[Front board - no text] [Handwriting practice] Martha Martha - My dear Carrie - Carie Carrie Carie Carrie Carrie Ben came Ben [Paper clipping: Definition of Ignorant] List of things I have read Commencing [January] 1st 1858 Life of Kah-ge-ga-gah-book or George Copway Prisoner of the Border - P. Hamilton Myers [?] [Souvenirs] of Travel - Madam [Levert] " Two volumes" - " Queechy - Elizabeth Wetherell " Two volumes - " Author of "The Wide, Wide World" Life in California - Eliza W. Farnham Sibyl - Martha Russell The Last Days of Pompeii - Sir E. Bulwer Lytton Night and Morning - Sir E. Bulwer Lytton The Old Dower House - Mrs. Gray [Rienzi] - [Sir E. Bulwer Lytton] Home - Miss Sedgwick The true path - Y. S. Huther Words of cheer - Y. S. Huther Alice Franklin - [Crossed out: Cousin Alice] May Howlett Reflection Belle of the family Patient Wating No loss [In pencil: I felt strongly impressed to say - ] "Where a few are gathered together in my name there am I in the midst of them", this is the language my dear friends I feel bound to give unto you, that these may be words of encouragement to those who have laid aside worldly care, left for a time the labors of life, and come here to have an hour of [Crossed out: social] silent worship, surely when, we feel all things of a worldly nature must be put away that we may come & worship the great Father of all, that we may hold communion with Him, feel the sacred influences of his love upon our souls. It is an [?] that we keep which makes us bow in humble submission to his Divine Will - If we can come here, with a heart willing to be instructed by his teaching feeling that He alone has power, to purify our souls for that eternal, home to which we all are hastening, asking [Crossed out: for] guidance and help from [?] to [?], tho this sphere of an existence it is - His Letters I have sent commencing October 1st 1858. [Column 1] To 1= My own dear home 2= B. Schofield 3= E. H. Schofield 4- M. H. Schofield 5- Jane I Satterthwait 6- M. Inskeep 7- Mrs Crozer 8= M. A. Schofield 9= R H. Boyde 10= H. F. Wilson 11. E. H. Schofield 12. S. I Schofield 13. M. W. Schofield 14 A. Schofield 15 Charles Humphrys 16 M. H. Schofield 17 E H Schofield 18. L. A. Schofield 19. E. H. Schofield 20. M. Humphrys 22. M. H. S. 23. Ephraim Inskeep 24. Paxson Price 25 M. H. Schofield 26 E H Schofield 27 H. F. Wilson 28 M. H. Schofield 29 E. H. Schofield 30. A Martindale 31. Charles Humphrys 32. S. I. Schofield 33 J. I. Satterthwait [Column 2] 34. Paxson Price 35. E. H. Schofield 36. M. H. Schofield 37. H. F. Wilson 38. S. A. Willets 39. S. I. Schofield 40. W. Oldden Ridgway 41. B. Schofield 42= E. H. Schofield 43 M. A. Humphrys 44 E H. Schofield 45. M. H. Schofield 46 M. A. Schofield 47 H. F. Wilson 48. S. I. Schofield 49 A. S. Martindale 50. Schofield 51 M H Schofield 52 B. Schofield 53 E H Schofield 54 H F Wilson 55 - Thomas C Bell 56. M H Schofield 57. E. H. Schofield 58. John Child 59. B Schofield 60 Cornelia Hancock 61. Paxson Price 62 - S J Schofield 63. L A Schofield 64. Paxson Price [Column 3] 65 Alice Schofield 66 L. A Schofield 67 Jane Hillborn 68. [?] 69. Halliday Jackson 70. M. A Humphrys 71- J Child 72= S A Schofield 73= [Thomas] C. Bell. 74. [Benjamin] Schofield 75. J. I. Satterthwait 74. T. C. Bell 75. S. [?] Schofield 76. Edward Willets 77. J. J. Price 78. J. I. Satterthwait 79 Edward Willets 80 Lydia Schofield 81 [?] F Wilson 82 Edward Willets 83. S. S. [?] 84. Sadie M [?] 85. Samuel [?] Ash 86. John S Williams 87 [Chalkley] Holt 88. Edward Willets 89 Edward Willets 90 S M [?] 91 Alice Schofield 92 [?] 93 [?] Roberts [Column 4] 96. H. E. Willets 97. E. Willets 98. James Underhill 99 Anna [?] Willets 100. Abi James 101 [blank] Letters sent from [Long] Island February 7th 1860. 1 Lydia H. Schofield 2- [Samuel] S. Ash 3. S. M. Brower Sallie R B 4. J. I Satterthwait 5 Edward Willets 6 Paxson Price 7. E. H. Schofield 8. H. F. Roberts 9. L. H Schofield 10. M. C. Jackson 11. E. Willets 12. M. H Humphrys 13. J. J. Price 14. Lizzie James 15. Lizzie Willets 16. M. M. Child 17. E. H. Schofield 18. B Schofield 19 S. M. Brower 20 S. J Ash 21. E H. Schofield 22. Robert S. H. 23. W. O. R. [Column 5] 24. J. J. Price 25th H. Jackson 26. S. M. Brower 27. A B. Willets 28. S. M. Brower 29 J. I Satterthwait 31. Emily Jackson 31- M. H. Child 32. Lizzie Satterthwait 33 S. M. Brower 34. Lizzie Willets Letters I have received commencing October 1st 1858 From [Column 1] 1=Mother & Sisters 2= Eliza H. Schofield 3= Sallie & Mother 4= Hannah F. Wilson 5= R. H. Boyd 6= Sallie & Mother 7= Lydia A. Schofield 8= Eliza H. Schofield 9. H. F. Wilson 10. A. Schofield 11 H. F. Wilson 12 B. Schofield 13 S. I. Schofield 14. E. H. Schofield 15. L. A. Schofield 16. L. A. Schofield 17. M. Humprys 18. L. A. Schofield 19. R. H. Boyd 20. A. Schofield 21. E. H. Schofield 22. E. H. Schofield 23. M Schofield 24 H. F. Wilson 25. J. J. Price 26. M. A. Humphrys 27 L. A. Schofield 28 A. Martindale 29 E. H. Schofield 30. J. I. Satterthwait 31. M. H. Schofield 32. A. Schofield [Column 2] 33. W. O. Ridgway 34. H F. Wilson 35. E. H. Schofield 36 S. I. Schofield 37. E. H. Schofield 38. S. I. Schofield 39. M. A. Schofield 40= B. Schofield 43=J. J. Price 44 E. H. Schofield 45 S I Schofield 46. A. L. Martindale 47. S. I Schofield 48 M. A. Humphrys 49. E. H. Schofield 50. M. H. Schofield 51 L A Schofield 52 S.M. Brower 53. B. Schofield 54 SI & LA Schofield 55. M. H. Schofield 56. E. H. Schofield 57 M. A Humphreys 58 M. H. Schofield 59 Mast S. 60. E. H. Schofield 61. M. H. Schofield 62 - E. H. Bell 63 Sallie J Schofield 64. Cornelia [?] 65. LJ J & SS Ash (Lide) 66. C. Hancock [Column 3] 67. J. J. Price 68. M. H. Child 69. L. H. Schofield 70. H F W & B S 71. Anna Martindale 72 - E. H. Bell 73. S I. Schofield 74. M. H. Child 75. Jane Hillborn 76. M H Schofield 77. H Jackson 78. Sallie I Schofield 79. Hannah F Wilson 80. Edward Willets 81. Lydia Schofield 82. H. H. Wilson 83. Chalk Holt 84. H. F. Wilson 85. Allie Schofield 86. Sadie M Brower 87. Edward Willets 88 B. Schofield 89 Allie Schofield 90. S [?] Satterthwait 91. Edward Willets & A 92. S. M. Brower 93. Anna Willets 94. Hannah Willets 95. Sadie Brower 96. Cas W. Deans Letters received at Long Island February 7th 1860 [Column 4] 1. Samuel S. Ash 2. E. H. Schofield 3. H. F. Roberts 4. L. A Schofield 5. E. Willets 6. J. J. Price 7. H. Willets 8. M. H. Child 9. S. M. Brower 10. H. F. Roberts 11. L. A. Schofield 12. S. A. Ash 13. J. J. Price 14. Book R S H 16 15 E. H. Schofield 16. S. S. Ash 17. S M. Brower 18th L. A Schofield 19th M. Jackson 20th E. Jackson 21st Edward Willets 22nd H. Willets 23rd E. H. Schofield 24 M. H. Child 25 - L. A Schofield 25 S M. Brower 26. S. S. Ash 27. Anna B. Willets 28. B. Schofield [In pencil] Thee bids me write in thy album [?] a pen cannot always convey the thoughts or would like written upon such spotless pages to be viewed and [?] by others - Yet I will not fail to wish thee peace and happiness hoping that no shadows will darken thy pathway [Crossed out: which will] nor storms ruffle the waves of thy life & with all the varied changes of existence [Crossed out: there should be] none to make thee forget those whom thee have once called friends, taken the eye wanders over the once familiar names may mine be viewed as one who ever trusted in thy friendship & was sincere in her desires for thy welfare hoping that thy Guardian Angel might ever [?] thy brightest hopes & lead thee by the diamond chain of love to God - truly! Cousin M [Pencil draft] [Loss] ...with all its varied changes. [Loss] ....passing on and when time has marked these spotless pages and [Crossed out: may] [Crossed out: that may inscribe these names here which] [Crossed out: have passed away -] The eye wanders over the once familiar frames may more be viewed as one who ever wished [Crossed out: that thy life] happiness not merely the - I mean [?] that will lessen thy [?] in a Higher Power for none are free from troubles and it is when the [?] [Crossed out: are over that ] we behold [Crossed out: the] brightness which [Crossed out: points] clearly show the benefits of affection, I proves to us that in the desert house there . One eye ever watchful of our good - Remember, there one whose on early who are very ready to sympathize in sorrow where thy [?] in all the - [Doodles] [Illustration] Martha Schofield Bayside [January] 1st 1858 Page 1. Diary 1858. 1859. 1860. [January] 1st 1858 The New Year has again come, and in looking over the past one, I can see many moments that have been ill spent, but they are gone and all that I can do now is to try and improve the present, my occupation was that of teaching the "young idea how to shoot" and I feel it to be a great responsibility so much of their future lives may be regulated by what they learn in their early youth, not only in school do I have the care of them but much of the time out; Aunt being away quite often leaves me the care - Now to the party which was given for the children - we made preparations, and there were about 22 here grown folks and all they had a very pleasant time the table looked very handsome, it was a dinner party had meats vegatables etc. etc. then there were 14 kinds of deserts - nuts, candies etc. - Richard and Fred Smart made their "New Year's call" while they were at dinner so I received them but Carrie Willets was here so we did very well - about half past four, Richard and Fred came round with two mules and one horse to a wagon and wanted to know if we did not want to take a ride Carrie had gone home so Mrs Hannah Laurence and I went we had a most splendid time such real fun we laughed and cut up as much as we wanted too - we drove over to see Cad - then down Sol Nickles lane and so on - In the evening Cousin Robert and Ed Laurence called they had been making calls all day - So ends the first day - 2. 2nd This afternoon Aunt Eliza and the two children went over to see William Frame's - Carrie W. called for me and we went to Flushing - had a delightful ride, she took me and introduced me to Carrie Peck who I should think was a very nice girl. 3rd The first Sabbeth in the New Year, we went to Meeting as usual and in the afternoon John Bowne and Hannah were here he acted like a perfect loof would try and kiss me and set with his hand in mine lap talked the greatest lot of nonsense all the time so I thought the time was wasted while he was here - splendid weather. 4th Uncle went down to New York to take a box for Aby and Janie which we had prepared for them, cakes, doughnuts, candies, etc. Aunt took him in and spent the day at William Smart's - 5th Sarah W. and Aunt Eliza went to John Willis's to spend the day - [Cousin] C. came over a little while in the P.M. invited me to go over and stay all night -, as there was going to be a lecture in the school house Carrie W. came over and we went to take a ride she is such a kind girl, often takes me to ride she drives herself and her house is so nice gentle and good, when we came back I stopped at [Cousin] Roberts, after tea [Cousin] Catharine Richard and myself went over to Tituses got Maria, Bill and Silas then we all proceeded to the School House the audience was disorderly but the lecture was better than I had anticipated, it was "The Merchant of Venice" and much of that was repeated altogether it was interesting - Will & Silas waited on us home, they are quite polite boys - 6th Just as [Cousin] Robert had the carriage ready Jim came over so I came home with him. it was snowing as it had been during the night - 3. 8th We went over to [Cousin] Roberts to dine on roast Goose I and the children came back in time to call school at two - 9th - A rainy wet day - but quite warm for all no ice yet = 10th We went to [Meeting], then came home and read all the rest of the day 11th So wet Ellie did not come to school rained quite hard 12th Aunt Uncle & [Cousin] Catharine went to make a wedding call - Sarah and Carrie were here then went to Flushing; also Mrs Mary Cock and Phebe Titus - they only called - 13th Aunt and Uncle spent the day at Sarah Willets = 14th Carie called for me and we went to see Han Laurence then drove on the plank road met [Cousin] [Robert] - W. & S. T invitation etc. I went home with her staid all night - as her mother and Em were in New York - had a delightful time she showed me Blakey Waltons letters poor fellow !!!! 15th Cousin Catharine came over after dinner her husband came for her it rained so they did not stay to tea - 16th Mary Jane Weeks the dressmaker came we sewed right and finished my poplin before night then Anne and I drove her to Flushing did not get there till after dark so did not get home till late - I as not afraid although it was dark and the horse was blind "Red Bird" 17th Aunt was not entirely willing for me to go to Catholic Church with Carrie as so many servants went but just as they were getting ready to go to [Meeting] Richard drove up and wanted me to go Church - Aunt E. said I might so I got ready and went met Carrie coming but I explained the mystery afterwards - we all went and it was really worth going for the house was crowded, music good choir excellent there were three Priests all dressed and 4 there were fifty eight children, girls, all dressed in white with long white veils and wreaths of white roses on their heads, they were led by a young girl carrying a picture of the "Virgin Mary" - there were about twenty small boys - it was very interesting, held about two hours - a missionary priest was there who almost starves himself to save the souls of others - poor creature, how devoted they are to their religion, crossed themselves many times during service. all ages were there, old men with heads bowed down with age would solemny bow down in prayer - all seemed so sincere and yet the next day many would not hesitate to commit a crime still I must not judge - I never attended Church before, but something unusual happening to day I could see no harm in going I don't expect to be converted - After Church I made an arrangement with Richard to go to Willets - so, he came round for me after dinner we went over - their man was away so he put their horses to their Box wagon and he, Em, Cad and self went to take a ride, took Pussy along which Uncle put in the wagon before we left here - we went about eight miles and had a splendid ride such a lovely afternoon - all enjoyed it so much ; we stayed at Sarah's to tea - when I got home found Will Titus, he had come to invite me to to go to lecture with him to morrow eve at the institute - he staid some time after I got home - was quite pleasant - 18th Aunt, Uncle - [Cousin] R & C. & Lillie & self went to New York in the boat. [Cousin] F was on board we got down before 10 we three went to the office 25 Park Row - met Andrew Malcomary in the street - then we went to the Metrapolition saw 5 Mrs Mickle, Lydia & Hannah Lawrence, Mrs George etc. all were very kind, had cake and wine handed - then we went and did some shopping, then up to Joseph Lawrences where we met Cousin Phebe - we eat lunch there and then all started to here Mrs Fannie Kemble Butler read she is said to be the most splendid Reader in the World the admission was one dollar but kind Aunt Eliza paid for me and it was well worth going to hear the room was full 5 or 6 hundred there - she is not a handsome woman but O! such a voice, in a moment it changes from the quick & lound to the soft and mild - she read Shakespeare's Richard the second - and it was charming to hear her she read about two hours - and I shall never forget it - we then came up in the five oclock cars - Uncle came up at one he brought a box from the office from Andrew I. Todd. when we got home we opened it, - and found three beautiful wax dolls from Carrie Anne & Lillie with eyes to open and shut - curly hair etc. etc. - a bottle of Cologne for Aunt and a pair of handsome kid gloves for me - also a note from him saying he wished me a happy New Year the gloves were a Philopena - I had not been here 10 minutes before William came so I then went with him to the Institute had a pleasant ride and a most splendid lecture Mr Winter is a charming lecturer, he is a German in exile from his native Country - how splendid he spoke such superb language the room was full, after he was done the boys presented him with five splendid books one of them making a speech - he seemed truly thankful, it was very unexpected he had not looked for such a 6 thing his reply was grand - then one spoke on beauty which was very good - Winters lecture was on History, a dry subject but he made it grand they concluded with acting a dialogue which was excellant - Our ride home was very pleasant - reached here about eleven - all in bed - 19th Aunt & L. W. went to Lydia Laurences to spend the day. Carrie came over and we went and called on [?] they staid to tea - Carrie and I fixed our own plans - 20th I do not feel very bright - my stomach must be thickly coated, my tongue is - and I feel as though I had a high fever inside - have eating nothing scarcely since first day morn - no appetite the thought of food makes me almost sick - I will take some medicine and perhaps I will be better - L. N. C. was over this morn and said he wished Carrie would come over friday to stay all night - there is to be a lecture at the school house & he wants us to go - I we were have gone there, but now wont - he brought me a book to read - I have several now Souveniers of Travel" by Madam De [Vert]." Quickly etc. I wrote to Carrie 21st Emmy came over and brought me a sweet note from Carrie - this P.M. I went over and sat awhile with Cousin C - I just told her the reason Carrie and I did not stop offener was because people would say we just went to see R I also told her why I went to church with him! 22nd Today at noon Mrs Fred Laurence came and invited Uncle Aunt and myself to take tea with them, I said I could not go because I had an engagement - but Lydia Bell said R was going that they were going to shut up house and all go - so I told her to tell him not to come here - then Aunt told me to get ready & 7 go which I did, but when I got there Cousin C. said R had come over here to take me - I was struck dumb having heard he was going there but it was too late to do anything but it was Lydias fault - she had not delivered my message the evening would have been delightful only that marred my pleasure exceedingly there were several there splendid supper, ice cream & in the evening Lizzie sang and played most beautifully - when we got home found L. N. C had been here also Carrie W - I am blamed for not keeping my word, but O how little I thought it would end this way - 23rd Another most beautiful morning - but I feel so worried I know not what to do - I could not sleep last night - thought continually of what they would think of me for breaking my engagement but thought I would not deprive him of the pleasure of going to Freds so sent word for him not to come - dear me I wonder if Carrie will have nothing more to do with me = if I was only home where I could talk to Mother and sisters I cannot keep it out of my mind - and am afraid I will be sick again - not feeling very strong - I wrote a long letter to Carrie explaining how it was & begging forgiveness 24th I do feel miserable this morning no appetite at all but I know it is my mind that so offends my body - I cannot but feel they will think it mean in me, but it was so unintentional I did not go to [Meeting] have been reading all day. read Richards book The Prisoner of the Border all through about 380 pages quite large too - besides reading some in other 8 things testament etc. etc. it has been a very quiet day - no company but I was not sorry and I wished to be alone - 25th Cousin C. and Aunt E went to Hetty Bloodgoods to spend the day, Carrie came over and we made all up; I am so happy - 26th Quite cloudy rained a little Aunt & the children went to [?] I went home with Lydia to stay all night. Bell Titus came home with Richard and spent the evening - he asked me what kind of a visit I had at Fred - I said I did not enjoy myself something occurred that prevented me S. Nile said to never mind that - we played games, checquers, dominoes etc. had a very nice time 27th This is a most lovely morning every thing is so beautiful the birds are singing their sweet songs as if to praise their Maker and the grass is growing green the trees putting forth their buds - all nature seems to think tis the early spring time - and yet it is the 27th of January. what a blessing it is to have such mild weather so many poor and out of work - that I can now be employed - hard times through so many out of work - When I got over there found they had gone to Sarah a while at 12 oclock Anne and I took Uncle and Aunt to Flushing they were going down to Quarterly [Meeting] - At three I went over for Carrie then we went to Flushing had a most splendid time - walked through the village met C. Frame and others = [?] Willets (letter) came home by moonlight which was most splendid she staid 28 I took Carrie home, it looks quite like a storm - a great change since yesterday - Sewing afternoon, I went over to see Ann a little while - 29 Anne went home with Lydia and I am so glad - I then went over for Cad, came back dressed and were sitting here talking when who should come in but Aunt and Uncle we were very much surprised as we had not expected them till to morrow, were not very glad to have them come to night as we expected company - we never let on 9 after tea we went over to Aims a while when we came back we were quietly walking round the house so he spied L.N.C. and Silas they ran and we after them - but soon we stopped and went in the parlor - could not get Carrie Bell out, at first but L.N.C gave her 3 [cents] to go - then we had real fun - I took him in the Hall and offered an apology for not going to the lecture so now we are made up - they went to bed so we had the time to ourselves - Cads note etc. 30th I took Carrie home - it is very cold this morning so windy in the afternoon I went over to see Betsy Cornell - it has been so long since I had been there - wrote Home and to Brother - This morn Aunt told me she & Anne were going to start for Crosswicks next seventh day - then go to Philadelphia and Darby expect to be gone about two weeks and then if Ma is willing bring either Lyd or Lide back here let them take my place and me go home to stay a couple of months. I was quite surprized, but very glad it will be quite a change 31st We went to Meeting, had a long sermon from John D Wright which was very good. he touched on Spiritualism - L. L. was there In the afternoon John, Boune and Hannah, Cousin R & [Cousin] Ed & William Laurence & Sarah Willets were here to tea after that Carrie, Em & Fred came, we staid out a while then went in, but soon thought of some fun - we knew L.N.C had company & we wanted to frighten him - we slipped out; I put on Aunts wedding bonnet - & Carrie another old thing - took Tim and away we went - in about ten minutes we were there, looked in the window, saw W. Titus & Lillie in the Parlor - now we were in a fix. Lillie would tell; we put round to the kitchen and after much work, running fixing etc we 10 got into the bedroom, Bill & Dick locking the parlor door, when we got in O! such fun! Dick and Sile Titus were dressed so queer their faces as black as coal - then there was another gent there and he was brought out and we were introduced to him then we all came back they with us and were so lively all the time - I hope it will all be kept a secret - old folks might think it queer not knowing the circumstances! February 1st - The anniversary of my birthday - 19 years of my life have past, before the next one is past I may be an angel in the Spirit land how uncertain is life, how little we know what - one day may bring forth. how much we should all try to be prepared, so when the angel messenger comes to call us to our home, we will not need to ask one moment to prepare for the long journey - to day has been one of deep thought and silent prayers - After school Anne and I drove two of Anns friends to Flushing. 2 - To day Carrie and I were to have gone to New York but it is raining and cloudy so we did not, she came after me and I went home with her as it cleared off beautifully - 3rd We were up early and by seven oclock off for the Boat - called at the office I received two letters one from home the other from Coz - both places are quite lively Darby very much so, Lide has just received a Philopena present from Od Andrews. a handsome volume of Byron Poems a nice gift indeed We met Charliey on the boat also [Cousin] Robert who was very polite paid both for Cad and me when we arrived in the City [Cousin] K. got in an omnibus with us paid again and after riding one block jumped out with a "good morning ladies" we went round and did our shopping; called at the Metropoletan 11 saw Mrs Mickle had a splendid time - then up to her Aunt Phebes - went into Thompsons had an elegant dinner came up in the boat had a nice time with [Cousin] Frame - then home having spent a delightful day and knowing now we had at last gratified our wish of being in New York together. they brought me home Willets, I mean - 4th This day six years ago our precious father bid farewell to all on earth, his spirit ascended to that blessed throne where angels dwell and purified spirits ever hoover round the footstool of Omnipotence: what happiness, what joy must be there and O! such a blessed thought to feel when on earth, as he did that he was prepared to meet his Maker his life was so pure, so good, so full of love and peace and although persecuted by unchristian men, he forgave them all, well knowing he had endeavored always to act well his part -. Aunt and Uncle went to [Meeting] then to L.W. to dine on Turkey . I went home with Lillie to cary her doll - 5th They dined at [Cousin] Roberts - I was invited to Gilbert Pearsalls this eve - a party for young people Carrie took me and we had a grand time Charley Frame and Mary were there, and every thing went on splendid played games, spin the Platter, danced a little etc. Charley was so polite - and pleasant, ice cream & Charlotte Ruse on the eve after a good supper - got home at one, then I wrote quite a letter home, they were all in bed; I will never forget this night - Richard was not there having a previous engagement. 6th Aunt Uncle & Ann started this morn for Crosswicks a lovely day but quite cold - no one left but Carrie and me but we will get along - Dick & Silas were here - I went down to Ed Laurences - 12 7th It snowed during the night, and was hard at it a while this morning; Tim drove Carrie and me over to [Cousin] R, I left her there as it stormed so I did not wish to take her to [Meeting] I went on and got there at ten oclock having gone early so the coachman could go to church. I waited in the [Meeting] house one hour but I had my small testament and read eight chapters in it after [Meeting] we young folks had a nice chat [with] Frames etc. I went to [Cousin] Roberts to dine, about four Cad & Sarah came the latter got out. Carrie told me to jump in and go home with her, I did and had a splendid time the snow was all gone & it was elegant, we went and called on Mary Frame Charley was so polite then to Willets to tea back to [Cousin] R and spent the evening - 8th Nothing particular happened to day - things go on the same 9th Invitation came to attend the funeral of Jemima Hammond - a school teacher of Flushing - Richard called I wrote to Aunt E. 10th A lovely warm morning but before night it was very cold and windy - 11th Extremely blustery and cold, Lydia & Carrie went there to dine [Cousin] C came back with them spend the afternoon then I drove them over to Cornells - made a call came back found Em W here going to stay all night -. I am better to day have had a very bad sore throat for several days - and a bad cold too so I felt miserable. Retired at 12 oclock. 12th Em went off to school - I remained at home my cold is so bad - LWC said maybe they would come but they did not - though I looked for them. 13th Very cold and windy have not have had such severe weather this winter - 14th Snowed all day but still there is very little it goes some how did not go to [Meeting]. - In the afternoon Richard, Bill & Lib & Ed Laurence came over in a big sled with four oxen wanted me to take a ride there being no other lady I declined - they did not stay long - Carrie & I drank tea at Anns - finished "Queechy" & it is so splendid what a heavenly creature Fleda was and Mr Carleton 13. so noble and generous, withall so pure and good - such a mind as his well stored with knowledge and trusting so fully to a Higher Power - such a heart at his would be worth striving for so different from the young men we meet now - how few there are that I would trust my happiness to - I hope I may learn to put my trust in One who will not forsake me, who has promised to be a "Father to the fatherless" - This is Valentine's day - I have not sent one the first time I have missed for several years. Do not expect any either 15th Very windy and cold not enough snow to go a sleighing - 16th Cousin R. & C came over a little while to see if we were alive yet my cold is some better though I cough a good bit yet - I was writing to Uncle Thomas Jackson this evening when we heard some one in the house, after searching, seeing caps here and there hearing noises etc they were brought to light - L.N.C. Bill & Sile & Fred Smart - They staid some time and we had a real pleasant time - Fred said somebody showed him a valentine and said they thought I sent it but I did not - 17th Still cold and blustery - Cousin Robert came over and we went home with them - staid to tea. I left word for Tim, to go after us but before he did, they said we had a good deal better stay as Carrie had such a very bad cold, the insisted on so we did and had a nice time they were all so very kind - Cousin Phebe does so much for one - 18th Tim came after us, and I have had a busy day. Lilly & Carrie both such heavy colds I have been nursing them all day giving them medicine etc. etc. - Richard and Sile came round after school brought me a letter from Lyd saying they were coming home to morrow - they (R) bought me a valentine I guess they sent it - as it was post in at Flushing - it was a right pretty one with two words on in, BE MINE. I would like to know who 14. 18 - sent it - I sent one to T.S. Ann came over and thought Carrie quite poorly so as soon as Richard went home [Cousin] W came over to see if he could anything; Ann came after tea we soaked her feet etc. 19th Carrie is better kind [Cousin] R. came over to see us; his wife has a very bad cold About six oclock this P.M. Uncle, Aunt, Anne and sister Lyd came I was very glad to see them indeed I could hardly "contain myself", it was so nice to see some one from home - it has been snowing all day. they had to wait in New York nearly 4 hours as the boat did not run on account of the ice but once a day - 20th Snowed nearly all night and continued all day so that now every thing is robed on bridal array and most beautiful in it - I had no school to day. this P.M. Richard came over in a sleigh through the storm, he is a great boy. his birthday 21st Most a splendid morning the sun shining beautifully. [Cousin] R & R came over, told us Edward Hannah's had a fine little boy I am so glad it is over poor young thing she is Aunt Uncle Lyd and self started to [Meeting] in the sleigh. [Cousin] R. & R. passed us & stopped for me to go with them which I did and we had a delightful ride After [Meeting] had a pleasant chat - Lyd went home with Lydia L as far as Cousin R - we both dined there; about [half] past 3 - Charley Frame & Mary, William, Silas & Mary, Ed Laurence Lyd Dick and myself went to take a sleigh ride, had two horses & two mules with a wagon body on a sled - Oh! it was a jolly ride we went for Carrie W. then all round did not get back till dark, had a good ride, most splendid time , and the drivers was good William T. drove, but R. turned two or three times they are both excellent drivers. After tea most nine oclock - they came with six oxen, three irishmen drivers etc. etc. Carrie W. & I went but Lyd could not go in the night air, we had a grand time, there were no seats in the wagon so we [Left margin] One year to day since I came here to teach 15. all sat in the bottom, it snowed a little and then they would put the Buffaloes over our heads and all - we had real fun took Cad home C. was so funny - and all lively; sang - talked etc. I can never forget that ride, got back here after eleven found all in bed, we talked about Valentines - Charley said he would tell me whose writing it was - 22nd This is in the aniversary of a great and good mans birthday - George Washington the Father of his country - a noble man indeed - Aunt went over to Cousin Roberts he and Lydia & Cousin Phobe came over a little while, he brot me four letters three of which were Valentines (all comic) every one put on in Flushing, direction pretty good - I do wonder who sent them. I suppose it was all done for fun I do not care - [Cousin] R & C were here awhile - 23rd I drove over to Cousin R. for Anne and Lydia when I came back Lyd and Aunt went to Flushing drove themselves on a sleigh after school Carrie W came over to take us a sleigh ride. her mother staid here and we went (Lyd & I) when we got to Flushing met Dick Sile & Bill, invited them to go with us Dick had no horse so James (driver) got out and he got in, we went to Jamaica had a splendid ride (past [?] etc.) - came back about dark they staid here to tea (Cad is so kind) 24th I was up early and rode on the pony over to Cousin R. then I went on to Ahlis's to invite them here to morrow eve L.N.C. went with me - Aunt E. was going to Gilbert Laurences to spend the day Lyd did care to go so I did drove ourselves in the sleigh, had a nice time - 25th Up early and at work preparing for the party which is for me. They nearly all came we expected about twenty young folks we had a delightful time, Frames were there we played etc. the supper table looked very nice indeed and all passed off pleasantly - Emmy took Carries Accordian. Murray was here - 26th Lyd taught awhile this morn - I was busy out in the kitchen 16. 