nice visit, Carrie there.
20th Aby Jennie and I went to the shore then took a row boat and
started for Fort Schuyler, it was windy and very rough, Jennie
was very much afraid and we concluded not to cross the
Sound - went out [?] -, I rowed coming back, consequently my hands
were blistered - but I enjoyed it so much - I & Mary came back here.
68.
21st a Very pleasant day, this morning we rode to the shore
through Mickles; then to Sarah Willets. Josiah and Mary
concluded to go to Catskill Mountains and were very anxious
for us to go with the, and we did not know when we would
have such an opportunity again and so concluded too
eve went to New York in the afternoon boat, but on arriving
at the city found we could not get back here in time to
fulfil our engagement for 6th day afternoon, so we gave out
going - it was a great disappointment but, I did not complain
thinking it might all be for the best, they went to Haydocks
we went over to Brooklyn, found them glad to see us as usual.
After tea took a walk, and enjoyed the beautiful moonlight.
22nd Soon after breakfast Sadie Jennie and myself started out,
went to Trinity Church, which is certainly a most magnificent
piece of architecture, we then took the cars and went
to Central Park where we spent the day most pleasantly.
It is a beautiful place, and is being improved constantly
900 acres nearly, though not all cultivated, the sods are
beautiful and so many handsome bridges of ever variety.
then the rocks and stones, grass, water - everything was
so well arranged as to make it attractive. we particularly
enjoyed visiting "The Ramble", so many shady walks
cozy nooks, romantic caves, rustic summer houses, all of which
add so much to its beauty and then the Swans too - We went
all over Stewarts Store and then back to Brooklyn tired out.
69.
23rd A lovely rain last night and now every things is so
much cleaner and the air purer - I commenced a letter to mon
ami before breakfast- I am very sorry it cannot be received
7th day but it cannot. We came up to Flushing in the boat
found Aby waiting for us, called at the office where I found
three letters awaiting me one of 22 pages from mon cher ami.
How glad I was and how [Crossed out: glad I was] much good they
did me, few are made as happy as I am by receiving letters.
Carrie, Emily, Lili, Jin Aby and self went to Edmund Willets to tea had
a delightful visit and a splendid ride home in the moonlight.
we went to Carries with them I rode back with Sam W. letter from Sam
24th I spent most of the day at Willets and had such good
long talks with Carrie, and her mother, she told me all about
her prospects, showed me her wardrobe etc. Sarah & I talked too.
we are so congeneal - came back dressed and went to Pearsalls quite
a company and we enjoyed it very much, well yes I suppose
I do enjoy it but I find very little congeniality, only Carrie was
there and we had a good time - I had another long letter from mon ami.
25th I lovely sabbath morning, I sent three letters to the office, after
due consideration I have decided to take the city school and refuse
Parkerville - hope Aunty will not think queer but my duty seemed
to be on the city - I wrote to mother telling her of my friendship with
A very pleasant evening, moonlight nights will soon be over -
26th I took Aby & Uncle to Flushing - Aby started for Jersey then on for Anne -
Aunt Eliza took tea at Silas Huck's - Maria Todd here.
70.
27th A most beautiful day for mon ami to start off - we went
to Mickles but they were out, came back and found company -
also four letters for me, my friend Oldden is suffering from
rhumatism - how very much I think of him way down there
he writes to me so kindly and speaks so feelingly of the many
instructive talks we have had together and most sincerely
do I hope my interest and love for him may be a benefit and
for his good - a long letter from cousin Ellie - One from
mon ami, speaking of the disappointment in not getting mine -
I appeared gay and happy all eve, but when in my own room
sat down and wrote a whole sheet full - could not sleep well.
28th I arose early having spent a restless night, was busy writing -
After breakfast Jennie and Carrie & self went to Willets, a real
nice little visit - called awhile at Pearsalls - cloudy all day and
how very anxious I feel about its being clear to morrow -
In the afternoon we called at Cousin R's Sarah Willets's took
tea with us, Carrie & I had a nice talk - Richard & William here lettere from M.W.
29th It looked a little like rain, but I went to New York, called
at Margaret Corlies she was out then went to the New Haven
depot where I waited till mon ami John came, and we were
soon on our way to Rye, where we found my kind friend Edward
waiting for us - It had nearly cleared off and the view as we
rode up to Harrison was grand - just such as we love. All
gave us a warm welcome and after dinner we all went to Rye
Pond remained till dark and enjoyed it oh! so much.
71.
30th Down stairs early, and received a nice long letter written on 1st day.
After breakfast John and I took a sweet walk down to the brook and
then over in the woods where we rested under "our double tree", he had
the head ache but the quiet stillness, the purity and beauty
of the place, the music of the leaves, and pleasant talk drove
it away - Soon after dinner, we all went down to Rye Beach
where we remained till nearly dark. The Sound looked
very beautiful, so many sails, and the waters clear and blue -
we sat on the stones a long long while, listening to the murmuring
waters, coming to the shore and to our feet, most of them were
fishing, but we enjoyed the beauty of the place around us,
we returned to Rye in time to take Mary Moore home with
us - In the evening Annie made us some nice ice cream -
31st J. and I walked to the office before breakfast, had Tennyson
with us - Edward took us to White Plains, where we intended
to take the stage but on our arrival there found it had
changed time and would not go till after noon, so he took was
kind enough to take us all the way over to Tarrytown -,
it was a grand ride, through such hilly country - .
Soon after dinner Uncle Jacob took us a ride way up to Herricks
where we had a most magnificent view of the river and
many miles around - We went in the Nyack to the Steamboat
Armenia, and although it was full had a delightful sail
down the Hudson and reached [New York] just in time to take the boat
for Flushing - Sarah Carrie and Ammie over ice cream -
72.
September first. Another sabbath morn breaks upon us bright
and beautiful and we are thankful that it has pleased
Him to send us sunshine and pleasure - I had a very
sweet note from a leaf of Tennyson - We concluded not
to go to meeting, but when the family had gone, J. Jennie
and myself walked to the shore where we spent the
morning in gathering sheels, enjoying the water, walking
talking etc. J. had his good opera glass which we have
found very useful and used very often. The afternoon
was spent on the shady portico, talking, reading etc.
We four went over to Sarah's to tea - Charlie was there and
we had a real delightful visit, she and I had much
to say - a nice ride home by Jordan Wrights - It
is the first day of the sad Autumn but very lovely -
2nd Aunt and Carrie went to [New York] we did up the work then
mon ami and myself took a walk to Lake of the Woods etc. etc.
Jennie would not go, but we had an early dinner, then
we three and Anne went down to the Sound, were we met
Pearsalls and after waiting a long while on the bank &
stones, we all got in a row boat and started for Fort
Schuyler, it was rough so we did not cross the Sound
but went to Turtle shell rock, dropped anchor and began
to fish, did not catch many but had a real elegant time, refreshments
and all - I rowed. Returned to Bayside, dressed in ten minutes
and went to Titus's to tea -. I packed up after 11 oclock - ami wrote.
73.
3rd Uncle Aunt and children went to the city to attend
the funeral of Philip E. Thomas. J. and I bid good bye
to Bayside, had a pleasant ride on the boat, and on
reaching pier [number] 14 found we had been told wrong and
the Steamship did not leave till 4th day, so we went
to Brooklyn, where we had a sweet visit. After dinner
Sadie and we went out to Greenwood and spent some
time in that far famed and beautiful cemetry - It
commenced to rain and we went back to Hicks St - had
a heavy shower in the evening; do so much good - a note,
4th Spent most of the day very agreeably in the house. They
are such nice lovely people I love to be with them - so kind to -
We left in time to take the 5 oclock line, and took our passages
in the steamship Delaware, we waited a long while as there
was so much freight it took them till nearly seven oclock
to load so the Sun had gone to rest before we started but
the cities lit with gas and the surrounding islands looked
very pretty as we passed out on the Bay, we took our seats
in two large arm chairs which we did not leave till after
twelve oclock, six hours we sat there watching the beauty and
glory of the sea, seeing the twilight come and go, the stars
come out one by one to watch and guard us, and listen to the
murmuring waters at our feet. I cannot tell of the peace &
blessedness that was around as filling our hearts with gratitude -
74.
