Martha Scholfield. 

          Darby, Delaware [County] 

               Pennsylvania 

Strictly private 

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          Diary. 
               1862

February FIRST. I was awake very early this morning, 
for I remembered well, that to day I was twenty 
three, almost a quarter of a century, and the query 
arises, has my life been one, worthy of the immortal 
soul that now guides it. Every birthday, I make 
solemn resolve for good, and yet I fear they are 
often broken. I try to do right, and I have prayed 
very earnestly that I would be lead and guided 
by my Fathers hand. I do receive strength from 
Him, and my gratitude is great; I desire that my 
heart may be filled with his love and goodness, and 
that my peace, will be such that no earthly power 
can disturb it. It was snowy & rainy all day, I 
had a sweet letter from my friend, expressing his 
good wishes for my happiness and welfare; referring, 
to the 14. when upon the beautiful shores of the 
Bay, a note was written to him. This is the first 
page of another book, and I would that the record 
I place here, though it mar the beauty of these spotless 
pages, may only add to their worth & make them 

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more valuable, because they show an improvement. 
Lide came out and Jesse James and Lizzie. 

2nd  It was quite pleasant, George Hancock came 
out, and went to meeting with us, it was 
very large indeed, Abel Hull, gave a long 
sermon, I gave up my seat & took one in the 
step window, where I had some good thoughts, I 
hope some of the sermon were words of comfort, to those 
whom I know needed it. In the afternoon we took 
a walk, spent a very pleasant evening. 

3rd  George, Lizzie Jesse & self came to the city. it soon commenced 
snowing & kept on all day. I went out at 3. 

4th  The now fell nearly all night and was very thick. 
I came in the sleigh, had to wait at Darby Road 
as the Market [Street] cars, were full, they had 4 horses. 
I only had 13 scholars, & as there was no sewing teachers 
coming I went home in the 3 oclock car. It is a 
lovely warm sunshiny day, and good sleighing. 
Lide and I called at Sarah Buntings awhile. 
I saw Anna a few minutes & had a sweet letter 
from her, she seems to feel so grateful for my 
friendship, and I am sure I could be nothing else 
than true; I never betray such confidence - 
Business committee met at our house, pleasant time. 

     3. 

5th  A beautiful bright sunshiny morning; I was not at 
all well violent pain every little while; when I came 
to school found the fire was out, but succeeded in getting 
one at last, was rather better towards afternoon 
the spells did not come so frequently. When I reached home 
found Hall Price and Mary & Sallie. Sister S. came in 
the 6 oclock car, I called to see Anna a few minutes. 
dear child I want so much to comfort her all I can. 
We went to Lyceum, heard quite a debate on "Whether 
exclusive vegitable diet is the true order of life." A good many away; a clear 
cold night, and my thoughts were with a dear friend 
who will have a long dreary walk, because doing what 
one can do to relieve those in trouble; and unselfishly 
suffering for others. My thoughts and prayers are with. 

6th  I was awake early, and thinking of those who had 
felt the bitter cold. I came to school, feeling rather 
better but not well, still I must not complain. I must 
learn to suffer bodily without murmuring; this throbbing 
pain in my head often troubles me. One strange thing is 
my stomach refuses all food in the morning, for more 
than two months I have not tasted breakfast when 
coming to school, always feel better after my ride in. 
Had a letter from Oldden, Joseph and Mart spent 
the evening with us. I was not at all well. 

     4. 

7th  A most beautiful bright sunshiny morning, I 
started in time to put a couple of letters in the mail. 
had a pleasant ride in. Father and Lyd brought 
Lide and Howard in, I hurried to the 3 oclock car. 
Em Ridgway was in going to here Uncle Charles. 
I spent the evening with Anna, at Pearsons, she is 
a frail delicate creature, and so young. 20 to day. she 
showed me a very handsome writing desk, a birthday 
gift. Father and mother spent the evening at Jones's. 

8th  I did not feel very well, and as it was a lovely 
bright morning, I started out, hoping to do Anna 
some good, by inviting her to walk, I found her 
suffering with a severe head ache which I knew was 
produced by the mind, we called on Mrs. V. 
found her pretty well, and quite a nice baby. 
I am sure I shall do all in my power to comfort 
Anna now that she has so much affliction. 
I was restless and uneasy all the afternoon, at 
times, thoughts which would come with a sharp 
deadning pain, which I must and will overcome. 
It snowed fast, I called on Sarah B. 
who was sick, & the poor man down in Darby. 
Last night was at Dr Jones's after more medicine 
I am in hopes he will be able to cure them. 

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9th  Another lovely morning, I went with Anna to her 
church, as she was very anxious for me to go, and I 
promised her I would sometime, and this was the first 
time she had attended since her family left; I thought 
I would not be injured, and it might be a gratification 
to her, of course, I could not agree with it, 
and would prefer my own quiet meeting, but perhaps 
it was as much a christian duty to do good to others, 
especially where I received no harm. I am striving 
very hard to forget self and do for others. John 
spent a couple of hours with me, I asked him those 
two questions, and found he was glad of my intimacy. 
I had a sweet note from him. Wrote to Sade and mon.

10th  Thermometer down to 15, but clear another short 
note, telling me how much I was mistaken. 
Sometimes, the remembrance of little things startle me 
for a wrong impression was given, and yet no 
breach violated. John showed me a speech of Olddens 
in The Press, that he made when they presented a sword 
to their [Colonel]. I was very tired all the evening. 

11th  Another lovely morning. George H. met me at Darby 
Road and we had quite a nice talk. School was 
small only 12. I called at Sallies then went home 
in the 4 oclock car. Father and mother went to [Cousin] Ephraims. 

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12th  A lovely bright morning, when I got to school found 
there was no fire, and I had to send to Sallie's for kindling. 
Father & Mother went to see the old Ash's. Anna called a few 
minutes. To night there is a concert at the S. S. Building. 

13th  Another lovely day, I wrote to Sarah Mott, Tarrytown. 
Some "friend" visited my school, thought the children 
had improved in behaviour, Sallie was not well and 
Lide stayed in, I called at Charles Ridgway's to 
see Em, but she had gone I had a very pleasant call. 
When I got home found Mother had gone to town 
to attend the annual meeting of the Anti-Slavery Society, 
then to Sallie's to stay all night. I wrote to Oldden. 

14th  I was up early and at [half] past 6 called for Anna 
to take a walk, as I think it will do her good. 
We went nearly over to the Bell then I took the 
car and came on to the city, cloudy all day. I called 
at Sallies for mother then we went down town, I went 
to Chestnut [Street] bought "Le Amour" for my friend L. J. 
then home in the 5 oclock car. Spent part of the 
evening with Anna. I want to keep her spirits up. 

15th  I did the baking, afterwards called for Anna and went 
to Post Office, then took a little walk. Lyd went to 
city, it snowed very hard awhile, after it stopped I went 
to Sarah Buntings awhile - Cut a dress out for Lizzie. 

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16th  A pleasant morning. I called for Anna and we went 
to meeting, mother spoke beautifully, Uncle Charley 
was there and went home with us. Newton & wife spent eve. 

17th  Stormy and sleety all day. I called at Sams then home, 
great victory gained by our troops, the capture of Fort 
Donaldson, and 15000 prisoners, great loss on both sides - 

18th  Every thing is laden with ice and so beautiful, the evergreens
bending under their icy covering, just like some 
hearts, encased with coldness, but though the sunshine 
may make them beautiful, it shows that beneath this 
there is life and freshness, which will be seen when the 
warm rays drive away or melt the cold exterior. 
Our business committee met at Dr Jone's, had quite 
a pleasant time, they appointed Anna & myself to 
open the next debate on "Is conscience formed by 
Education, I take the negative, could not get out of it.

19th  I went early to post a letter for Uncle Thomas; had 
a sweet note and kind words, that always cheer me up. 
Commenced raining about noon, now I am all 
alone scholars gone, & having looked over a pile of 
slates have a few minutes time, yesterday I expelled 
a girl, she became very angry threw a slate & broke it to pieces. 
I visited the homes of some, and was saddened to see the wretchedness 
& misery, one place I went up three flights of dark stairs, 

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and there in an attic, lay a woman to ill to speak, 
yet several visitors in the room, whose air was filled 
with the odors from various dishes which were being 
cooked for the family, such scenes show us the dark 
side of life. It rained very hard but we went to 
Lyceum, Anna & J with us, very few there but a nice time. 

20th  I was very restless all night, could not sleep. I have 
a great deal of mental suffering, which I would not even 
write here, no, no, the burning thoughts, the sad, soul-
sickning memories, must never be known - if [?] be the will 
of my Father He can support me, and already by prayer 
I am growing less selfish, the agony for my own trials can 
be better born, and I am learning to wish and be satisfied 
with what is best for me, and contributes the 
most for others happiness, at times my heart is almost 
bursting, but I have hope, & faith, and lay the burden 
at my Masters feet and then feel strengthened. 
The sun came out bright and beautiful, after 
the storm, of yesterday, making me enjoy & see its 
loveliness. Last eve I asked J. to let Lide off as we 
were invited to a party to Mrs Johns; he is going to take 
her and Mart Jones to a Concert - I am sorry to-day I 
did, it seemed selfish, for I wanted him. I should not have 
accepted mine had I not thought she would go. 

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21st  I had a letter from Oldden & M.H.S J spent last 
eve with us. I am reading the life of Charlotte Bronte, which I 
find very interesting, here was a sensitive, shrinking nature. 
It was quite cold, I came to school, but was restless 
and unhappy, I am fully conscious that I have no right to 
these saddened thought, when I have a happy home and all outward 
comforts, these I do appreciate & do enjoy, but somehow 
they do not satisfy the souls needs, just now, the memory 
of some fatal words is ever present with me, spoken thoughtlessly 
& she believed them true, but they had never occurred to me before 
and now I cannot efface them, for in the very depths of my heart 
I feel their truth, I see as it were, that some love well, but get 
tired & turn to new friends forgetting the old ones; many things 
have combined to sadden me, yet, I know I will get over it & 
soon the disease will be cured & I will be happy again. I cannot 
help seeing that mental suffering affects my health, more 
much more, than any one could think, and I dread to think 
that what I cannot help (this heart trial) should be cause of worriment 
to others. I still  have no appetite for breakfast, but 
bring rather more dinner, for several weeks, I scarcely eat half 
I brought, but think I am better now, and perhaps the 
warm days will bring back peace & quiet & happiness & health. 
Ell S. Anna E Roberts called at my school. I called at Sallies 
then went down town to order a pair of shoes. 

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22nd  To day there will be great military display to 
celebrate Washingtons birthday, I do not care to see 
such show and waste does not interest me now. 
I was miserable in body all day; Lide and I went tp 
Darby to meet Ell & Anna Eliza Roberts; they came and 
we had a pleasant time together. Parents went to Dodgsons. 

23rd  foggy morning, we started to meeting in time to meet the 
car, George & Al Hancock & Mr Gartley came out, Father & 
Mother went to Cousin E's to dine, and we had a lively 
afternoon, Chalk & Mart, Maris & Phebe, came to tea. I 
enjoyed, but my thoughts wandered, & by sparing a few 
moments at a time, wrote a letter to, cheer up and 
encourage my friend, who I know is desolate & homesick. 

24th  Misty & foggy, Senator Serril & had a pleasant chat 
in, but, somehow, there was a dull aching feeling, longing 
for a letter which I know was mine. It is well I am away 
from home so that these spells of sadness, need not trouble 
others, I will be strong & brave after while. 2:30 P.M. I am 
not well to-day and it takes all my strength to keep 
cool, my nerves are so sensitive, that I can scarcely command 
myself, I am weary too, mentally weary, & could 
cry here all to myself, but, no, I will not give way, 
but try & be gay and happy, to night I go to a party 
and when I begin to prepare for it will soon get lively. 

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I do not often attend such places but perhaps it is well 
to go now, for it will take my attention, and lead 
my thoughts, for a time any how, into a happier channel. 
The wind blows fiercely, and moans pitilessly, around the 
house shaking windows, rattling doors etc. but it don't rouse 
me, though I shudder to hear it. I went to Sallie's found 
Ellie there, Lide called awhile & then went to Dr's & from there to 
a Concert with Mart Jones & J. Ell and I dressed and went to 
Mrs Johns, quite a party which were handsomely intertained 
they had theatricals, which were well acted Mr Fay, did 
very well, William Fell, Lady of Lyons etc., altogether we had a 
lively and pleasant time, Mr Combs, waited on me. 

25th  A clear cold morning, I have sore throat, consequently 
it hurts me to talk much, sometimes the noise & din & 
confusion at recess, is a rough, almost unbearable jar to 
my nerves, but I try never to get impatient though 
at times I think how little those for whom I bear these every 
day trials, appreciate or value the sacrifice, but I do not 
look for reward, for occasionally there comes into my soul a quiet 
peace that I am doing my duty, I am trying to be useful. 
I fancy I am a strange creature & too sensitive, yesterday, even while preparing 
for the party, I could not help shedding a few bitter tears, which 
relieved me, & I was gay again. We all went out in the 
4 oclock car. Quite cold freezing all day. 

     12. 

26th  A cloudy morning. I returned the first volume of the 
life of Charlotte Bronte, am better for reading it, what a
noble self-sacrificing creature she was. I called to see Anna a few minutes.

27th  Found the ground covered with snow, took a letter to the office 
for Brother and a note to E.J..R I had a long long letter from 
mon cher ami, so like the old ones filled with happy memories. 
I felt happier for it, but bodily not well. a bad cold and 
sore throat, make the usual trials and annoyances more 
hard to bear, no one knows except by experience the many 
constant shocks that shatter the nerves which are so sensitive. 
When I reached home found Uncle George, Cousin H & her 
baby, which is a bright little blue eyed girl, Sallie & 
Howard went with them, in the evening, Chalk came, 
John had invited us down there to spend the evening, but 
I could not leave the company & though no one was to 
blame, I was sadly disappointed, for I had anticipated 
much, I sat up alone till they came, & then there was 
no evidence of the emotion I had felt but, a little while 
before, when on my bended kness I had asked for strength, 
and a willingness to give my heart to its Father. 

28th  A cold morning, Uncle & [Cousin] came in when I did, I suffered 
much in school with a bad cold & sore throat, but I try to 
cure it at home & no need complaining, Ellie and I 
spent the eve at Jones' nice home - Chalk & Mart there. 

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March. 1st  Ellie and I called at Rebecca's her babe 
suffers much with colic. We took tea at Phebe Bartrams 
had a real nice time, Chalk drove home for us. 

2nd  Attended meeting and had a very good and interesting 
sermon from Henry W. Ridgway, so full of practical 
sense, and so plain all could understand, the house 
was full downstairs. I still have a bad cold and 
at times suffer with severe pain in my head and chest, but 
I am thankful, I have not yet lost cheerfulness, or been 
fretful & disagreeable. We took tea at Thomas Bartrams
had a nice time, Chalk drove our horse home. A.E. 

3rd  A dull rainy morning, Ellie & Samuel, came in with me. 
I remained at school till [half] past 4. writing my debate, 
I was alone, combined with this mental exertion was many 
many thoughts upon the absorbing topic, upon which 
I never speak. I called a few minutes to see Anna then 
home and to bed very early, as I was not at all well. 

4th  Very windy, I brought Howard & H in, after school I went 
down to Coopers at Anna's photographs they were not done, I 
walked on down Chestnut stopping at Baily's to see a piece of 
Mosaic work which was very beautiful composed of upwards of 
750,000 pieces of enamel, 10 grey; I was going on down & heard some one say how 
do? "shook hands" with my friend, we were at Earles Gallery, then I went 
home at 6. Lyceum committee met at Pierces interesting time. 

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5th  I came in to school, but in some unaccountable way, have taken 
cold in my bones, my shoulders, back & arms are stiff & sore; I 
have said nothing about it, hoping I may get along, though 
every movement is painful, yet nothing can be done to help it. 
I am in quite good spirits, & that will keep me up. It 
snowed quite fast most all the afternoon, Penquite Linton lectured for 
the benefit of the Library, I did not care to go, and so went and spent a very 
pleasant evening with Anna, just our two selves, & a nice talk. 

6th  I had a long sweet letter from Saide, sunshiny and snowy all day, tho' 
a beautiful moonlight evening. We went to Lyceum which was very 
large, Anna and myself read our essays on the debate "Is Conscience 
formed by Education", quite spirited talking afterwards. 

7th  A cold clear morning, I took Sadie's letter to the office, and returned 
the second volume of the life of Charlotte Bronte, which has done me 
so much good, the noble manner & heroic fortitude with which she 
bore all the sad trials of her life, have been indellibly impressed upon 
my mind and feelings, and are examples I do not wish to forget. 
Sallie & Lyd called awhile to see me. I still suffer a good deal 
with that painful soreness, in the bones, and joints. 
4:00 P.M. For two hours and a half my nerves have stood the 
test of mental excitement. I have just let the last pupil 
go, and am almost worn out, as I detained them all for an 
hour keeping them in perfect silence. It has been a trying day. 
one boy was so angry he swore, kicked and bit me till the blood came. 

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Thanks to the great Strengther, I am able to go home in a 
cheerful disposition, for it is so much more agreeable to others, 
I succeed in keeping down any show of excitement, as I never 
punish a child in anger, how earnestly I want to work 
faithfully and righteously, depending upon Himf or support. 
Anna spent the eve with me, also. J. came up. Dr. J awhile. 

8th  A delightful warm day, we went to Office, Anna & Delia 
called awhile - Mother attended the funeral of one of the Ash's. 
Tom. Ivins and George C. came out. Lide went to city to see 
Dr Newton. Anna and I went with John to the Academy 
of Music to hear [James] Murdoch read, we had a very 
interesting time, returned home in the [half] past 10 car, a 
moonlight though cloudy night. a nice little chat. 
When I went up stairs found Lizzie Satterthwait in my 
bed, she had come out to pay us a visit. 

9th  Beautiful day, went to [Meeting], and had an excellant 
sermon from Rachel W. Moore. Isaac Wright & wife took 
dinner with us. Newton Pierce & company spent an hour or two 
with us. Lizzie and I took a little walk, called for Anna. 
Maris Bartram spent the eve with us. Father and 
mother at Dodgsons. I sat up late writing to Aunt J. 
answering her big letter and sending ours in a mammouth 
envelop with her name largely printed on the outside. 
Lizzie, Lide, mother & myself all wrote to her. 

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10th  A cloudy morning, but my thoughts keep me pleasant company, 
the opportunity is offered me to make noble and constant 
sacrifices, for those very dear to me, and I trust I may do it 
without a thought of my own selfish happiness, my own heart 
knows that it can & will forget, its own desires, and shall learn 
by experience to always do & hope & act for others happiness thereby 
finding a quiet sweet reward, and knowing all will be well. 
Some one remarked to A. that they could not believe I "was a Quaker 
there was too much religion in my essay to the Lyceum." 
I do not I cannot make many or much profession, but in my 
heart of hearts, dwells the image of my Father, and as "we are 
the temples of the living God," so may we always feel and be guided 
by the holy influences of his sacred love; I am very certain that 
if I did not feel the certainty of his continued and ever present power 
I should be miserable, for who, but Him, sees the yearnings and 
longings and varying shadows of my inner life; and it is a 
consciousness that He knows these, that He sees the motives, & 
knows the temptations, and is able to satisfy them, that ever bring 
consolation and peace, in the rough walks of existence. 
Quite showery, Lide called on her way home. Sallie & Lyd 
about [half] past two saying, Hannahs mother had sent in for her 
they behaved very ungrateful & impudent, H had told 
some stories concerning her treatment etc. all false. Did not rain 
when I went home. I bought a share in Darby LIbrary. 

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11th  A lovely morning, I commenced reading The Professor 
by Currer Bell. They went to Sharon to spend evening 
Anna was with me & we had a nice talk. 