27th Carrie came over awhile but I was dressing so did not see her she brought me a beautiful little marble scent bottle with the words "Love the Giver" engraved upon it - such things I value more for the love of the giver than the gift - Lyd and Aunt Eliza and self went to Cousin Roberts to tea - Carrie was there too, after tea Dick blew a horn and soon in came Will Titus, Charlie Frame & Joe - we spent a delightful evening - played consequences - 28th We went to [Meeting] had a nice time - In the afternoon Richard came over and took Lyd and I over to Carries Bill T. & Charlie F were there we had a grand time played cross questions worked answers etc. kisses etc. - [Crossed out: 29th] [In margin: March 1st] Uncle and I came down to New York - I have bid farewell to "Old Long Island's Sea Girt Shore" for two short months - We came down to the Battery and there I waited till two oclock but it was a very handsome boat and I went in and took a nap - we came to Amboy, the view along Statin Island is beautiful - we took the cars and came to the Land Hills, where dear Uncle Charley met me, what a sad change there had been in his family since I had seen him, the last time we had met dear Aunt Phebe was there with her pleasant words and cheerful smile to greet us - 2nd Uncle Lennie and I went to [Meeting] the first persons I saw were Cousin Cyrus, Ruth & Ruth Anna - the latter came over to take the school at Crosswicks - they dined at E. Middletons In the afternoon I marked over sixty names with indelible ink quite a job -. They got along very well. Lennie does excellent and Lizzie is such a lovely girl - 17 March 3rd Children went to school and we had a nice time 4th Uncle Charley brought Jennie and myself to Bordentown then we came down in the cars did some shopping made several calls - M Longstreth to dine etc. - at four I went to the Omnibus and who should I see but Cousin Mary she was coming out to stay all night - when we got out Lide ran down to meet us - and very soon I was once more in my dear home where I met with a warm welcome - they all seemed glad to see me back again - and Oh! how happy I was once more to meet with friends and relatives - 5th After dinner Oldden came up for Cousin Mary - Lide & I went to the Post Office - saw several folks - I went round to Aunt Emilys a while saw her babe - which is named Halliday 6th I went to Sallies school a while - down to the store etc. - in the evening Chalk & Ned came - John Andrews stopped in to see Mother found we had company so took her home with him Ned went after her - we had a very pleasant evening - 7th Went to [Meeting] and so many exclaimed "What a stranger" - I was introduced to "Mr Morton" and several others - In the afternoon Eph Jackson & John Levis came - in the evening John Brending - about dark who should drive up but Brother - we were surprised to see him as we did not expect him - 8th Mother went to Cousin Marys with Aunt Esthers to eat roast Turkey - Ben and I went in his carriage and we had a grand time - they all came back to attend a sale - but I staid as I had a bad cold and it was snowing very hard - Ben and Oldden went on a sleigh - upset just after they got outside the gate - That evening we had a pleasant time, Eph played on his violin most splendidly - both nice fellows - good hearted - 18 9th I awoke this morn and found everything bright and beautiful the whole earth was covered with a pure white mantle of snow sparkling and bright as the morning dew drop - I went with Oldden to take a little sleigh ride - he and Ben went out and Cousin M. and I had a nice time - then Ben Oldden and myself came home to tea in a two horse sleigh very soon John Bunting came then we went to take a ride Sallie and John - in his - Bee & Ben Oldden Lide & self in the big one we went into Market [Street] bus the snow being gone we crossed the wire bridge - had a splendid ride called at Miss Cregs - but she was poorly so we went on - had a funny time - just before we got to the bridge, runner broke we upset etc. O. caught me, none of us were hurt brother held the horses - we waited awhile walked part away upset again - and at last arrived at the Hotel there we were treated, played Bagatelle, stopped an hour and then Lide, Sallie & John started in his sleigh. Ben Rebecca Oldden and myself in a carriage they had procured - very soon we were seperated - they came on home but we lost our way, called up a man, came very near beings upset all jumped out etc. went several miles round but at last got on the Darby Plank - we got home by two - Sallie had been here two hours - but with all there were none of us who would have missed it - no not for anything Olden & Ben came in to get warm and here we sat O! such a time I never had quiet talk - [?] etc. - we eat a pie - etc. etc. 18th The boys stopped this morn on their way to return the carriage then came back here to dine - brought the sleigh back 11th I wrote to my dear Carrie Willets - In the afternoon Cousin Hannah came in the Omnibus. I was so glad to see her - 19 12th Mother and Bub went to the City to do some shopping Coz and I had a nice time good talk about old times. 13th We spent a pleasant day at home, in the eve Sam came & soon Oldden & Mr Morton The latter staid till twelve altogether we had a delightful evening - sigars - [?] etc. 14th Quite cloudy we went to [Meeting] Sarah Hoopes & Mother both spoke - Jay B. brought us home as it rained - In the afternoon Olden and Mr Berks came they staid to tea and spent the evening - Jacob Serril and Hugh Loyd spent the eve here also, quite a pleasant time 15th Rainy this morn but cleared off soon Coz and I went to Rebecca's School - then we went into the City in the Omnibus went to Ashtons staid all night - had a pleasant visit. [?] 16th We went out and did some shopping - Uncle George came down and then we went home with him Tom Phipps was there 17th Oh it seems so nice to be back here again so like home - we went over to Phipps to spend the evening had a nice time. 18th I was not very well - took medicine, an emetic etc. fever etc. 19th Still no better not able to sit up - Aunt says tis billious fever pulse 120, they are doctoring me with Thomsonian Medicine which I believe has saved me from a long spell of sickness and a heavy Doctors bill - bad caugh, cold settled on my liver - they are so kind, do every thing, put onions to my feet, give pills etc. 20th Much better this morn, Uncle took me a ride & I am most well 21st Rainy so we did not go to [Meeting] - cleared off and in the afternoon we went to Luken's staid to tea etc. had a nice time, Mart very kind Liz and I spent the afternoon with Sallie Bowman 22nd 23rd Staid there took medicine to get well - fell much better though 24th Coz and I went to Norristown I drove, Maggie had gone to Doylestown Cousin Mattie was at Roberts, so we went to Raelstons Examination 20 we had a very nice time, they had music, Essays etc. the scholars were examined in different studies, all passed off well - we got home by three then Benn and I went up to Foulkes had a sweet visit and a nice time riding home it was so moonlight got back at one - 25th Sallie Bowman Jim & Harriet Biles took tea with us - they were so pleasant 26th Cousin Oliver brought me to Germantown and then I came in the cars did some shopping called on Cordie - and came out home - in the evening, we had a party for the children about 20 between 12 & 17 - they had a nice time - 27th Sallie & Mother went to town, with Uncle Hall Ma returned with him Uncle Paxson came down for Hall & Sallie, after tea Lide & I went to Morgan Buntings for some peas Joe waited on us home spent the eve 28th Went to Meeting this morning had a long sermon from John Hunt which was very good considering it was from him - after dinner we started for [?] arrived there before dark found all well & glad to see us I had never been here before - 29th A pleasant day with Aunt Jane they are very busy fixing up the old house which will be very nice when done - 30th A lovely morning - so bright & beautiful - I am having such nice times dear little Rachel is so sweet I took a ride on Josiah [?] three year old colt - very quiet though 31st Aunt's girl is away so I assist all I can - Lid Temple came over to spend the eve her brother Charley is head carpenter works here & is a funny fellow too - we had a delightful time, played violin danced etc. APRIL 1st Josiah & Mary here to dine - after dinner Sallie & I went to West Chester drove Lady, we had a splendid ride - made several calls went to see Grand Mother & then drove out to Thomas Hoopes's for a bundle we came 21 back to Josiah Wilsons to tea and spent a pleasant eve Edward was very polite & all very kind indeed - Hall was there to drive us home - altogether it was a memorable day, sis and I April fooled boys, people etc. 2nd Uncle Paxson brought me home as he had to come down for some trees - I was sorry to leave as I had spent such a delightful time in their romantic home - 3rd Uncle left us early this morn; about eleven Sallie and Lide went to the City with Uncle Hall to do some shopping - returned about four P.M. 4th All except Willie went to Meeting, and had a splendid sermon, two hours long from Rachel W. Moore O! how eloquent she was ever one seemed so attentive the house was full downstairs and a good many up - Grand father Child who came out yesterday returned in the Omnibus - Joe Bunting (our Joe) was here also Oldden - then Dr Moore, wife & I companions - 5th Washed and ironed - In the eve quite a thunder shower Rebecca, Sallie & Mother wrote to Lyd a long letter 6th Mother and I had a nice quiet time at home - 7th In the evening Jacob Serril took Sallie & Rebecca up to John Sellor's - Oldden took Lide & I a ride we went most to the city - then he came back and staid with us till they got home which was quite late - he staid till 12 8th Willie not being very well I did not go to [Meeting] in the afternoon I went to Aunt Emilys, to tea had a nice time 9th Today we received a letter from dear Brother this day he enters upon manhood no longer a child in years - but poor fellow his prospects have been blighted his 22 hopes blasted; he has seen a full share of sorrow in his young life - may his future be less fully dark clouds - may the rest of his life 10th Dr Truman wife & Jane Hunt were here; in the P.M. Sallie & I drove Uncle Halls horse down to Cousin Marys - Lide was all ready but was taken sick so could not go - We had a pleasant visit - Mr Berks drove us home Oldden too came & they spent the evening -; oranges etc. etc. 11th Sallie & I went to [Meeting]. Mother & Lide being poorly remained at home - several callers after [Meeting]. O.R. etc. In the evening Jacob Serril, Hugh Lloyd & Ned Andrews here 12th Very Rainy, put the clothes out but they did not dry - 13th Cloudy and rainy very unpleasant so see no sunshine - 14th I received a letter from dear Uncle Paxson, after tea Rebecca and I went to Dr Beeds awhile then to Grace Bunting, John waited on us home & then spent the evening - 15th Mother & I went to [Meeting] then I to the office in the afternoon Lide & I went to Grace Buntings - after tea Sallie R & I went to take a walk, John H. Bunting & Chalk Bartram waited on us home & spent the evening Oldden too was here - we had a pleasant eve - 16th Rainy again to day - all the week nearly has been stormy - 17th Mother B. was here this P.M. about 5 Charley Temple & Lid from Chester [County] came - after tea we took a lovely walk, got candy etc. found Oldden here he staid till quite late & we had a nice time - 18th A most lovely morning - we took a sweet walk then all went to [Meeting] - after dinner Charley, Lid and I started for [Philadelphia] had a most splendid ride - we left Lid & then went out to Aunt Esthers - found Oldden & several others there staid to [Left margin} letter from [Cousin] and Uncle Paxson 23 tea and had a delightful time got home about nine soon after Chalk, Ned, Joe & Oldden came - we had a grand time - 19th Charley started for home - and as Rebecca had not come out I went & took her place - taught all day - had no difficulty - made them all mind first rate -. 24 there - 20th Rainy again, LIde & I went to Monthly [Meeting]. Chalk brought us home as it rained very hard -. Aunt R. this P.M. 21st Cloudy this morn but cleared off beautiful - so nice to see sunshine again George Serrell & John H. B. spent the eve - 22nd This P.M. Nettie took Mother & I up to Sharon we walked back had a very nice time - Oldden came in the evening & took us to Hibberds, we had a splendid time - Chalk & Joe there - 23rd Sallie & I went to Mother Buntings to tea in the eve Jim & Ned Andrews took Lide & Rebecca - we had a most lovely evening - All came home in one carriage, as it rained hard - 24th A lovely day I went & kept house for Aunt Emily while they went to [Philadelphia] - in the eve Oldden & Mr Berks here - 25th Cloudy all day - Cousin Mary & Maryetta dined here - a little before dark Mother went over to Dodgsons - she did not return until [half] past ten - Ned came over to tell us that the pure spirit of our dear Hannah, had left for a brighter home, quietly & calmly it took its departure, not a cloud was in the way all was bright & beautiful beyond; what a void is felt in that family circle how deeply do I sympathise with the afflicted ones in their bereavement - she who was ever ready with her smile & ever willing to give advice has been consigned to the tomb, still why should we weep surely not for her she is happy - 24 26th Mother went to Wilmington to [Quarterly Meeting] did not feel like going while dear Hannah was a corpse but all thought she had better, as she was clerk and they could not well do without her - 27th Today is [Quarterly Meeting] but Darby friends will be absent their hearts are with the bereaved - one subject was before the [Meeting] yesterday - it concerned our dear Mother all united and now she is a recommended minister Paul Serril spent the evening here, but we felt sad - 28th Mother came home this morning - with Aunt R - 29th This P.M. we all went to the house of mourning what a solemn scene was there - she whom we all had so loved was about to be consigned to her last resting place - it was a very large funeral John Hunt, Sarah Hoopes, & Deborah Wharton spoke - In the eve, Joe Bunting & Chalk Bartram came also J Levis 30th Look quite dark but cleared off - Rebecca gone to [Philadelphia] May 1st Ma went to town, Sallie was at home in the afternoon Cousin Hannah and Brother came, we were so glad to see them - it is so pleasant to see them again - 2nd So cloudy, I am sorry for dear Cousin Oliver and Chalk Holt were coming, but will not now, we all went to [Meeting] and had a good sermon from Henry Ridgway In the afternoon Mr Scholfield John Bunting Sam & Hannah Ann were here we all took a walk along the creek - In the eve Mr Morton here all away but Lide & I 3rd We cleaned up stairs to day S Hoopes here awhile 4th Washed to day, Dr Beed here in the evening 25 5th I went and took Sallies school this morn when I got home found Eph Ridgeway, Lide and I went home with him and had a grand time spent the evening delightfully - Oldden and I had such a nice long talk, just as brother and sister we are now stronger friends than ever - 6th It cleared off beautifully we enjoyed it so much after dinner Eph brought us home - then we got ready and went to McAllisters, where we had a delightful time, Ned & Chalk were there & waited on us home remained here some time - I received letter from C. L. ......from Chester county - 7th Rainy again this morn - Jim [?] [?] here in the evening 8th Mother went to [Philadelphia] also Sallie, Jane Bell and [?] came out in the Omnibus, in the evening Mother & Jay Bunting, George Serrill Oldden, Ridgway John H. Bunting - we spent a very pleasent eve about one oclock brother came home - we had looked for him. 9th Went to [Meeting] had a sermon from Catharine Foulke - in the afternoon, Oldden & Mr Morton came then we all went to Aunt Esthers, three carriage loads there were between twenty & thirty there, a delightful time - 10th Looks rainy. Mother & Sallie went into the City to stay, as it is our Yearly Meeting - J. Serrill here in the eve - 11th I went to town with Uncle Hall to attend [Meeting] met many of my friends - such a number of schoolmates P. Penrose there too - we dined at the [Meeting] house - it rained very hard most all day - thunder in the eve - 26 12th Lide and I both went in town with Uncle Hall had a splendid time - saw so many of our friends - from all parts of the country Byberry, Plymouth, etc. In the afternoon Sallie Cousin Mattie and myself went to Dr's Johnson's and Oh what a time we had, this day will ever be rembered by all, a change in my whole life, a glimpse of the future etc. "Prize Prize," brushes in the pathway, which can be shaken off - Mother black hair, on a hill, rich - etc. enough to think of for a long long time - I came out that eve J. Serrill here - 13th We both went in this morn had an excellent [Meeting] some good sermons, any one should feel better after attending such places & hearing such true gospel - saw many dear friends, dined at Dr Moore's came out in the eve - Oldden came & staid all night - 14th Went in again to day rained some but cleared off - we went to Mrs Johnsons again, Lide too - Yearly [Meeting] closed this morn - house was crowded now we are all home again - 15th This eve Lide and I went down to John Andrew's to see Sade and Marts babies, spent most of the eve Jim, & Ned waited on us home - found Cousin Mary & Maryetta here - 16th Oldden here this morn - awhile, quite cloudy but cleared off beautifully in the P.M. wrote to [Cousin] Temple [Cousin] Mattie Carrie H. after tea we took a walk to Jones's spent most of the eve 17th Nettie Jackson and my friend Sallie Willets took tea with us we had a delightful time, Cousin Mary Maryetta and Oldden were here awhile, Sallie H. is from New York 18th Busy sewing at my dress which I cut out yesterday - 19th Finished my dress this P.M. Mother and I walked 27 up to Dr Longstreth's staid to tea had a very pleasant time he brought us home in his carriage -. We went to Joseph's awhile. 20th This P.M. I dressed all up in Mothers clothes, plain cap and all, I looked very different - Dr Budd & Carrie had quite a laugh - about six I donned Mothers bonnet & shawl & Sallie & I went down to the Omnibus to see if Lyd was there, she came and we were real glad to see she had been away 3 months - In the evening Aunt Esther Cousin John were here also John H. Bunting & Oldden Ridgway, John hardly knew me in plain attire - we had a very nice evening - 21st Lyd tells me for certain I'm not going back to New York, really I am glad; it will be so delightful to be at home a summer, I will enjoy it so much and probably it is all for the best "Prize" - . We were busy putting away Lyd's clothes and fixing drawers. etc. etc. etc. etc. 22nd Lyde went down to take care of Aunt Emilys babe while they went to town, I went to the office found a most delightful letter from dear Cousin Mattie one I had looked for it brought much peace of mind, satisfied me for a time, answers were satisfactory to both of us - I was round at Uncle Halls awhile came home to dine - In the afternoon who should come but Charley Temple and Hall Price - after tea we took a walk - we got candy etc. 23rd All went to [Meeting] this morn, Oldden brought Lyd home, Sam and Humphry here in the P.M. Mr Berks came to invite me to go with him to Aunt Esthers but I declined; Charley & Hall went home after tea Ned Andrews spent the evening here we had a delightful time 28 24th Jim & Ned Andrews spent the evening here Jim came to bid us Good bye he expects to start for the West tomorrow night at eleven olclock - we will miss him much and all feel sorry he is going to leave us - he expects to remain some time - we all wished him well - 25th Our monthly [Meeting], Lizzie Jones & Ansley Gevaet sent in a certificate of marriage - it rained after [Meeting], a little, but we went to the office & Jim A waited on us home and we know not how long it will be before he enters our doors again - this P.M. he leaves home & friends to become a wanderer in a strange land - but I trust he will not forget home influences for I guess they were good he was blessed with two lovely sisters - 26th Rainy again to day, so much wet stormy weather Aunt Ester here - 27th Another rainy day Aunt E went this morn - Oldden & Maryetta here this P.M. Rebecca and I spent the eve with Alice Pearson Jacob Serrill waited on his home J.J.B.[?] 28th Once more we behold the smiling face of the beautiful Sun - how cheerful every thing looks so bright & lovely - 29 Mother & Sallie spent the day at Aunt Esthers - Cousin Mary took them - Mary Bonsall came out on the Omnibus - 30 Quite a lovely day - in the eve Ned Lide & I went to Josiah Bunting 31 Washed and ironed about done when a carriage load of company came. Cousin Mattie Charley Ed & Sarah Roberts and Samuel Tyson we had a delightful evening. JUNE 1st I had to leave and go into the city having made an engagement with the Dentist - I staid there till [half] past twelve then went and did some shopping came out in the four oclock cars found Lide had 29 gone to Norristown with them to stay some time - 2nd Uncle Hall & Aunt Emily here to tea, children also 3rd Received a letter from Bayside saying Cousin Robert, Catharine & Lilly Bell would be here this eve - Lyd and I went to the Omnibus to meet them in the eve there were ten of our friends here Bunting, Jones, Andrews, Bartrams, Powells, etc. etc. 4th I went into the city again to Newlins - was there all morning, then attended a prayer Meeting where many heartfult prayers were offered up for those whose soul had not yet been led to God - it was a solemn scene I then went to see Cord then to the Academy of Natural Sciences where I saw many curious species of animals of every kind and description - I came out in the six oclock cars, Rebecca and Sallie met me - 5th Aunt Emilys two babies here to take care of while she is town In the evening Ben & Lizzie Stackouse came she was in town so he brot her out with him - 6th Went to [Meeting] [?] here in the P.M. we took a walk - 7th Cousin Cyrus & Ruth dined with us then went on further - 8th Cleaned house etc. - a delightful little shower - June 23rd Weeks have passed since I wrote the last in this common place diary since then there has been changes - the weather has become more beautiful and summer like, company have come and gone as usual among others Cousin Oliver who brought Lide home expecting to take me home with him but I could not go being indisposed - so it is we 30 know not what a single day may bring forth little did I think when last I wrote in this that before pen was again taken up my system would be racked with that horrid disease chills and fever- why they came is a mystery but here they are, first I tried Thomsonian but not having the medicines and no Physician being near - we had to apply to Dr Budd who is using all his efforts to stop them by the use of Quinine they have been checked now the trouble will be to keep them off without using too much of that article. I suppose now I will be liable to have them any time. I am getting better now & hope to go on improving - yesterday we had the Bunting tribe to tea - and my dear friend Oldden was here a little while. Ah few know him - It is a lovely day and I long to be out in the yard among the flowers - the sweet little birds are so sweetly singing - July 31st More than a month has elapsed since I wrote in this, but what has passed in all that time cannot be written here - suffice it to say on the first of July I went to Uncle George's and remained till yesterday - had a delightful time - Cousin H and I drove about a good deal to Norristown etc. - then I rode out often with the rest altogether I had a very pleasant time - it is so much like home kind hearts are always ready to welcome me there, and they are always doing kindnesses, Cousin Hannah gave me a beautiful gold pen, which I will ever treasure both for the valuable 31 and useful gift as well as an evidence of her love & friendship - I am home once more, our family quite small Sallie and Lyd having gone to Uncle Paxsons - for awhile - In the afternoon Cousin Mattie & Charley Humphry and Edward Roberts came - we expected them - AUGUST 1st No one went to [Meeting] except Charley and Mother we had a good one at home with the dear spirits - received a communication which to me was very satisfactory in the P.M. Sam and Amos Hillborn came the latter went to the cars at 6 oclock, after tea we all took a walk, which was very pleasant and I doubt not some of the company will remember it came back and sat on the Portico and sang, I had on low neck but a shawl covered it. 2nd Rainy all day, which will do very much good to every growing thing; the ground was so dry before - 3rd It cleared off yet a heavy thunder show this afternoon, but cleared off beautifully - Ned spent the eve here - 4th Cloudy but cleared off in the afternoon - 5th We went to [Meeting] and I was welcomed back again in the afternoon Mother and I walked over to Jabez Buntings came back to tea, then Lidie and I went up to Sharon found Nettie & Hill both poorly - on our way back met several of the company going to James Andrews where there was a party the first was Ned, who told us that the great achievement was accomplished, he had just 32 heard that the Niagara had landed with the Atlantic Telegraph, the cable had been safely laid and now the Old world is connected with the New - it is certainly one of the greatest things the Nation ever accomplished - 6th Lide went to spend the day with Mollie Bunting - 7th This P.M. Charley Temple and Hall Price came bringing with them Sallie & Lyd who had been spending some time at Uncle Paxsons - while we were at tea Cousin Mary sent for Lide & I went to the Hotel where she treated us to ice cream so kind in her - In the eve we all took a walk and Charley treated us again - good hearted fellow 8th We went and took a lovely ride then came back and attended [Meeting]. Invited Sam to go to Cousin Mary after dinner he came up spent the P.M. in the eve he took Lyd & I down there, we had a very nice time - Tomlinsons, Hays Ben Morton etc. eat Philopenas with several J.H.B to catch [?] 9th Cousin Mary here and spent the eve - Oldden too - Sallie and I walked up to the shoemakers lovely talk etc. etc. etc. - 10th Sallie went to Norristown, Aunt R called on her way from the city - spoke of a school. I wrote to Edward Willett Dr George Truman etc. Mary Jackson spent the eve here also etc. S. Bunting - M. Allister called a little while Uncle W. too - 11th Quite a shower this afternoon; all busy sewing etc. etc. 12th I wrote to Cousin Hannah went to [Meeting] in the morning - 13th Eph Ridgway came up and took Lide and I home with him to remain untill first day 14th A nice pleasant day at Cousin Marys, Dr Budd and 33 Lyd called there awhile; in the eve after old folks had retired and Eph, Lide Oldden and self were spending the time pleasantly; Ben Morton came we spent a delightful evening then he staid all night - 15th Eph brought us home we got ready and then went to [Meeting]. Dr Bud and Poet John spent the eve here - 16th I am not very well, so not able to assist much. Ned [?] S B and I M. B. spent the evening with us very pleasantly - 17th Received a letter from Sallie who is enjoying herself much Uncle Charley, Janie and Johnny came; George s Shinn H.B & Ned here - 18th Uncle and Johnny went home - Jennie is going to remain awhile Nettie was here this morning gave us an invitation to her party of Darby friends which is to come off this evening - We are all prepared and Sharon carriage came for Lyd & Jennie, Chalk took me and Ned Lide, there were a good many there and we had a most delightful time splendid refreshments, ice cream, water ices, cakes pine apples, water melons cantelopes peaches etc. etc. 19th Lide & Jennie went to [Meeting] I was not able. yesterday I received a letter from Edward Willets giving me the terms etc. so I suppose I am engaged it will be quite a trial for me to leave home this winter, there are many chains which bind me to this place, strong ones too which may hold my thoughts though my body may be far away; memory still clings to past pleasures, which time may not efface - We had a lively evening though we were alone except Jennie, who is going to remain till Second day - 34 20th Cousin Ephraim came up for us to go down there so Mother Jennie Lide and myself went we had a very pleasant day indeed, Eph Ridgway brought us home we left Jennie at Sharon then came home & Lide and I dressed quickly and then Eph took us to Hays there was quite a party there and we had a splendid time danced, promenaded, etc. it is a lovely place to visit though we were never there before we enjoyed it exceedingly. I drove most of the way home got here [half] past 2 entirely too late but several things detained us D. Daniel Pory etc. etc. 21st I sent a note to Sam inviting him to a little company at Uncle Williams, Jennie Lide & I had a nice day prepared for the party, etc. Ned took those two; Chalk myself; I drove home we rode round etc. delightful time 22nd Brother came yesterday - we all went to Meeting this morn, Ned, Chalk, Joe M. & Poet John spent the evening here - 23rd Mother & Ben went to the city we washed in the P.M. Penquite Linton & Dr Ash came then. John Child Eph & Brother went to a party at Passmores - 24th Monthly Meeting, Aunt Hennie, Nettie Aunt R etc. took tea here Poet John spent the evening with us - 25th Ben took Lide & I down to Cousin Mary's where we spent a delightful day, saw Oldden alone etc. - coming home trace broke horse kicked, we jumped out behind Lide fainted etc. several men there soon; so we fixed up and came home found Dr Budd & Carrie here. 26th I went in the city met Sallie & Lyd shopped all day 35 called on Pierce & Purvis, came out in the 6 oclock train found Mother & Lide had gone to John Andrews to tea 27th Lide & I went up to Sharon spent the day very pleasantly 28th Eph here to tea Oldden came after him spent the eve 29th A most beautiful day, we went to [Meeting] had a long sermon from Clarkson Taylor which was excellent. this afternoon I read 200 pages in Theory of Teaching by Page 30th Aunt Rachel and Nettie called here awhile - 31st Busy sewing all day - Sallie commenced school yesterday [Corrected in pencil: September] August 1st To day all the cities will be illuminated to celebrate the Atlantic Telegraph - how great is the rejoicing all over the world - the first message received was one of peace - Peace with China, Cyrus W. Fields and his constituants name will descend to future generations with glory, and honor - what a mind he must have to overcome so many difficulties - 2nd Charley Humphries was here all night and in the eve Dr Budd, Charley and we had a pleasant talk. etc. etc. etc. 3rd I was round at Grace & Patties then at Sallie's school Joe & Ned here 4th A lovely shower and then the sun came out Oh so beautifully such a glorious sight - enough to make every heart thrill with gratitude to the Omnipetent Jane Bell came out in the Omnibus - Cleared off - 5th Oldden here to dine & spend the afternoon, Mary Jackson awhile also we all retired early being very tired I not feeling like entertaining company 6th Janie went in this morning - Rebecca came out in the cars to again commence her duties of teaching Miss Hunt had the other school. Our family is getting large again - 36 7th Very busy sewing at my new dress I have so much to do before I go to new York. After tea Lidde and I took a walk called at Mart Jones's found her getting ready to escort [?] part way home so we went with her Ned overtook us and waited on us back - spent eve - 8th Another lovely day so much beautiful weather - 9th Went to Meeting, from there Ma went to Dr Longstreth Lide & Sallie walked up after school. Oldden spent the last of the eve here he Lide & myself 10th Hannah Ann & Humphry spent the eve here - 11th Lide's 18 birthday and I am older [?] how time flies, how necessary that we should improve it - Lyd came home from Plymouth, brought me a present of a very handsome portfolio good kind