We seemed and were so shut out from the noise and the
evil and temptations of the world, so entirely away from all
that would be likely to lead us astray - None can know and
I cannot write how much I felt, and enjoyed that one evening
on the wide ocean, my heart was filled with thankfulness
and the silent prayer of it was, that I might always
endeavor to be worthy of the many blessings which I received,
ever remember that this great happiness was bestowed by
a Fathers hand. I prayed for us both - that we might be
enabled to go on through life, doing, thinking, being, good
and fitting ourselves for the eternal home beyond. The
night was clear and beautiful, the North Star, Pleiades, and
Ursa Major shone down upon us with unusual brightness, and
the milky way, was occupying much of the blue space
above, one great source of comfort was that we were neither
one of the least bit sea sick, and as all retired long before us
we were not annoyed by the talking and noise of others.
The noble vessel bore us quietly but surely along, and I
guess our night at sea will ever be remembered, very few that
I have met can feel as I do about nature in such grandness
but mon ami has so much deep life, so much fine feeling,
that he can appreciate such things more than most, he
seems to know me well and reads my thoughts almost,
he is very very kind, and does so much for me - truly Poets
do have souls, more akin to the higher beauties -
75.
5th We were up and out on deck before sunrise and stood
watching the varying clouds, and then the rising from
the deep of the great luminary of the day, we were
out of sight of land, and the quiet and stillness was
delightful, it rose most beautifully but soon after disappeared
behind a cloud, and as the large drops of rain
fell we moved into the cabin, where we remained most
all day as it showered frequently, and amused ourselves
reading talking etc. - A great many passengers came on at
Cape May. At dinner time we went in my state room
and eat our cakes, apples peaches etc., - I was very tired indeed,
so took a nap, it was a long ride and we did not reach
Philadelphia till 5 oclock, then bid good bye to the Delaware
and started for home, Mr. Maule, E.A. & Mary J. were in the cars.
I was real glad to get home again, we had written to Sadie
and I wrote to Aunt E. in the evening - My visit to [New York] is over.
6th I was busy putting away my things in the afternoon Lide
Mart Jones and I took a delightful ride - They were out in
the evening I was very busy writing - The weather warm.
7th I scarcely feel rested yet. Today I burned a letter, that I
shall never forget, I was sorry to do it but thought best too -
After dinner all went to Fairmont Park but myself,
I spent the time in writing - Rebecca here awhile - I called
at Dodgsons - Saw the noon moon for the first time they
came home about eight oclock.
76.
8th I was up early writing to mon chere ami - three sheets full.
Went to meeting and had a good one mother spoke
very sweetly - In the afternoon I had just finished
writing and gone down stairs when Susan & Isaac Hibberd
came, they staid to tea, a real nice visit. Mary Jones &
Mart spent the evening with us also. J. B. After I went
up stairs I read the four well filled sheets, which were
so sweetly written and so very welcome, I wonder, if mine
will give half the pleasure, one thing it will be welcome.
9th At seven oclock I left home to again commence my school
in the city, opened with 13. being a little rainy prevented
Joseph Truman and Sam were there and we got along
very well, I am going to do my best for them all.
This morn I had a sweet note, and how very kind it
is in mon ami to defend me from such satire & sarcasm.
I truly thank him, this is not the first time he has
taken my part when the same person has spoken against.
I was very very tired when I reached home, but got rested
[Crossed out: awhile] then ironed awhile and wrote to Brother Ben - I wrote
two sheets, one in the car with a lead pencil - to mon ami.
I so often wonder if the task I have undertaken in commencing
this school will be successful. I will not give
up anyhow, much false pride had to be laid aside before
I was willing to bear all people would say, one friend
does not censure me anyhow. He gave me Bulwers [?] on immortality.
77.
10th I went to the office to take Bens letter, received eight pages
from mon ami. Went to the city at seven, and on my
way in commenced McCauleys life of Clive, lent by J.
found it quite interesting - Had a busy day in school -
when I reached home found a long and funny letter
from Jennie - Company from Salem. Wrote 3 sheets to mon -
11th Quite rainy but I came to the city, my school numbers
22. and no doubt will increase - Writing to Aunt L. Mott.
Father Mother and Lide came in in the carriage to attend
Rachel Masons funeral. I went home with them it rained
very hard. I enjoyed it after I was in my own room.
To day my youngest sister is twenty one. It makes me feel old.
12th I left home earlier this bright morning, to take three
letters to the office - Received 4 sheets from mon cher ami -
Just after I rang the bell at noon mon ami J. came in,
I was very busy and could not talk with him, he staid
till I was ready to go and then went with me, he took
me out home, a pleasant ride, Father and Mother. I called
at Miss Websters. after tea Lyd and I went to Rebecca's
then to Dr Ash's and at last took some ice cream. I
was up late writing to mon ami - Sweet moonlight.
13th I left at 7. Gave a note to Mr Ellis asking for a deduction
in the fare as I go over the road every day. Lyd came
in in the carriage, I went down town shopping, then went
out with Sam- Mrs V. Miss Creig & Miss W spent the eve,
78.
14th A pleasant morning, 20 [minutes] past 9 I went to Darby, and
heard some of the sweetest of Beethehovens music, it was grand
and I enjoyed it so much, so full of harmony and beauty.
Mother and I had quite a talk, how I do wish she better
understood my motives, surely I only do what seems to be
right. Father and mother went out to tea and I spent the
afternoon all alone, indeed it is a trial for me to decide
which too do, but I cannot no I will not dessert mon ami -
15th I had quite a long letter from me yesterday, I went to [Meeting]
and soon after dinner J came and we read the impeachment
of Warren Hastings, by McCaullay, it is very eloquent.
Mother was out visiting with the committee - It was a
most splendid moonlight evening, and we enjoyed it very
much. I was sad thinking of what was best for me to do -
16th Quite a pleasant morning, I came to the city, called
at Sallies awhile to see Lyd and Lide. then home, got out at
the factory to walk with Rebecca and Miss Creig: had a
letter from mon ami, also an Evening Hymn addressed to a Star.
It was very deep and beautiful. John Bartrams spent the eve with us.
17th Showery all day, when I reached home found T. Childs.
A sweet long letter from Saide - also one from mon ami, I
wrote to both after [half] past 9. J. spent the evening with us.
18th Cloudy and showery all day children some better 'tho bad
yet. I went to Lyceum with Miss Webster and John
interesting time I have to read the next time - A letter from [?].
79.
19th I came to the city in the car, had not been to my
school house but a few minutes when mon ami came.
he was going to bring me in but I did not stop there.
I had a sweet note written last night and thanking
me for going to see those who are bowed down with trouble
I offered my sympathy and wish I could do more -
I went round to Sallies, and then out home found Dr
and family - Father mother and Lide went to Dr Longstreth
to tea, Dr home again, Lyd and Ella talking and I sat
out doors while, then went up stairs and wrote a long letter
to mon, it was one of the most magnificent evenings we have had.
20th A beautiful day I had a sweet letter from Hans also
an invitation to attend a sacred concert next 2nd day [evening].
After tea we went to Rebecca's had a very pleasant time,
took a walk afterwards and how much I enjoyed listening
to the murmuring waters with the beautiful moon shining
down upon us, it was so quiet and still there.
21st Dr did not come out but sent John, in the P.M. they
all went home and Lyd with them, quite a little
shower, very warm in the evening, Lide and I went and
got some ice cream took some up to mother, a real blowy
hard rain about ten oclock, I went to sleep with its voice.
22nd A cold morning. I went to meeting, a silent but
good one - Isaac J here to dine, at sunset I wrote to ami
wrote a long letter Oldden - J & M. Powell here in the eve.
80.
23rd A most beautiful clear lovely morning. I came to
school, had 8 pages from mon ami. I went to Sallie's after
school and helped iron till [half] past 6 then dressed, and mon
ami called we went to a Sacred Concert at the Academy
of Music, it is a magnificent building, was filled with
people and the music far exceeded anything I ever heard.
The singers were good, organ grand. how much I enjoyed
it though I could not express half what I felt. Haydn's
War Mass was the most sublime thing, and a portion of the
Messiah perfect, in truth it was all good and beautiful
and I just wanted to shut my eyes and drink it in.
It was a beautiful moonlight night, and we walked out
to Darby Road halting awhile on the bridge, were in time
for the [half] past 11 oclock car, then went on the upper deck and had
a delightful ride out, so clear and beautiful. Eat peaches.
24th Quite cool, I had twenty five scholars, one girl was very
naughty and when I punished her bit me badly. I called
at Sam's then went down down, and out in the 5 oclock car.