12th  I was almost ready to close school when mon ami came in,
we had a nice quiet confidential, long to be remembered 
talk, he made me happier, by endeavoring to correct what 
I heard the last night of December, thinking it false. 
After he went, I went to Dr Moore's with Sallie & Lyd 
they had quite a company there sewing for the contrabands 
and we had a very pleasant evening. Lukens waited on us home. 

13th  I went home at 4. found Mary McAllister & Phebe 
Bartram. John came after tea and we had a pleasant eve. 

14th  A drizzly morning, I finished "The Professor" but my thoughts 
were with the two notes I received in which the fullest and greatest 
confidence was placed in me, and I shall hold sacred & true. 
Mary Jones and Mart spent the evening with us

15.  I was at the Library, took out The House with Seven Gables 
by Hawthorne; it was rainy nearly all day, about 12 
we were quite surprised to see Richard Bell and 
Aby come in, they went up to Sharon etc. Uncle Williams 
to tea. then back to our house. Newton & wife came to call 
and it was so stormy they staid to tea. She is a very 
pleasant and interesting woman. I wrote a long letter 
to Oldden, it has been two weeks since I heard from him. 

     18. 

16th  Not quite clear but we went to meeting. George R. here 
to dine, at one Father Mother and Lide went to the city to see 
Doctor Newton from Boston. Anne & Sallie here, Cousin John, [?] 
at 3. Samuel Childs came. Richard & A. went to city intending 
to go to Baltimore to-morrow. J. came up & while we were 
at tea our folks came home having seen the Dcotor and 
felt his magnetic influence. J. left awhile but came back 
before 9 and we wrote to Salie. He staid later than usual and in 
the quiet and stillness of the sabbath eve, we spoke of the hearts 
deepest feelings and when we parted it was with renewed faith 
and trust in the closely intimate friendship, which binds us together 
and we do not forget to thank our Father for this happiness. 

17.  I came in company with Will B. Lucy & Ellie Thorne. I wrote to 
Sadie and put J's in it. Mary Jones had invited us there so I 
went down for Anna and we all three went over spent a 
very pleasant evening. Ogdens were there, had some good music 
which I really enjoyed very much. A letter from brother speaks 
of his ill health I think of him a great great deal. 

18th  I had 80 scholars and was kept very busy, on my feet nearly 
all the time, as I have to watch them very closely, had a dull 
continued pain between my shoulders. Expelled one boy who 
was very disobedient. I took Howard out with me. Business 
committee met at our house quite a pleasant time. 
all there but Dr Ash. Parents went to Dodgsons. 

     19. 

19th  A beautiful sunshiny morning. I had to severely chastise 
a boy for his excessive impudence, and disobedience. he was very 
angry and used bad language but I kept cool and 
conquered at last. After school I went to see a poor little 
boy 3 years old, that had been on the commons, playing 
near a burn fire, and his clothing caught burning him very 
badly, some on a house saw him, and the poor father, found him 
rolling on the ground, My heart ached for the suffering child 
and agonizing parents, but God was merciful, and I knew 
as I stood by the couch that Death's seal was upon the [?] 
and soon it, would be released, it was conscious to the last, speaking 
to its papa & mama and then quietly breathing its last. 
The impressions were fixed upon my mind, though it was a great 
blessing it was taken. I went round to Sallie's, and at 7 eve 
all went down to Concert Hall to hear Wendall Phillips, which 
[Inserted: letter from Sadie & [?]]
was very good though not so eloquent as he is sometimes. I 
went home with mon cher ami, a nice quiet time, how true, and 
good he is, I cannot doubt his sincerity, when he gives me so 
much trust. When I went up stairs, found Mother with 
Howard, he, dear little darling had fallen against the stove & 
burned his hands, the pain had ceased, but we let the blisters 
out and dressed them again, the memory of that other child 
was continually before me, which made it worse, so that when 
I went to sleep after one, I could not rest well. 

     20. 

20th  A cloudy raw old day, I finished "The House of the Seven Gables" 
and do not admire it much, there are few really good things in it. 
We went to Lyceum, which was not very large, though a great deal
of business quite a large Wreath, some really beautiful pieces. 
It rained quite hard on our way home. Jones there. 

21st  Dear Howard slept pretty well the early part of the night afterwards 
was restless and I was awake a good deal. Stormy when 
I came to school, sent another letter to brother, a few moments of quiet. 
3 P.M. All have gone and I sit here alone with a flood of sunlight 
cheering the room, yet in my heart hoping I have done some good 
I had a large school, but they were not so bad, it seems strange 
since I whipped those large boys they should have been so much 
better, it is not the kind of treatment I would like to subdue 
with, only as a last resort, I am interested in all, I talk and 
persuade a great deal, and often move their feelings, but their 
education is so bad at home, could I have them with me 
all the time, but six hours out of twenty four, is a little time 
to make lasting impressions, when the 18 are bad. 
I went to Anna a little while to hear her play on her melodian. 
Eph Ridgway came up, just had a letter from Oldden they 
expect to move in a short time sail for some southern port. 

22nd  Very rainy awhile then the sun came out warm. Sam & Sallie came 
out to attend their Aunt Hannah's funeral. Dr and his wife 
are both quite ill. I do not feel at all well. 

     21. 

23rd  All went to meeting, I was not able, weak and sick, yet I 
am not going to complain, I have prayed so long that I might 
be enabled to bear all ills without murmuring, yet it is a 
damper to the human heart to realize that, the strength of 
body, the capability, is going, going, and daily I am made conscious 
of the fact, that my health is not so good, perhaps no seated 
disease, but unable to perform what once was easy, without suffering 
for it. My school need not be blamed, it might have 
been so, had I not taken it and now, I feel that I have 
not lived the last year in idleness. When the warm summer 
days come and I can live out doors I shall be better. I guess. 
Sam and Sallie were at his fathers nearly all day, Isaac Jackson 
took dinner with us, I was quiet & subdued, for my heart was 
sad. I read a book of 300 pages on Sleep by Dr Hall. 

24th  A note from Sallie says their mother passed away at 5 
this morning; what a great great loss, & how sad for all.
I went to Dr Childs for Lyd, she will go home. I 
feel a little though not much better. Death, death, 
on every hand, how necessary to be prepared, I do not dread 
it, I have no fear, only let strength be given me to bear 
patiently and christianly all that may be given me to. 
Yesterday Lyd went to Byberry to attend the funeral of Robert 
Purvis poor young man, consumption has long marked him. 
I had a letter from my friend Oldden. 


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25th  I put a letter in for brother had a sweet precious letter from ami. 
We went round to the house after waiting here an hour for the 
sewing school teachers, found two men there, whom Joseph had 
given the liberty of looking over it, as he wished to sell, All 
being away we waited till they had gone, and had a 
dear precious time, for being with a friend cheers the spirits 
and rests the body - It does, me so much good. 

26th  A beautiful day, I came to the city but closed school at 
[half] past 11 and went out to attend Rebecca Ash's funeral 
which was quite large, considering how afraid the people have 
been, poor woman she is happy now - . I had a bad head ache 
went up to call on Anna, for I will not be unfaithful to the 
living and I know my visits always make her better. Annie 
Hillborn was with us all night. Sallie came over also. 

27th  I wrote to Anna and also to mon ami, who is so very kind. 
I had a bad head ache this burning throbbing pain in my temples, 
After tea I went to Doctor Ash's and found his spirit had 
very quietly passed away, how sad it seems, but we know Our 
Father watches over and cares for all; I called at Pearsons & J & 
Anna walked home with me. I felt a little better. 

28th  The mornings are bright and beautiful, and the fresh air does 
me much good. I have been much tried in school to-day, boys 
on the outside threw stones and broke two windows, close by me. 
so many things to test my patience, I can do 

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nothing, only take it cooly & teach my children better,
I am very weary now, so tired, sometimes almost disheartened, 
yet I do not despair. I shall go to the house, then to 9th [Street] 
to do an errand for George T. and by the time I get home, will 
I guess be quite rested. I had a sweet letter from mon ami. 
J. came up and spent an hour or more, we had the Battery. 

29th  Lyd and Sallie went to Dr. Ash's, in the morn, mother soon after 
dinner, just as Lide and I were going Hector, Mary & Maggie 
came, also Charley. we all went to the funeral at 3 which 
was not very large, I never saw him look so well as in 
death, his had been a strong mind, active intellect, and in 
a few short days he has been ill and passed from earth. 
Lyd went to town to see Dr Newton, I was at the Library 
a few minutes, took out one of Currer Bells works. 

30th  A sunshiny morning, went to meeting and heard a 
beautiful prayer from Mother. At one, Father mother Herbert & 
Mary went to old Jacob Gross's funeral, then down to 
Cousin Mary's to tea. Thomas Child came out, an hour. Amos & Ian 
awhile, Anna spent part of the P.M. here, John was here 
to tea & William Speakman. Company in the eve, but when J. 
went I needed rest & took a little walk, was not missed by 
others though much refreshed myself. We spend some 
quiet happy moments when even the bitterness of others [?] 
is sweetened by trust, and confidence, sympathy & prayers. 

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31st  Last night when all were in bed but myself 
the door bell rang. I went and found Edward Wilson & 
Sallie Price, he had come down for her as Phil came home to spend 
the aniversary of his return from California & they wanted her to 
be with them at their family gathering at [?]. They 
started off at [half] past 6, and Lide with them, she wanted to 
see Phil and Isiah, and he goes back to duty to-morrow
At 7 I came to the city Hector with me, as he had to go 
home in the afternoon. I had not a very large school 
but some very mischevous; I went round to the house and 
got some things Sallie wanted then rode down to Market [Street]. 
It rained a little and blew very had. Sue Truman at 
our house awhile. After tea - I went with Sallie round 
to Ash's. On my way back called a few minutes to see 
how Anna was as she fainted in school to-day, poor 
thing she does not find much conginiality with two 
such gossips, and I would rather sacrifice some of my 
own pleasure than have her feel so lonely. I know 
that by thus being her friend I am doing good, as tho'
I may be subject to remark, I can bear much, when I 
feel that I am doing right, for that is the great end of, or 
rather the beggining of true life - I asked Dr Jones for some 
more medicine meaning to persevere, so that I may be 
cured permantly. Joseph & Mart spent the eve. 

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APRIL 1st 1862. I did not feel very well, sore throat & pain 
in chest, came in to school and felt quite sick, most of the 
morning; waited till after 3 and none of the teachers coming
closed school, and went to Samuels house, staid there in 
quiet and peace and happiness, true and pure and with that 
exquisite sense of trust and confidence known to such natures. 
When I reached Darby found Mary, Samuel Childs etc., going in found 
Phil Price at our house, he started for Washington that night. 

2nd  A cloudy morning, but did not rain much. I called at Edward 
S. to see if Ben had come home but he had not, business 
committee met at Dr Jone's. J. called to wait on me home. 

3rd  Cloudy, but by afternoon the sun came out lovely and warm. J. 
came for us and we went to Lyceum, which was small but 
quite interesting, though all missed our vice president, Dr Ash. 
It seems hardly possible that whom we were so used 
to seeing should so soon have been called to eternity. 

4th  Quite a busy time in school, and some of the large boys 
were mischevious, I detained several a long while one 2 hours and 
a half, and I conquered at last, not with rough means or 
by fear, for he is 17 and too large to whip, much of the time 
we were silent and I felt that the good spirits would be 
victorious, I spoke kindly and plainly, for I would rule by love. 
I went to Thomas Child's to tea, the Reading Circle met 
there to sew for Contrabands, I staid all night at Samuels. 

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5th  A cloudy morning, I started off, and it soon rained 
hard, came up to "the house" and swept it nearly all over 
which kept me busy till late, about 3. Uncle Charley & 
Lizzie called, he found I was alone, and gave me 
his confidence in a few words, dear man, how my heart 
felt for him - and I sincerely desire all may be well - . 
Mon ami came & we spent a quiet happy afternoon together. 
About 7 Brother came in took tea with me and then 
went home as he is just from Alexandria - looks better. 
I spent the rest the eve alone, but was not lonely or unhappy. 

6th  A bright beautiful Sabbath morning. I was up early 
but did not get Joseph's breakfast till 8 oclock. 
At [half] past 11, Jesse Newport & Eliza called, also Ben & John, 3 did not 
stay long but, I had a pleasant happy afternoon, talked a 
great deal, about that interesting and to my sad subject, my 
heart ached often, for I knew more much more than I could tell. 
When he went I walked part way with him, then back and 
spent the evening alone, writing and reading, finished Jane Eyre, 
but my mind wandered from the imaginary tale to the realities - 

7th  Was up early spent a busy day in school, & home at 5. 
Sam and Sallie came in - I had a letter from Oldden 
they were expecting to move to Warrington - I had one from 
mon ami, and wrote a reply, how much he needs me 
and I will be faithful ever faithful - 

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8.  I had a note, for he said he could "not help writing," it 
makes my heart ache, and I will not desert him now. 
People may think we have no right to be thus intimate, but 
we have, neither get harm but both good. I know I can 
soothe the sorrowing and I will, even if I overstep the bounds 
of custom. I loose none of my own purity, for I do all things 
in a trusting faith that my Father does not disapprove - 
I remained till [half] past 4, to detain a boy whom I do not wish to 
expel, it snowed hard & froze I went round to Sallies & said all 
night. Was oppressed with thought, the awful responsibility 
of my situation seems to come before me with appalling magnitude. 

9th  Came round to school in the snow - had not many but all 
full of mischief. I tried to write a little but, thoughts were 
too deep. For a day or two I have had a good deal of pain in 
my chest. I fear my constitution is not very strong, went to Sallie's 
Ben was up and took tea with us; storming again in the eve. 

10th  More than a foot of snow on the ground all looks very 
beautiful, but not much like April - thus it is when we 
look for sunshine and gladness, winter snows come instead - I 
called at Sallies awhile & then went home; much company 
in the evening Anna was up awhile - A beautiful moon 
light night but the white snow covering on the ground makes 
it looks cold - though it is melting very fast. I wrote to 
Sadie. Had a sweet precious letter of 18 pages also one from A. 

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11.  A beautiful sunshiny morning, I had a trying time with 
some of the children, about Hans came and we had a pleasant 
time for a while. then I went to Sallies, she went to Waltons. 

12th  We were up early, & had the work done up by [half] past 8 - 
Some one came to look at the house, I went down to Dr's met 
Anna & we did our shopping, then had some oysters & went home at 
[half] past 2 car - I found Aunt Jane, Hall, A Bell, etc. - beautiful moonlight night. 

13th  A lovely Sabbath morning, after dinner they went to [Cousin] Marys, I sat 
all the afternoon writing, company in eve, I took a little walk it was 
so beautiful and moonlight, we had a pleasant time. 

14.  Sent some papers to Sadie, also my long letter of 18 pages to - . 
Called to see Anna a few minutes she was too sick, to come down. 
J. called in the eve, Mother & Aunty gone to town. When I 
got in my own quiet room I read the six sheets given me & 
how much I loved them, how they proved to me, this was not 
merely show, but the reality of true friendship, such I feel it - 

15.  Called to see Anna few minutes found her better, I then went & 
got her some oranges; for I know she must be lonely, so sick & 
among people that do not feel the sympathy she needs. Had 
to whip two boys, & one threatened to throw a stone & break my head. 
I called at Sams, then Aunt Jane went with me to Market [Street]. 
I took Howard out home, Cousin M & Marietta all night. I 
ran down to see her a few minutes & take something, had 
a sweet moonlight walk, down Servil [Street] from [?].

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16.  A lovely morning. I sent a letter to Oldden, [Cousin] M & M came to 
town with me was weighed 118. An hour or two of rest & quiet, reading Ruskin 
& then we went out to-gether. I called at Jone's also at A. 

17th  A lovely morning, busy in school; called at Samuels 
then went down town to shop, out at 7. & in [half] an hour went 
alone to Lyceum Anna could not go (lent), nor Mrs. V. It was quite 
small mon cher ami went home with me a lovely walk. 

18.  A splendid day & being Good Friday I had no school but came 
to town to visit others, was quite interested the three hours 
I was at Winslow [Street], then walked all the way up to Parrish 
and found the school closed. I was very very tired and 
went home soon - Lyd went to city expecting to go to Plymouth, 
it rained very hard during eve - I write to  - 

19th  Very busy fixing up yard, house etc.- After dinner I 
went to Office, called to see A an hour & home to sewing. 
They went to Elizabeth Steels, Anna spent eve with me & helped 
me do my bonnet, which I am making over - 

20th  A rainy morning, being the commencement of Orthodox [Yearly Meeting] 
Not being very well I did not go to meeting, or Father either. 
Mother went to Nancy Goose's funeral, at one & I was alone 
till [half] past 4, an hour after John came and I had 
not much chance to tell him what I intended. Sam 
was here to tea. J went at 8. afterwards I was much depressed, some 
great gloom hangs over me I don't know what. I wrote a sheet. 

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21st  Rainy nearly all day, I spent an hour or two in A's school 
was much interested, and benefitted, she called at one, 
saying she just had a note from Dr Hoops, saying Delia was 
ill with scarlet fever & she went right over, poor poor 
girl how my heart aches for her. J. took tea with us 
& then as we had made the arrangements, came into a 
Concert at the Academy, we were both sad, yet enjoyed it. 
Went home, in the last car, rained all evening, we sat 
awhile afterwards I want so much to do him good - 

22nd  I went to Darby early to tell [?] Anna & get some of her things 
she came over in the car, & back with me, they intend 
to telegraph for her mother to-day, how much I pity her. 
I called at Sam's took Lide's band box out, called at Dr Hoop's, 
found Delia a little more comfortable, no one to nurse her but Anna, 
as Mrs. H has no girl & two children of her own, very kind but circumstanced 
so, Anna had much care and responsibility, I went back at 7 
our folks did not want me to, were afraid of scarlet fever, but I 
knew Anna needed rest & I would take her place, I put her to bed 
in another room & for three hours I watched by Delia's bedside. 
She dosed a little and was more comfortable, I know Anna
was much benefitted by her nap, as she had been up the night 
before, it was right in me to go, when they had no other friends 
& I am glad I did -. John went over after me and we 
walked home, he is so very kind, so good to me. 

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               1862. 

23rd  A lovely but cool morning, a note from Anna says Delia 
seems better, excepting her throat; called at Aunt R's then 
went out, found Mrs Webster in the car, she having just 
arrived, poor woman what a weary anxious journey she had, 
received the telegram away from home and left immediately 
without going back to see her husband, travelled all night, 
I stopped at Dr Hoop's and went up & told Anna, they will 
feel much relieved, and I am glad she has come. I walked 
over home, they gone to Cousin Mary's. We went to bed early & I 
had lost so much sleep, was soon sound in it, when Lide says 
Mart, Anna Webster is at the door & wants to see thee. I went right 
down & found she had come in the car, but Pearsons were so afraid 
they would not let her in the house, & the poor girl came to me; 
it is in such times I prove my friendships, I took her to my 
room & put her to bed, oh, I hope I may never be so 
heartless as to turn away from suffering, or cease to feel sympathy 
for sorrow - , such a sensitive heart as hers, I will watch over 
and care for faithfully, heaven help me if I am not true to it. 

24.  Cold morning. Anna was up and off early, how much how 
very much, I feel for her; I did not feel very bright but had 
such a precious letter from mon ami that it benefited me, I was 
weary when I reached school & wrote to my friend, it was 
a relief - . I called at Dr Hoopes on my way home & took a note over 
to Pearsons but they dont want her back again - so afraid - 

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25th  Last night I went to see if E. Levis would take a boarder, 
then called at Verlindens and G. Trumans. I wrote two notes 
after they went to bed, telling Anna what Pearsons said, I 
feel as if could prove myself worthy the name of friend more 
than ever; I will never desert in adversity - I came in 
& a note made me feel better than I did yesterday. 
Went down town, bought myself a hat, & took out Fathers, called 
at Dr Hoop's found Delia a little better, got home at 8. 

26th  Lide and I drove up for the dress maker by 6, a lovely day and 
we were very busy sewing on her blue check silk, I trimmed my hat. 
Anna called awhile & I was sorry I could help her pack, after 
tea John came to bring me a not from her, saying she could not come. 