sister. E.K.B here. 12th Went to Meeting as usual saw Lizzie Clement - Samuel Speakman, was here, awhile Ned Ben B & Nate Sellers also *company company company company company company 16th Chalk & John Ash H. spent the evening here, had a lively time 17th I went in town with Warner, did some shopping then went to Germantown where I did not meet [Cousin] as he had not received my letter, I dined at Elizabeth Leeds, then went to Chestnut Hill, walked to Byle's found them all away so went on to Sallie Bowmans, staid with her till after tea when they took me over to Green Point. They were very much surprized - 18th Cousin Oliver and I started for Newtown, had a lovely ride as it was a most beautiful day - went to Uncle Joseph's to dine found them all very kind. after dinner I went to the Graveyard saw dear fathers grave - the green tree growing from it - we went to Uncle Jontys to tea found the three oldest gone to Buckingham Ellis Conrad, Sallie Cadwallader & Emma Atkinson, called awhile - 37 19th A most lovely morning we started over to Crosswicks got there about 11. found them all at Meeting but they soon came home and were very glad to see us - we spent a delightful day, Coz and Ellie went to take a ride etc. etc. etc. etc. etc. 20th Jen, Coz & I took a ride then had a nice time till 5 oclock when we left for Uncle [?], we stopped at Trenton a few minutes saw my dear friend Lizzie Crozer - She whom I so loved we came on to Albern found them all pretty well except Aunt Fannie 21st Left about [half] past nine stopped at Yardley, Lintons, Uncle Josephs Amoses, etc. got to Uncle G about [half] past three - I wrote to [Cousin] H. 22nd I came to [Philadelphia], did some shopping, went to a friend, talked much and had a very good time; came out in the cars with Mary J. 23rd Grand Mother Jackson was here had a family sitting, Joseph Howell & Margaret Paxson came with her they dined here then went to attend the wedding of Mary Bunting and Doctor Trueblood - about seventy there. mother was overseer Jacob here 24 Lide went to town to shop - to get more of her beautiful new silk - 25 A lovely day - Dr Longstreth & wife, & Beckie Uncle U, wife & Mary all took tea here we had fried chickens, hot rolls etc. etc. etc. 26th All went to [Meeting] Ben M. there and others, Ma went to Aunt Esthers - after dinner Sallie & Jones from [Philadelphia] called awhile - The Bride & five waiters were at Meeting quite a show - this is our last first day at home, as Lide and I expect to start for New York this week to remain some time, me to Harrison she to Long Island, at Uncle T. me among strangers - L. Ash spent the eve 27th Sister Lide and I walked down to Cousin Marys, spent a very pleasant day. Oldden brought us home, kind friend he is gave me his picture Eph had been to Chester [County] but goes home in the afternoon - Oldden spent the evening & bid us good bye - Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah! 38 28th Washed & ironed then Ned came and took Lide & Chalk me to Uncle Williams - had a pretty visit and a lovely ride home in the moonlight I drove wore his gloves 29th This eve Chalk & Ned walked most to Phebe Bartrams I had never been there before we had a splendid visit 30th We to Meeting bid many friends good bye. Ned was up before [Meeting] & invited us down there for tea - so we four girls went spent most of the evening he waited on us home, we found dear Oldden had come again to bid us good bye. I love him like a true brother, Sharon folks at Andrews. OCTOBER 1st Aunt Rachel big wagon stopped for us this morning, so we put in our trunks then Lide and I bid Good Bye to Darby and our own dear home, so leave it for while, we had rather a pleasant ride in and although we stifled back the tears, we deeply felt it would be some time before we saw those dear faces again, Nelson put us out at Front & Walnut, then we got a porter to take down our trunks, we had to wait an hour so went, up second [Street] to do some shopping, saw Jacob Bunting. Bartrams bid good bye to Bob and Josh, saw Harriet, then wended our way to the wharf met Grand father Child, etc. etc. - but at last were seated in the boat which carried us to Tacony where we took the cars, and after a pleasant ride of four hours we reached Jersey City crossed over to New York and immediately met Uncle Thomas who was waiting for us. we found it had rained very hard there so the streets were in a dreadful condition, we went up to Flushing where Aunt Eliza was waiting for us - dear little 39 Carrie was better though I think she looks very bad yet so much swollen, after tea Lizzie Satter - Anne Lide and myself rode over to Cousin R found no one home but Cousin Phebe & Lilly except Mary Hicks etc. - all the rest having gone out to tea, I was quite disappointed I would so love to have seen them all, we staid an hour or so - 2nd We went over to [Cousin] R again but he and Richard had both gone to Flushing so we did not see them, had a nice time with [Cousin] Catharine - at 9 Lizzie & Lide drove Laurence & Myself into Flushing then we came to the city, we rode up to the depot he put me in & then left. I did not feel very bold for I felt I would find friends, a kind gentleman was very polite to me, so I did very well indeed, after a ride of about 27 miles, through a rocky country and long deep tunnels, which were as dark as Egypt except, when a ray of light would come through an opening in the top, we reached Rye - while I was attending to baggage a kind voice said "I suppose thee is the person I am looking for" I turned and beheld a rather young looking man, [Crossed out words] but very pleasant, whom I at once found out, was Edward Willets his two little boys were with him, we were soon in his wagon, & on our road & up such steep hills I never went, but when we did get to the top Oh! such a grand view, Long Island Sound for many miles, & that beautiful country, the sight of which makes ones heart throb with praize 40 after a four and a [half] miles ride we reached his house, where I was kindly welcomed by Anna his lovely wife, I soon felt that all they could do would be done to make me feel at home - I went immediately to my room which is a dear little one, and one door from into the schoolroom, where everything is new, & pleasant - We went to dinner & afterwards had a nice talk with Anna, they have three children 1 girl 13 & the boys then Edwards father who is a very agreeable old man - 3rd First day morning - rather a dull day, they all went to Meeting asked me kindly to go but I declined so wrote home & to Brother, they had considerable company & all seemed kind to me, Aunt Sallie is a dear old woman - the day was not very long though different from what they are in my own dear home where I know all - 4th FOURTH This is my first at schoolteaching at least my own school of so large scholars - some of the girls are larger than I am - I made a short speech read a chapter in the testament, then went on with the studies, it will take some time to get organized I hope I will succeed, I have offered up many a sincere and heartfelt prayer that I would. I got very tired by evening, though they behaved admirably. I have eleven & will soon have more - dear Anna is so lovely - and so companionable, we get along nicely - 5th After school Anna and I walked over to the Post Office which is about [half] a mile I took a letter to Lide - while in school, Edward opened the door & handed me a letter 41 words cannot tell how the touch of the first letter from home sent joy to my heart; then too it was written by my own beloved Mother, with some from dear Sallie & Lyd. how thankfully did I receive that token of their affection. I enclosed it in Lide's so she will receive benefit from it. 6th Cold windy day I get along nicely in my school. Anna and her husband went to Meeting, I kept school late [half] 12 - 7th A real rainy day Edward went to New York to purchase books, he is kind, will get anything I want for the school 8th Cleared off beautifully, though still very cold, I am not home sick, though often when sitting alone in my chamber, or at nights going alone to my bed, my thoughts turn towards those precious ones who are far from me, and it is sometimes with difficulty I keep the hot tears from gushing forth, yet many times a day a prayer of thankfulness is offered up, that I am better off than many poor creatures who are without home and friends, I have both, and endeavor to feel thankful for the blessings which I receive. I am happy as I would be anywhere - away from those, whom I love with all my nature - 9th Had no school. I assisted Anna make cake etc. etc. ironed my silk, etc. after dinner she and went to call at her fathers, I drove and we had a very pleasant time - I waited anxiously till Edward came from the office and then only to be disappointed, no letter, not even from Lide whom I wrote to so soon after I got here - I would not have treated her so - 10th Went to Meeting this morn, it is not so large as ours, and my heart was really sad to see so many strange faces & none 42 that I cared to see, so different from my own place of worship where on looking up I behold the serene and peaceful countenance of my mother to whose voice I often listen with deep feeling; sometimes, proclaiming to the people again offering a prayer to the Eternal One, for the goodness and grace of those who have not yet beheld the goodness an beauty of true christianity, Oh! if there were more like her there would be more, peace & happiness in this transitory world - Anna brother, wife & children came and dined with us, While writing Avis Birdsall & sister called with their carriage and driver to take me a ride, we went to Connecticut. had a delightful view of the country & altogether, a very pleasant time, got back about dark - 11 Went in school again, one new scholar, Ella Haviland, about 15 - 12. I wrote to Cousin Mary two sheets full, how I would love to see her 13 = Edward was in my school this morning Anna this P.M. two pupils [?] 14 = After the rain of yesterday and last night, it cleared off beautifully - I was made happy by the reception of two letters, one from Lide the other from dear home - Mother mentioned about my dear brother [?] [Many lines of text obscured by ink blots] [?], or rather having to pay so much, for the accident he met with at the exhibition in New Jersey. I feel so sorry for him wish I could whisper a word of my regrets in his ear - my heart sank within me [?] I read it, for the fear flashed through my mind, it might prevent him from coming to see me, how could I bear such a disappointment, the hope of seeing a familiar face and a precious friend would be gone, I could no longer anticipate his coming but I will not despair, there maybe happiness [?] [?] for me yet - 15 After I had gone up stairs this evening Edward brought me a letter from dear Cousin Hannah- she has at last got home 43 after an absence of six weeks, had a grand time, in Canada 4 weeks minus two days, she says she looks forward to visiting me, O would I not be glad to see here, none can know how happy I would be, to see some loved relative or friend - though all here are very kind, and I have a pleasant home. 16th No school to day, In the evening Samuel Willets from [New York]. Oh how glad I was to see one face I had met before - but my happiness was double when Edward came in and brought me a letter which proved to be from my dear Rebecca - it was on fools cap and overflowing with joyousness, so interesting, she does write a few lines from Sallie and ROW. 17th West again to the house of worship, did not get my mind very much settled - we had a short sermon from some woman, company here to dine on a fine Roast Turkey, after which Willie Tilton and Mary Corleuis called, were going to take a walk invited me to accompany them which I did, we went to Andersons hill & such a beautiful prospect as we there beheld it is beyond my power to describe, the Sound stretched in the distance for miles and miles - Oh it was grand, we had a good spy glass - I went home with them to tea, spent that evening he waited [?] home back how they did tease me it was strange he should be the first young man I went out with - 18th Wrote to Jensen Marsh Schofield had one new scholar - 19th A nice warm day most like summer again - 20th Walked the [Post Office] took a long letter for R.H.B. Edward Anna and I spent the evening at William Haveland, three weeks ago, I spent evenings out with Chalk & Ned, had moonlight nights too. A & E are very lively with me and we get along very well indeed - but I want to see home badly - I suppose Han Laurence sails for California to day - pleasant time to start 44 21 = Cloudy all day, I do not feel any too well pain in my side etc. 22 = Cleared off some though still a few clouds hovering over us 23 = No school to day, Anna went out this P.M. I spent it in my chamber, many of my moments are alone then my thoughts rush wildly over the past and I there find much that will do for a lesson; yes I have learned to steal my heart; and sometimes I think I can never again have confidence in earthly things. I endeavor to lay all my burdens at the feet of him who can ever give strength and comfort to the weary ones of earth - I find consolation in thus resigning all to His care. O, that my soul may become purified by affliction that with His aid all the evil may be cast out & none but good thrive there - such is my nightly prayer, and, that he who is my brother may in time feel the influence of a Divine Spirit, keeping him from evil and leading him in the paths of goodness & grace - his health too may be impared by constantly being out at night, why cannot he give up company after passing through all he has causing one desolate heart - may she receive strength to bear her burden, would that she could forget him. 24th I did not attend [Meeting] this morn, wrote to Lide & [Cousin] - quite a rainy afternoon, altogether I feel quite solemn, know not why - but I did not receive a letter last eve, and I had hoped for one. I was quite dull then, and half the evening hot tears were ready to gush forth, but with an effort I kept them back, & let smiles take their place, once or twice I would laugh heartily; they wondered the cause, but little knew it was to keep back the tears, that seemed as if they would come. 25th A bright morning full of sunshine. Nature having on such a smiling face makes me happy, though the wind blows hard enough to send a chill to you if it were not for warm beams of the glorious sun, so full of comfort & joy - Found Willets quite poorly. Edward is taking him through a course of medicine 45 26. Samuel is no better has declined very rapidly. Lizzie husband & others here - 27= Cold and wintry like but my heart is warm and happy having received three letters, this morn - from Mother and my dear sisters - such caskets of love bring joy to my bosom & hope & peace to my soul - After tea this evening, I was called in the sick chamber, within a few hours Samuel had sunk rapidly. they sent for his children, and it seemed indeed as though the messenger of Death was waiting to bear from our midst one whom we all loved, and respected. They gave him a little brandy and he revived, about midnight his cough commenced again 28th He seems rather stronger this morning, though still very ill - 31st This is first day morn and a lovely one it is - Samuel still lingers sometimes worse then better - I wrote to Cousin Mattie There has been many callers here to day - before breakfast I drove Hannah Carpenter over to David Barnes, she had been here several days and a real pleasant girl she is - vacated School NOVEMBER 1st A warm lovely day - S is rather smarter this P.M. Hannah and I went to Port Chester - I drove it is about three or four miles from here, I made several purchases, cloth, hood etc. etc. 2nd Dull and dreary all day. Election and it makes quite an exciting time 3rd Quarterly Meeting about ten miles from here, none of us will go it is quite cloudy, and looks very much like rain. got letters from A.S & HF[?] 4th Real rainy all day a poor time for [Quarterly Meeting] friends - this week is [Quarterly Meeting] at Darby, how dearly I should love to be there meet Aunt Jane & her dear children besides many many other friends, it would be so nice 5th No School this week on account of Samuels illness, so I have done up considerable sewing made marine skirt etc. etc. - have had a cold but it is better. 