Father mother and Lide were at Joseph Powells to tea,
I had a letter from Jennie L. also a long one from mon
ami - I answered the latter while I was all alone this
eve. They came home about ten, soon after we went
up stairs, Lide fainted, and was a long while coming too,
was very week, and on being lifted up, fainted again, we sent
for Dr and he was there till one clock - Something hysterical.
81.
25th Lide is some better this morning, I went to the city at
7 am much interested in reading McCauley's Miscellanies
J lent me. I read them in the cars. Lyd called and said
Sam and Sallie were going to Shin's to dine. I called there
for my carpet bag, then went out, stopped at the
Bell to see Miss Webster who is quite sick, some better now.
I then went over to Darby in the next car, found my carpet
bag and J sent it up, no one could be kinder than he is.
Father and mother went to Sharon, M Foulke very ill.
I went to bed early as I had only slept 10 hours in 48.
26th To-day is the one appointed for Fasting and Prayer -
and how many earnest desires will be offered up for the
good of our country, and our peace and happiness.
It was my first thought on awaking, and many times
during the day it was in my mind - Mother and I
did two comfortables, they went to Bonsalls to tea. I had
a long sweet letter from my dear Sadie also mon ami.
27th Again at my school cloudy and rainy all day -
Children very mischievous and much to try my patience
but I get rested at nights tho' very tired after school.
Went round to Sallie's then out home cloudy & rainy,
Found Father and mother had gone to Dodgsons tea.
After we were done I went out to take in the pot plants
a hurricane almost came up, and while I was tying up
the forseythe John came up - did not stay a great while could not
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28th I had a sweet note, which I re-read last night in
my own room with all the agitated elements round
about me but I was at peace and the sweet words
did me good - We were busy preparing for company I
went to the mail had a dear note - Lyd came out.
In the afternoon Bartrams, Puseys and Andrews came, had a
real pleasant visit from them. Mart B. is a nice girl.
29th A cold morning but I was writing to mon ami at [quarter] of
six, we put the stove on, went to meeting and just as
it was settled who should come in but Cynthia Holcomb
she had been at Rebecca's all night, we called there
on our way home and then she went with us,
found Sam, Sallie and baby had come out. George was
there also, and we had a real nice visit from her.
After dinner R. Abbie Martindale, Mrs Bright called awhile.
John came up, the Bucks County friends went in town,
Father and mother to Cousin Mary's, Sam, Sallie, Lyd
to call on M. Trueblood and then to Dr Ash's to tea,
J. Lide and I had a quiet afternoon to ourselves and
eve too, he gave me a sweet note written in the woods
all our folks being away we could not take a walk.
30th Came to the city had 24 scholars, not such very
good order, did not feel well all morning - went home
to help iron, Sam, Sallie came back to city. Hall Price brought Sallie
down to Sharon - I had a letter from Oldden.
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October 1st Hall and I came to the city, I went to see a
Police about keeping the white boys away from my school.
I had 33 scholars, and had to be very busy all the time
on one can know except by experience the trials and troubles
I have to endure or the amount of patience that is needed
to get through the day without getting angry or show any
signs of discouragement. After school I walked to 23rd &
Brown to the Police Station and then out to Darby Road,
when I reached home went up to see Miss W. while there
who should come in but John. The sunset was beautiful I wrote to Jen.
Second Many times I awoke last night and thought that
to day my friend Carrie would be a bride, a wife, how
much I thought of her and hoped and prayed that
their union would be sanctioned in Heaven, that their
lives might be blessed with peace. I wrote to her.
Our Lyceum [meeting] was quite large, had a most excellant
and eloquent lecture from J. Bunting. G. Truman read,
and so did I "The Skeleton. J Anne W. went home with us.
3rd A lovely day, about noon the cry of fire drew all the children's
attention, I would not let any of them go, though I staid
out to prevent, a steam engine and two others were on hand
and the building was not consumed. I went out with Ben
found J. Nichelson and wife there, in the eve I wrote to
Sarah and finished Carries letter, did not get to bed
till 11 - Sam paid me 15 [dollars] for 3 weeks. If I did not feel an interest it would not pay.
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4th Three years ago to day I commenced school at Purchase,
and little did I think so many things would be combined
to leave ineffable impressions upon my memory. 3 years
how swift time flies, they are dear dear friends, how
thankful I am that my friends remain so true, dear good
kind mon ami helps me so much, his feeling and sympathy
makes lighter many an hour and cheers me, when I have
so many difficulties to incounter. I had a sweet note this
morn from mon ami. Lide and I went over the oil cloth
factory and it is well worth visiting, so much machinery and
so much order, about it though it is very dirty work.
5th We were quite busy all morning I painted the posts in the
afternoon made my white apron. Sams came out. very warm.
6th Another very warm Sabbath morning, we went to meeting &
had a most excellant sermon from Henry W. Ridgway, a
full house, and meeting long, I walked with him to Dr Ash's
just as I turned the corner by Lloyds, J stepped up, he came up
in the PM. thinking would take the long talked of walk
but just then Aby Bell came so we did not go as he did not
care too. Amos Hillborn took tea with us. S. Truman, J. Dodgson,
and Henry Ridgway spent the eve. After all had gone to bed
and I was finishing my letters to Oldden & mon ami the bell
rang, I went down and found Lide and Ben had returned.
I had a sweet sweet letter from mon cher ami
always as kind and he is one of my dearest & most valued friends.
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7th Ben brought me in, we had quite a shower before
breakfast, I went to Darby to get my shoe & leave the
letters, cleared off lovely, clouds looked beautifully -
I had 29. and some very mischievous naughty out of school.
Helped iron after I went home, had a letter from Anna also mon ami.
8th A very very rainy morning - I came to the city, bought
little colored Nate for Aby to take to New York, he is a good
smart little boy. About 9 it stopped raining so hard and my
school was quite full. I went round to Sallies & made the beds.
9th I was busy in my school all day, and when I went to
the house found John waiting for me, we then went down
to the Matinee, at the Musical Fund Hall, heard some
most splendid music, I enjoyed it very much, we
rode out and had such a nice time. I wrote a little note.
10th A drizzley morning, I had a full school over 30 every
day the two Miss Parrish's came to teach sewing school I
staid till after four fixing my roll book it was real
hard work and I was very very tired, did not get home
till most seven. It rained very hard, I got an umbrella at B's.
11th Rained hard nearly all night but had stopped when
I came to school thirty-five and difficult work to attend to them.
Having the tickets to make out did not get off til late -
then walked out to Darby Road. Dear little Howard was
quite sick having eaten something to disarrange his stomach.
Had a letter from Oldden, then have gone to Virginia.
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12th Quite a hard rain in the night but cleared off Sams went
to the city. Hannah Hopkins with them. I was cutting out
my dress, Cousin Cyrus and Ruth came to dinner. In the
afternoon Lide and I drove to Oberlin Levis's, to take tea with
Fanny Thomas, Mary & Mart went in their carriage, we had a very
pleasant visit indeed, came home in the moonlight. Somehow I
felt sad nearly all day. think it must be sympathy.
Our folks took tea at Dodgsons - Lyd said there was a James Ben Darby.
13th I wrote a small note early, we all went to [Meeting] had no
preaching, in the afternoon Parents & Cousin C. & wife went to Eli
Pierces intending to stay all night. I was working all the
afternoon, 14 pages to Sadie, took a walk up to the Public
School about sunset, felt sad and weary-weary.
Maris Bartram and Phebe spent the evening with us,
after they went I finished Sadie letter & wrote to mon ami.
14th A lovely morning but quite cool, called at Sallie's then out
home, had quite a bad cold, which grew worse, I took a
good dose of medicine - Edgar Pierce & wife Joseph & Mart spent
the eve with us. Cousin C. Father & J. went to Andrews. note mon ami.
15th I feel very much better, had thirty-three pupils. After
school went to make an engagement with Newlin, then
down Second [Street] to do some shoping and out home in
the six oclock car. Busy all evening with my bonnet.
Lyd went to the city to-day. Cousin C & wife left.
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16th A misty morning. I had five new pupils, one 53 16 etc.
I walked down to Second [Street], could not match the material
for Cousin Mary. Was very tired when I got home at 7.
eat supper and went to Lyceum, which was quite interesting.
The Wreath was very good and well read. I wrote a short
note after I went up stairs. Had a sweet letter from Sarah W.
17th Another misty morning - a sweet note from Mon ami.
I called at Sams then walked down to the Sunday School Union
where I bought two cards with small letters on for my school.