27th  A pleasant but cold morning, after dinner John came up, he had been 
to the city to telegraph for Mrs Webster as Delia is worse the disease 
assumed a typhoid form, poor things they do have so much trouble - 
We walked over the back way gathered some wild flowers, Delia 
is more comfortable & a change for the better since morn - Anna came 
back with us, and we had a quiet pleasant lovely evening together. 
what different emotions and feeling as we sat in the quiet starlight. 
And after Anna & I went to bed, we had a long long talk, I held her 
in my arms and heard the thoughts of her young innocent heart, 
innocent indeed, when she is has known & seen and felt as much 
as I have, her opinions may be different - I [?] plainly, 
she loves and trusts me & I will watch over & care for her. 

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28th  We called at [?] then she came over with me to the Bell, 
expects to go back to school to-day if her sister is well enough - . 
Father & Mother went to Wilmington - I had a good deal of pain in 
my chest, I walked over from Dr Hoop's. Mart Jones over, 
I went to ironing and kept at it two hours almost finished - 
Mart J. staid all night - I was very tired - a note - 

29th  I ache all over, worked too hard yesterday, hope this tired 
weary worn out feeling will soon be gone - . I will succeed in 
my efforts to keep up in school, I feel very anxious about Anna, 
it seems as though My Father had placed her in my charge, 
and oh, I will be faithful to the trust. I will not be found 
wanting in ministering and doing for those that need it - . 
Quite rainy, and though it dont make me dull I feel it in my 
bones, my body is very sore, I can't touch it scarcely, 
Father and mother and Lyd, came home - I wrote a private letter Aunty 

30th  A lovely morning, Anna and I walked over to the Bell. 
I could not read coming in, my thoughts were more interesting - 
I still have that extreme soreness in breast and back, the touch 
of my cloths hurts me & moving is painful - I put on a 
strengthening plaster - When I got to Darby Road found no car in. 
and started to walk out, and got to the depot before the 
car overtook me -, though I went slowly, found Aunt R. 
there, we had a long talk about Sharon - John called 
to see me a few minutes. Horace Hoops very ill - 


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May 1st 1862.  A rainy morning. I called to see Anna & 
found her suffering with a bad sore throat, poor dear child. 
I wrote a hasty notea to Sadie, when I got home found 
Ann really had scarlet fever; it is a bitter bitter time 
to me, my own sense of humanity, my own feelings 
shrink from the thought of leaving her more alone; but my 
family are so afraid, I pray earnestly for strength to do 
right; I had to go to night in opposition to their wishes, 
but, I did not a little while, Delia is so ill her mother 
could not leave her, and no one but me to help Anna - 
she at Levis's whom she never saw till she went there a 
week, ago to board - , a stranger and ill, mon cher J is ever 
true and faithful and kind to me; God bless him - . 

2nd  My heart is almost breaking with the conflict, between 
my own sense of duty & the opposition I meet with in trying 
to do it; I do go to my Father or I could not bear, the family 
have no idea of the torture and misery I endure, or they 
would never speak, as though I cared nothing for my own family. 
It cleared off and Lide and I were shopping, did not get home till 9. 
then they were not willing for me to go see Anna. I was tired but 
could have borne it better than the suspense at home - Newton was 
kind enough to go see if they needed me & came to day they did 
not, and she was quite comfortable - . I could not sleep 
for a long while after I went up stairs, I was so sad. 

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3rd  I went round to see Anna, remained with her awhile. I have 
so much to do, only just commenced preparing for the wedding 
on 4th day, my sewing, school & Anna occupy every moment - 
I went back to her after dinner, she needs some one all the 
time, being unable to get her self a drink, and so sore in 
her joins can scarecely move, her father is so nervously anxious 
I think him a poor hand in a sick room. We, only have watched 
and taken care of her, Elizabeth is very kind but has no time, 
there being no one but herself to do her own work - .
Our folks went to Bartrams to tea, J. called for me and we 
went to L.'s. Mr W. had gone to the Bell, and did not return, 
she suffered much & was very restless but, we walked 
and attended with the greatest care, faithful and true 
and good and kind, oh, how I hope such may be rewarded - 
At [half] past 3 both took a nap & I was content to watch them
I was happy in the task, & did not feel sleepy though I 
had not slept more than an hour - I watched the Sabbath 
morn come upon the world, I don't think I can ever forget 
this night, thronged so full of thoughts and memories - 
Never, have I had a fuller opportunity to prove I can be a true 
friend, through every opposition and in times of deep trial. 
My own trials, which I suffered in doing this are forgotten, when the 
clasp of Mr W's, assures me that, in that fathers heart, there is a 
deep feeling of gratitude for my care & attention to his daughter. 

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4th  I fixed my patient all nice in clean clothing, prepared & gave 
her breakfast, and at [half] past 9 went home awhile. Father walked
over for me, & on our way back told me, that it was not his business 
to say any thing, but he had been much worried about me, for 
he thought their great opposition to what I believe right 
was almost making me sick, he thought duty should begin 
at home, & many neglects it while they do for soldiers or those where it 
is popular or well known - . I thanked him in my heart -. 
I took a nap during meeting but had no chance afterwards 
as George came - I went to Anna again taking some dainties 
she is always so glad to see me, was not so well, Doctor came & we 
left her much better, I went home to tea & back again, let Mr W. 
sleep and I nursed her till 10, left her very comfortable and 
would have staid all night but they thought I could not stand 
it, J. waited on me home, how little we thought a week 
ago, that in this short time we would have passed through so much. 
I do not think I will get it, but if I should, and suffered extremely 
I should not regret the course I have taken, it was right, I 
was needed and I must do what my hands find to do - 

5th  I went to see Anna, found her doing very well, I combed her hair & 
then came to school, which was large, and I having lost rest 
have been quite drowsy at times, more sleepy than tired - . 
I went down town shipping, bought a parian marble card receiver for the 
bride, heavy shower- I went to see Anna in the evening. 

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6th  Came to school and as it was very cold, & there was no fire or coal 
I had no recess but closed at 1 oclock and went home, sewed 
on my white dress till nearly 9. when John called and took me 
to Levis's. Mr W. went there and had a good nights rest - 
Anna slept well, only waking to take her medicine, and I, I 
had a quiet happy night, got rested, was content, a night 
long to be remembered, and the memory of it sweet - . How 
different things are from what we poor mortals calculate, two 
weeks ago I little thought, I would be her constant nurse, and 
proved my faithfulness to the holy band of friendship, which 
has given me so much of good and happiness - Never can 
I regret having taken the part, of watching and caring for 
those who so much needed; in that my conscience tells me 
I have done my duty and though, it could have been much 
easier done, with the entire approval of my family, I trust
that the great Giver will preserve me from taking the disease 
and save them the trouble of nursing me -. I have 
not lost my faith and trust, and oh how earnestly I 
have prayed that, my errors may be shown to me and 
power and strength given to keep in the true path - Even this 
midnight I sank on my knees and saught the Divine 
light and blessing, surely, surely, the true course will be 
shown to me, and then I will follow in it, though every step 
contains a thorn; in the end, all will be well -. 

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7th  SEVENTH. of May 1862.  I went home to breakfast and was 
busy till 12. when Lyd took Lide and me to 18th & Chestnut, she 
went to Sallie's we in the cars to Walnut [Street] & [half] past 2 in the boat 
to Andalusia where Jesse James & Al. Hancock met us, went fast 
to their house dressed, (I had my white) went in the parlor where about 
70 were seated, and at 6. the waiters, George & Lizzie came in , he was 
handsome, she beautiful, in her white silk, and a lovely white wreath 
over her dark hair, just like a piece of statuary, her eyes drooping 
with the dark lashes, almost laying on pale white cheeks, it was 
very solemn, they said the ceremony well, & my offered up an 
earnest prayer that Gods blessing might rest upon them -  They 
will be a fine noble couple, after the meeting the blind was raised 
a flood of sunlight filled the room. Jesse, Al, Mary & Parry & Bowen 
were waiters, she had some splendid boquets, hers pure white - 
Every thing passed off pleasantly, the table was very handsome 
and so beautifully supplied, the company broke up about 11 - 
we went to HIllborns, and it is hard to realize that Lizzie 
our sweet, loving Lizzie whom we remember so well as a child 
should be a bride and a wife -, I think her husband is a 
fine noble man and I trust worthy of the precious charge he has 
taken to his heart -. Rebecca was waiting up for us, and 
we talked a long while before going to bed -. Jane has been 
so poorly was not able to be at the wedding - 

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8th  A real lovely, though cool morning. Messes Gartly, Neal & Comly 
with Mart French, Patience J. etc. called, we had a nice little visit, 
Rebecca took us to Torrisdale, and we had a nice ride down in the 
boat, Charley Hancock with us, Lide went to Sallie's he and I on 
out to Darby Road, then me home. After dinner I was busy 
sewing, having done nothing for [Yearly Meeting]. After tea went to see 
Anna, some one sent us up ice cream, & we enjoyed it so much - 

9th  I called to see her a few minutes - real cool though clear, sewing 
awhile after tea and then went round to Anna, found her 
sitting down stairs, been up nearly all day, she is improving 
so nicely, and I hope will soon be well - 

10th  I was up by 5 oclock, planted out some flowers, mother went 
to city a 7 - at [half past] 10 Cousin Halliday Hoops & wife came - 
I was very busy all day sewing on my bonnet, in the eve slipped 
over to Levis's a while - she is glad to see me and I will make 
people happy when I can, where I profess I shall be ever faithful. 

11th  A beautiful day though very hazy & morning & evenings the 
sun is very red, noon too has a singular appearance - . I did 
not go to Meeting, feeling rather tired, was busy most of the day -.
Aunt E. & Cousin John dined with us, then went to Cousin Marys 
and our folks to Uncle Williams, staid to tea & had a nice time. 
I wrote to Oldden and Anna - Lide and I were out 
begging for the hospitals, got nearly 8 dozen eggs, butter, & jelly - 
A lovely moonlight evening -. I finished my letter & ami 

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12th  A splendid morning. I left letters at office, [Yearly Meeting] commences 
to-day, [Cousin] H & wife came in - the news of yesterday [General] Wood & 
army being in Norfolk is confirmed; so many victories - 
I have a good deal of pain between my shoulders, & a plaster on my breast - 
Was busy at home but went to bed early as I was very tired 

13th  A very lovely morning - I did some shopping after school 
and back to Samuel's to stay all night. 

14th  I was up early sewing at my bonnet, green & white crape. 
Rainy during the night -. Cloudy all day - Charley 
called and waited on me down to [Meeting] saw a great many 
I knew, Lide & Jennie went to Doctor Moores to tea, I had 
so much pain in my head ; Sallie had a good deal of 
company so I staid - was better in the evening - Saw 
Sarah Hagan at [Meeting] & Carrie Quimby she gave me 
a letter from Sadie -, I would love to have her go to Darby. 

15  We all went down to [Meeting] early, I soon saw John & then we 
went to the carriage for Anna, she had never been to 
Yearly Meeting before, we had a good sermon from Sarah 
Hunt, and one from Thomas Foulke, they left soon after [Meeting] 
broke, Jennie & I took dinner there, then went down Chestnut [Street] 
called at Earles and saw the Glory of the Tropicks a 
most splendid Painting -. John Gartley went home with me & 
then we went to Hancocks, delightful visit, called at Charley's - walked 
home through Fairmount, splendid & moonlight...

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16th  Sallie was at Darby all night, Mary Bowman left early. I 
do not feel at all well, yet shall have school this day -. 
Found Sallie very tired as meeting did not close till [half] past 2. 
I would like to have been there, to have bid my friends 
good bye -. Was very tired, and sick so went home after 
going to the house of one of my scholars when I found 3 
down with scarlet fever and one had died; I say nothing 
about my visits to these places for it might alarm our folks. 
A pleasant happy talk -. how much things have grown 
and the country looks very beautiful, our place lovely. 

17th  I was all morning fixing my drawers; after dinner our 
folks all went to Cousin E's, I had a pleasant afternoon mon 
cher ami called a little while -. Hannah Shin also -. A long sweet letter. 

18th  A very lovely day, I went to meeting and all afternoon 
was [?] up letters, looked over 344 & arranged them 
in bundles; called to see Anna, spent the evening alone, as 
our folks were all at Dodgsons, wrote to Sadie & little 
I counted 64 letters and nearly 30 notes, which are very dear 
and precious to me, have done so much to make me 
happy though all received in less than a year, some 
would think this foolish but we do not, for we are better 
and happier for the close intimacy it is a blessing 
given us by our Father and we are thankful 
to him for it -. He knows the deepest feeling of our hearts. 

     42. 

19th  A little shower but pleasant day, after school I went to 
see the sick took some bread etc., then home found Aunt E. had 
brought Anne, A. Whitson & Jennie Bunting on to Sharon. Sweet note. 

20th  A very lovely morning, I ironed so late last eve felt quite tired 
when I rose, often feel very weak then, though I grow better 
as I ride to town, it always helps me; had 28 scholars and 
so many very little ones it requires the most constant 
exercise of continued patience to get along at all, I have so 
many disadvantages, low windows no desks, etc. When 
I reached home found the house all shut up; they went at 
Ash's, the rest at Cousin E's. I called to see Anna a few minutes, 
then took care of Howard till 8 oclock when they came, eat 
supper and right off to town. J. called to bring me a letter from O. note. 

21th  Lyd, Aunty & I came in in the carriage, Sam & Sallie moving 
How many sacred memories cling around the "house," never 
to be forgotten happy hours, have been spent there. 
Lyd went with Aunty to the Managerie, I had a full school 
afterward walked way out to Sybert [Street], visited the homes of 
vice and poverty, and only wonder there can be any good with 
such evil surroundings, but it is there. I was in several 
houses where was scarcely the necessaries of life, and some 
children almost without clothing, yet proud, and with some 
sense of respectability -. I did not get home till late - 
Stood and watched the lightning for a long while before sleeping. 

     43. 

22nd  A very lovely though warm morning, I did not feel so 
well till on my way to the city, strange what a 
ride in the open air will do. I do not understand this 
extreme weakness in the morning, derangement of the 
stomach and liver, yet my appetite is much better 
than it was, Samuels finish moving today. I called 
awhile after tea then went to Levis's found Anna had 
been to our house but returned - I staid awhile, went 
home not feeling very comfortable with my own self - 

23rd  A lovely warm morning I brought some butter to the 
hospitals -; walked down town to do some shopping, then home - 

24th  Mother and I made some calls after tea - About 9. 
Charley Temple & William Webb, came, quite surprised - !!! 

25th  At [half] of 4 I was waiting for the sabbath sunlight and 
then was deeply interested in yet unfinished book, oh how 
it touched my very soul, how my heart ached to 
its many words of truth and beauty, so deep & full of feeling, 
C and I called at Sams, they started for home, Josiah Bond 
called but we did not see him, he preached a sermon that 
would have been pretty good from other lips - Anna was with me - 
Parents went to Hillards to tea. John D. Maule & Charley H. 
here. I wrote to Oldden in the eve. Yesterday 
had a letter from "Aunt Sarah" she is better 

     44. 

26th  A lovely, yet cool morning, I suffer a good deal with 
spells of violent pain in my temples, weary heart and mind. 
A good while this morning it required the greatest effort 
to keep up; at times I was almost blind with pain and 
so weak, I cannot understand these turns, in a few hours I 
may be entirely well -, except for the ache in my chest or back but 
I have got quite used to that; my afternoon I am much 
better; In the eve called at Sam's. he was after their cow -. 

27th  I finished reading the Second Book, and am more fully convinced 
it ought to be finished, how I admire the mind 
capable of such high aspirations, and love the heart filled 
as it is with so much feeling, & deep tenderness -. A 
rainy wet morning but, it was so much needed all are 
glad to see it -.  I had a small school and went home 
early, then Lide and I went to Cousin E.'s real nice time - 

28th  I was up [a quarter] of 5, had an early breakfast, at the mill a 
little while, I weighed only 108, never so little since I was 
grown up. Came to Darby in time for 7 oclock car -. 
A few showers, I wrote a letter then home, some after. Aunt R. 
came and just as we finished tea Mary Bonsal; Aunt 
H, went to Dodgsons to stay all night; John came up to bring 
some eggs from Miss Smith's. Lide was not very well 
and he, kind soul, went down and brought her up 
some medicine - - A cool though clear eve -.

     45. 

29th  Quite cool, I called at Samuels, to get his letter for E. [?] 
pleasant ride in, our "Club" is so interesting, all such 
nice men and I gain a good deal of instruction - - 
About 2 my own loved friend came, and we spent a quiet happy 
hour or two, I am blessed with such companionship. 
When I reached home found our folks gone to Oberlin Levi's. 
I was quite tired having stood in the car nearly all the way. 

30th  I did not feel very well, eat no breakfast, quite sick after 
I got to school but get better towards afternoon -. 
Mother got in from the Home, we found Uncle Hall at our house 
he staid all night. they spent the evening at Sallie's. 

31st  A cloudy morning; we painted the side porch, Lide and Sam 
went to the hospitals tooks 33 dozens eggs, 12 [pounds] of butter jellies etc. 
which we had begged, so much is needed for the sick & wounded - 
In the afternoon Mattie French came, Sallie and Howard 
awhile but had to go back home because Aunt Hannah 
and Lib came out, Humphry came round with Lyd - 
A rainy evening but it will do a great deal of good 
the country needs it and things will grow now finely - 
This is the last day of May, how soon it has gone, 
time moves swiftly, and each day brings us nearer 
still nearer to eternity, I have no fear, the future which 
comes beyond the pearl gates has no shadows or darkness 
for me, My Fathers mansions are light & beautiful. 

     46. 

June. First  A heavy shower about 5 oclock, and gentle rain till 
nearly 11. Pattie and Lide went to [Meeting], I was ready but concluded 
to stay, After dinner Mr Gill came, and soon Ben & Mr Heuy, 
we had a lively time, Amos, Humphry, & them went on the 8 car we went 
down & afterward had some ice cream, came back and found mon ami. 

2nd  I sent a note to Anna, cloudy and rain like - cleared off very warm 
I had a sweet precious letter; was buy ironing after tea Lide & 
I called at Pearsons, Dr B. treated us to ice cream. Anna called awhile 
and I went home with her, soon back again, would not walk--

3rd  We came in in the carriage, a lovely but warm morning; when 
I got home found our folks had not got back. Very warm. 97 mercury. 

4th  Very rainy, I came right in it continued to pour all day, and the 
streets were flooded, I went to 17th and rode down, up stairs a note.

5th  Still raining I sent two papers to Sadie, small school, paper 
states the capture of 10,000 rebels 30 miles below Corinth - how 
many of our poor fellows were lost at the battle of Chickahominy. 
I do not feel very strong though am better than I was, yet my 
appetite is not very good, no one knows how little I do eat 
as I always put up my own dinners & it is not much -, 
often give it away to the children -. I went down town to 
do an errand for Mother, it stopped raining and we spent the eve 
at Mrs Verlindens, D. Maule & John there we had a very pleasant 
time. Anna went home with me to stay all night. 
We had a nice talk till quite late -. 

          1862. 


     47. 

6th  Last night I had another spell of coughing which lasted 
nearly an hour without cessation. I feel a little weaker 
for it this morning. strange they should come when I am 
not aware of having taken any cold, only a week since 
the last one, I have not said anything about it, for it would 
not be worth while to have any talk and my poor school 
would get blamed, even if I have not been quite so well, I 
will not regret it unless, it may give trouble to others, I 
do not dread any suffering for myself, but I earnestly 
desire that other may be spared, I have no fear for the 
future beyond the river, for my faith points to the 
bright eternal home prepared for the immortal soul -. 
daily and hourly my thoughts turn to the glorious 
world where the "mansions" are prepared for us, death 
has been such a continued subject of thought with 
me I have no fear of its approach, I am striving 
to have my lamp trimmed and burning, and the 
christians hope, will make the "dark valley" only 
an entrance gate, illuminated with the faith that 
sees beyond the portals to the glory and blessedness of 
our Fathers home where "the pure in heart shall see God" 
I was quite late getting home, though I went right 
from school. Anna Bell etc. called Lide & I went part way 
with them, Mr. Harrison was in Buntings store - Lide - 

     48. 