6th Very rainy all day. Edward was taken very ill Anna doctored him well, in the evening she broke out with the Erysipelas - such a sick house - as it is - I helped bake - Aaron brot me a letter from home 46 7 A beautiful sunshiny morning, it is so delightful to have clear weather again, I did not go to Meeting; all the sick folks are better - many calls - I wrote home & to Lide - 8 Commenced school again - all better except Anna who cannot leave the room - Edward improving R [?] & DG here 9th Another new scholar Sarah Brower, her Uncle & Aunt here to dine 10th Anna sick so the house hold cares devolve on me, I have to see to things, & it is quite a responsibility for so many Ed gone to White Plains but she is always so kind to me it is a pleasure to wait on her - 11 Commenced a letter to Coz last eve, but company came and I did not get it finished, will try to finish it soon. Sarah Ann here baking - 12 She is a good kind sister, indeed they all are, so good to each other 13th All the girls done except Sarah Brower, who is a lovely creature, we spent a very pleasant day she Anna and myself, so cozy & comfortable 14. Cold morning ground all frozen, Sarah, Hannah, Samuel & self went to [Meeting] Solomon Haviland drove us, a nice quiet afternoon to ourselves - after tea, was over, I shed many many tears on Annas bosom several reasons my feet were very much frosted for the first time, then I thought of home and the dear absent friends; it was soon over and then I felt better, there was no traces of sorrow on my countenance & although Maggie was in the room she knew it not as my face was buried on Annas lap, O! what comfort I felt while my head rested there, it is not often I give way to my feelings, generally gay lively and cheerful, 15th Not so much wind as yesterday but very cold, snow has fallen gently and slowly nearly all day the first of the season, makes every thing look beautifully - Edward went to White Plans, he is supervisor 16th Sarah Brower and I walked down to the office to get a slipper pattern - 17th Lizzie was here this afternoon a dear creature she is - Anna went to R. Collins this night his wife had a little daughter the first child - 47 18th To day is Thanksgiving, a delightfully pleasant one, on account of which I only had one session, did not dine till three and then had a fine Roast Turkey pumpkin pie etc - I was invited to R Tiltons but did not accept, went over to see Dorethea a while she is a very pleasant lively girl. 19th Samuel is failing and it is doubtful if he gets well - 20th Dorethea and myself took tea with R Tilton, afterwards a number of others came, Birdsall Barnes, Buntings, Griffin Jacob Carpenter, etc. etc., we then organized a Reading Circle Sarah Birdsall President, Anna Barnes secretary, etc. myself and others, on a committee to make laws, meet at Birdsalls next seventh day, our first one to be held at David Barnes, Robert brought us home - altogether we had a very pleasant time - Received two papers from home, Jacob [?] & RHB both wrote some on it - 21st First day, but on account of Samuel illness none of us went I wrote to sister Lyd read my papers etc. etc. 22nd Oh how bright and beautiful every thing looks, all all of Natures works are bending beneath a heavy weight of pure white snow, a thrill of joy passes over me and my heart fills with gratitude to Him who is the Giver of all gifts - 23rd What a change in Nature during a few short hours; while darkness was spread over the earth, clouds gathered storms arose, and ere morning dawned, hail stones came pattering against the window and the rain came in torrents, the bright sun was hid from our view till this P.M. when he came out in all his glory for a few minutes, then disappeared, and was no more beheld till another day - So it is with Life darkness and sorrows will at times come over us, but we must never despair, brightness will come soon again - God wills that we should suffer 48 24th This evening Aaron brought me a letter from Cousin Mattie I was so glad to get it and to hear she was better - 25th Poor Samuel is very low the Doctor can do nothing more for him, he is patiently waiting for his Master will - All can give him up better than they could at first - 26th Annie Barnes called in my school a while afterwards she, Sarah and myself went over to see Dorethea, then we walked home with Anna 27th This evening Sarah B. and myself went up to Birdsalls, the committee met to form laws for the Purchase Reading Circle - I would not read first so they put me on a committee to name readers, I find reading, also R. Barnes John Bunting - we chose Avis, Anna B & both of them Robert waited on us home. Probably I may enjoy, but yet they are [?] 28th Sunday morn, quite cloudy and soon commenced snowing, continued to all day. Aaron here & Lizzie brought me two letters, Lyd R.B. & [?] I was busy writing all day, to Cousin Mattie and coping Painter of [?] etc. 29th Oh! how sublimely beautiful Nature looks this morn everything clothed in the purest white. - then the blue Sound looks grand - all these make us feel more deeply the greatness of an Unseen Person 30th I hear the sound of merry sleigh bells as they glide along - but here sad hearts are found. Samuel is no better, some worse December 1st - Some snow yet, enough for poor sleighing - This afternoon we all went into look at Samuel poor man his hours are numbered, with wonderful patience he bears his sufferings; All is over his pure spirit has left earth to be borne to Heaven by unseen angels - at [half] past three he quietly breathed his last, saying but a little while before "I want to go home" - I closed school immediately, not to commence till next week - 49 2nd Busy preparing for the funeral which will take place tomorrow at 11 oclock - a quite rainy day but some callers for all 3rd This morning a large concourse of people were assembled at the Meeting house to perform the last sadoffice for a beloved friend and neighbor, David Barnes spoke long and well also one other man, after which the body was conveyed to the tomb - it was a very large funeral many from [New York] his nephew Henry Willets dined here from the West an uncommonly agreeable gentleman 4th All feel the loss of him we have so lately buried, every where he will be missed, poor Edward & Lizze how sincerely I pity them, such a time as this brings back the time when my own precious father was taken from us; The last time I was in a graveyard was two weeks before I came, when I stood by the mound that covered the body of my parent, but O! the spirit was not there long ago it had risen to the great Eternal Throne there to be a bright gem in the crown of our Savior May the prayers offered on that grave be fulfilled - 5th Most of them went to Meeting, during which time I wrote to Cousin Ephriam, In the P.M. E & A. went to see her Mother who was sick, Stephen Willets here several hours - 6th Commenced school again two not here - busy but chering - 7th Still continues very cold - M. Underhill & S Sutton both away 9th Anne and E went to Portchester. I got a letter from Lide saying she and Aunt E contemplated making me a visit, O, won't I be glad 10th How much I do anticipate seeing Aunt & Lide - 11th I had school this morn to make up what I lost last week - I closed school at [half] past twelve, then I went to Rye with 50 Edward, ten weeks to day since I came in this land of strangers and I have only seen one face I had met before - though now I have become quite well acquainted - we got there about five minutes before the cars, how my heart beat, when I saw person after person alight, but very soon I beheld Mr Mortons pin & beyond my own dear sister Lide with Aunt E and little Carrie - words cannot express my happiness; We got back here about three, and then Oh what nice talks with dear sister 12th Eleven of us went to Meeting in one wagon, had many kind invitations to take Aunt & Lide - In the P.M. we called at David Barnes - I will not attempt to describe the enjoyment while they were here, merely say, first day evening Haskel Purdy etc. etc. were here, (his overcoat taken by us & so & so - 13th They went this morn, & now Lides visit is over, a pleasant one to all I trust - Haskel etc. went to Lizzies H 14th Anna, E etc. spent the day at Aaron Havilands - 15th E & A went to Meeting, Robert Barnes called to take me to the Reading Circle, met at Burling, we had a pleasant time I had to read considerable, my own essay & one other also Capital Punishment & The Painter of Seville - 16th Clear at last & how glad I am ; a letter from Ma & Aunt came yesterday - 17th "Aunt Sarah" went home to day we will miss her very much 18th Bitter cold all day, H. L. H. B Field went home this P.M. I had school to day to make up for what I loss at S. death 19th Very very cold I went to Meeting, in the P.M. wrote home William & Sarah Ann here also Robert Barnes, spent the eve 20th This morning wrote to Lidie - told her I was going there this week - 51 21st Rainy all day four of my scholars away. 22nd Cleared off again but very windy and quite cold - 23rd Anna has been real sick all yesterday, Edward too has a bad cold & I have had sore throat and cold quite badly - all are better this evening. I have closed school till week after next am going to have no school during Holidays 24th Very cold but kind Edward took me to White Plains from which I went to New York, promenaded Broadway & amused myself otherwise for three hours, untill the boat started for Flushing, we did not get up till after dark but I found Lide there waiting for me, we drove out to Bayside found them very glad to see me, about half an hour after Richard Bell & William Titus came in and spent the evening, we had quite a sociable time 25th This s a beautiful day Sarah Willets & her children, Cousin C, etc. dined at Aunt E on a fine turkey - after breakfast Lide Anna & myself went up to the woods and gathered Christmas green trimmed the windows looking glass etc. so it really looked very pretty indeed, we went down to Mrs Mickle awhile. When the bundles were opened this morning there was a very nice Caba for me & a beautiful merino dress for Lide, both from dear Aunt Eliza - the children got a number from their relatives at Yonkers - 26th Went to Meeting this morn, to Cousin Roberts to dine - Edward, Hannah, Susan & Mary took tea with us there, it was so dark we concluded to stay all night, they are so kind I always feel at home there - Susan told me about W.P. - H W - 27th Walked over to Aunts found her just getting ready to 52 take Uncle to the cars as was going to Yonkers, we then went to Sarah Willets on the pony to dine, how I enjoyed meeting her again we used to have such delightful talks, about four oclock went back got dressed and went down to Lydia Laurences to tea Dick was there & we had a grand time she sung & played for us 28th Lide went to Flushing for Uncle - we were busy preparing for company, which came to tea, quite a party Laurences, Bells etc. the table looked beautiful oysters, ham, hot rolls etc. etc. 29th Went & called at Bounes, had cake wine etc. - after dinner we went down to Mickles had a pleasant time, came back dressed & then the young folks came quite a party [?] there altogether the evening was spent very agreeably, Carrie, Ahlis 30th I went to Meeting with them it was preparative but there were were only five woman there so I united with reappointing Aunt E for clerk. I went to Bloodgoods to John Kimber weighed me, and it was 156 pounds no one will believe it scarcely Lide & I drove down to Edward Laurences had a fine oyster supper he had his horse harnessed & we went to Lydias heard a letter from Hannah who is enjoying herself in California then up to Mickles, bid them all good bye & then after we got back to Edwards we drove home. I would not let the man go home with us 31st This is the last day of the departing year, and what a stormy one it is - Lide drove me to Flushing through all the rain, but I had told Edward I would come & thought best to we had to wait some time at Hunters Point - & when we got to the City it poured, I had three bundles besides carpet bag & umbrellas but rode in the Omnibus & cars to the New Haven depot, as it rained so I could not do any shopping, the streets were in an awful condition, I waited an hour then came up in the 1 oclock train, waited at Rye three hours then Edward came & O dear wasn't I glad to see him the reason he was so long [Right margin] coming was because I told him I would not come till four then came in the one as I would rather we is here then in [New York]. They told E. I would not be there but he would go & how glad I was - 53 January First Eighteen Hundred Fifty Nine - 1859. 1 A dull gloomy morning for the beginnig of the new year like many of the hearts of our fellows, mine is not in its most liveliest mood, memory will carry me back to the past, Oh! how much may be ment by that little word, how many meetings with absent and dear friends, how many delightful evenings spent with loved ones; but why do I let such sad thoughts creep in to my heart I know my future may be bright and happy and must wait patiently for the good time coming -- When I arrived here last evening Dollie was here and had an invitation for me with herself to dine to day at Rachel Tiltons on Roast Turkey and Plum Pudding, it was quite stormy this A.M. so we did not accept, besides I have paid no other visits in the neighborhood and do not want to visit there too much, or it might be said I went to see her son, she is what might be called a [blank] mama, at least she thinks she has an uncommonly fine son & wished to show him off - This afternoon it cleared off beautifully, (emblematic perhaps of my own self -) so I drove up & got Dollie and we went down to Tiltons, made a call had a very pressing invitation to stay to tea but we thought best not to we drove down to Aarons and got Hannah then Dollie came home with us. Samuel Burling & H Whiting were here 2nd We all went to Meeting but Aunt Sarah, Uncle Henry was here to dine, I was busy writing to "Cousin" when a knock was heard and on hearing the inquiry "is Martha Schofield in?" I had of course to put all letters to flight, it proved to be W. Tilton - soon after Aaron & Lizzie & their children came, but went home before tea & took "Aunt Sarah" with them, he staid & we then went over and spent the evening with Dollie, very rightfully, she is indeed a lovely girl [code symbols] 54 3rd Back again in the schoolroom to resume my duties as teacher Nearly all my pupils are back again and I endeavor to greet them pleasantly, though I do not feel much like being entertaining. William & John Haviland spent the eve here the girls had a tableaux up stairs which was very amusing to all of us - I wrote to Cousin Hannah and sent a paper to sister Lidie - 4th Nature is arrayed in her bridal garment, the pure white snow has fallen gently, and clothed every thing in angels dress - it is indeed beautiful, and many a joyous heart will anticipate the merry sleigh ride and the music of the bells - the flakes still continue to fall fast, filling up every crack and crevice - 5th A splendid morning, so bright so beautiful - Edward was going to the Office so I went along for a sleigh ride and was repaid by receiving a nice long letter from Lyd - They went to [Meeting] this evening all have gone to attend the Juvenile Reading Circle consisting of my scholars etc. Anna & E went with them so I spent a delightfully quiet evening alone writing an essay etc. - 6th Anna went to Aarons to spend the day after school Edward took 11 of us down in the sleigh, we staid to tea & spent the evening & had a real pleasant time, [?] 7th My appetite is very poor but I do not feel sick, though I guess my system is not in a very good condition. 