Out home in the 5 oclock car. Quite a long talk with Mr. Neil.
Robert Buist was married in the Church. I had a sweet note
I was busy all evening with my sewing on my bonnet.
18th Gently raining when I went to bed and got up very few in the
cars. Quite a large school considering the weather 32.
Half past 3. All have gone and I feel weary and tired
though I do that every day, no one could imagine
much less be told the innumerable vexations an annoyances
I met with, experience alone could give any idea.
But I will not complain but work on in the right
none save one dear friend knows the trial and task it
is, I have chosen the path of duty and will not
shrink from it now, but hope and pray that
strength may be given me to be faithful unto
the end. A lovely moonlight night and [?] took a nice
walk to enjoy it, afterwards.
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19th I was busy sewing finished my bonnet. Quite
rainy in the afternoon, Uncle George & William Zernes dined
here then went on to Delaware, Mary Trublood & R Richards
spent the afternoon and took tea with us. Showery.
20th I did not go to meeting but wrote to mon cher ami.
As we were sitting quietly round the table after tea
Captain Isaiah Price came in all dressed in regimentals.
He and Lide went to Sharon, Father and Mother to Trumans
I sat there all alone, interrupted by a call from S. Buzby
& sister, then finished my letters, wrote 34 pages to day.
21. A cool morning I went early to put my letters in
the office, then Lide Captain Price and I came to the
city soon after I got to my school mon ami called.
Going out in the car Mr. Neill gave me his sermon
preached on fast day, it was very good indeed and
quite plain on the cause of this War, Slavery to be sure.
Lide and I went out together, found Ell Satterthwait
she had come from Aunt Janes and slipped out to spend
the night with us, her visit is very short she goes home to-morrow.
22nd A dull morning I finished by letter to Oldden, had
a sweet one from mon ami. Went to Newlin's had some filled
and one old root extracted, quite rainy, then out home.
23rd Dull and rain like Sallie and Howard called at my
school: I went round there at 3 and kept house while
she went shopping. Huffy, & M spent the eve with us.
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24. A clear cold morning. I was at Sallie till [half] past 8.
then came to school. Strange not to have my usual
morning ride and walk. Went down called at Dr Johnson's
brough me a Bible, a book I have long wanted, and do
not think it extravagant to treat myself to one.
as I got it very cheap indeed brown velvet & Gold.
Arrived at Darby [half] past 6. had a sweet precious
letter from my friend. Found 4 strangers at home to
stay all night Uncle G. Zernes etc. Father & Lyd gone
to Westchester to attend the Anti Slavery Convention.
25th Real cold and a white frost, came to school found
no fire, after a good deal of difficulty, got one. Sallie
and I went shopping, I bought a Balmoral skirt, went to
4th & Arch to get some flannel for Rebecca - quite dark when
I got home. Father and Lyd came back from Westchester.
26th We were all very busy getting ready for [Quarterly Meeting]. In the P.M.
I heard some sweet music and had a sweet quiet hour, was
very much better afterwards. Called at Rebecas.
27th A cold morning we went to [Meeting] which was quite large.
I was writing in my piece book, in the P.M. took my
usual walk to the School at Sunset. Lide & I were busy
grating coconut, afterwards I wrote to mon-cher-ami a note.
28th A real cold morning, but I found a fire at school.
I feel rather sad, disappointed in not getting a note or letter.
Mart Jones in the car. Company to tea and all night.
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29th A bright clear pleasant morning, we had a good
many callers, 19 went from our house to meeting.
I had a seat in the window on the steps, but I
was unhappy all day and my meeting was not so
good as it ought to be, though we had a very
excellent peace Sermon from Rachel Moore, a real warm
afternoon, over 30 took dinner at our house, R Moore
Aunt Janes Uncle Charley and many others, sisters Jane & May.
In the afternoon many went away. Trumans & Knights
girls from Byberry spent the evening with us. I was
very tired and did not sleep for a long while after going
up stairs. How much I pray for strength and a good heart.
30th I left the others and came at 7. had a sweet note
and also my request granted, burned it immediately.
I am sad and not entirely happy to day miss so
much something I cannot account for. Attended Lyceum
had an eloquent lecture from Dr Heirman, very good Wreath
some very beautiful pieces. I felt happier before I went to bed.
31st A beautiful morning and warm and pleasant. I went
down town, bought a brown french merino dress, then
walked to Aunt Rachels, but Aunt Jane had not got in
met them on the bridge, Mother and Aunt Jane came in
to attend Henry Ward Beechers lecture, the first one
of the Peoples Literary Course. I spent part of the eve with us.
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November 1st Lyd and I were up early and did the sweeping
then were busy sewing all day, I went to the office after
dinner heard some sweet music and had a nice talk
with mon cher ami. Mother and Aunt Jane came out.
2. I had no school as the floor of the school house wanted
fixing, and they could not do it on 7th day.
2nd A real hard rainy day, so Aunty could not go home
We were busy sewing and I got so much done.
3rd Cleared off warm and bright, I woke up very early
to think, talked awhile last eve to mon ami. We
went to [Meeting] which was not very large. Samuel
Child and Harry come out. Aunt J. and Sallie I went
to Uncle Williams. Grace & Pattie here in the eve.
Mon ami took tea with us. Uncle W. brought Aunt back.
4th Came to school over 30. So much talking to do
I became quite hoarse, have a little sore throat.
Found Uncle Thomas had come on with Anne & Annie Whitson
Carrie a good deal better, dear child I hope she may get
well - my throat still quite sore, an cough enough to make
me feel miserable. I turned Jacob Bell out of school, because
he was so naughty when I corrected him he struck me. I
did not appear the least angry but told him he could not come again.
5th A lovely morn. I walked up to Sam's to take a duck Uncle T. had
brought us. Father and mother came to Quarterly Meeting.
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6th Showery all day, I was very hoarse in school and went
home in the 3 oclock car. had a dear sweet note, was
quite sick in the evening suffered a great deal of pain
but endeavoured to keep a cheerful countenance. had to
lie down nearly all eve, though I cut out Lizzies dress.
7th Very stormy during the night, but clear by morning
I slept pretty well though awake a great deal. felt
somewhat better, came off to school, felt quite miserable
all day, took Sallie a boquet before school, afterwards I
rode down to 4th & Chestnut walked up to Independance
Hall but found a great crowd to see the remains of Col.
Baker, I saw the hearse with six black horses, all
was very quiet and solemn but I came back to Market
[Street] and went out home, soon after mother and Lyd, came
to the city to hear Hon. Charles Sumner lecture at Concert Hall.
Father and I had a quiet evening to ourselves I made a pin cushion.
8th A lovely quiet morning though cool and winter-like. my
cough is better. Sent the Ledger to Lide - Mother and Sallie
called at my school a little while, mother spoke beautifully to the
children, I was so glad they were quiet, had she been here a
few hours after would have been very much tried, one
very large girl Alice Young was very naughty and impudent
talked out loud continually, I told her she should be expelled
an in her anger, struck me, I remained very cool, and would
not get her go, till I talked to her, though I stood against
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the door 20 minutes, when I sent her out, she made all
kind of noises against the windows etc. I had to use a strong
will to prevent showing any excitement, but after they had
all gone which was not till 3 oclock, I was very very weary,
my brain throbbed, and flushed face showed a burning head.
I waited till [half] hast 4. and finding I would be disappointed
left for home, on getting out in the cool fresh air, and
turning my thoughts from myself and sadness, I felt
better. Wrote to Sadie in the evening and commenced one to O.
9th A cloudy rainy morning, I went to the Office had a
sweet note from Mon ami it rained all the afternoon and
evening. I was tired, though sewing nearly all day.
10th A clear morning I was writing to Oldden, then went to [Meeting]
Mother offered up a beautiful prayer and the meeting was very
solemn. A lovely afternoon so bright and sunshiny, Father
and mother went up to Aunt Esthers, I amused myself by
sketching a picture that was given me for about an hour
when my friend came and we spent a very pleasant
afternoon together, waited tea till 7. and while at it
Maris Bartram came, J went at 8. but, Maris and I had
a real nice time, he is a very fine young man I think.
11. Came off to school, cloudy all day, I did not feel very well
though not unhappy, the remembrance of pleasure can
nearly always give me joy. Mon ami came and took me home
a nice pleasant time and good old fashioned talk. Business [committee] met at Dr. J
Found Library book - McCauleys
94.