7th  I was painting porch and out doors early, Lide & I went to 
Office & Sam's found on our return Father and Mother getting ready 
to go to Hectors, they went at [half] past 12. Lyd to Sallie's and 
Lide and I had a nice afternoon - "two lone damsels" -. Ben 
came out, heavy rain, in the evening, he was at Jones' 
till late, He brought us the sad sad news of Joe Schofield's 
death, killed in the battle near Richmond, oh! how 
my heart aches to think of this bereavement falling 
so suddenly upon his family, and now that they have 
lost dear Aunt Fanny, it will be more hard to bear, 
if she had lived and thus lost a son, it would have been 
a great trial, hers was such a divine pure spirit, so 
peaceful, so full of love, that it shed its blessing everywhere - 

8th  Cloudy, we attended meting, but my thoughts and sympathy 
were with the bereaved ones, whos grief must be increased 
by the suspense, and their ignorance of how his last moments 
were spent, how the young soul met the dark messenger, 
and whether, a single eye watched the last struggle or 
listened to the dying words of the noble youth who has 
sacrificed his life on the altar of human freedom. - . 
Sam, Sallie & Lyd went to Aunt Esthers, I went round to see 
Anna a little while, they sent for me as Uncle Paxson 
and Aunt Jane had come -, brough us a large pan of 
strawberries -. Maris Bartram spent eve with us -. 


          1862. 

    49. 

9th  A lovely but cold morning -. Uncle & Aunt came in 
to attend the funeral of Eli H. Price's wife, I had a sweet note. 

10th  I went to George Hancocks office to leave a note, then came 
to school soon after was taken quite sick, it looked like rain I 
had short recess and closed at [half] past 1. was made worse by a 
drunken man in the car who smelt awful strong of rum - It 
rained so hard I had to wait at the store a good while, Sam 
and Sallie came up to tea, as it was too wet to go down -.

11th It tried to clear off, I wrote to my dear friend Lizzie Crozer 
whose husband died two weeks ago, how my heart ached for the 
lonely desolate girl, it makes me feel very very sad  -. 
To-day Uncle Charley and "Sister Jane" are married, quite 
a pleasant time at the wedding, about 50 there, I do 
home it may be fraught with happiness to all. Uncle T. wife 
[?] etc. out, to to stay all night beside our own family  -. 
J. and Anna came up, we were going to remain up to 
watch the eclipse of the moon which was total, we had so 
many she would not stay  -. Lide and I went to bed 
last in her room, but I woke up in time to see it 
entirely hid at 1.54 went and called Lyd, it had 
cleared of beautifully, but of course was much darker 
while the shadow lasted  -. I was down town 
after school, Ben gave me a letter from Uncle 
Jonty - poor man, says his son did barely, [?], but is dead  -.

     50. 

12th  A clear morning, I feel much better, but my feelings 
and sympathies are with, Uncle's family, poor cousin Joe 
was wounded in the head; a Lieutenant saw him fall - .
 can scarcely believe his young life has been thus spent - .
I had a long letter from Sadie, wrote to her after school, - . 
found much company at home, 15 to dine - Child Henderson 
etc., they went at 8. our folks retired at 9. I sat out on the 
porch for a long while, the full moon rose so beautifully - . 

13th  A warm morning, I brought some butter to the Hospitals, 
it rained very hard I hurried home, cleared off by sunset, 
after tea, J. called I went to Anna's and we three spent the eve 
very pleasantly together saw the moon rise - Pebble stones - ice cream. 

14th  Busy getting Lyd ready, and she left on  time for the [half] [?] [?] 
going to be in Crosswicks a few days & then home with Uncle T's. 
Anna took tea with us, a heavy shower but beautiful sunset 
and rainbow, we had a long talk in my room but I felt 
very sad and so disappointed for my friends sake, unwillingness, 
of -. I have no patience with the foolishness of those so old. 

15th  I commenced a letter at 5 this morn, for my feeling are with my darling. 
We went to [Meeting], though it was very cloudy, Dr & Anna [?] 
came out to dine, after dinner all but me went to Bayards - . 
At 4. they went home seven of them, and Lide and I 
enjoyed the quiet most extremely; I wrote to Oldden 
and commenced one to Uncle Jonty's girls - .

     51. 

16th  A very cold morning for July, I bought mother's bonnet 
and took it before school, also did some more errands; felt 
quite tired by the time I reached school; a bad coughing 
spell this morn early, which makes my breast sore -. 
Finished ironing after I went home. a letter from Oldden,

17th  Still very cool, I was made happy by a sweet precious letter - 
After tea Lide and I went begging for the Soldier's, were out till 
9 oclock - Cousin Mary with us all night - (39th & Chestnut) 

18th  I was out working in the yard by 5 oclock, was quite tired 
when I started to school, so much pain in the breast & back -. 
I went out to the new Hospital, Lide & Uncle G. there; she took 
22 quarts of strawberries & sugar and cream - I went home, 
found Aunt Sarah -. Ben out all night - Hard shower -. 

19th  Came in with Brother - 4 of my most mischevious 
boys that had gone away, have come back again 
& I have 30 which keeps me very busy, I should be sorry 
to have to expel any more, but they quarrel or out of school -.
Josiah Wilson and Mary were at our house all night -. 
Lide and I were begging for the soldiers, Jones over & we did not 
go up stairs till late, & I wrote to Lyd knowing she would 
be so much disappointed & then had not had time - I did not 
get to bed till [quarter] of 12. -. I walked out Chestnut 
[Street] to 39th had a pleasant call, at the sweet, pretty place, 
where there is so much taste displayed - I shall remember it for home. 

     52. 

20th  I was up by 5. & swept three rooms, consequently started to 
school quite tired, I have pain between the shoulders or in my 
breast nearly all the time, Mother does not know, when she 
talks so much about our getting up early, that I suffer for it 
in school where I have to keep up, if I could rest about 11. 
when I feel the effects of it, but I cannot -. They all 
blame my school so much, I seldom speak about my health. 
I know it is not that entirely that has made, me so thin & 
unable to bear much; if my body was only strong, the spirit would 
prompt it to do much more -. I was quite tired and sitting 
here alone about 3 when my dear friend came in & then how much 
we both enjoyed the quiet peaceful time we spent to gether. 
such gentle loving tenderness, is seldom found, I felt that Heaven 
had given us this unchangeable, friendship, filling it with joy at 
times, 6 words are nothing to express the good & happiness I 
have known it, his happiness is dearer to me than my 
own, yet it is an unselfish love I give him. I never want 
to be nearer than a friend, this close intimacy is pure & 
unsullied, blessing both, I am satisfied with his great kindness 
and deep brothers love, and I would have him receive the 
richest blessings Heaven can bestow; not mere worldly 
prosperity, but a realization of all those nobler aspirations 
and noble thoughts, which lie beneath -. He came on purpose to 
see me -. Lide was at the Hospital Ma at the Home -.

     53. 

21st  Lide was not very well Mother and I hurried up the work, 
then I went to Sam's, I Had a Bucks [County] Intellengencer containing, 
an account of poor Cousin Joe's death, which was very 
sudden, he exhibited much coolness, reloading & taking deliberate 
aim, when a ball struck him killing him instantly - 
Our folks went to Aunt Esthers. Ben came out & went to had a 
horse for Father, I was busy sewing. had to go up stairs 
as my cough was quite bad for awhile - strange - these spells-. 

22nd  I did not get up very early being so fatigued, went to [Meeting] 
George up to dine & we went riding after dinner. Parents to 
[Cousin] E. Harry & Lide out, & I entertained Isaac Hibberd 
for nearly two hours -. Wrote to Anna Willets -. 

23rd  Tired as usual, but get rested at times, school not so large 
called at Doctors then home to ironing -. J. came up to see my [?] 

24th  Cloudy all day, I went to Levis's to spend eve & make my 
long talked of pin cushion, it rained so hard I staid all 
night and had a good long talk - A precious letter. 

25th  She went with me to Palmers then I went home got my breakfast 
back to Library, up there again & in the 7 oclock car -. 
I had a new book, but it remains unopened, there being two 
human books much more interesting, my thoughts all the 
way were upon them & my eyes too, oh, how I longed to read 
the feelings of the heart, & know if that mind soared as high; 
we met in the Market [Street] car, I spoke - the ice is broken, thank Heaven. 

     54. 

25th  continued. Uncle H & son were here with us all night, yet in the quiet & 
stillness of my own room, I read the annual verses which no other 
eyes must ever behold, precious indeed to me, for they prove that 
confidence and trust as well as affections are mine, all of which I 
treasure so highly. To-day I sent a letter to my brother, asking 
two promises, in regard to his going to S. P. Heaven help 
him keep them when they are made, a sisters deep love 
asked them sincerely, prayerfully, & it would make me happy 
to know they would meet with a response in his heart. 

26th  I came in the carriage, was very busy in school, quite 
tired went home to sewing - The Public school closed they had 
a Pic Nic -. I am not unhappy & yet for two nights my 
pillow has long been wet with tears. I have so much fear 
that the peace of heaven will be long coming to me, 
& that it might be always with me that I might 
be above the earth, my heart living in the light of 
my Fathers smile -. to be [?] at rest is my great hope - 

27th  A bright beautiful morning. Anna came with me 
we were on the upper deck & enjoyed it exceedingly - 
she was in my school nearly two hours -. At 3, I called 
for her and went to the Academy of Fine Arts, J. there & had 
a very pleasant and delightful time, went home at 5 on double deck. 
Our Canary & we were an hour & a quarter before we could 
catch him, in Dodgson's cedar tree -.

     55. 

28th of June 1862.  Outwardly the day passed as usual, Uncle Hall 
came & we went after [Crossed out: sea] grass for the aquarium, I waded in for 
it two hours nearly in the woods and fields, in the P.M. 
I received a most valuable letter giving me more confidence, 
and showing I was trusted and believed in, proving that in 
all my principles and self respect were not doubted, it 
was very precious to  me -. Showing the honor & good of the writer. 
A sweet letter from dear Sadie says she may come to 
Philadelphia in two weeks, I am so glad. I long to see, 
her, precious darling, she, no, one knows what I have suffered 
& what enjoyed in the past year  -. I went to my room 
not very unhappy, and yet, midnight found me rolling 
on my pillow with the burning tears upon my cheek, and 
earnest prayers in my heart that God would lead my 
soul to his Throne in the path best fitted for its good, I 
feel the influence of His Love, and saw his  white angels 
around my bed, pointing to the glory beyond, they 
would bring me peace, they will bid the wild heart, 
be still & know there is a God; I have nothing to complain 
of, no treachery, no falsehood, those whom I trusted 
have been true to me, those whom I love, love me in 
return, I ask only their happiness and good, that 
they may know from where emanates the light which 
earth cannot destroy or death lessen -.

     56. 

29th  I sat in meeting [between] B.W & T.S; Mother spoke well & just 
to my feelings -. J. came up in the afternoon to tea, Ben out also -. 

30th  Heavy rain, but cleared off by noon -. John R Andrews, son 
of J.H. was buried to day went home, sick on 3rd day & died 
7th with Inflamation of the brain, or something like it. A great 
stroke to his family, poor young man he is free from trouble now - I commenced the medicine.
 
[Left margin] 
July July

First  I had a sweet letter, which gave my heart joy. About 
noon Anna came in remained with me till I closed then we went 
down town, afterwards out home she stopped in Kinsessing - 
I found our folks gone to Cousin Marys, I did not go to bed 
very early, but soon after Mother came in my room & said 
the bark house was on fire, I went with her and it was as 
light as day, for we soon saw it was the grist mill, once owned 
by Thomas Steele, now rented by J. Lager, it was so awfully 
grand sight the flames rushing towards Heaven & a perfect 
sea of sparks. the engines kept the other buildings wet, 
but it was too far gone, no one was hurt, & could we forget the 
loss, I should remember it as one of the most sublime 
spectacles ever witnessed, every tree & shrub was lit up to magnificently 
& a flood of light poured in to every window that 
opened in that direction. A fire in the country is one 
of the grandest sights, illuminating as it does, so much 
of nature & making the distance total darkness -. 
Father went down. there were a great many there. 

     57. 

2nd  Again I had the exquisite pleasure of riding with her, quite 
a talk on the Market [Street] fire. It rained nearly all day, but 
I went down to Samuel Child's had a very pleasant visit 
indeed they are so kind, I love to visit there: quite stormy. 

3rd  To day the news comes of the dreadful defeat at Richmond 
our troops having been driven back 17 miles, oh! how my 
heart aches for our poor wounded, and I am in great suspense 
knowing my dear friend Oldden is in the Regiment there. 
I walked up to school, cloudy nearly all day. Immediately 
after school went down to get a Bulletin; and eagerly looked over 
the names, but none I knew appeared among them. I made 
some purchases, hair brush & then out home met Sallie in the car. 
We were just going to get tea when Uncle Charley, wife & Johnny 
came, they only paid us a short visit then on to her fathers. 
Aunt Rachel was with them but remained with us all night. 

4th  She and Mother went to the Home with Father, Lide & I were very 
busy preserving etc., our folks did not get back til tea, Warner 
was Amos H. P. Ben, we took a walk up the Creek & to look at 
the ruins of the mile. There has been but few fire works, the 
people are too sad to be joyous, every gun to day has 
make my heart tremble -. To-day I celebrate quietly 
for it is the anniversary of the commencement, of the sweetest 
friendship I ever knew, and what ever may come in the future 
this year of confidence & affection will ever be remembered. I wrote 4 sheets. 


     58. 

5th  I was not very well, our folks went out riding. After tea 
Anna came up and we went to spend that long talked of 
evening at Jones's, Rebecca there. we heard some sweet music 
and enjoyed it were it not for the war present thought that 
some one loved was suffering on the battle field. Anna staid 
with me all night, and o! how much was said. the clock 
struck 2. before I slept and she had just gone to sleep -. 
Surely this talk will long be remembered, we were both 
much affected, I wanted to prove my sincerity, & for the 
sake of my most precious friend, I forced myself to tell her what 
never before passed my life. I never could have done it 
had I not felt so much interest & love for my darling one. 
I spoke plainly, though very careful not to wound, clearly proving 
I hope that nothing closer could exist between us-. how strange 
it seems that in one year so much should happen -. So much. 

6th  Anna went home to Levis's we went to meeting and heard a 
long sermon from R. W. Moore. My thoughts were so 
far off to hear it all, my sympathy with the wounded -. 
Warner was out a while it was very warm, 93, Just before 
tea Henry [?] wife & two children came, they enjoyed 
it very much, I feel so sad and in so much 
suspense, for my friends - Saw that Edward Barnes 
was taken to the hospital at [?] Monroe -. 
Beautiful and moonlight, if there was only Peace -. 

     59. 

7th  Father Mother and I left home at 5 for Hectors, I 
stopped at Samuel's and bought a chain and pin of Harry. 
Commenced ironing immediately and finished, a heavy thunder shower 
It cleared off, and we spent the eve at Verlindens, Anna came 
home and staid all night with me. her last for some time - 

8th  She left to prepare her trunk for the Express. I left at 7 for school. 
A sweet precious much cherished letter. I had short recesses 
it was very warm, went down in the Green [Street] car, met Mr Huey, 
they have not heard from his brother & suppose him killed. I reached 
Walnut [Street] Warf 10 [minutes] before the time went over to Camden, to bid 
good bye and give my parting blessing to Anna, they go to [New York]. 
I did a little shopping then out for home, met Lide coming in in 
the car & so returned with her to the Hosptial. O. how my 
heart sickened as we walked through the wards, so filled 
with the sick and wounded, feeling that some of my own dear 
friends might be suffering worse -, ah! perhaps even dead, 
I am still in great suspense concerning their fate -. 
We returned in the car, was beautiful moonlight night. 

9th  Extremely warm, I walked over to the Bell for some seed, 
then got in the car, and met, Miss Lipler, Mr S. & wife -.
Quite warm in school the children can hardly study so overcome 
with the heat; I found Josiah Wilson, he went to Sharon 
after tea, we walked over to Sallie's, then called at J. Whites, 
Beckie was away, but we had a pleasant time with her sister - First 

     60. 

10th  I had a letter from Sadie yesterday saying she expected 
to leave for [Philadelphia] at 7 this morning. I closed at 10, & went 
to Walnut [Street], and waited till the boat came in, but she 
was not in it, I found the 7 oclock train arrived at Kinsinging, 
I went to Darby Road & waited an hour and a half, then 
came home and was much surprised to find her here, 
she having come in the car before I got there. I was delighted. 
Lizzie Hancock was here also and we had a very pleasant 
time. So nice to have Sadie with me, dear child. 

11th  Sadie and I went to the city at 7. about 12 Jos. came up. 
and we closed school being the last time I expected 
to teach, we gave all the children presents. I felt very 
sorry to part with them, for I have tried to do them good 
hoping I have been faithful in all things. Rebecca Valentine 
gave me a handsome Cologne Bottle, which showed 
good kind feeling towards me. I shall always look 
back upon this year as one of usefulness and among many 
trials and vexations there are some pleasant memories 
dear and sweet to me, making me revere the place -.
We went to Independance Hall, then to Baileys, Earles 
Gallery and out home-. found Father & Mother had 
arrived from Hectors-. Sadie brought me a book 
called Bitter Sweet by Dr Holland containing some most 
beautiful passages, so true and good. 
     .61 

12th  Quite warm, Ben came out and after tea, he took Sadie 
and Lide a long ride 15 miles, I should have enjoyed 
it much, but all could not go, & I need make the sacrifice. 
I was so glad she had an opportunity of going -.

13th  To meeting, after dinner I read to Sadie till she was asleep 
then, arose and wrote a letter to my friend - Took a 
short walk, after tea, Maris B came & soon after Chalk & M. 
we went to get ice cream and lemonade then walked in the 
moonlight, quite a lively evening & late ere we retired - 

14th  Extremely warm, we had nearly finished ironing when 
Grandmother & Ann Sharpless came, staid all night. Jones's here. 

15th  Took a letter to Office, very warm all day, Ben came 
out we took a walk, had ice cream, were at Pearsons to organize 
a meeting for the benefit & aid of the [Delaware County] Hospital. 

16th  We took a stroll up the creek, gathering mosses & ferns. 
I had an interesting letter from Oldden & Jennie S. He 
was uninjured though in battle 5 days and once 
was [Crossed out: taken] in among the Rebels, but escaped -. After tea 
we went to Jones' Mr & Mrs Neal there; good music. 

17th  Sadie & I went to [Meeting], to Sharon after dinner & to Sams 
to tea  -. Ben & Mrs Mitchel came out staid all night. 

18th  We intended going to town but it rained till nearly noon then 
Sam, Sallie, Howard and we two went, had H's photograph taken, then Sadie & I 
visited the Academy of Natural Sciences, coming out drove through the Woodlands. 

     62. 

19th  The aniversary of our trip to Castle Rock, and how 
many remembrances cling around it. what volumes could 
be written of it and the year following, I need write no words 
here my heart remembers all -. In the P.M. Lide attended 
a [Meeting] in the Hall to organize a [Meeting] for the Soldiers aid -. 
We had several callers Anne Bell here to tea -. Afterwards we 
went to Darby on an errand, found J. had returned, I saw 
that a wretched head ache was making him feel miserable. 
My poor dear friend, I spoke no word of welcome, but I felt much -. 
If I had not proved my sincerity, I might to thought [?]-. 

20th  Attended [Meeting]. Sadie & I sent a package to Chalk, fruit wrapped in 25 papers. 
John came up and took tea with us - left by 8. soon 
after. Maris came then Chalk and we had a lively time -. 