8th Cold and very windy, H L & H B Field gone home 9th Bitter cold, all went to [Meeting] except myself. I wrote letters to Anne M & Cousin M this morning took exercise helping Edward water horses, quite a time, [?] fun 10th Terrible cold & snowy Thermometer 10 below Zero 11th Awful Cold Thermometer 20 degrees below Zero, one can hardly stir without freezing kind Edward brought 55 my bed down in the sitting room as mine, was cold I could not sleep: such weather has not been known for seventy years - several scholars absent - First day E. dictated Lizies letter 12th They went to Meeting. After school while I was dressing for the Reading Circle, Robert S. Haviland and Edward S. Quimby came, two young men from Chappaqua They staid to tea & then drove us over to the Circle in their sleigh which met Samuel Buntings, Edward A went also, when we went to come home Jacob A Robert etc. picked me up & put me in their sleigh, I thought it was too bad - 13th While in school this morning Anne brought me two letters, a long one from Mother, thanking me for the furs. & Sallie wrote too & I was almost frantic when I found she and dear Uncle George were coming in to see me next week. I am so happy words can not portray my feelings - After school Edward took 11 of us down to William Havilands, we had a grand time quite a party Anna Young etc. was there, Arthur Baker etc. we had charades I acted in several. Virginia Reel, To day dear Anna gave me a beautiful pair of gold sleeve buttons so kind Edward gave me a mail [?] knife for a Christmas present - 14th They were all here, & we had a real lively time 15th I was right sick, have been billious for two weeks eat very little so they doctored me, by evening I felt quite smart again - Anna went to Danie Smith. Mrs. Brewster died John & Josie were here and we had a delightful time - 16th 2 went to Meeting David Barnes spoke - after dinner Jacob A came, then we all went to take a ride & take the Youngs to Havilands stopped at Tiltons R quite sick but better than she had been 56 17th Quite warm this morning looks like a storm I wrote home Anna wrote some to Mother 18th This morning attended the funeral of Mrs Brewster at Danie Smith, had quite a long sermon from a Prysberterian Minister from New York. it was very good he said some beautiful things and we might all profit by them. The minister from the Plains made a prayer I wrote to Jennie I Satterthwait. They took tea at Aarons - 19th They went to Meeting, it is a beautiful day 20th A lovely day but looks as if it would not remain so - 21st A real storm, rained hard all day, how I hope it will clear. 22.22 How many times last night did I look out the window to see if stars were visible - any how it is not raining, and I am so glad, Youngs Arthur etc. came here to dine, about half past three Edward and myself went to Rye, how my heart did beat when the cars came rushing along, the first person was Willie Tilton, & while I was shaking hands with him, I spied dear Uncle George getting out followed closely by my own darling sister Sallie. words cannot express my feelings so I will not attempt to describe them, such joy such happiness cannot be told in fact I must have been "beaddled" for although Willie rode part way home with us I was delighted I forgot to introduce him to either of them - Anna gave them a kind welcome - How much we had to say to each other no one could imagine, at night we talked till two oclock - Mother herself every body was talked over - dear Mother sent me a beautiful fur - 57 I gave Edward a set of shirt studs - Sallie got them in [New York] 23 All of us went to Meeting Uncle thought they were a nice set of people every one so kind - he thinks I have a nice home here and so indeed I have, where could I find a nicer one - we dined on two roast turnkeys, spent the P.M. delightfully, evening too O! how I enjoyed being with the dear ones from my own dear homes - S. A. Frank. Child - Boyd - everything to be remembered 24. Edward took the dear ones to White Plains - O! it was with a desperate effort I kept the hot tears from bursting forth, to see them go was almost as much as I could bear, but I conquered for I knew many eyes watched to see if there were traces of tears upon my cheeks - I went right in school, as I had not called till an hour after my usual time. dear Anna sent Ma some apples etc. Sallie gave her a beautiful nubia this evening Edward tried to let on Sallie told him I was engaged, but I do not believe it, I hope he wont - 25th Edward went to New York, got a number of school books, etc. - He also brought me a very handsome present a large book entitled "Dictionary of Poetical Quotation" the book above all others I would want - it is a large volume, splendid engravings - and I shall value it most highly, both for the gift & the giver - so kind in him and so unexpected to me - -Prize studs - three 26th They went to Meeting then to a funeral - This eve Robert Barnes called and took me to the Reading Circle there were about 35 or 40 there Isaac Carpenter folks etc. etc. 58 26 I read an address on Human Happiness by J. H. Bazly, also had an original essay - the only one. they do not all do enough to sustain it [?] This P.M. a little boy was lost about 8 years old all the neighborhood are hunting me. he is from the Plains - was skating and went to go home & lost his way - 27 Another funeral they went to it - The lost Boy was found last night at two oclock - some woman had found him & taken him in, guns have been fired and every one is rejoiced - O! his parents must have felt such anguish, so small & could not talk plain - 28 A very rainy and unpleasant day, so unhealthy - 29 Held school to day as I will not two days of next week 2 Edward and Anna were in school to hear the compositions Afterwards we had a long talk, I showed an Essay I had commenced for our Circle, he wrote some too - of his sake 30th I did not go to Meeting, but wrote eight pages foolscap to Aunt Jane; also to Lidie - In the P.M. M. E. Anna & self went over to Richard Collins saw the baby etc. girls retired early, Anna asleep, we read my book he gave me - black matches R. 31 I have been sober all day this eve, the girls Reading Circle met at Suttons, all went but myself - I had a delightful evening wrote something for the Circle [?] etc. etc. FEBRUARY First This day twenty years ago my eyes first beheld the light of the world would that I was as pure and innocent now as then - but I could not be so there are too many snares to entrap youth - Tis past and now that another year of my life is [Right margin] Anna showed me some interesting books - Love etc. etc. etc. 59 FEBRUARY First buried in oblivion, I can readily see where it might have been improved - it has been a day of serious thoughts and sober reflection, may all the good resolutions made at this time be adhered too - May I see the prayers that have been sincerely uttered answered - My thoughts have wandered in to the future as well as far back in the past - - This evening I received a long letter from sister Sallie, she attended Edward Everetts lecture with her friend - Arrived home safely -- 2nd All went to Quarterly Meeting a long sermon from John Hunt, I saw Robert H & told him about our being carried off We had about twenty here to dine & 13 to stay all night 3rd All went to Meeting again, it is hailing, snowing etc. - another long sermon, very good indeed -- In the afternoon we went to Phebe T. Suttons (Anna Young & Phebe here) to tea Jac was there - 4th I made my head dress Sallie sent from New York - About eleven all went in the sleigh to John Havilands spent the day and had a real pleasant time, took tea - 5th This morning Hannah & myself drove in the sleigh down to William Haviland for Julia then on to John's had a pleasant ride did not get out, he washed my feel with [?] This evening there were about twenty came - all the cousins - a party for Anna Young. we had a real grand time Jacob A. was here etc. etc. etc. - all gone by twelve oclock - 6th I did not go to Meeting, wrote to Mother & Charlotte went too. They brought company home with, it commenced snowing quite fast; and continued on till every thing was white Ed & Jessy 7th Most a lovely morning, every thing so beautiful, quite still & if it melts a little will be splendid sleighing. Edward went to the Plains for Sadie - All the other girls came back - They went home 3rd day 60 After school I drove both horses to the sleigh down to Davids, Anna, Hannah & Avis Hoyt went also we left her - 8th Commenced having study hour in the evening -- I wrote a little more to the essay, & Edward copied it put my name on it to read - I hope I can do it justice - how they will look 9th Cloudy and drizzly all day, but when evening came, it was brighter, they came pretty fast, about 40 of us in the parlor - Robert L. & Edward Quimby came from Chappaqua: we had a very interesting Circle, a number of essays, I read two - some of them were beautiful, Robert S. gave a declamation (Flora Mc [?]) and it was done first rate - I only wish we had a few such intelligent efficient members as he is we could do so much better - Edward S Quimby gave the whole Circle an invitation to attend the Chappaqua one which meets at his home next sixth day week - very kind indeed in him - 10th This evening we all went down to William Haviland they had quite a party for Anna Yong, Arthur B. there we had a real nice time, danced had charades etc. splendid supper ice cream in the evening etc. etc. 11th All went to Davids to tea, the same company that met last eve, we had a very pleasant time danced etc. etc. - Anna Y. is going home to morrow, we will all feel badly about parting with them, they are such lovely girls - We came home a little after ten as we did not think best to keep the girls out late the rest of the company did not leave till late - 12th After school Edward took Anna & myself up to Barnes's, we made a call, had a very pleasant time Anna has not been well but is better; a letter from home, Mart S. & Lide 61 13 Went to Meeting this morning, but did not derive much benefit, though David Barnes spoke well and made a good prayer - but I suppose my mind was not in the right condition to receive good - This P.M. I wrote letters etc. after tea E. A. and myself went to Birdsalls, spent a delightful evening - met R Barnes 14 This is St. Valentines day and I had scarcely thought of it - one year ago I was at Flushing - We have one hour study now every evening - [?] Tilton wife and sister spent the eve here pleasant 15th Cloudy and rainy this P.M. quite warm etc. E caught me Philopena 16th Rainy and unpleasant most all day, E went to the Plains 17th They went to a funeral, after school Anna and I went over to Samuel Burlings as the sewing Meeting met there, we had a very pleasant time Edward went after tea Dollie showed me "his" likeness, a very fine looking young man A beautiful day but very bad under foot so muddy - 18th This is the day we were invited to Edward S Quimby's at Chappaqua, I dismissed school at [half] past three, got partly dressed, it did not rain but I expected to be disappointed as I am so often and sure enough I was for I saw no sign of Robert Barnes; I have not heard the reason but supposed it is because the travelling is so dreadful mud so deep 19th a lovely morning the sun is bright and beautiful, I worked hard on my slipper heel and finished it before dinner. all cloudy this P.M. and before night it rained considerable 20th About half past four Lizzie sent for Anna she went immediately - when Edward got up he went down and 62 brought three of her children up here, and soon afterwards another immortal being was ushered into the world, a fine little girl; It was very foggy and rain like and Edward and I both staid from Meeting as there were so many children we did not like to take them. Uncle Henry & Aunt Sarah here to dine, I presided as I always do when Anna's away, we spent a pleasant afternoon James Birdsalls called awhile, Edward went down for Anna but she did not come as they had no nurse - I finished three letters, home Brother and W.O.R. E read out of my [?] book 21st Edward & Aunt S went to Aarons, he brought Anna home Lizzie is doing nicely - I wrote to Lide this evening. 22nd Washingtons birth day, I had school as usual. Edward went to Milton, Little Johnny Haviland was in school all day, Avis and Sarah Birdsall called here awhile, we had a pleasant visit 23rd A most beautiful lovely morning. Sadie and myself took a walk before breakfast - They went to Westchester - After tea Dorethea came over and Edward waiting in us up to Thomas Suttons to attend the Reading Circle which was quite interesting, Edward S. was there & read we had charades, a little music etc. and it was too late [?] 24th I feel this morning as if I would so love to be at home - my spirits are so depressed Anna gave me a pair of thin undersleeves After school we all went over to Stephen Willets' (except Sadie who had a sore throat) to meet the Sewing Circle. there were about fourty there, & we had a pleasant time. 25th Cloudy this morn and in the P.M. it snowed a little but not enough for sleighing. E. & A up in my school - [no page number] 26th Had school to day to make up for Quarterly Meeting the last time I will have it 7th day - Pieces spoken 27th I did not go down till [half] past nine as I preferred going without breakfast to leaving my rooms & pleasant thoughts. Went to Meeting, though it was not very beneficial of own fault - I suppose as we had two sermons, this P.M. they went to Aarons - 28th A pleasant morning, we have Lizzies three children here - March The Juvenile Reading Circle met here about 40 and it was really very interesting, a number of essays which were excellent; one Address by myself - M J Hatfield here and judged me of writing that criticism (I did) - 2nd I received a very interesting letter from Aunt Jane last eve and now a nice long one from my dear sister Lide precious child ere long she bids farewell to Long Island and starts for that dear spot "home", how I should love to accompany here, but no it cannot be - my lot is here - 3rd This P.M. it snowed very fast, looks quite like winter again. 4th Rained some last night so spoiled the sleighing, the Sun came out beautifully. Edward brought me a long letter from home 5th A beautiful day the girls took a walk to Thomas Fields, in the P.M. Edward Anna Sadie & myself went to David Barnes, took tea and spent the evening, had a very pleasant time 6th A lovely day, I saw and heard some robins the first of the season, all went to Meeting, company here to dine - they went to A. I wrote to Lide and Cousin Mattie - do not feel very bright - 7th A most beautiful day overhead, muddy underneath 8th This morn about [half] past two we had a heavy thunder storm, Hannah thought the house was afire it lightened so we were all up - then I went to bed with Sadie and Maggie 64. 9th Sadie not in school had a very bad toothache - They went to Monthly Meeting - I was over to see Dollie - After tea Stephen Willets called and took me to the Reading Circle which met at James Birdsells - we had a very pleasant time, charades, etc. We had some very good essays, one seven pages foolscap of "The Ocean an emblem of Omnipotence" 10th I received a letter from A. Martindale yesterday, today from Sallie, she spoke of there having been a large fire there - the Factory owned by Lloyds, the machinery by John Ferlinden all burned to the ground: they put it out before his house was consumed though it caught fire. [?] went out with Sallie 11th Had quite a committee in my school, Esther Field, Hannah C Samuel Burling etc. they were all very much pleased - 12th Rainy this morn but cleared off beautifully - after dinner we all went over to 'Uncle Henrys", had a splendid ride and a most delightful visit, coming home it was moonlight saw Anna Barnes, through the window, also a gentleman 13th I did not go down to breakfast, remained home from Meeting wrote to Aunt Jane, in the P.M. Robert Willets Stephen etc. came, Annas Pa & Ma here to dine - Dollie called for me to take a walk - we went to Barnes, Anna away, then to Birdsalls to call had a delightful walk dear girl she has seen the dark shades of life - how much we talked, after tea she came over again brought me Waverly Magazines - so kind - I really love her 14th Sent a letter to Aunt Jane Burling [?] Anna [?] Dollie & I took a walk - a pleasant time - 15th The Literary Association met this evening at Edward Barnes 65 twelve of us went in the large wagon, had a delightfully pleasant time eight of my girls spoke a dialogue. They had ten Essays and did very well indeed 16 [blank] 17. Edward Anna Aunt Sarah and myself took tea at James Birdsalls had a very pleasant time indeed there sister was there from Brooklyn & two children 18 - A real hard rain, Anna was in school heard the compositions 19 - Up early this morning, Edward, Anna & Hannah went to New York Sadie and myself drove them, with two horses coming home met some loose colts, had quite a time through no damage done it was on Jones' hill - the day seemed very long, we retired early all the girls away but two - 20. First day morning again, Mary Sadie & I laid abed till eight had an interesting piece I read to them we did not go to Meeting it was so cold & windy - after dinner Willie Tilton came remained to tea & till have past ten. had a very pleasant time he wanted me to let him take my pen & get it fixed but I would not, he is very attentive. Sadie and Mary helped get tea, vey nice indeed Saw my piece book 21. This morn is clear & calm. Sadie & I drove two horses to Rye for Edward, Anna came in the afternoon, she got me two new dresses - Hoops etc. etc. very handsome collar & undersleeves to match as a present dear creature she is so kind. 22. Busy [Crossed out: braiding] working a pair of slippers for Edward. Floss silk orange colored shade, real beautiful. Wrote to [Cousin] and Sallie. 