12th Had 36 scholars to day, consequently was very busy, I
have to resort to all kinds of expedients, to day tied one
hands and feet then fastened him to the bench, he had
thrown a book at a boys head making it bleed profusely.
Sallie Lyd and Howard called and I went down town
with them. Nathan Sellars. L.R. spent the evening with us
Mother was not very well and went to bed early. Father also.
13th John opened the mail to put a paper in, for me I brought
a letter on to the city, he did not know it. Mrs V. came in.
After tea I started to Lyceum, but found Rebecca had not got
home, I then went on alone, it was very small, the Teachers Institution
was reason, we had no Wreath but a very good debate on, "Which
has done the most for Civilization Intellect or Morality," Johns
opening speech was very good indeed, and I thought it was a
great pity there were so few there to appreciate it. He went
home with me and I was compensated for going alone.
14th I have been worried today, because I know my friend
is sick, one thing he has become deaf from some reason, he
does not know, I fear cold. I wrot to him this morning,
after school called at Sallies then went down town, did some
shopping and out home in the 6 oclock car, A note from Lide.
15th A sweet note this morn from my precious friend, and a copy of a
Poem translated by the same as author as the others. It is very
very beautiful and I shall love it for his sake. I called
at the Home, but mother had gone, I then walked to the depot
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16th A cold blustry morning. mien leiber was not at all well
but confined himself to the store, though he was not able to
be there. He gave me the Poem, written on the day spoken
of so long ago. election. I have been rubbing my feel with a
warranted cure, and would be very thankful if they would
not get frosted. Mother bound my cloak. I wrote to
17th I did not go to meeting, but had my good thoughts and
offered up my sincere prayers, in the quiet of my own home.
After dinner Father, mother and myself went to Cousin
Ephraims, the first Sabbath I have been away since I came
from [New York] we had a real nice visit, Eph has been down
to see Oldden found him well and comfortable, my dear friend
how I would love to see him, and know he was just the same.
After I cam home, I wrote to Sarah W. and mon cher ami.
I finished the Poem this morning and think it contains
some of the most beautiful passages I ever read. The Awaking
breathes a spirit willing to take life and God gives it, and showing
the high and holy attributes of the highest manhood.
My poor pen could not do it half justice, though I
can feel and know the beauty expressed, the depth of feeling.
18th A cold windy morning I was up at ten [minutes] past 5
and fixing my feet, started for school at 7 had quite a long
talk with Dr Neill, Called at Sallie's, dear little Howard
is very lovely. I had a few lines promising more.
Bought a pair of shoes, called at Aunt Rachels.
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19th A cold, morning, I sent a paper to Lide, had a dear
precious note from mon ami. This is friendship in all its purity
this perfect trust and confidence makes me very happy. No
one can ever know the enjoyment and pleasure which comes
from two spirits that understand each other so well, it is not
that joy known in lower natures, but an elevating purifying
congeniality which never forgets that all our blessing come from
Our Father, our hearts are full of gratitude, and our love for
each other makes stronger our love of God. It is not love to
end in marriage, but a thorough understanding of the
inner nature, and sympathy and affection for the feelings and
thoughts which can be told without fear of ridicule, or distrust.
Mother and Lyd went out in the eve to beg for contrabands
she got 6 [dollars} at meeting this morn, and 2 [and a half] this eve.
20th A cold morning but my walk up town warms my
blood and I do not suffer from the cold long. Sam called,
awhile, just before three oclock while I was keeping in a very
stubborn boy, Sallie sent me a note to go mend, I did and
then mother and I went home as we were invited out to tea at
Jabez Buntings. All went but myself. a note went saying
"mon amis enfant would keep house alone." Mien lieber came up a
while but business prevented him from staying long, we had a nice
quiet time, peace and happiness in our hearts, what a
great large noble heart my friend has, and it must be
good for good flows continually from it. They had a nice visit.
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21st I was awake very early, for memory brings up the
pleasures of the past, and I love to think of the happiness
I have enjoyed. Came to the city, intending to go to hear E.
H. Chapin lecture but Ben has gone to Washington, [?]
had an engagement so I will be disappointed. Sallie and
I went down to Second and Dock, did some shopping etc. Amos
Hillburn and Charley spent the eve very pleasantly with us, about
[half] past 10. He and I went and got over a quart of ice cream
and cakes so we had quite a lively time all to-gether.
22nd A bright beautiful morning, I think a great deal of
all that has happened in a week, loud nothings, parlorpres.
I only had 26 scholars, my work is very tedious, and no one
could know or guess except by experience the many many little
annoyances and unpleasantness I have to put up with.
But I go at my work cheerfully and seldom get disheartened,
as I try to use all the time to the best of my
ability. I went round to Sallie's and then she & Hannah when with
me down to Market street. I took little Howard with me, the
first time he ever went away from his mother to stay all night.
He was very good, we got out at the Home and quite surprised
mother and Lyd who were there, we then went home and
the dear little boy was very good indeed. Sallie will miss him.
23rd I took a letter for Lide though it was quite rainy, Sallie
came out at 10. I did not go to the office - had a letter
from Lide. Sunshine came out in the P.M. Sam came.
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24th Father and Mother started for Bristol and then
intended going on to Hectors and over to Crosswicks.
We all went to [Meeting] mine was a very good one. Sam wife
and baby went to Dr Ash's to tea, George Truman called &
took Lyd to a Temperance lecture, I spent the evening alone
in writing. I cannot help being a little disappointed.
25th The ground white with snow not thick, I did not get even
a note. I am writing now at my school house, all alone and
am doing round to keep house for Sallie as she staid in
the country. The house will be cold and no one there.
26th I went yesterday made a fire in the furnace then
went out and got something for supper which I had
nearly ready when Samuel came home at 6, and though
it was some time after dark I was not at all afraid.
This morning was up early and got breakfast, then he
went to business, I made beds, did the dishes and
by that time it was 8 oclock soon after I went to
School, and at 3 oclock out home found Mrs. [?] there
I had a note but had expected more, one or two disappointments
have me feel quite sad, and my heart ached, but even in
these trifles I knew where to find comfort, and soon, went
alone in my room and earnestly prayed that I might bear
with these small things cheerfully. I felt better after
just as I always do, when I find relief in this way.
My cough is very bad.
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27th A cold but pleasant morning. Sam & I came to the
city, I felt real sick in school, and the noise made me
worse, my cold and caugh are the cause. Lyd brought
Sallie etc. in with Dr Ash's horse, I went home with them.
I persuaded Lyd to go to Lyceum, and we had a splendid
lecture from George Collem, what a smart young man
he is. It was very small. Miss W was there. I walked on as home.
28th To day is thanksgiving, I have no school and I
am glad of it, for I am sad and unhappy, there seems
to be a dark shadow hanging over me, and in tears and
prayer I have tried to dispel it, I want the sympathy
of my friend yet would not worry him with it, how I
wish I was less sensitive but I cannot help it. Music [?]
To night G. M. Curits lectures and I am sadly disappointed
but it would not do to leave Lyd alone. So will give it up -
Cousin John took tea with us a real pleasant time -
29th Cloudy damp and wet I came to school. Father and
mother on their way home and I went out with them.
Lide did not come back, as Hectors wanted her to pay them
a visit. I still feel that oppressive weight on my heart.
30 Sallie Price and Anne Bell came down, Anne & I
went to the office. In the afternoon all went to Darby
called at Rebecca then awhile at Mart Jones's she
played and the music was very soothing to me. Ben, Sallie &
baby took tea with us, then home in the evening.
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DECEMBER First A sabbath morn it is the first
of the winter month, not a peaceful one to me for my heart
is heavy, sorrow seems hanging around and casting it shadow
upon, and yet there is not any known cause for so much
suffering as I am enduring, a longing, a great thirsting
after something it feels it needs, perhaps just now the
evidence of human love and sympathy would drive away
the restlessness. The girls concluded not to go to meeting
I did not say any thing, but I was sorry, for I wanted
to be alone, mon cher ami called away, and I would have
felt so much better, could we have had a confiding talk.
The unbidden tears, would come and had to be concealed.
I walked up to Sharon with the girls, hoping to be benefited
by being out doors. Wrote two sheets with a
lead pencil to unburden my heart, and felt much
better afterwards. Seemed to know I had no need distrust.
2nd I eat no breakfast scarcely ever, but I cannot. I had
a sweet dear note from my own precious friend, it did me so much
good. Finished my letter to Sadie, left it at the office.
Ben and Mr Brown took tea with us at home.