21st I sent a letter to Oldden. busy at work, and now while all 
are taking a nap I sit me down to write, it is almost 
the only chance I get, by thank heaven I can think always. 
Sam & S. up to bring Howards photographs, very good -. 

22nd  We went to [Meeting] - Parent to [Cousin] E. then intended going to [?]. 
Sadie and I walked up to Bartrams, got apples etc. etc. -.

23rd  We went over to the Bell on an errand, found Uncle H & family 
here, at [half] past 12. Maris B. and we [?], went to [West Philadelphia] 
called at Hancocks for Lide but they could not go, then we visited 
Fairmount Girard College Laure Hill, home at 9 - 
Chalk here - Maris gave Sadie a splendid boquet, [?] 

     63. 

24th  Raining in the night I went to the office, had a letter 
from Anna yesterday and answered by this mornings mail. 
My dear friend does not look very well, oh, how I long for 
this uncertainty to be done away with, how I pray for it. 
Attended the sewing meeting for the Soldiers. Mrs. V. here in [afternoon]. 

25th  Sadie and I went over to the Home with Pa & Ma -. Ben & a 
fried of his out to dine -. J. took tea here -. Sadie & I went to 
bid good bye to Sam's. I treated to ice-cream, her last 
night and oh, how I shrunk from the thought that we 
must so soon be separated, I read to her in the Wreath while packing. 

26th  At 7 we went to the city, made several calls, saw 8th & Chestnut 
[Street], and at [half] past 12 went to Camden where I saw her safely 
in the cars, we parted then, and with an effort I kept back the 
burning tears. I watched the car move out of sight & then 
turned sadly and sorrowfully away, feeling that a great 
light had been taken from my side, oh! how much I 
love her, how dear she is to me, dearer more than ever, my 
life feels wrapped up in a few precious ones, and 
she, my own darling Sadie is always remembered, so fondly, 
our attachment has strengthened, grown firmer in this 
two weeks that we have been so constantly together. 
It cannot be less warm, or know change -. 
While in the Market [Street] car - Annie & Rebecca Hillborn 
got in and we all came out together - 

     64. 

27th  We walked up to Bayards before meeting, then 
went and heard a long sermon from Samuel Levick, in the 
afternoon John White & Mother came afterwards, Cousin John & Mother 
then John Gartley, & Joe. Ellis, came after tea we walked up the 
crick had a very pleasant time, Clear & lovely evening - 

28th  Father, mother and Lide started for Concord. I went to the 
city with Annie & Rebecca, bought 108 yards of muslin as it is 
getting very high - I came home by [half] past 12. and as I 
entered the empty house a feeling of desolation came over me, 
& had it not, been for a kind precious letter which I had, 
I should have given way to tears. I missed Sadie so much. 
Resolved to overcome my loneliness I went to Sallie's and helped 
her till [half] past 3 then went to Darby to see if Lyd had 
come, but she did not arrive from Long Island till 
4 pm after we went to Sam's, she gave Sallie & very handsome 
Photograph Album -. I came home, she did not till 9 oclock. 

29th  Busy at house work had a letter from Saide & Anna W. 
Lyd away nearly all day. J. spent the eve with me & I 
felt much better afterwards, his visits always do do me good. 
Lyd off again after dinner took Lizze and I was alone till 
[half] past 9 except Carrie Budd called awhile, I had a 
letter which gave me intense happiness, giving me all trust - 
O. I will be thankful & try to be content when my loved ones 
are blessed by our Father, - No one here to eat supper & I went without. 

     65. 

31st  A beautiful day, Lyd & Lizzie away again, & I alone 
till 3 oclock when I went to the Hall and sewed constantly 
till nearly 7 - on the machine, consequently very very tired. 
but I must work hard, life is short & I would have mine 
useful, this is for the suffering and wounded & I do it willingly. 
[?] and Mart Jones called awhile -. I wrote to Jennie S & a B. W. 

[Left margin: August First]

1st August  Lizzie being sick I was busy till noon. Sallie and Howard 
up awhile, my friend J. called to show me a collection of 
photographs, of the great public musicians and singers, remained 
to tea, but left soon after, then I was alone till after 9. when 
Lyd came, brough me a package from the Express, which 
I found to be a box of apricots from John Gartley, he had promised 
them on [First] day, but I thought it was only in fun, they 
were beautiful ones, and I shall try & send some to Lide -. 
I had a letter from Oldden this week, he thinks they will 
have to have more men to succeed, O! how I long for 
emancipation & fear that even it will come too late to 
save our noble men 100,000 have already perished 
many very many more by disease and suffering than 
on the battle field, and yet the millions of loyal Slaves 
are standing ready to serve and we take them not, 
when will they be allowed to fight for their own 
freedom, and thereby, doing us good and assisting to 
maintain the Government which must & shall be free, 

     66. 

August 2nd.  Very busy till after 2. then I went to the 
Hall and was sewing and cutting out Slippers till nearly 
7. came back very tired. Sam & wife here all night -. 

3rd  I went to Meeting alone, had a good one, oh! I am 
happier now I feel it all the time, one line telling me of 
the happiness of a heart dear to me, is always remembered, 
it is like a sweet chord of music making all things else 
high & awaking in my soul gratitude and praise for answering 
that one constant prayer, I never knew till now how much 
better I would feel. Yes I will try & "be joyous for Sake" 
Charley H. came and staid all night much talk on politics. 

4th  Read a little in F. Bremers works found some excellent things. 
Father and Mother came home from Chester [County]. I had a sweet 
letter from Saide and also Lizzie Crozier, my poor dear 
friend what trouble and trial she knows, her devoted husband 
taken so suddenly in the prime of life, two of his 
children are left for her to care for, & oh! I pray she may 
know the blessing of Him who will be a Father to the fatherless - 
I would I could be with her to give cheer and comfort - 

5th  Busy putting up fruit. Uncle S. & wife, Annie Whitson & Bell 
here, a good deal of other company -. I wrote to Sadie 
and am going to send one of Howards Photographs -. 
It is very warm indeed, but with so many sick & 
suffering there is no time to be idle. 
    67. 

6th  Howard is over here much time, & Sallie having poor 
help some of us there a great deal -. Ben came out to
tea spent eve at Jones's came home late, I was writing 
he then went to Darby & I am sure for no good purpose -.
I was sewing till late on slippers for hospital - 

7th  Sent my letter to Oldden & was busy all morning Lizzie 
being sick -. Went to sew and did not get home till most 7. 
found Hall & Sallie P. here, they went to Cousin E. I went 
to hear James Neale, in the Presbyterian Church, he spoke very 
well on the times, and took up a collection of 50 [dollars] for our 
Sewing Society, which we will soon use for our sick & wounded, 
I feel every day as if I must not spend a single idle moment 
there is so much room for work, and oh! I will be faithful. 
I had a short note from my friend, his health is miserable 
and I am continually anxious, my own dear friend, I cannot 
bear to think of thy being ill & kept from me by customs rules. 
It is my right, my privilege to guard & care for thee & thy 
happiness, no sister could desire thy blessedness more than I do. 

8th  Alone again except Hall who came up leaving S. at 
Sharon - An exceedingly warm day mercury at 94. I always come 
to my room after dinner & while they nap, do my writing or 
reading - I would get much less done if I did not. 
Hall & I called for R. White & then we spent to eve at Sharon 
beautiful and moonlight, yet exceedingly warm - 
    68. 

9th  Again the heat is almost unbearable, to us and what 
must it be to the poor soldier how much I think of them 
and their sufferings, and how my heart longs for peace -. 
Sallie B. and I called in Darby & at Sam's. I was forcibly 
struck with the thin sickly appearance of my dear J. and 
have great fears of a spell of illness. After tea we had 
quite a heavy shower which refreshed every thing, and a 
lovely evening, but ah my thoughts were with others. 
We have heard of the death of four we knew -. Rev. Henry Grew 
an old man, who has been zealous in the cause of livirty , 
gone to his long home -. Mary Morton, a bride of 18 months 
ago, yet ill a long time & suffering much, she is released 
now & for her sake we may be thankful. poor Ben, 
was very devoted her. Mary Johnson, wife of William H. 
been ill a long while - and - Lucy Buntings babe 10 months 
old, died suddenly with convulsions -. So it is, death 
lays his finger upon them & then are ours no longer -. 
The old, the young, & the little ones, each are taken, 
but we dare not murmur at our Fathers will; I 
sometimes feel they are so much better off, yet, I am now 
constantly anxious, on account of my dear friends health - 
If he be taken, Heaven give me the privilege of being with 
him in his last moments, that I may cheer the dark 
passage and bid his spirit have faith and hope in God. 

      69.  

10th  At meeting in body, some earnest prayers & then my 
mind wandered to that mysterious subject Death it has 
grown familiar to me - I fear it not, for it leads us to a 
heavenly home where all is thanksgiving and joy. At 4. 
we attended the funeral of J. D. Buntings babe, it looked very 
beautiful and fit for a home in the bosom of our Father - 
It was so pure & innocent we could not mourn, but I 
thought if it had been another member of that family 
my heart would have been filled with a bitter sorrow, 
doubly bitter because having to bear it alone, for no one could 
understand the depth and intensity of our feelings, without 
believing it was nearer than friendship, which it is not - 
though deeper far deeper than is generally meant by that term. 
I saw it lowered in its narrow grave & wondered who would 
go next -. Came home & found Ben here, he soon left all 
were away & I spent the eve alone, beautiful & clear 
but my fear for the comfort & health of my loved ones prevented 
me from enjoying it very much -. I can only help by prayer - 

11th  I went to help Sallie before six, came home tired & went to ironing 
a sweet note from mon ami, saying he was better made me 
feel much more so. He tells me about his business affairs. 
H. Christian & wife were up, the evening was very beautiful 
I could not sleep, but wrote by moonlight, without 
straining my eyes -. O! the clouds were so lovely -. 

     70. 

12th  Father and I attended Mary Morton's funeral which 
was very large, and as I stood by her coffin gazing on her 
lifeless form I could but think how short a time since 
she had stood at the altar & become a bride & not two years 
a wife and sick nearly ever since - only 22. poor young 
creature - her husband was very devoted & I have great sympathy 
for him - J. Powell dined here as he took us. 

13th  After dinner we went to Cousin E's had a pleasant visit 
I had not been there for a long while, but every thing 
reminds me so sadly of Oldden, he has not been well 
and I am constantly anxious about him -. This terrible 
War makes me feel heart sick much of the time -. 

14th  To day several of my friends celebrate their birthdays. 
I offered my small gift, Lovells Poems, and breathed 
many prayers for the strength of Heaven to sustain 
and help him in the good resolutions formed -. 
I said nothing about it to our folks, for I know a 
scornful laugh & perhaps words of ridicule which I could 
not bear, for our friendship has been too dear and sacred - 
More precious to me than other, just as I wished and far 
more happiness than I imagined could be, though I 
craved it -. I went to city with S & wife, to hunt a girl 
succeeded at last -. Found Lizzie Child & Eddie 
here to spend a few days -. Letter from Oldden -. 

      71. 


          1862. 

15th  I was helping Sallie awhile then home sewing 
on a wrapper for hospital _ . S. & J. Graham spent eve here 

16th  I was helping Sam making pins for his wheels _. He went to 
Aunt Esthers to tea. I had a sweet note from mon ami - 
am so glad the books suit him; wish he was not sick - 

17th  I had a good deal of pain during the night, but 
rose at [half] past 5 and wrote to my dear friend _. Did not 
go to meeting wrote to Lizzie Crozier. After dinner J. came up 
and we had a long talk about his business. I am so 
anxious to know the result, his poor health worries me for he 
looks as if he was sinking to the grave. He left at 4 oclock - 
Amos Hillborn, Sam & Sallie here _. I have read a good deal 
in Columbus but Buckers sermon take my  time, so good _. 

18th  The usual 2nd days work to do, & I found a little time to sew 
on a wrapper _. Many thoughts concerning my friends _. 

19th  I took a paper to Office & learned with regret, that he was not 
elected at Chester, any how it was not his fault & he is not to 
blame, yet I feel very sorry indeed. Was at a Trumans - 
Our folks went to Sharon to tea. I was helping Sam make pins - 
Saw the comet for the first time looked very faint. 

20th  Mart Jones and I took a long walk up the creek I 
enjoyed it so much, would like to go often _. Our 
folks took tea at [Cousin] E. Ben & Ed Wright out _. 
A long letter from my own dear Sadie - Yesterday Anna. 

     72. 

21st  Drove with Sallie over to the Bell -, did not go to [Meeting], 
I should only I really feel, I must find all the time 
possible to devote to the Hospitals- I am continually thinking 
of them, went at 3 to sew brought home a shirt & two 
wrappers to finish, my heart & life are in it now, and I 
will work hard - my country needs our endeavors & devotion -. 
I removed the plaster which has been on my breast for weeks 
but fear it will have to resumed, such slow continual pain 
there and much weakness -. o! for perfect health even 
though life  be short -. I want to use it well while it lasts - 

22nd  Was in the Library before 6 working for Sam at it nearly 
all morning -. They went to the Home -. 

23rd  S. etc. when to the city. I was sewing in wrappers & shirts -. 
Two here from Sharon all night as they are moving - 

24th  Parents went to Chester and I anticipated a long day 
but did not have it. M. R. & M. J here afterwards L & S 
Childs and Ben -. so I did not get much done, one 
things worries me constantly J's poor health -. I wrote to Sadie. 

25th  Helping Sam nearly all morning - They went to [Cousin] E's - 

26th  Monthly [Meeting] -. Isaac Hibbard gave me 10 [dollars] for our 
society, I do not get much time to write but 
thoughts are busy -. it was warm and pleasant. I 
sat on the porch alone a long while - hoping 
and praying for our nations good. 

     73. 

27th  J. sent me a note saying he would go to Mr 
Allisters. I went up with Jones & we had a real 
nice visit, Bartrams there - J. brought me back, just 
one year ago since we went to Harrison -. Every 
thing that occurred then is a sweet remembrance to me. 
We had invited company to tea, Powells Buntings etc. etc. -. 

28th  Very busy helping Sam till past 3. then down to 
the Sewing Society. I go to bed late to-night very tired 
yet feeling that not one moment has been wasted. 
Would it could always be so. I would work long 
and faithfully, if life would end when I was unable 
to do, I pray that I may never be a burden, & 
fear I need much more Christian patience, than I 
have. Not to be able to bear bodily suffering, but 
to keep a calm and quiet peace of soul -. Strengthen 
me O Father to bear all that Thou mayst see 
fit to give - whether they be great trials or constant 
little annoyances which must be borne in Silence - 
My wish on seeing the new moon came involuntary 
for their happiness -. I so much want others blessed -. 
It is easy to give my own frail self into the hands of 
my Father, but I find it more difficult to trust 
to His loving care my beloved ones, - I know he 
will always give strength & support to those who believe. 

     74. 

29th  Helping Sam nearly all day, Nellie Lillie & Lister M here 
awhile Lyd went to the city to stay a few days - 

30th  I called at E. Levis's and found Anna had arrived, quite a pleasant 
chat with her, home early, but there came sad news of a terrible 
battle & I could not sleep after going to my room. my mind 
wandered to the sorrow & suffering, & I longed to be able to
do more - Then too I well remembered this night eight years 
ago, a night which even all this long time did not efface one 
look or word - It is past now & I am ever willing to trust 
in my Father for the good that my soul needs, even 
though it come in dark pathways & with thorns - It is better 
to fight for duty & be crowned with them & leaves that know no 
touch of death, Though they scar the patient trees beneath." 
I have done what I could for others to day, & am happier for it - 

31st  Had a pretty good [meeting] soon after Guy, wife & child 
came - J & A.E.W. up also, we had a pleasant afternoon 
& quiet but short eve - I wish I could hear him talk oftener 
about the War. I know it does me good, his principles are 
so fair and I feel they are right; for they are those of a 
christian, manifesting and wishing no revenge. I cannot be 
sure always that our defending our Government with arms 
is wrong, for it seems to be the only way in which we 
maintain the principles that are dearer than life, 
liberty and freedom to all - 

     75. 


          1862. 

September First.  One year ago I received a sweet little 
note written on a leaf of Tennyson, what changes since then, to 
us and in our own loved country, even now I am waiting till 
near midnight to see if there is any more news from the seat 
of War, yet I dread to know of the terrible loss that may be 
on our side and the awful suffering there must be -. 
Josiah [?] moved down to day, Aunt J. is here & Charley 
& Hall have gone to the city. Another terrible battle -. 

2nd  A heavy rain last night which did so much good 
Cousin M & M here all night. I busy with Samuel - 

3rd  This day last year we spent at Sadies till 5 P.M. when 
we took our seats on the Steamship, and sat watching 
the waves, beneath which were reflected the bright stars, till 
near midnight. O, I can never forget our night at sea; 
how sweet and perfect it was, there can never be another 
like it, never be another year which can be so wholly 
blessed with such a pure true friendship - Heaven has 
blessed one year of my life; and nothing can obliterate 
the remembrance, my heart will ever be truly thankful, 
and no coming years can make me forget, or cease 
to be grateful for the interest and affection which added 
so much to my happiness - If death should part 
or fate separate us now, the holy memories will 
every cling to my soul, to purify and bless it -. 

      76. 

4th  We saw the sun rise together on the ocean twelve months 
ago, we thought much of each other then, but one year 
of intimate acquaintance has increased the affection, 
deep down in the heart his the unselfish love, which 
has made our lives better and our souls more fit 
for the eternal dwelling place - Such a mind as his 
sheds its best & purest light upon those who have 
a place in the hearts affection, they feel its purity -. 
     Too much engaged to attend [meeting] - Our folks gone 
to Sharon - work all evening did not get to bed till 11. 

5th  Parents went away, I was in the "shop" at work all day 
in the afternoon Lide came, Uncle Paxson all night with us - 

6th  It was late last eve, Samuel is so much hurried with 
the work we are busy all the time -. I had a sweet 
letter and two of the most beautiful sonnets I ever 
read, they touched way down into my heart of hearts 
and there met with a response from the best and 
purest portion of my highest nature; how oh! how 
can I be sufficiently thankful for such blessings 
which will live with me always guiding and helping 
me onward to that "Better life" which I so long 
for, Heaven help me to attain it, by clearing 
my soul of all imperfections and obeying the 
truths which will be shown me if faithful to God. 

     77. 

7th  It has not seemed like the Sabbath, for S & I 
have been at the machinery much of the day -. 
G. Ridgway & Isaac J. here to dine -. I did not get 
to bed till very late as I was writing to Oldden & ami -. 

8th  No time to write much, I get very tired being so 
continually at work, but am anxious to do all I can 
for S. I would do all the time, oh! I would work 
unceasingly for good and to assist others, if my strength 
and health could permit. A year since I commenced 
my school in the city, after two months vacation - 
I look back upon the past 12 months as well employed, 
where I tried so hard to do right, and endeavored 
to waste no idle time -. Ever since I closed I 
have been busy, not for myself, but those in need - 

9th  Samuel moved much of the machinery to the city to-day & I 
have not been so hard at work, though sewing on army clothes - 
Last night there was a dreadful accident on the Baltimore 
Railroad, several soldiers killed & 19 brought to the Summit 
House, two of whom died - O! it is terrible so much 
suffering & this by the carelessness of one man. I can 
scarcely go to sleep thinking of their anguish -. 
Carrie Budd went with the Doctor and worked faithfully 
and nobly, one young man at the Summit house 
died with her at his side to deliver his last message -. 

     78. 