To day Congress meets, and how great the responsibility.
3rd A cold morning, though my walk up always warms my blood
called a few minutes at Sallie's and then on home, found Cousin
M there to stay all night. I had a long sweet letter
from my friend, which did me so much good. answered.
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4th Clear but cold this morning, thermometer at 22. I am
very happy though, and came off in good spirits. When
I commenced this difficult task, I made a resolution no
matter how great the annoyances or trials at school, to let
them affect my disposition, but always go home in a
cheerful uncomplaining humor, I think I am keeping it
pretty well, for sometimes when tired and not very well
I am almost cross. Yesterday I suffered very much
for about two hours during school so much pain, to-day
I am better. At 7 John and I went to the Literary
Musical Sociable at Mr W.'s about 30 there and we had
quite a pleasant time, some good reading, recitations etc. etc.
No car came in time and we walked home in the starlight.
Sat awhile to warm, and had a pleasant chat, we will
not soon forget this night, the thoughts and feeling. "Please", pleadingly
5th Not quite so cool, I did not find any scholars here as usual
and had a nice quiet thinking time for a little while.
Found Father and mother had gone to [Cousin] Mary S. I did not stop.
6th Came right in to the city not so cold as it has been, preparing
for storm to-morrow, A letter from Lizzie J yesterday wants
me to go there to-morrow. I wonder what thinks.
7th At [half] past 11 I went to the city reached the boat
in plenty of time, left at 2. it was the first time
I had been on the water since we came from [New York]
and how vividly that came to me, the sweet
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memories of that pleasant evening on the star lit sea,
never never to be forgotten. I found Lizzie and Lide
at Aurora, we went to the store for Lee Clothier
then took tea at Hillborns, Jesse and Sallie came &
we had a real good old fashioned grand time.
8th Went to meeting and back there to dine, spent
the afternoon very pleasantly, John [?] there in eve.
It seems so natural to be again among our Byberry
friends all so kind and hospitable, how I love them.
9th Jesse took Lou to the cars, us to the boat, we had to
wait a good while it was so foggy and did not
reach the city till nearly ten, found Jen. S. at
Sallie's she had been to Darby a day or two. I
came right to school, had told the children not to
come till to. A most beautiful warm day, I was
disappointed in not getting a note. Wrote a short one
to Miss W. she seems to want my friendship, and how
can I refuse if it can do her any good. I hope it may.
[10th] Another foggy morn, but warm. Jen and Lide called
awhile, when I went there after school all had gone down
town, I went out called at The Home for some work,
then walked up to the Depot just as the sun was setting
beautifully. Went round and invited the business
committee to meet at our house in the eve; so six
of them came & we had quite a nice time. Parents went to S. Jones's
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11th Beautiful clouds, then a heavy shower before seven, I
took a letter to the office for Oldden, it is a lovely warm
morning and I so much enjoyed the sunrise, and my
ride in, it was glorious, the great orb coming majestically
piercing the clouds and shedding such a holy light
over all, it brought to mind that shower in the
early morn when we sat upon the deck of the Delaware.
After school I went round to Sallie's found Jennie & Lide
were going to the Blind Asylum, so I accompanied them
the admission was 10 [cents] we went to the work rooms
and how industriously the stricken ones worked, the
entertainment was good excellent music and good singers,
I felt very great sympathy for those whose outer sight
is witheld by the hand of God, but he blesses them and
in the great eternity there awaking will be glorious.
We did not get home till 7 then soon went to Lyceum,
our editor was absent and J read the Wreath, had an
excellent debate on Which has done the most the United States
Press or Government. John opened it very well, Chalk walked in
Jennie home. One week ago to-night, how I remember A Pleasure.
12th I left home at my usual time, 7, it is much cooler.
I had my great trials at school, the white boys on the
outside came & raised the windows, screaming out vulgar
language throwing in stones, and sticks would not let
me shut the shutters, and once when they threw
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open the door and rushed in, I went to put them
out and one struck me, knocking the skin off
my hands and bringing blood. I wrote a note to
send and they would not let one of my boys take
it but threw stones etc. They would go away a few
minutes and then back again, worrying me so I
was almost sick, and yet I could do nothing
but keep my own children in order, which I did
apparently calmn, but I was almost unnerved, tho'
I bore it as well as possible, one of my naughter girls
was very troublesome, calling me all kinds of names
and striking me if I punished, but I conquered.
I sent for Sallie, but of course there was no police
to be had, I wrote a note to the Lieutenant.
Went to Sams, and we got at my bonnet, I
stayed in all night. Dear little Howard is lovely.
13th A clear cold morn, I came to school, and hope to
get along more peaceably than yesterday. I pray for
strength even in these wordly affairs, but I need it.
I was going down to Callowhil [Street] on an errand and met
J. coming up we walked together awhile and then separated
as he had to do some business. I was very sorry it
happened so. I wanted to see him so badly, I had so
much to say. Rebecca spent the eve with us. I
had a letter from A.E.W asking me to be her friend.
105.
14th A very pleasant day, Lide and I went to Puseys
after chick weed. I took some letters to the office early. J
gave me the Three Pictures to read. Father mother & Lyd
went to Cousin Mary's, Lide and I had a good long quiet
talk about friends. Just as we finished tea Uncle Hall
came. Beautiful moonlight night.
15th We all went to meeting and I had a very good
one, in the afternoon all went away but Lyd and self
Dr & family, Harry & Anna Eliza Cook came out to tea, the
latter and myself, called at E. Steles. Rudolph Watson
and The Justice came just as Drs were going, spent the eve.
16th Soon as I reached school commenced to answer Anna's
letter, showing how wrongly she judged the Friends doctrine.
She wrote she had believed them little better than infidels,
but she thought I had evinced such evidence of true piety
and belief in christianity that she was so sorry she had
been so uncharitable etc. I am glad if I have done
anything for her good and shall not withdraw my
friendship when I think I can make any one happier.
Rebecca called at my school and then we went to Sallies.
J on home; Sat up quite late sewing, but my thoughts
keep me good company, they soon form into prayers,
and my supplications arise, that He may bless and
love those so dear to me, I strive to feel that not
my will oh Father but Thine may be done.
105.
17th I was awake [one quarter] past 4 and was down stairs by
5. finishing my letter and dress. A warm pleasant
morning, I returned the book, which I read with so
much interest. Poor John Burley, he found as all
will find, that the heart must make others happy
if it would be blessed, Art, Science, nothing can bring
the true peace without following the divine principles.
After school I went down to the Fair rooms at 10th & Chestnut
it was very well filled considering the times, saw a great
many we knew, I was at the eating table and some
times very busy, was very tired being on my feet so
much, such constant doing. Mary Hillborn went home with us.
18th Warm and foggy, I came to school, not yet rested from
yesterdays labor but must be faithful at my post to-day.
Mother and Sallie went down town to see Mrs. Johnson Walnut [Street].
I took Hannah and Howard down to the Fair, was
then very busy till after ten oclock. on my feet most of [?].
19th A warm lovely morning, I had 30 and so many very
small ones keep me busy several under 4. for young
to learn. I went with Sallie down to the Fair, was busy
there till 7 then went with Jesse James to hear Henry Ward
Beacher, [?] which read a telegram saying the boat had
changed starring places and he could not leave till 4.
so he did not begin till nearly [half] past 8. then was very good
on the results of the Past, etc. We called at the Fair & then [?]
106.
20th We did not go to bed till after 12. but my eyes
always go to sleep with a prayer in my heart, and the
first thoughts in the morn are an offering to Our
Father, and a desire to submit to what He may deem
most fitting, I never cease to pray for my dear friends,
and my brother too, now so far away from home, my
sincere hopes and desires or for his happiness & peace.
Jane Hillborn was with us all night, she left this
morn. The Fair closed this even and many of us thought
perhaps it might be the last. I bought a hood that
R.A.P. knit and could not bear a stranger to have it a
such a sacrifice. she let me have it at what the zephyr. cost.
Jesse James gave me a handsome port monai, for [?]
Sallie James went to Sallies to stay with us.
21st We went down to the Assembly Buildings, where they
were clearing up: then I went and fulfilled my promise (hair)
then out home, mother and I had a nice quiet time.
22nd We went to [meeting] mine was a good one, yet some seemed
restless and unsettled I am not very happy to day.
Wrote to Ell. S. Saide & Anna, Edgar Pierce wife & Aunt
took tea with us, quite a pleasant visit. [??]
23rd I came to town in a terrible rain storm, but did
not get wet had very few scholars, on account of rain
24th Clear and cold. I went after some more [?] for frosted feet, then
called for request. Remained at Sallies all night.
107.
25th Christmas morning, how many anxious hearts, how
many will anticipate a day of mirth and pleasure, &
yet how many are bowed down in sorrow and [?]. We
were up by 4 oclock and went to Catholic Church
saw much that to me was mockery, without worship
but the music was splendid, and awhile, during the
quietness, I forgot every thing around me, and prayed
yes prayed to my Father earnestly and sincerely.
We returned to Sallies to breakfast, Lide and I dined
with Mary Parry, had a real nice visit. Maggie F.
Sallie Cleaver, Tacie & Josh. James there, I came home afterwards.
Save the note and card. Wrote to Oldden afterwards.
26th Took letters to office, had a sweet note. Lide came
out, Anna Webster took tea with me, then we went
to Lyceum had an excellant lecture from [George] Collamo.
27th Busy with the hog, but I was miserable all day, have
suffered a good deal since school, the reaction after the
labor of last week. Sallie, Hale, Anne Bell & Whitson here
to dine, then went up to Aunt Esthers, Hall to city.
28th Busy this morn, I have had a great deal of pain in the
nerves of my eyes, and head. Cousin Cyrus Pierce came
to dinner and we spent a very pleasant afternoon.
In the eve they went to Dodgson, and I was busy
knitting on a mitten for my friend Oldden.
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29th I did not go to meeting, my mind was not in
a good state and body needed rest, so I settled
quietly down and wrote to mon cher ami. That seemed
to do me good, it always does. After dinner I sat in
the parlor alone, a long while, writing and reading, yes
reading the dear precious letters that have helped me so
much. Cousin John took tea with us. J here in the eve.
30th I was on the sofa nearly all day quite indisposed.
When I could was busy knitting mittens for Oldden.
31st. I was some better, Sallie and Howard came out. I went
up to school, Anna and I had a real long talk, one never
never to be forgotton, we staid in that little class room till
after six, and oh, how many bitter bitter tears were
shed there, two great schocks filling the cup of bitterness
to overflowing, when did I know such agony, and
then I knew I must bear it alone, I would not wring
my mothers heart or give my sisters such suffering.
God help me to bear it, He alone can, and I must
not show too much of my anguish. I sat up and in
the stillness of that midnight hour I wrote a long
ernest letter to my only, my beloved brother, when the
new year commenced its course I was praying that
our Father would guard and protect those that I
loved so well..
MDCCCLXII
January 1st A bright and beautiful morning breaks
upon the world, all seem gay and happy, but on my
heart lies that great dead weight, crushing out its
life. Breaking down my health because, I cannot eat
food will not go down, Heaven strengthen me if I
ever has to pass through such agony again. At
times I appeared happy, and never complained only
suffered in silence. We young folks went to
Judge Andrews to sign a paper releasing C. Peirce &
Uncle William as surieties. Then Lide and I walked
to Sharon, home again and I had a letter from
my friend Oldden. We walked to the Bell,
such a lovely day, so warm and pleasant.
Company calling all day, and Joe Middleton
and Mr. Branson took tea and spent the
eve with us, when they went to get the horse found
he had bitten his bridle, and gone, we were all very
much worried, they gook the lantern, and went
in pursuit he had turned completely round.
We felt very anxious to hear if they caught him.
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2nd A pleasant morning, Lide was coming with me
and I waited, and for the first time in my life
was left. We waited at the Store, the car had left
sooner than usual. When we reached the depot
saw Joe & his friend, they had heard nothing from
the horse only he had crossed Greys Fery Bridge
with one shaft, they came into the city & would
get another and search, poor fellows, they will not
soon forget it. I came to school which was small.
I had a sweet note from mon ami, answered it.
3rd Thermometer at 20. I came to school, a poor fugitive that
had taken supper at house yesterday was in, going
down Market [Street]. I asked the conductor to let him get on
the car, which he did. I came up to school. Sallie and
Lide went with me, to Mrs Johnsons, then I went home.
4th I took a letter to the office, had a nice little talk with J. Lide
came home about dinner time, in the afternoon, I went to Darby
met Anna, & I got in the carriage and we took a ride poor dear
girl, how much I sympathize with her on these hours of trials.
I think and feel a great deal for my two dear friends and
wish I could help them. I spent an hour or more with Rebecca.
Finished the wristlets and mittens for Oldden, then wrote to him.
Every heart knoweth its own bitterness, and as I sat, warming & rubbing
my feet, for an hour after they went to bed, how my thoughts went over the
present and the past. I commenced his lecture on music.
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5th A cold clear morning, I went to meeting, and fear there
was not much worship though I prayed earnestly for them.
Josiah Bond gave us quite a good discourse. We went
to Counsin E's to dine on Turkey, [Cousin] John was there and
we had a real nice visit, only my feet hurt me so I
was sick nearly all the afternoon. I had a strange
dream which I wrote out. I dreamed I was alone and
sad and unhappy, when gently a hand was laid upon my
head and a voice said my child, remember, thee is not the
only one that has trouble, I have suffering & sorrow too."
It was strange and full of import to me. more.
6th I was up by 6 oclock, found the ground covered
with snow 5 or 6 inches, mother was quite worried about
me, but I started off in good spirits, and made
the first tracks, the car ran very smoothly, but with
difficulty, had three horses, I got in a 19 [Street] car
but when we got to the corner the horse could not pull,
we all got out & a vine [street] car put their horses too,
soon after, ours stopped again, I took the lines & the
driver lead him, twice we stalled, but at last
reached school, found a fire, but my feet were
cold and I put them in cold water, only had 5
scholars and closed sooner than usual. Lizzie James
and Mary Parry called at Sallies. I had to wait nearly an hour
as the Darby cars did not run regularly. I spent an hour with Anna.
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7th Last evening my feet hurt me so, I went to Dr Jones. he
gave me some powders, and if they do not help me, I shall
lose all hope, he was my last & I have ceased to have any
faith in outward applications, one powder put in [half] a tumbler of
water & taken every half hour. I came to school this morn
quite cold but the sunshine was cheerful. I read The
Mystery of Life which is really very beautiful. Mother was in
the city and we went out together. I took my watch to be cleaned.
Soon after tea Anna called, and left me her watch & chain, as
it seemed best for her not to keep it, how much I do pity
and sympathize with them. I cannot be happy when
my friends are not. Business committee met at our house.
8th I was awake before 4 and could not sleep afterwards,
I do suffer a great deal when my friends are unhappy,
and now I feel the responsibility of my advice, I scarcely
know what to advise but pray for strength & the right.
It was very cold thermometer at 11. much warmer towards
night, I wrote a note to mon cher ami. Winter wall of ice.
We went to Lyceum, I sat with Anna, it was quite
interesting, but my eyes watched that pale face and
saw far beneath a cold exterior, a warm throbbing heart
aching, and sorrowing, it filled my own with pain to
know the suffering that was not there and I could
do so little to alleviate it. But I shall hope for the best.
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9th Quite rainy, and dark when I left home, had
a precious note from my dear friend. My thoughts
are with them, continually. Not frozen but diseased.
I had a long letter from my dear Sadie, and she told
me the sad news of Stephen Millet's death, also that
my friend Edward had been dangerously ill, I do feel a
great deal of sympathy for Anna she seems to have so
much sickness, so many of my friends in trouble. I
cannot be happy, it occupies my thoughts very much.
I wrote to Anna; and shall feel anxious to hear.
10th A real foggy, stormy morning, very sleety, I did not
have a great many scholars, afterwards, went to Front
and Willow, where I took the cars, for Penn Lynn. I
had not been in steam car, since we went to Harrison,
how vividly a thousand memories came thronging back,
and all that happened since then. Hearry Foulke
met me, Charles Evans & wife were also going there,
they all welcomed me so kindly, Ellie was up & [?]
We spent a very pleasant evening. Sallie C. with us.
Maggie and I lay awake for several hours talking.
11th A little sunshine, & we spent a sociable morn
together. After dinner Harry, Maggie and I went to
Cousin Oliver's, I had not seen him since he was
married, and was quite pleased with his wife.
we went back to Foulkes to tea.
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Attended their Lyceum which was one of the most
interesting I ever saw, a very good lecture on "America
the theme for poetry," The Gleaner, had some beautiful
pieces in it, declamation was excellent, & critics report very
good I enjoyed it all very much; about 70 there.