10th  Samuel being away I had not to work for him so 
went over to the Hospital and worked till eight in the 
eve scarcely sitting down during all that time. I was 
willing to do anything, and found much to be done, we 
prepared dinner etc. as they have not yet got a regular 
cook when they do the ladies can keep out of the rough 
work, Some children came from the city, bringing a handsome 
donation of useful things & enough ice cream for all the 
men, which was a treat & very much enjoyed - One 
poor fellow that was almost scalded to death is slowly 
improving, his brother was very faithful to him, they 
were going to Baltimore & the most injured one had only 
been married three days - O! my heart ached 
as I beheld so many suffering from the carelessness 
of the engineer - I have no time to write much. 
I must sew and work the impressions are left upon 
my mind and they make me feel more willing to devote 
my whole life to the good of our cause & our country - 

11th  I awoke with pain in chest & a very tired feeling, but gained 
strength, was in the Shop doing for S. feeling not time enough 
to attend [meeting]. I cannot go during the week, often when 
so many are in sorrow -. At the Society in the PM & over to the 
Bell at Mr Neills lecture for the Summit Hospital in the eve - 
J. A & I walked home as no car came along then -. 

     79. 

12th  A very heavy rain indeed, washed the streets very 
much, and did much damage, we will bear any thing 
if it will raise the Potomac & help our army secure 
the Rebels, they have invaded Maryland & some entered 
the free side of Pennsylvania - We must proclaim Emancipation 
or we will be lost -. Heaven help us & support us in our trials 
and sufferings in the cause of Liberty -. Anna staid with 
me last night, she is lonely at Mrs L. there is so little 
congeniality - I pity her & will do what I can to add to her happiness -. 
I had a letter from Lizzie Crozier, and wish I 
could leave home to visit her -. My friend Oldden is in a 
hospitial at R. I. & I knew a letter would cheer him so wrote 
after I came up stairs and did not get to bed till near 12. 

13th  Anna called for me to go to Office. Last night a meeting 
was called to form a company to defend the state and many of our 
men joined, 61 in all and J. among them - A & I went over to the 
Summit House and did what we could to comfort the suffering. 
I read to & fanned the young man so terribly scalded, poor fellow 
he is almost unable to move, how my heart ached for his 
young wife, only a bride a few days ago -. Some of the patients 
are improving nicely, others so long in regaining strength it 
seems as if their systems were entirely broken down, one 
young lad, whom I felt I could carry away in my 
arms, to a quiet home where he could get well -. 

     80. 

14th  About 9. 60 men were in the field opposite for drilling 
to defend our state at the Rebels are very near us -. 
Many from around here, among others my friend J -.
I sat and watched them a long while with an aching 
sickening heart, some mere boys, I how can such 
endure the exposures & trials of Camp life -. I did 
not go to [Meeting] but walked over to the Hospital & back 
([two quarter] miles) to take a poor man some boiled ham, he had 
craved it -. Our folks went to Heacocks, H Booker & boys 
out - John was up to tea, had to drill 2 hours - Humphrey 
here & Mr Rhoads & Will B in the P.M. - Ben & Ike have 
gone - 46 out of the borough & only 120 voters -. 

15th  A letter from Oldden he is at Rhode [Island] Senator S. has gone 
to see if the company is needed & we wait anxiously to 
know -. The society met on business - Our folks away -. 

16th  The company formed for the emergency left for Harrisburg 
this morn -. He has gone, gone, the precious friend who 
has been so dear to me, who has loved me more tenderly 
than any one else, He came to bid us good bye, and it 
was apparently a cheerful parting, but I felt sick at heart -. 
not because of my loneliness, for I could bravely bear any 
separation that would be for his happiness or good -. 
But I cannot conceal from myself the truth, that 
he will have hardships & trials, that his constitution 

     81.  

will suffer for -, dear precious boy, at times I feel so 
much older & physically strong, that he seems like a 
much younger and pet brother to me. Others may have 
to endure hardships but they are not of such fine 
frail organizations; his will & mind will keep him 
up - & I fear he is too confidant of its strength - - 
     It is cool & damp to night, & I how can I go to sleep 
while most likely, my cherished friend is on the Camp 
ground, he needs tender gentle care, but brave friend that 
he is, will murmur not at suffering - Calmly and 
quietly he will bear all -. O. I hope they may not be 
needed long - I pray for their safe return -.
     I went with Anna to the Presbyterian Church to a Fruit 
Restival - Mr Evans waited on us home - It was 
pleasant but my thoughts went to those gone to 
defend our state & who may soon be in battle - 

17th  I awoke several times last night & went to the 
window to see if it was raining -. I was busy with 
the wheels all day & extremely tired at night -: 
letter from Anna Willets. - Our folks at hospital. 

18th  To day Epp Ridgway becomes a husband, I wish them 
much happiness -. I went to the city with Samuel 
worked all day, standing, & was almost worn out, 
could scarcely sit up during eve -. Pain in the breast -.


     82. 

19th  Went to city to work, finished by 5 did some 
shopping & home by [half] past 7 found G. Hancock & 
wife Al, & Mary B, we had a short yet pleasantant 
visit from them -. Another terrible battle raging 
and it is reported 10000 of our men lost: it is 
too terrible to think of, so many lives lost -.

20th  Anna came round to see me, poor child she feels 
lonely, there is not much conginiality there for her -. 
I have been hoping for the best, to-day heard mon ami 
was not well, suffers so much with head ache. My 
heart aches all the time, this cross will be heavy for 
me to bear, for my dear boy, is always thought of - 
If his home had been pleasant & congenial, if his 
nature had not or much needed my love, 
the Great Giver who has given him to me for a true friend 
would never have awakened so strong, deep & watchful 
love as fills my heart; not for my benefit, not for 
my earthly recompense, only as a child of God whom 
I may care for and endeavor to make worthy the 
Kingdom of Heaven -. During all our intimate 
companionship I have never forgotten in word or deed that 
One Eye knew and saw every thought and motive -. 
We were at the Hospital awhile, Anna took tea with me 
and remained all night - a long talk -. 

     83. 

21st  I was awake much, & early I remembered it was 
the first Sabbath for my pet friend in Camp - If his 
health were strong & good I should be less uneasy -.
My meeting this morn, was not so good as usual, yet for 
a little while I was in a state of mind where I deeply felt 
humbleness of Spirit and gratitude for our many blessings. 
     Parents at S's to dine, George came up & told us Oldden 
had come home, it was a great surprise to all, he had 
been ordered back to Washington, & stopped on his way -. 
We went down, and my heart sent up its silent thankfullness 
that we saw him uninjured -. he is thin & 
extremely week, suffers much with his back. 

22nd  I have had much pain in my breast all day & had 
to resort to a plaster, working for Samuel so constantly 
is one cause, but he would disappoint & trouble him to 
have my help withdrawn now - so I will be quiet and 
work on hoping soon to be quite well - I called at Anna's. 

23rd  I went with Samuel at 7 and was helping him in the 
city all day, found Oldden here on my return. It 
seems so natural to have him home again, only wish 
it could be always, he has tried to get to Summit 
Hospital could not - I dread to have him go back - 
nearly all his Company were lost in the last battle. 
     I bought me a new lawn dress & Howards blocks - 

     84. 

24th  Yesterday the [President] issued a proclamation declaring 
that all slaves of Rebels are free after the 1st 
of January 1863 -. It seems a long way off but perhaps 
it will be best -. I have a great weight bearing 
me down that I hoped would be relieved this week - 
for I have the warmest interest in our loved country. 
     Lide & I walked to Sharon, [?] call -. She spent 
the afternoon at the Hospital. I have a severe cold. 
How can I go to sleep with the cold wind blowing, and some 
of my dear friends out on the camp ground, They have been 
expecting the company, but day after day passes & then do 
not come, they have had hardships. one day and night 
drawn up in line of battle without any thing to eat -. 

25th  Was at the Society sewing this P.M. Father is reading 
us Life among the Pines a very interesting book showing 
the true characters of the South Carolinans - by Edmund Kirke. 

26th  The Darby company arrived last night, John looks some 
what Sun burnt, and seems pretty well. Maryetta came up 
for me to go down as Oldden was not well enough to 
come, I did and had a very nice good old fashioned 
visit, just after tea Eph came, and it was a joyful meeting 
between the two brothers after 16 months parting. E & wife 
had gone to [Rhode Island] for him, but he had gone, then they paid 
their intended visit to Long Island. 

     85. 

27th  A lovely morning, Oldden brought me up home, then 
I went with Anna to the Hospital where we sewed etc. many 
of the patients have recovered, but they expect more daily -. 

28th  It was very rainy & having a bad cold did not go to [Meeting] - 
wrote to Lizzie Crozer -. & copied a piece for Mrs Atkins -. 
My feelings turned strongly towards Maggie F, and I wrote 
her a long letter, sent her some pieces I know she would value -. 
Ben came out and Hall Price with us all night. 

29th  Lyd went home with Hall, lovely warm day. In the 
afternoon we helped decorate the room where a table was set for 70. 
At 7 the roll was call & Mr Neal made an appropriate speech 
and presented the company that went from Darby with a very 
handsome silk flag we had made, it was given from Prestons 
porch and their rooms were filled with ladies, J. Byerly applied, 
then they partook of the sumptuous supper, afterwards 
all the ladies were invited in and did the same -. John and 
Oldden came up with us -. The supper was given at Lewis's

30th  Lide and I were begging, got vegetables & took to the Summit [Hospital]. 
Many of the patients have gone, but one poor fellow 
was dying, he had almost recovered from Typhoid fever, was 
taken with fits, and now is almost gone, oh! how I felt 
for his wife and children, so far away from home 
ad all that was dear to him - no loved one near him -. 
I wrote a long letter to Anna told her my life was not all sunshine. 

      86.  

October 1st 1862.  Cloudy and rainy all day, I had a sweet 
precious letter of 8 pages, and I am so much happier for it -. 
I saw Anna awhile -. Dr Jones called I paid him 3 [dollars] for medicine -. 

2nd  Mary Bonsall and I went over to the Hospital, found they 
expected the Surgeon from Washington & Inspecter and only 
wanted two ladies had asked Mrs Buist & Smith, we did not 
stay long though had quite a talk with some Rebels, 17 
had come with 106 the day before -. When I saw their sufferings 
all revenge passed away and pity was in my heart, 
especially for one mere youth who might have made a 
noble man, but for wrong education and blind prejudice - 
Mary B. felt insulted because we were asked to leave, and 
there was a warm discussion at the afternoon sewing 
society. I was sorry to make myself conspicuous but felt 
I must stick to the right, as I knew there was a misunderstanding. 
The Dr thought we had received the word, 
and I think we should not let pride and jealously interfere 
with our care & attention of the sick and suffering, it 
evinces very little true, unselfish christian feeling -. 

3rd  Aunt R. came home with our folks, then they went to Aunt Esther's 
Anna & I called on Mrs Hallowell, & then spent the eve 
with Dr Mills -. J. was there & we walked home in the 
beautiful moonlight - - Again I laid 
away pride that I might give happiness - note to F! 

     87. 

4th  Oldden came up to spend the day, and many callers here. 
Mary Chisten all night -.a lovely eve after shower -. 

5th  At [Meeting] Aunt R. here to dine, lovely pleasant day and eve -. 

6th  Mother out soliciting for Contrabands, we spent eve with Anna 
at Jones's. real nice time, and oh! such sweet music - 

7th  Lovely warm day. busy and callers - took some grapes to mon - 

8th  of October 1862. Our little Howard is two years old to-day -. 
Aunt E & J, Uncle P. & wife R & Lyd all here to tea, I [?] myself 
and attended Gottchalks Concert with J. and A.E.W. We had 
a lovely ride in so beautiful and moonlight -. I thought I had 
heard good music before, but my ears never listened my 
heart never thrilled to such delightful sounds as came 
from the Piano when Gottchalk touched it seemed as 
though as some invisible power was bringing out and sending 
forth the sweetest and most perfect harmony -. 
When listening to him, I seemed not of earth - so glorious 
and so what we imagine heaven to be - 
I shall long remember this, for I was so happy -. 
O, I wish they could be as perfectly so -. 

9th  A lovely morn I walked to Summit House and back - 
at 11 Parents, Uncle & wife went to Crosswicks with 
our horse and theirs -. I was at Society which is 
not so large as it was - I wrote to Sadie - 

     88. 

10th  Rainy nearly all day - I got [Elise Venner], and we 
commenced reading it - quite interesting

11th  Heavy rain, M. Jackson sent me word she could not 
go to Hospital so I went and was the only lady 
till late in the P.M. tried to do my duty M - 
Hazelhurst was there left with me at 

12th  I went to ask S. Bunting to let me stay with her 
mother while she went to meeting, but she had 
made arrangements - I did not go to [Meeting] Amos 
& Lide came round for me to go to Samuels, I 
did and we had a nice time - I came back early 
and finished the second volume of Columbus - George 
R was here to tea -. Amos in the eve awhile - 

13th  We finished [Elise Venner] and it certainly must be a 
fancy of some brain, thought facts are seen in it, there 
are a few beautiful passages, speaking to the higher 
and purer qualities of human minds -. Elsie was 
a wild glorious beauty attracting all, but I loved the 
quiet worthy Helen Darby, and greatly admired 
the calm uncomplaining strong sublimely strong 
character of Dudley Venner  -. They came 
home from Crosswicks & we had company in eve - 
The sun has been hid for days as if it would not 
shine upon us while we allowed Rebels on our soil - 

     89. 

14th  Uncle P's started home, Ben & a friend of his out  -. 
Tried to clear off. Election day and our hopes were increased 
by finding the [Republican] candidate elected  -. Oldden was 
here to tea, came down from Westchester; & voted  -.
Mother serving for contrabands, packed three barrels  -. 

15th  Father took Sallie Lide & self to city. before we started 
Mother called us four in to her room & gave us each a 
20 [dollar] note a handsome gift, dear precious mother she is. 
We were shopping all day I bought a Broche Shaw  -. 
Uncle Hall here to tea, and J. called awhile in eve. 
my same dear friend, for whom I never cease to pray  -. 

16th  I was very busy till 10 then went to the Hosptial 
The poor young boy I was so interested in was dying, his 
mother sister & brother were with him: only 2 weeks 
from home when he was shot in the arm, it was amputated, 
but he lay for several days on the field - 18 years old. 
Before he had finished giving out dinner a telegram 
came for Ellen Serril, her mother died at her home Pittsburg. 
She left and I was very busy at supper time, so 
many unable to go to the table - & no one to help me  -. 

17th  I worked in Library last night till 11  -. busy all 
morn, not much time to write  -. though I want 
to send a note to Anna to prove I have not forgotten her - 
I it is almost 12 and I must go to bed 

     90. 

1862.  

18th  All day busy, Oldden here awhile, I was cleaning & 
found little time to fill wheels till night. I sat alone 
in the Library a long while after others were in bed  -. 

19th  I took two rice-puddings (S&L made) for the Hospital as 
we are going to have enough for all the soldiers. 
Went to [Meeting] a sweet prayer from [Mother] S.L. & H. Childs 
out  -. I read some in the 3rd volume of Columbus. 

20th  John came up, & brought me a long sweet precious 
letter from Anna, it did me so much good. I replied 
to part of it before retiring  -. Her mother sends me 
kind loving messages for my care over her child  -. 

21st  I went to the city with L and worked hard all day 
21000 [dollars] worth of stamps passed through my hands 
I was extremely tired when I got home, found D Foulke - 

22nd  Our folks went to city. I was miserable all day, not 
out of house yet, sewed steadily on my bonnet til 10.30

23rd  We took dinner at [Cousin] E. with Eph & bride, real nice 
time, home in time to sew at society, then to 
help Sallie get tea as Christians were out; wrote to 
Lizzie after I came up stairs to bed - 

24th  Took a letter to office, did not see my friend as he was 
off early to his new business in the city, I feel very glad 
that he has obtained this situation; his superior mind 
was so unfilled for a small county store  -. I called 

     21. 

for Anna after tea & we went to beg some pies for 
the hospital, met, in the street, they walked with me 
to Samuels then I went in, Lyd & I called at Rebeccas Ð 

25th  Parents went to Westchester; we were very busy all day. 
I did some work for S. and did not get to sewing till 9 P.M. 

26th  Went round to collect pies for Hosptial, it came on rain & 
I did not go to [Meeting] -. J. here in the afternoon, also Samuel -. 

27th  It rained very hard Father went to the Island Road & brought 
some friends home to dine I was busy till very late. sent up 

28th  A cool but beautiful clear morning, we had a good deal 
of company in the morn then went to meeting and had a 
most excellent sermon from Lucretia Mott, oh, what a feast 
it was not only to listen to her eloquence, but to have 
the soul cheered and comforted by her Christian gospel 
and the influence of the precepts of the beloved Jesus -; 
her sermon was listened to with deep interest, and I felt 
the holiest purest nature within me awaken and 
rekindle with higher aspirations. O, her doctrine is not 
dark and gloomy, she holds forth the pure light of Christianity 
and by it we may be guided to the eternal home -. 
There were other speakers, but hers was so full of goodness. 
They dined here, about 40 in all, and the afternoon 
Passed pleasantly by. J. called to leave a note from 
Samuel saying he was not coming out  -. Oldden was 

     92. 

here, Uncle O & wife & Jennie. 10 staid all night  -. I have 
enjoyed it much at times, but occassionally there would 
come into my heart such a crushing weight of agony, 
I fear it may be pride, and offer up many an unspoken 
prayer that I might be strengthened only to desire the 
right, and not have an unkind thought, So long as 
My loved ones are not unhappy I shall be blessed, and 
grateful to God  -. Oh! Very grateful, I have asked it of 
Him so long I will not let anything make me recall 
or cease to wish for the answering of that prayer  -. 

29th  All got off  -. & we cleared up I had a letter from Sadie 
and Robert S. & his sisters wedding cards. I went round after 
Sallie intending to spend the eve with Anna, but Ben came and I 
was there only a few minutes, gave her some grapes, I always 
feel like denying myself and saving such things for others  -. 

30th  Ben took S. to city, Ellen B could not go the Hospital 
so Lide went with me  -. Poor Thomas Bowans who had 
lain for 7 weeks suffering from a broken leg received when 
the collision on the railroad occurred, is very low the 
doctor amputated it above the knee, we saw how the 
bone was broken and fishered, it was the only chance of saving 
his life  -. Took ether and did not feel it at the time, 
we all hope he will recover  -. Busy all day Ð Mrs Patchen 
came home & staid all night, she came from Ithaca [New York] 

     93. 

to see a sick brother in the Summit House, she lost one 
at Shiloh, & these two are all that is left -. She is a 
very well educated and intelligent young woman Ð .
 I go to bed feeling much happier to-night-so 
different from last, yet, why this change, I half fancy 
it is because I have worked all day for others, & yet 
this would not bring all -, Bitterness has gone out of my 
heart and my prayers are being answered, that I might 
be enabled to have no thoughts but those of goodness 
& by the remembrance of my Fathers blessings to others 
to those I love Ð find my own comfort and sweet peace -. 

31st  Lide & I were out begging for the soldiers then took them 
to the Hospital, collected potatoes, onions, apples, & cabbage Ð 
I spent the eve with Anna, came home early, it is 
Very beautiful and moonlight -. I had a dear 
Little note from mon cher ami to-day, proving that 
I was not forgotten -. Strange and mysterious are 
The influences which silently change the heart from 
Pain to joy -. Every such instance shows more fully 
     How Gods hand
Guides all our steps, as well by paths of pain, 
As over, the high ways, unto the land 
Of our souls peace -. 

     94.  

November 1st 1862 - . A gloriously beautiful moon, the 
foliage radiant with its various hues and the 
warm air laden with Sunshine Ð It is too lovely to sit 
down and sew, I want to be out doors and enjoy this 
delightful day -. Uncle Hall called awhile then went to 
Uncle W.'s I walked up with him, it was so lovely, on my way 
back I wandered into the woods gathering leaves and flowers, 
I was so happy amid the grand old trees, so charmed by 
the magnificance of our Fathers handiwork, seen as it was 
in every leaf and shrub, so beautifully painted, so gaily 
colored; there was true worship in my heart then, for I 
felt so near to God -. In a few short weeks these same trees 
will be desolate, to the outward eye, but their beauty and 
grandeur as it is now can not fade from memory -. 
The huntsman gun sounded frequently in my ears, and I 
pitied the innocent creature whose life was thus lost, 
I was away from human habitations, among His creatures 
and felt no fear or loneliness, the fast sinking sun warned me 
of the approach of night and I reluctantly wandered 
towards home laden with my gatherings -. I found 
Marietta had come up for me to go down & stay with them 
but I could not having many things to do. J. & T. Paxson 
here and J and Anna -.  quite a pleasant eve - 
beautiful and moonlight - 


     95. 