12th A foggy sleety, morning we went to meeting, I
was occupied with my own thoughts, In the P.M.
we went to Cleavers, had a pleasant visit, my feet
still trouble me a great deal, so much suffering.
13. Came down in the cars, and in my school, read the
strict rules I had written & they were better to day.
I went out home, had a letter from Brother Ben.
14th More snow, I went to Dr Jones last eve & he
gave me another kind of medicine, I hope it will cure.
I do suffer so much with them more than anyone
could guess. A note from Lyd Jackson saying
Mrs McIlvain wanted a teacher & Aunt R.
recommended me. I shall not take it though,
for my duty & my work is here & I shall not give up.
the salary is much than this.
15. I sent a letter to Aunt Sarah, was quite happy in
my ride this [?], for the "disease" seemed departing & the
old friendship, came back, dearer, because purified
by sorrow. I had a letter from Carrie W. Frame yesterday.
she is very happy in her new relation, a wife.
115.
At school 4 P.M. For two hours I have been pleading
and coaxing the good that I knew must be in the
heart of one of my most wayward pupils, I never
could have so much patience with children whose
home education was good, but these poor outcasts
must be reclaimed, and if it be my task, I hope
I may fulfill it faithfully. I conquered at last,
though I had to punish him, but my talk
brought the repentant tears, and I do sincerely
hope, he may be strengthened to do better. I
know, My Father helps me bear these trials, for
my naturally quick temper, does not rouse, and
I feel more pity and love than in kindness.
I met Lide in the 5 oclock car and we went home.
I never saw the streets ore slushy and wet.
16th A lovely bright morning but very windy and I
never saw the streets such a sheet of ice, I had to
walk up in the middle, & then the wind was
so strong I could scarcely resist it. I went to Sallies.
Josiah Bond there two hours, Charley to tea & afterwards
Josiah came again to invite Lyd and me to go to William
Lloyd Garrisons lecture; we did not accept [Crossed out: but]
I staid all night, dear little Howard has a
bad cold. Sallie and I called on Fanny
Wright, quite a pleasant time.
116.
17th A very bright moonlight morning, and I was
awake early and then dreamed again, of a pure and
noble heart returning to an early friend, I sometimes
think my earnest and sincere prayers surely will
be answered, that my own precious friends cannot
but receive some of the blessings they so much deserve.
Nothing changes my feelings, when once the tide
goes forth, and sorrow or suffering makes me love
still more, if that were possible, sometimes I fancy
the time will come when all that I have
called friend, will look back upon the tie as
one strong enduring and faithful to the last.
I know I may be, I am, peculiar in this, but such is
my nature, though experience has developed the
mind and made it strong, capable of supporting
and bearing with trial and sorrow, yet the heart
the real true heart, is pure, and capable of much
deep and true affection, feeling most acutely for and
with others. Few [?] know the deep emotion there.
About [half] past one Uncle Paxson & Aunt Jane came in, staid
awhile then went round to Sam's, we went down to shop
Aunty got a set of Furs. I bought a double blanket & shawl.
all went back to stay all night. Charley came to invite me
to the surprise party, but I did not go.
117.
18th Aunty and I went down 8th [Street] it poured with rain, then
to aunt R. to dine & home in the 4 oclock car.
19th I did not go to [meeting], it was very stormy, about dusk mon
ami came, I was surprised but very glad, we had a nice
time - I had a sweet note from him - my own dear & best friend.
Captain Price lately from Port Royal was with us all
night - He has come to get recruits - Dodgsons here.
20th I came to school, had 21. rainy & foggy all day,
in the eve [George] called to wait on me to Lyceum committee.
21st I had to stop to leave J. a book, he gave me a piece for
my eyes alone - I am happier now - my dear good friend.
I called at the Drs for more medicine my feet are better. At
the table Lide fainted away, poor child how sudden it is.
22nd I came early to take Sadies letter, how a sweet talk
and feel quite like old times again - Anna took tea with
me, then went to Lyceum, John read the Wreath, my piece on Life was in.
23rd I had only a little rest, Howard, was fretful and I had much on
my mind. Took some letters to the office, felt very miserable, hardly
strength to stand, oh! this mental disturbance how it underminds
my health, yet I cannot help it or drive it away.
I had a letter from Anna, Edward is better. But Ann Barnes
intended died a few days ago. Poor Anna how sad it is.
I had a letter from Ellie Satterthwaite. I went to
Sam's, had to lie right down, but was better in the
eve, Sallie is at Darby & I keep house. Humph here.
118.
24th I felt rather better, yet hardly able to be in school. Went to
Sams, afterwards. it was hailing raining and snowing.
25th I spent a quiet day by myself stormy nearly all the
time, so much that Sallie did not come in. I am
rather disappointed in not getting home, do not feel at all well.
26th Samuel went to Darby, I wrote nearly all day, have
33 pages of letter writing ready to send, to Carrie, Oldden,
Anna, mon. and Anna Barnes for whom I have a great deal
of sympathy in this her sad hour of bereavement; for she has
seen the cold finger of death laid upon the brow and remove the
spirit from him whose happy bride she would have been
in a few short months; She was telegraphed for but
did not arrive in time, to receive a parting word.
how suddenly her cup of joy has turned to bitterness
and my heart aches for her in this great affliction,
when the hopes, of life have been taken from her, and
she is left desolate, no, not entirely for to one so good
and pure the Comforter will come, and she will find
that "none of them that believe in Him shall be desolate."
I pray that strength maybe given to bear it, I
thought it would not be intruding to offer my sympathy.
Josiah Bond and J. Newport were here, awhile -
27. I took Hannah to school. Sallie came in left Howard
out is going to wean him. I went home Parents gone to
Quarterly [Meeting] at Concord. Oliver is very good.
119.
28th I could not sleep any after 5 oclock, lay where I could
see a bright star looking at me, and I prayed to be
good, to grow better, to take what my Father gave me
without murmuring. I took 4 letters to the office.
As I was closing school at noon the door opened and
Mrs Humphrys & her friend walked in, and also mon ami
who had met them at the door; they invited me to a
little company on 5th day eve. He staid awhile. I went
to Sallies and home in the 4 oclock car, was surprised to see
Hans open the door for me - A pleasant ride out.
29th A drizzly morning I took a letter for Ben.
Went home at 3 and to see Anna, we had a long talk, how
my heart aches for her, she is boarding at Pearsons, I went
to Doctor Jones' for more medicine. My thoughts are with her.
30th I brought Nellie in, it was quite rainy, Sister Sallie
has a bad sore throat and Lide is with her, I
went there after school, Charlie came for me and we
went and spent a very pleasant evening, at 22 [?] [Street]
had some good music which I enjoyed very much,
and had my thoughts not continually wandered to
my friends, would have been quite happy, I was
gay and talkitive, Dr Schofield and others were
there, Aaron was very polite and kind, when
we came back it was quite starlight.
120. ]
31st A bright beautiful morning, and I begin the last
page in this my diary, that contains so many of my
varied thoughts and feelings, for the dear book I love
to talk to, thou never art fickle or false or unfaithful,
always here, never deceiving me, but taking what
give. It has many many foolish and useless
things in, much that had perhaps better been left
out, but no eye but mine will see it, and therefore
none will laugh or scorn it. My thoughts as they
were at the time, have been put here, my joys
and sorrows have been written upon these pages
and I feel for them, a strong attachment, though they
would be uninteresting and worthless to others, They
are dear to me, and I love to look over & read them
Lide went down town with me & then I went out
in the 5 oclock car. left my letter for Miss W.
and had a nice talk with my friend. I had
Edward & Anna's photographs framed a very
pretty plain gilt one, how I love to look at them.
My friends that I love so well, & who seem to
think as much of me. But I am nearly to
the end, and I will close this to begin another
which I trust I may be better. Good Bye - Farewell.
Martha Schofield diary, 1860-1862
Describes Martha Schofield's daily life, with a focus on social calls, attendance of Quaker Meeting, her religious and emotional life, and her friendship with John Bunting (whom she called "mon ami"). The diary also describes the various concerts and lectures she attended, including one by Anna E. Dickinson, and her work teaching at several schools in Philadelphia, including the Bethany School for African Americans. Descriptions of natural vistas (e.g., a sunrise on the Atlantic, a view of the Hudson, the top of "Castle Rock") also recur.
Schofield, Martha
1860-11-01 - 1862-01-31
125 pages
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