2nd  Another beautiful day, attended [Meeting], saw George Jones & sister - 
In the P.M. J. Anna & I took a delightful pleasant walk 
in W. Buntings woods, we were away from the worlds gaze 
and enjoyed so much the sublime beauty of the foliage, 
and as we came home the most magnificant sunset 
I ever saw, it was beyond all human description -. 
I wrote to Sadie and Aunt Jane, after I came home - 

3rd  Very busy. Marietta here all day and night - 

4th  Lovely warm day. Oldden here awhile this P.M. -. 

5th Went down to Cousin E. had a real nice walk down to 
the creek, with O & M. [?] & I called at Bairds with M D. 

6th  I was over at the Hospital all day, we can find 
much to do there now, clothes to mend, bandiges to 
make etc. besides giving out suitable donations for the sick - 
We had much company to tea, Watsons, Bonsals, etc. & Samuel Child & 
Adam Antony, Sallie & Sam, also. E. Seville was with me at the Summit House. 

7th  I expected to have gone to Lizzie Hancocks to stay all night 
but it commenced snowing and kept on all day, the 
first of the season, real cold and very windy, so we remained 
in the house all day, busy sewing. 

8th  Every thing is covered with snow and it seems as if winter 
had come so suddenly upon us, we are unprepared - I baked 
some pies to go to the Hospital, went to Office, saw Anna a minute
and so was satisfied that she was safe home from Institute 

     96. 

9th  It snowed all morn, & no one went to [Meeting] but Father. 
I suffered a good deal with my feet being the first 
time I have felt the frost; I cannot help being in 
dread when I know the coming winter will bring me 
so much pain and suffering for it is not only the 
itching but a severe constant sore pain, that takes 
away much of my comfort, & makes me miserable. 
All my health is afflicted, the heat goes to my feet 
leaving my hands deathly cold & my body chilly. 

10th  Father and mother went to attend the funeral of Warner 
Justice, did not get home till late. Sam up awhile 

11th  Kate Shaw was here making me a Garibaldi & Ma's dress.

12th  I went to [Philadelphia] at 7 did some shopping dined at Drs & 
then went over to W.P. & took tea with George and Lizzie 
had a sweet visit I so love to visit them. George 
came to Market [Street] & I on home it rained quite hard 
found long letters from Sadie and Maggie Foulke. 

13th  Mother & I went over to the Hospital 110 more came, and 
my heart sickened at the sad sight, Lide met us 
there and came home. I intend going to Chester [County] 
but feel as if it is almost wrong when I can to much 
here, yet for nearly 18 months have been at home Lide & 
Lyd can take my place. I started to S for Lyd, met Anna 
& she went home and spent eve with me found J. there. 

     97. 

14th  Father & Mother took me to [Cousin] E. had a real nice 
visit there. I staid all night. Letter from Anna W. 

15th  After dinner Eph and I left, had a very pleasant 
ride up took tea at Painters then he & Han came over 
to Uncle Paxsons with me, found aunt with a bad cold - 

16th  did not go to [Meeting]. Phil, Dr & Oldden here to dine, a very 
pleasant visit I wish the two soldiers need not return. 

17th  Dull & rainy all day, but Jennie Aunt & I have nice talks. 
Charley T. here in the eve -. Uncle B & wife all night. 

18th  Endeavoring to clear off yet still very dull -. 
we can be cheerful inside or would have the blues -. I had a 
sweet letter from my two dear friends which made me very 
happy, and reassured me of the continued love for "ma enfant" 
I answered the petition to "write very soon" & will send it by Hall 
when he goes to market to morrow mor at 3 oclock-. 

19th  Still dull & rainy, Hall Jennie & I took tea at Painters 
and had a real nice visit, Han & Mary & so sociable -. 

20th  No signs of clear weather but rain again - I wrote to Anna - 
We try to keep our spirits up, but would be much better 
by seeing sunshine, I so long for it, my spirits will be depressed, 
though we try to be cheerful, and let the memory 
of bright clear days make us so [?] -.

21st  Rain during the night, and nearly all day, still 
no glimpse of sunshine, not more than an hour or two of 

     98. 

it since I came up on 7th day, and this is sixth, we 
have not been to Westchester & I guess will not get there. 
We enjoy talks with Aunt Jane & have fine feast of apples - 

22nd  We went to Westchester and spend a pleasant day, on our 
return I found a long letter from mon ami. so much like 
the old ones, full of pure thoughts and sweet language - 
I am so very grateful to be thus remembered -; John J. 
was here to tea & requested me to remain with him a 
little while before retiring, he told me his troubles and I 
gave the best advice I could. [?] Maryetta told any 
one but, me -. He was much hurt, & I pitied him so much. 

23rd  I was awake much last night thinking about what 
J. had told me and other things equally interesting -. 
John & Jennie left us after dinner, Will Painter called 
awhile -. It is so pleasant to see sunshine after a 
week of rain. I feel its good influence, & am better for it. 

24th  Uncle Paxson took me over to Painters and after a nice call Eph 
and I started off, had a real nice ride down, as it was quite warm. 
found Cousin M. knitting by the stove. I remained there all night. 

25th  Cousin Mary and I had a very long talk about E. J. etc. She told 
me many things: after dinner Maryetta brought me home, found 
quite a company sewing for the contrabands. Phil and Allie 
were here to tea and we had a real sociable visit. Poor Phil leaves 
for the South 5th day -. Jennie Satterthwaite came to day. 

     99. 

26th  I was busy at home to-day, Lyd went to the city with Lyd [?]. 
Oldden was here and staid all night, I had a little talk with him 
about SE & P[?]. J. was up and spent eve, kind friend to come so 
soon after my return I am truly thankful for all such things. 

27th  Today is the one appointed for Thanksgiving - and from 
my hearts depths goes up an earnest prayer that it may 
prove one to thousands, and ere another one comes, there may 
be a more sincere reason for the grateful thanks of millions 
that are not suffering in anguish and misery - Oldden took 
Maryetta & Lide over to the Summit House also turkey, chickens 
apple sauce, cold slaw, beets etc. etc. -. He came back for me, 
and we were very busy giving the men a good dinner. there 
are about 430 there and we had a good supply of everything. 
42 chickens & 5 turkeys left -. In the P.M. Reb J. Neel made 
a good speech & presented a very handsome flag which had 
been made at Mrs Biddle; afterwards Judge Kelly spoke 
very well indeed, Things passed off well, but I could 
not be joyous, knowing that we were surrounded by sick & wounded 
men & then to my own heart ached for I knew that Oldden 
intends returning in a few days. I tried be cheerful, but the 
remembrance of all this kept a dull head pain, pressing upon 
all gayety, in fact it was not the place to be gay, and I 
thought we needed the solemnity when we knew this very 
morning one poor fellow had breathed his last -. Consumption 

     100. 


          1862. 

was the destroyer, contracted on the unhealthy soil of Virginia 
every such one is another victim in this terrible war, when 
will it cease, and our anguish be soothed by the Peace 
which will save thousands of useful lives -. Aunt 
Jane came down, to make us a visit, dear creature !!!

28th  Father & Mother went to the Home, Jennie & Lide to Summit House, Lyd 
to Sallies, so Aunt J. and I had a long talk and on a funny 
subject, they all came home to dinner. after, Lide Jennie & I went 
to Sewing society, I saw Anna at home a few minutes, contraband 
society met here over 20 and we got along pretty well -. 

29th  I have carried a very heavy heart all day, it seems as if 
some danger is hanging over me, or some of my dear ones. 
I will try and bear up under any thing, knowing that 
God still rules over this stricken land, and will heal and 
strength those who have faith in Him -. We have had 
a house full all day 6 all night & 7 to dine. Lydia P. etc. 

30th  Attended meeting and heard Samuel Myers, from Ohio preach -. 
dined at Samuels, Parents etc. went to Cousin E. -. John 
Jackson was here. Newton's etc. -. J. spent the afternoon 
here -. Chalk & Mart in the eve -. I so longed for a 
quiet time to write, and did to Oldden & Sadie when 
it was quite late -. I can scarcely believe he is 
going away so soon -. May Heaven watch 
over and protect him is my most sincere desire -. 

     101. 

December 1st 1862.  A dull rainy day but I took 
7 letters and three papers to the Office. Congress 
meets to day, & we hope it may be the beginning 
of a great good, that may yet come to this country. 
Oldden took tea with us, and it was a sad one to all, feeling 
it was the last one for some time, several times I was almost 
overcome, but managed not to show it, though several times 
left the room, till I recovered my calmness. I dread his 
going back now, because he is so miserable -. Eph & George 
went with him to the city - soon after I went to Sharon, 
and there all through the long night I watched by 
the bedside of a suffering child -.  Bell Porter, nearly 
one week ago, went to sleep with the candle on her bed, 
the clothing took fire, and she was dreadfully burned 
over her back, breast arms & hands -. The fright was so 
terrible that her brain found no rest, and during the 
whole night she did not sleep five minutes at once, 
very delirious, most of the time and talked incessantly, 
so frightened and continually calling up me to drive 
away some vision of her brain. the next moment conscious 
of her flightiness would tell me, she did not know 
why she talked so queer I must excuse her. Poor 
dear child, I had much sympathy with her, and 
strove to soothe & calmn, she was very restless and 

     102. 

I was waiting on her continually, scarcely sitting 
down the whole time. The nurse in the next room 
came twice to help dress, her wounds, other times I 
did it alone. Bell would raise up in bed with a 
fearful cry of danger, & I had to keep cool to 
restore her to quiet -. I was not afraid, the bright 
moonlight kept me company, & when my hands 
were busy often my thoughts wandered to my 
friend going back to suffering and misery. I 
heard the shrill whistle of the engine as it tore 
him away, and many were the prayers for 
his safety and desires for his eternal good. 
Slowly the morn waned and grey streaks of a 
coming day bordered the horizon, but it was a 
long while ere the household were up, & the sun appeared. 

2nd  Drs Budd & Longstreth came dressed her hands, her 
brain is so unsettled & her whole nervous system so 
shattered it needs extremely careful treatment - Lydia 
Price and I went home. Mother & Aunt Jane went 
to the city to attend the meeting in regard to getting 
up a school for Friends children - . I was busy all 
day, too much so to sleep any -. saw Anna few 
minutes to say good bye -. Ma & Aunt did not return. 
I wrote to mon cher ami, anwser to one weeks ago-. 

     103. 

3rd  Jennie went in yesterday and at 10 I left for Jersey, 
did some shopping bought some yarn for soldiers, 
dined at Doctors, met her at the Boat & then 
we went up to Bordentown, very slowly & it was 
after dark. Uncle Charley met us, & we went 
on and the house has been fixed up & built so 
much nicer, and dear "Sister Jane" seems in her 
place, they all love her & the children evince so 
much esteem and reverence that it did my heart 
good to witness the harmony in which every thing 
moved, no discord all love and unity, surely 
such marriages are sanctioned when the result is 
so beneficial, I see her good influence over the 
youngest, she has won him & he loves her so well. 
The sweet name of mother is again spoken by 
them & she fills the place so well - . Anna Knight 
and Hannah Hunt are here staying - . Before I left 
home I went to Dr Jone's, and procured some medicine 
for my frosted I suffer exceedingly with 
them, and am almost discouraged of ever having them 
cured, they are so painful, that I have to sit for 
hours without shoes or stocking. The burning itching 
and sharp pain, makes me so uncomfortable. 
I am cold every where else hands quite numb. 

     104. 

4th  A beautiful day there was a great deal 
of company here to tea. I had a letter from 
Oldden, he arrived safely in Washington and 
expected to go on to his Regiment, & if possible 
May Painter would procure him a promotion -. 

5th  We walked over to Will Reeds, it snowed 
in the P.M. Joe Middleton came & took us 
to the Reading Circle at Taylors there were a 
good many there & we had a pleasant time. 
Aunt Eliza came up from Philadelphia -. 

6th  A cold morn, every thing looks beautiful so 
loaded with snow; we remained in the house 
all day. I suffer a good deal with my feet. 
Messrs Hendrickson & Haines & Roberts girls came in a 
sleigh, they took Anne R & Han H home with them -. 
It is a clear cold night and we in warm houses 
are in sympathy with the many sick and suffering. 
The poor soldiers that have not yet gone into winter 
quarters will feel the biting cold and snow which 
crusts everything, beautiful to look at but suffering 
for those not protected; many poor there may 
be in our own cities, many who feel the sorrows 
of this cruel war, desolating the heart and taking 
from many the support that they lived on -. 

     105. 

7th  I sent letters to Aunt J. & home, did not go to [Meeting] 
fearing I would suffer from my frosted feet -. It was 
very cold all day and we remained in the house all the 
P.M. Had a good time reading and writing I wrote 
to Sam Millets and Anna, read Madeleine Shaufflier, a real 
good thing, and quite interesting -. Occasionally Aunt Eliza 
read some passages from The New History of Delaware County 
by Dr George Smith , the accounts were very entertaining. 

8th  Aunt E. started for home, had callers in the morn, after 
dinner Joe. Middleton called & took us sleigh-riding 
gone all the afternoon & had a real nice time - in the 
eve Mr Hendrickson came & took us to Middletons, then 
14 of us went over to Sam Decous, he has lately married 
Mart Lippincott, a pleasant time and long sleigh-ride. 
did not get home till late, quite cloudy but not dark. 
I enjoyed it all much better, because a dear letter lay 
quietly in my pocket, strange how much pleasure is 
afforded me by receiving them - it came to day, with its 
trust and friendship, & though others could not see 
why they made me happy under the circumstances, they 
do and I love them just as dearly as though I was 
the only friend -. The remembrance adds a sweet joy 
to all the pleasures I find in mingling with 
other society here or elsewhere. 

      106. 

I read the Press out loud. There is no great news 
yet, but small battles in the West, where precious 
lives are lost - . It is quite cold and snow not gone - . 

10th  I had a letter from Sadie, and am shocked to hear that 
the Treasurer of Westchester County is a defaulter to the 
amount of 127000 [dollars] [?] standing some years, it will be a 
terrible blow to his family & I feel so much for them. His 
son-in-law was one of the Securities & it will ruin him. 
It is terrible when men respected as he was should do so 
wrong - it is terrible, terrible, to ruin his character & soul 
thus, by wronging the county out of its dues - I can scarcely 
believe it of him - the man I knew so well - - - 
Uncle C & wife went to Vandergriffs, Joe Frazer wife sister 
and babe took tea here, it is a sweet little boy -. 

11th  No so cold, we took tea at Nathan Satterthwait's, had brandy 
peaches which I could not touch after the first mouthful -. 
Maryanna showed us a handsome pincushion with the sentence 
God bless this knit in it, she lent it me for a coppy -. 

12th  Decous were here to tea & afterwards the Reading circle met: 
over 70 here and a real nice time - Mr Branson was up Ellis etc. 
The debate was pretty good, and the moderators decided that 
Art was argued to be more pleasing to the eye than nature - . 
The whole evening passed pleasantly - and I quite enjoyed 
it - . Knew a good many and all were so sociable - 2 letters. 

     107. 

13th  We took tea at Joe. Frazers, had quite a nice visit 
Carries baby is lovely, 9 months old - . Several others there - . 

14th  Attended meeting & heard a good sermon from Samuel Townsend 
of Baltimore, in the afternoon they & Henrys came, but we 
had an engagement to go to Roberts's & Willet, Joe H & Joe M 
called and took us, a real nice time - They really have 
some intellectual and sensible young men here, & I like them 
better on accaquaintance -. The snow is fast going - 

15th  Warm & spring like. Busy washing and ironing - 

16th  Uncle killed hogs, Aunt Rachel came up, and we are having 
a nice visit from her, though quite busy, it is getting cooler, 
Sad news from Fredricksburg, our troops have recrossed 
the river, in the night with -out loosing men or property - 

17th  Very busy all day, I in the kitchen helping do the 
hog work and am glad to make myself useful. 
Will Reed, wife, mother and Anna [?] were here to tea, 
all were pretty tired -. We still wait anxiously for the 
news, this suspense is terrible to me, I want so much 
to hear from Oldden but do not think he was in battle. 

18th  Still bussy - pleasant weather - I wrote to Anna & 
Lide - . Sister Mary came up and we have nice times - . 
I was made very happy by receiving 4 letters - . I have 
been so uneasy about Oldden, but he writes he is well & near 
Fredricksburg witnessed all the terrible battle - . Also one from My own f 

     108. 

19th  We are getting finished up the Pork work -. Joe Middleton 
took us to the Circle at William Ellis's. very pleasant -. 
I am very busy knitting on my mittens for the soldiers. 

20th  Very cold indeed; after dinner we went to Trenton - 
I to my dear friend Lizzie Crozier's; in the evening 
we attended the Education Conference and heard 
some good speeches upon the subject. - It seems strange 
to be with her again, but my heart aches when I see 
the two precious children and think how soon they may 
be motherless, for her health is so delicate -, has 
scarcely spoken out loud for four months; 
the sable robes of my friend & dark crape at the 
window remind me constantly that the head of the 
household was no more!. she bears it with outward 
calmness, but it will wear away her life, -. Dear 
little blue-eyed Anna how my heart warmed towards 
her, and her baby brother too, only 19 months sold, she 4 -. 

21st  I went to Church with Lizzie, but could soon 
get tired of such sermons, yet if it will be 
any comfort for her let her enjoy it, and oh I 
do pray that she may know the purest blessings. 
We went again in the eve - It has been a quiet 
sabbath, but much talk, and sweet memories 
of her happy married life -. I wrote to [?] after we retired 

     109. 

22nd  I left there at 8 oclock, had a tedious ride 
down, one place ran back and waited for a stage 
that had broken down; there were a thousand 
old memories, and strange thoughts, for during 
my meditations, I raised my eyes and met 
the gaze of one known long ago, the vacant seat 
beside me was taken, and common place remarks 
made, but thoughts, busy thought could not be 
checked, and ours must have wandered from 
the present -. I was kindly waited on at Kensington.- 
then went to Dr and dined, was shopping for 
small Christmas gifts and came home very tired. 
Found a long letter from Anna Willits but not 
a word about that subject, the Treasurer -. 
Also some papers from my unknown friend, one 
published in 1841, one is Kentucky in 1850, all 
marked in strange places - My curiosity is quite 
up, but suppose some one is trying to puzzle me -. 

23rd  Attended [monthly meeting] -. Sister Mary here in the 
afternoon and after tea we went to a Concert, at 
the Public School, they had excellant dialogues 
& pieces spoken; it was for the Hospitals and all 
passed off very well, much crowded & many that 
could not get in - Mr Neils spoke very well indeed 

     180 - 

          1862. 

I wrote to Jennie, and we did not get to bed 
til late - We were begging for Hosptial. 

24th  Prices & MPW here to dine. Sallie Howard & 
Lizzie went to town, they go to Crosswicks -. 

25th  This will be a sad Christmas, to many hearts, it does 
not seem like it to me - Parents went to the Home as they 
have a Fair there this week -. We heard this morn that 
it was Garretts barn, on the farm that Cousin John rented 
that was burned last night, we could see the blaze -. 
We sent many things over to the Hospital, and I 
went in the car, were very busy there all day, not 
near so many visits, but enough good dinner for 
all. Dr Underwood came & shook hands & said he 
was glad to see me back again. he feared I had 
staid away like many others, referring to Thanksgiving. 
In the afternoon we gave out a barrel of apples, & some 
ginger cakes. poor fellows many of thought of 
their pleasant homes -. One was buried this morn -. 
Christmas has passed, and I have striven to 
make others happy and comfortable; my life 
seems to be cast in pleasant places and I am 
truly thankful for the many blessings -. 
I gave Lide & Lizze a hair brush & Lyd a picture frame -.

     111. 

26th  I commenced my pincushion, with the three words knit 
in -. hoping to have it finished by new years, for a gift -. 
Mother went to Bonsals to see for the Contrabands, 
I spent a quiet happy evening at home -. 
Lizzie came out & brought me two very handsome 
vases as a present: what a depth of kindness and 
generous feeling there is in her bosom -: Sam came back - 

27th  A warm morning like spring, Aunt E. here to dine, 
& son to tea, Sallies etc. -. I have felt quite miserable 
at times, such a sickness came over me. The 
medicine keeps my feet from hurting me and 
it is as strange what an effect so little can do -. 
John came up to bring a note from Lizzie H. he 
spent the eve; my dear kind friend - always. 

28th  Another lovely day. I went to see if I should 
stay with Pattie Bunting while Sarah went to 
meeting but, she was not so well & concluded not 
to go. I went and tried to have my heart filled 
with worship, such as would be acceptable 
to the Divine Master -. I was reading in 
the P.M. when Cousin Mary's came. I wrote to 
Lizzie Crozer and my friend Oldden, also to Brother B. 
I am reading Linda and find it filled with the 
horrors of Slavery, her sufferings were indeed terrible - 

     112. 

29th  Took letters to Office at [half] past 6, they went to town -. 
After dinner Parents went to Germantown, towards night 
Lyd went to Sallies, and remained all night -. I was 
waiting till 10 for her and finished my pin cushion - 
The few simple words are filled with many sweet memories. 
It seems to me I am having much quiet happiness 
by the remembrance of so many dear hours -. J 
can never forget all these blessing that He has given me. 
Sitting here in the quiet with my fingers busy on 
the only piece I have done like fancy work since the 
war began and I shall not do another soon -. 

30th  Sallie and Howard up to spend the day, also the 
two Sallies from Sharon -. Yesterday I had a letter 
from Oldden, poor fellow, his health is miserable 
though his  quarters are more comfortable as he is 
forage master in [Major] Painters department -
Poor things they have almost ceased to hope, when 
so many are lost and nothing gained -. 
Saide writes that the Treasurers family are in 
the greatest distress, they have moved into a small 
house. Why will men so dishonor their own name 
and cause so much suffering, for sordid wealth, 
better, far better live & die in poverty, than act 
so dishonorably, thereby crushing out all principle - 

     113. 

At 5 oclock Lide and I went to the city, then to Dr 
Moores where we spent a very pleasant evening, a good 
many young folks, and a handsome entertainment 
they seem to enjoy the society of young folks, and 
it is so pleasant to mingle with them, Joe Ellis 
and others were there -. The company was given 
for a young lady from Poughkeepsie - J. gold dollar -- 
Brother was there, though not at all well -. 
We went to Dr Childs to stay all night, it 
was raining, and the streets somewhat muddy -- 

31st  Snowing a little. We went out to do a little shopping, 
& then I came on home, all day, that irrepressible 
yearning, drove me about, and I never get it subdued 
till I have offered up a prayer for strength, and oh! 
I feel the soothing influence of divine mercy 
quieting the restless heart: and in time I hope 
the void may be filled with the holy, pure 
and perfect peace which comes by an humble 
submission and silent resignation to the 
will of our Father in Heaven; He knows the souls 
needs and into his keeping must be given 
the immortal life which emanated from Him; 
here it will learn the wisdom of His ways, 
and the goodness and mercy, flowing to his children - 

     114. 

One year ago, I spent a night so filled with mental 
suffering that it reaches way down into the present, 
embittering some moments now; it was my intense fear 
for my brother and I know not whether it were true -. 
I have never forgotton it, and I dread lest my fears 
be realized -. I can only hope and pray -. 
This is the last night of 1862. and I would it 
would close with some sign of Peace, or some hope 
that this terrible War, was going to close soon -. 
I slept in Lides room, yet for a long time watched the 
beautiful snow covered earth, and the holy stillness 
which seemed like a silent farewell parting to 
the old year - Many memories came to me then, 
and I pictured bright futures to those very dear to 
me, for myself, the patience and power to walk in 
the path of duty without murmuring, and with that 
hopeful spirit which will not darken or shadow 
those around me but make them be comforted by 
the little light that may be given by me -. 

     115. 

     Eighteen Hundred Sixty Three - 

January First.  Early I awoke and beheld the quiet 
stars and clear moonlight coming in upon me. I 
remembered that it was the first day of 1863 and 
while standing upon the threshold of the new year, 
let me make firm resolves to fight it through 
surmounting all difficulties, enduring all hardships 
ever striving for the right -. This will be a golden 
day for our country, for our noble President will 
issue his proclamation that all slaves in states that 
are rebellious, will hereafter be for ever free - Glorious 
words, whose brightness will go down to all coming
generations, and for which millions of grateful 
hearts will send up prayers and praise - 
I was at the Summit House all day, and felt 
it was a good beginning for the new year, to be 
thus usefully employed in ministering to the 
needful. Only yesterday two died, both of which 
I took some dainty too, a week ago, and now I 
am thankful that it was in my power while 
a little life remained -. One, whose wife came 3 days 
ago with her infant child, and is going to take the 
loved remains home with her -. poor young thing - 

     116. 

Second - Parents came home yesterday. Lide went to 
the office early, brought me a sweet letter so 
filled with kind words and thankfulness 
for the new years gift -; I had one yesterday 
and am so much disappointed that the 
good situation was given to another, but today 
the bouyant spirits are less depressed by it - 
one quotation is as good I will write it here and 
let it be to me much through coming time - 
"Improvement is of all blessings, the one most inalienable 
& inherent to oneself, & in itself most priceless. 
Every thing else may be taken from us. Fortune 
has wings; health may decline, friendship is fleeting, 
enjoyments lose their novelty & zest. But our Improvement 
is independent of all adversity & every outward 
circumstance. No one can [?] upon it nor 
destroy it, nor take it, nor slander it away from 
us, for it is in us and with us & alone our identity" -. 
These are noble words and will strengthen & 
help me, just as so many others have done -. 
I have been very busy all day -. Ben here sick 
& Lide & Lyd poorly -. Hall Price here awhile 
Our Society met to sew, making flannel 
shirts which will be so much needed -. 


     117. 

3rd  A beautiful warm day. Brother came out last 
5th day quite sick with Jaundice; in the P.M. Lide and 
I went over to the Bell then I to the Summit House, 
took some meat bones to a poor fellow that was lame 
and amused himself cutting out rings, he gave me 
a very pretty one inlaid with red sealing wax -. 
I do not know his name, but will keep in remembrance 
and let it be ever to remind me of the suffering, 
that is borne so nobly by many thousands -. 
It was a beautiful moonlight eve, I slipped up 
to Sarah Buntings a little while -. Altered my cloak. 

4th  I went up to stay with Friend Bunting while her 
daughter went to meeting -. I was glad I do, she 
is so much confined, with the two old people 
devoting her whole life to their comfort, surely there 
must be glorious crown hanging over her, waiting to be 
placed upon her head; so self sacrificing and untiring 
in her good work. I came home to dine and was 
busy writing all the afternoon, this is my only 
day that I get very little time to read -. 
Dr J. came up to see Ben - Sams in the afternoon -. 
Hale Price came out to tea & to Sharon to spend the 
eve -. I wrote to Sadie, Oldden and J. making 18 pages. 

     118. 

5th  Parents took tea at Dr Longstreth's, I do 
not feel very well, appetite going again, eat 
no supper, Nothing especial the matter, only 
a sick weak feeling much of the time & 
a sore throat, for which Dr J. gave me some 
medicine -. J. came up to bring me some 
paper for lamp shades -. The men 
are drilling in the field opposite, news came 
to night that Vicksburg is ours, but our loss 
at Murfreesboro has been very great. 

6th  [?] confirmed, but small list of the wounded 
Cloudy misty - nearly all day, and commenced 
raining about 4 oclock after tea I said all that were 
going to Lyceum must get ready, so Lyd and Lide went 
with me, called for Anna, it was our first meeting & 
so stormy few were expected; yet we did much business 
I was Lee, for the eve, we appointed all the officers 
a business committee etc. - Sam came out to attend. 
There were no other ladies there & they told us afterwards 
it would have fallen through had we not been present 
for there was not enough to make a quorum. 
It had stopped raining when we went home - 
John was with us -. I hope if we have a Lyceum 
we may be able to support it properly -. 


     119. 

7th  A cold morning, at 11 Lide and I went to the city. 
I bought a muff, with Grand mothers legacy; we found 
we had a half hour to wait & concluded to go to Kensington, 
when near there found the car. left at [half] past 2 
instead of 2. I wrote a hasty note to Lizze letting her 
to come on but just as we stepped in the depot [?] her, 
she has found out the right home so we all left immediately 
and soon after arriving at Andalusia 
Jesse came, we had agreed to surprise them & no one but 
he & Abi knew it, so we got out quietly and were in the 
door before any of them knew it, and great was the 
consternation at seeing all of us, it was indeed a surprise 
and so pleasant to be among our dear friends again. 
So much like old times and there is no where that 
we meet with a warmer welcome, or that I feel 
more [?] among friends distance and separation 
does it not seem to lessen the intimacy, we always 
love those who have been so kind to us, and leaving 
our residence in Byberry now were kinder than 
the members of this household and very long 
will gratitude be in our hearts. Even more when 
we come back again they take us all around 
and do every thing to make us enjoy ourselves 
[illegible] other numerous friends. Long letter from Anna. 

     120. 


          1863. 

She told me of the troubles with Uncle Henry 
it was a dear precious letter, filled with love, and 
strengthening the friendship that binds us so closely together. 

8th  A nice chat hers and in the P.M. all went to Thomas 
James, found Martindales & others there a very pleasant 
visit, snowing when we came home. We were all weighed 
while there, mine was 124 gained since last 106 July 1862. 

9th  Took tea at William James; had a very lively time 
and George came up and surprised us: I am knitting 
mittens for the soldiers and in all my enjoyment 
I never forget their sufferings -.  We hear that 
our troops have been repulsed at Vicksburg again. 
hope soon to be reinforced and go forward once more. 

10th  I was lying down most of the morning; but felt 
better and after dinner we went up to Attleborough 
Dr James found them nicely situated, and a 
good school; Pattie was glad to see us and we 
spent several hours very pleasantly, then came 
home in the rain, but did not get wet, had quite 
a jolly ride - Talked strongly of going to [?] 
in the eve, but enjoyed ourselves equally well 
at home, eaten apples, nuts, and a gay 

     121. 

11th  A beautiful morning, went to meeting. I 
saw many of our old friends there had many 
invitations, Mary Bowman came back with us. 
all went to Hilltons, Comlys, James etc. there and 
we had a real nice good time, played a 
new kind of cards -. The Comlys are fine looking 
young men, & it seems strange they are the 
boys we used to go to school with -. 

12th  A beautiful clear morning. George went to 
the city as having a pleasant home. Went to 
James Thorntons to tea, and had a very pleasant 
visit indeed, we drove, & Jesse and Sadie came 
in the evening, all so kind they seem to think 
it no trouble to take us any where -. 

13th  Lizzie went to the city with her father. In 
the afternoon Jesse and I took a ride called at 
the office & found a letter from Anna, & a few 
words from my own friend -. We had a real 
nice ride, called at Purvis's came back here 
to tea, and afterwards went to the Roberts to spend 
the evening real nice time, Mary & R [?] 
there. We saw a large fire, but did not 
ascertain where it was. I finished 
another pair of mittens for the soldiers -

     122. 

14th  Cloudy, and dull, yet warm and not like 
winter, we miss Lizzie so much she is all 
sunshine, and so lively - Jesse invited me to 
ride with him and we had quite a long one called 
at the Office, but the mail had not come in, it 
has been very irregular for a week -. Lide read 
Friend Eli's Daughter out loud -. Jesse bought 
a quarter of a pound of yearn for me, & I offered to 
knit him a pair of mittens -. We had oranges 
on our way home, he is very kind indeed, and so 
willing at home to wait on his sisters, there is where 
to learn a young mans real character -. He is 
just and kind and good and I sincerely wish him 
much happiness for he deserves it -. 

15th  This is our last morn here with our beloved friends. 
after dinner Jesse, took us up to Uncle Jonathans 
about 12 miles. we stopped at Will's school in 
Attleborough & he said Ellie, had diptheria but the 
Dr had pronounced her out of danger, we hesitated 
some time about going in. I left it to Lide knowing 
she was more fearful than I; we arrived there about 
[half] past 4 Ellie was better, & then gave us a very 
warm welcome - Jesse went home that night by 
Newtown as the roads were so muddy -. 

     123. 

16th  It seems natural to be here again, yet the 
presence of dear Aunt Fanny is deeply felt & missed, 
and the crape covered Photograph over which hangs 
a small silk flag, silently speaks of the early 
death of one noble boy; Uncle spent much of the 
afternoon in reading us beautiful letters from 
Joes Colonel, captain and numerous friends - 
He was indeed a noble boy, & though young in 
years his whole being was stamped with the highest 
qualities of manhood all honored, loved and 
respected him -. It is much consolation to 
feel that his soul went up to God in its 
spotless purity, & with no shadow or wrong to 
sully his young life - . He had not fallen 
with the evils, or been harmed by the temptations 
of camp life -, no doubt the sacred influence 
of his sainted mother, was impressed upon his 
whole nature, and throughout his short [?] 
strengthened him in the right and extended to those 
with whom he mingled. The whole Regiment 
missed him, and the purity of his life may 
be an example for many others, helping them 
to follow in the same pathway -. 

     124. 

               1863, 

17th  A pleasant day with our cousins 
after tea all welt to Lyceum at Yardleyville 
where we heard some very good Debate. Uncle 
is [President] and Alice critic; she did her part very 
well, bringing on the gramatical errors, and complementing 
Captain Yardley. The "Luminary was very good -. 
Will walked over from Newtown & went home with us -. 

18th  A cold morning, Will and I took a nice ride, he 
is such a clever youth, and seems to hold true & 
honorable principles, I love all the children -. 
Little Ellie is a great darling among them -. 
There was quite @ company in the evening, invited 
to meet us, we had quite a pleasant time. 
Did not retire till some time after they left. 

19th  Will was off early & at 8. Uncle took us to 
Greensburg, in [New Jersey] and we took the cars, quite an 
agreeable ride down, conversing with Mr Trego the 
Artist - . Yet I did not forget that long to be 
remembered ride over the same route -. We left 
our baggage at John. Then called at French 
but Mattie had gone to the Hospital -. 
Afterwards at Aunt Rachels then out to 
Hancocks a little while and on home -. 
Anna was here to spend the evening - Dr Jones too. 

     125. 

20th  I found I had not time to go to [monthly meeting] & 
write both so I remained at home -. I find with 
much regret that during my absence Walter 
Haviland of Brooklyn had been here to see me, 
it is a very great disappointment to have missed 
his visit, & hear directly from my many
 friends there - I am always so glad to have 
any of my New York friends come see me - 
There were about 18 here to sew for the contrabands. 
Sallie and I were at Dr Jones's, I after more medicine. 
George and Maryetta were here to tea, Sallie & Howard. 

21st  We were wakened early with the 'cry of fire,' & 
could see it plainly, afterwards learned it was J. 
Sellers barn and nearly 30 head of cattle it seems 
very hard for a young man, only married a week 
ago, poor Mary Bunting, her honey moon, and new 
life does not look very bright, - . I was 
sewing, Lyd went to town - had a letter from her 
friend -. In the eve while writing and 
after Father had retired some one knocked 
and it was my friend Oldden just from 
Washington - home again honorably discharged for 
ill health -. Many have been my prayers, much 
the praise for his safe return to us -. 

     126. 

22nd  Oldden & a friend that come with him called a 
while, then we were very busy, Lide went to Summit 
House - . Sallie & Howard to the city as they are going 
to board at Doctors for a while - I was at sewing Society. 

23rd  Cleared off beautifully. Mart J. and I were 
out walking had a dear letter from mon ami - 
Wrote a long one to Anna Willets - John and 
Anna spent the evening here - Mother went to 
Newton to help pack the barrel for the contrabands. 
I had a nice letter from my friend & a long one 
from Sadie, it had been set to Byberry -. 
I wrote a long letter to Anna Willits. 

24th  Busy all day in the afternoon Jesse James, Sallie 
and Lacie came, we had a pleast evening here -. 
Lyd came out, it is warm and spring-like -. 

25th  George, Lizzie & Mary Parry came out & there
were 10 of us went to meeting, in the afternoon 
took a walk up to McHenrys place, down the 
creek, up to Bayards, through their green house 
which contained some beautiful plants. I do love 
to be among flowers -. Wilsons Sallie Price and 
Maris B. were here in the eve. all left but Sallie 
James, they went in in the car. 

      127. 

26th  Parents went to Concord, then to rest to Sharon 
I was busy most of the time -. J.B called & 
Mary Johnson. At 3. Sallie and I went to 
the Summit House, through the wards then she 
went on and I shopped at the store to pay an unremembered 
bill -. While at the Hospital I gave a 
pair of mittens to the guard. I bought the yarn 
and knit them, hoping they may do good -. 

27th  I have commenced reading the Life of Emily 
C. Judson and find it very interesting there are 
many traits in her character similar to my own - 
Jess came out & spent an hour or two with us - me. 
Lide went to the depot to meet Father & Mother -. 

28th  I went before light to take some letters on my way 
I though how many mornings last winter, I had 
left early, and soon I thought of it still more, once 
again the old thing was enacted, it was impulsive, 
without thought, and just from the heart, I will not put 
in words, they would be mocking to the sacred feelings. 
I came back it snowed and melted all day, such 
days make us tremble for the health of the many 
soldiers that are exposed to this sudden changes, and 
unhealthy weather. Such a night with no shelter, 
terrible indeed for those [?] in [?]. 


     128. 

29th  Every thing looked pure and beautiful 
so draped in snow, so spotless and white, 
charming and brilliant when the sun came out 
a short time after. I went over to the Summit 
House, and there spent the day waiting on the sick 
and wounded, several received their discharges and 
with happy hearts anxiously waiting to return 
to their welcome home, one poor fellow I fear will not 
reach there, he looked so ill & left to day to go 3 or 400 
miles, I have him a pair of warm woolen stocking. 
Came home, Father reading Hot Corn - or Sketches on [New York]. 

30th  Parents went over to the Home, several snow squalls 
Father left mother but went after her on the P.M. 
After tea I went round to see Anna, but she had 
gone away - came back and finished a pair of mittens. 
There are some terrible truths in Hot Corn, and we 
stand back aghast at the immense amount of 
wrong, suffering and sin that is transfiguring in our 
midst, for Philadelphia is not free from the 
vices which darken the Souls, kill the bodies, and 
degrade the lives of men and women. 
How different from Emily Judgson and her noble 
husband who gave up friends and home, that they 
might lead the heathen from idolatry. 

     129. 

31st  The last page of my diary is without lines, yet 
I could write straight if it were not for my habit 
of hastily running on, trying to keep the pen put 
down thoughts fast enough -. The true and better 
thoughts are not written here; there are many things 
I would wish to erase, many sentences, trifling 
and unimportant but it has been and is a 
pleasure for me to put down my passing thoughts 
and though no one also may ever read them 
it may be a gratification to me in after years. 
This is the last of my 23rd year, for to-morrow I will  
[?] and all the week past, I have suffered at 
times knowing that I should write and ask for 
what it may cause pain to give. I have thought 
of it so much lately - . The contraband 
meeting met here. Sallie's from Sharon came down, 
Anna was here to tea and John in the eve -. 
I did not retire till late & then gazed long upon 
the beautiful scenery, without, the pure white snow 
and mild stars almost eclipsed by the moon 
which shone with unusually brillancey. Good bye 
dear diary thou hast been my good friend for 
the past year, and I close it with regrets, another 
will open and I trust be better for [?] than this. 
[Partial index of subjects mentioned in the diary.]