23. A beautiful day. after school Sadie braided my hair 17 strands then I dressed, and after tea Robert Barnes called for me we had a jolly ride down to Vails - Quite an interesting 66 Reading Circle about 40 there. it is the first circle I have attended without taking an essay, but now I am going to stop writing as I have done my share. David Griffen asked me to go home with him, but I did not as I went with Robert & would not treat him [?]. I was very much disappointed in not hearing from home 24th Had a short study hour. Edward brought in two papers for me sent from home, how glad I was to get them 25th Rainy but cleared off before night, I received a long letter from home, they are having fine times Aunt Jane down, and Aunt E. and Lide gone home splendid times - 26th Anna and I went to Portchester, I drove, Edward was ahead with a large wagon - when we came home got ready and went to Stephen Willet's to tea a very fine time 27th Went to Meeting, sat with Anna, Sadies Father & Mother here to dine, had a nice visit from them, she went home - I copied some Essays in the book which belongs to the Circle let Edward read two of mine. Wrote to Annie Martindale 28th After school we all went to Thomas Suttons to tea E. went to Rye for Hannah Carpenter, we had rather a pleasant visit - though I was very tired when we got back 29th Election day, quite rainy, Edward was away all day, came back and said a Republican was elected they kept it very quiet till to day, or else he would have been put it [?], he has been two years and now Anna is so glad she is out. he never tried to get the office they put him in 30th All went to William Haviland to attend thee Literary Association about 50 there they had 10 essays & several [no page number] dialogues, it was very interesting indeed - to all - 31 Quite cool and windy all day - I am busy making a dress APRIL 1st Anna Barnes was in school this P.M. I read the compositions one beautiful farewell one from Hannah L. Field she and Hannah B. both left school, not to return till next Fall - the Birdsall girls were here to tea all the girls went home - 2 No one but our own family except Cousin Hannah Carpenter spent eve at S. Burlings 3rd Anna was sent for because John's baby was very sick - It poured with rain nearly all day. We went to [Meeting] in the afternoon I copied some essays, Edward went for Anna but she did not come home with him - we had a pleasant evening - sat up quite late he is good company 4th Anna came home this morn - I ran over to S. Burlings a little while, had a call from Julia H. Lizzie Lappan and Charley Willets from Brooklyn - he is her [half] brother 5th They cleaned the common room, we served in the parlor 6th I went to [Meeting] with them it was preparative, Anna clerk, quite an exciting time with the men Edward has been supervisor, and a good faithful one too tho he is a [?] 7th Attended the funeral of Sarah Barnes, the [Meeting] house was crowded, she was sick a week taken in the night and never spoke afterwards, did not even appear conscious, left a daughter 17 and three younger ones - They thought it was appoplexy - J. Mott, wife, mother & May Field here - 68. 8th Went again to the house of mourning, poor John & Josies little babe has gone to Heaven and oh how beautiful it looked with roses on its bosom, a fit inhabitant for that land towards which all are hastening. 9 James Watson was here I bought a handkerchief for Jeminy - 10th Did not go to [Meeting], wrote home & to Beck last eve received a long letter from home. Plenty of company George Halleck niece came to go to school a nice young girl - wears a beautiful gold watch an chain - - I went to see Dollie awhile - E & A went to Aarons - 11th Opened school again - Stephen Willits came aged 15 - 12th Rainy all day yesterday I feel depressed in spirits - Wrote two letters home as [?] I had a strange dream last night I am afraid some are ill G. [Mother] 12 After school Edward self, & Anna went to the Plains took Aunt Sarah home we went to the New Court house which is a splendid building, Uncle Henry took us all over it, also through the jail which contained over thirty prisoners - how dreadful I felt to see those poor creatures confined there two woman one & her husband in the same cell, going to be sick Every thing was in perfect order - We did not get home till eight -, had a beautiful moonlight ride though found Ella Haviland brothers and sister here. I feel quite sad - 13th Attended the Literary Association at Stephen Barnes about 60 there. It was Monthly Meeting at Mamaroneck - Edward answer to query, supervisors, commission high ways democrat, Tilton etc. etc. etc. etc. etc. etc. did not go up his feelings - clerk of preparative & so on - Shame shame injustice 14th Rained considerable. I do not know why I feel so sad - 69 15 Anna went to Davids to spend the day, Anna Barnes & Anna Sutton called here awhile I drove to Davids for Anna stopped at Aarons saw the baby - 16th All the girls gone by Sadie & Hannah [?] the latter went to Birdsalls - Dollie & friend called. 17th After Meeting David his wife & son came also Aaron his wife and four children quite a time - In the evening Edward & Anna went to Burlings, when they came back I took a good crying spell in her lap, it did me good I needed it several days I now feel the better, nothing particular the matter - had felt serious all day - 18th Quite a pleasant day to open school again I received a letter from bother - Han Pierce was there - 19th A beautiful day and one we will remember. This day my Mother's proposals of marriage will go to the [Monthly] Meeting. how I would love to be there but it cannot be - 20th Took a long walk down to the woods this morning, Anna walked to meeting - E. bought a wood chuck for us to see 21st [blank] 22nd - Rained quite hard nearly all day. Edward & Anna came up to hear the compositions which were very good -- I received a letter this evening with the sad intelligence of dear Janie Bells death, dear young creature, has left this world in all her youth, while her heart still beat with joyful anticipations for the future - Her disease was Typhoid Fever she was sick at sister Mary Pancoasts where every thing that could be done was. They telegraphed for a mother nearly a week before her death, & for her father 2nd day & she died 4th was not conscious enough to converse but knew her parents 70. she passed away very quietly. The corpse was brought on 5th day mother came on with them to remain several days. It is a great trial for Aunt E. she had anticipated so much in having her home after being at school so long. But oh we should not mourn for her she has left care and sorrow, troubles & trials, & gone to her bright home above. 23rd I was busy sewing on my dress, it rained very hard in the morning - Edward said if Mother had only said she would come he would have been glad to have gone for her 24th I did not go to Meeting could not feel like it in the afternoon E & A went to call on John Suttons head out [?] in the evening, we wrote read talked & so forth etc. 25th Busy sewing at my dress. Received a letter from Cousin Mattie. 26th Rainy this P.M. though clear in the morning - finished my dress [Crossed out: 27th We all started] attended the Literary Association at Thomas Suttons about 40 there Edward read "Mind your own business" 27 This morning 6 of us started for Chappaqua to attend [Quarterly Meeting] it poured at first but soon stopped, I saw several Edward Q. Robert S. etc. we went home with Sadie towards night went to take a ride went to Horace Greeley's place then to the depot for Jacob, saw Edward Q. again staid all night at Sadies. 28th Quite a pleasant morning through colder, we got flowers etc. etc. then went to Meeting & to Esther Havilands to dine, had a delightful visit, & came home, altogether we had a splendid time such a romantic country but very hilly indeed - 29th Commenced school again. it is quite cold 30th Maggie & Mary both went home. Dollie came over to tell us to go out & see the light in the sky, it was beautiful a broad belt of light entirely across the heavens from east to west - 71 May 1st A lovely day so mild & pleasant - I wrote to Aunt E. this morning - After dinner Edward Anna myself and the boys went to Williams where we spent a very pleasant afternoon found Ella & Walter here - 2nd This morn early Sadie & myself went to Portchester I drove, we had a splendid ride, I took Edwards slippers that I worked to have them made up, they said they would be too small so I brought them home & will bind & fix them - David Baines & wife here to tea - 3rd John Willets was here from Ithaca a very nice man - letter from MAS 4th Sade & I were up at five working in our flower beds were at till nine John W. helped us some - After tea Sadie H. & I went over to S. Burlings, took the slippers 5th A man here putting up lightening rods. After school Sadie and I went to David Barnes made a pleasant visit - 6th Up at 5 oclock walked down to the office about a mile before breakfast - a lovely morning, & a nice warm day. 7th To day we are going to have holiday - that is we are not going to make up one day we went to [Quarterly] Meeting The girls sent a petition to Edward & he granted it - A very oppressively warm day, thermometer over 80 in the shade, this P.M. I marked something for Anna 8th Did not go to Meeting, wrote home, company here after dinner to tea. very warm indeed 9th Warm again and very dry indeed rain is much needed I wrote in Mary Griffen Album original 10th Quite a change so cool again & looks like storm over bay 11th Rainy, which will do a great deal of good as it was very dry, & all feared we would not have much 72 The "Literary Association" met here, had a very pleasant time, Jim Brouwer came down from Chappaqua - it was pretty large although it rained. they had some very good essays - 12th Jim went home this morning.* Mary McCauley & her two daughters came up 3rd day night & staid till yesterday P.M. she is a proud, poor creature little Alice is coming to school, a nice child - 13th I went over to see Dollie a little while. Mary G & [?] gone home 14th This P.M. John Willets, Anna & the boys went to her fathers - Birdsalls, H. F. Carpenter Dollie etc. here. When we went to bed, I hung the slippers I worked for Edward & had such a time to get made on the door key. They were all worked with shaded floss silk on cloth beautiful, tied up in papers, with my card & asking him to accept them as a Phelopena We watched at the top of the stairs, but he did not come out except to bring a letter the cat was in my room I called him etc. 15th Up early I took the slippers & put in his old boots, where they were found created quite considerable fun - I feel miserable this morning, did not go to Meeting, took medicine quite sick, so billious, They doctored me well, company here to tea - I cannot eat anything 16th Wrote home, feel much better, went in school Uncle John W. was quite sick - Anna B & Dollie called awhile, the former had a splendid time in [Philadelphia]. 17th Improved a little, though no appetite eating nothing since 7th day morning. - Taking medicine all the time. 18th Much better this morning, Willie Tilton came to see if I would take a ride this P.M. Just as he was coming up the road 73 it commenced to rain. He went back put up his horse & just after we were done tea he came and spent the evening. They went so had a great eve - He said he would go with me when I went home I told him no Edward would see me to the boat etc. 19th Willie asked me to go this eve as we did not go yesterday, but just at four oclock it commenced to rain - A very small school. Sadie has gone to Tarrytown - 20th The last day of school for a week, oh I can scarcely wait till tomorrow - I have not been home for nearly 8 months. it was rainy nearly all day Hannah Pierce went to White Plains. I drove up to Thomas Fields to take Alice, when I came back found Willie Tilton here, he spent the evening etc. etc. etc. Wanted my apples - 21st Raining very hard but notwithstanding we started for New York, Edward took me to the ferry, it rained hard and the streets were in a dreadful condition, after a tiresome ride of four hours we arrived in Camden then crossed over to [Philadelphia], found Sam waiting for me on the wharf & Sallie at the Hotel, soon "Grand Pa" came to meet me, Sam took my baggage & Sallie & I went a shopping brought a bonnet etc. etc. then went out to Darby in the passenger railway Sam with us found many changes, & all glad to see me Ned & Joe B here & greeted me warmly, it seems so nice to be home after an absence of eight months. Dr. & Mary Longstreth here - 22 Went to Meeting after which it rained very hard, Lide Sallie [?] Ned & Joe S myself staid for an hour had a real pleasant time It cleared off in the P.M. Ned & Joe came spent the P.M. 74. 23rd Very busy washing, about noon Aunt Jane Price came, I was so glad to see her we had delightful talks - 24th Monthly Meeting all went but Sallie, he was out after dinner I went in [Philadelphia] to shop bought two napkin rings had them marked Father & Mother - went out [half past] 7 25th About nine Aunt Sarah and Ben came, very busy making preparations. after tea Lide and I went to Andrews to get some dishes. He came out 26th All busy preparing, and it is a most beautiful day for the accomplishment of our dear Mothers marriage [?] was up here helping, also his father making table carrying chairs etc. - Sallie & Sam went in [Philadelphia] & brought out the cake etc. etc. - Company coming all day, after dinner we dressed & by 4 oclock there was near 70 people came Mothers children sat next to her & his on his side, Rachel Moore Eliza Newport & Dr Child spoke. the ceremony was said & we [?] as mother Father, Lyd kissed them and we all followed - We had tea and the table looked beautiful three splendid boquets oranges ice cream peaches etc. etc. - the cake was iced beautifully there were three tables, full, Ned Sam & Ben cut the cakes - after the first table was through they had the silver cake basket taken the parlor & the note read, it was a present from Mothers four daughters marked JMC E. Newport had a Meeting and Sam also - but I need not write more every circumstance is impressed so deeply on my heart - I wrot to Edward yesterday 27th Busy putting things away. Ned was here with a horse and wagon to take chairs to [Meeting] house Lide Jim Lide & I rode with him fine [?] Uncle Paxson C.H. & others here, I gave him shirt studs put in his pocket 75. Chalk and Ned called in their carriages and took us to Uncle William, it rained hard but we had a very pleasant time found Sam here, he remained all night Uncle G went home this [?] 28th Sam & Ben took the ice cream tub, etc. back to [Philadelphia], in the P.M. brother went home, he wrote me a very sweet note Jennie went home in the one oclock train Ned A. here - 29th A lovely day all went to [Meeting] Dr Ellie & children were out to tea Oldden came to see me in the evening. Sam here 30th In the 7 oclock train we came to [Philadelphia] Father gave me a ticket to New York we left Camden at 9. No one I knew had quite a pleasant ride to [New York] went up to Broadway, then to Stewards brought some handkerchiefs then to Evans, got two books one for Hannah & one [?] pencil for Sadie - took cars for White Plains, where Edward was waiting for me reached here and found all well & happy to see me Jim Brouwer & Sadie came, he staid all night - JUNE 1st Jim went home yesterday, George Hallack came I wrote Home directed to John Child - 2nd Quite windy but very pleasant Anne Barnes & some friends called. Anna went with them to spend the day - 3rd This morning they were in my school, after dinner Anna & E went with them to Williams staid to tea, onions asparagus bed Sadie 4th Pamelia Underhill here in school, afterwards, Sadie H.P. Edward and self went to Porthchester, I engaged slippers, had a splendid time crackers, peanuts etc. warm hands etc. soon - 5th Received a letter from Cornelia Hancock - I went to [Meeting] had a very solemn one was thinking about going away and David spoke but I did not hear him too much engaged with 76 my own thoughts - After dinner we all took a long walk, Dollie was here, showed me W T's letter I took shorthand - wrote to Cornelia, Aunt Jane Brother etc. - sent it to Dr - 6th A cold morning. I felt miserable all day, 7th Feel rather better but quite poorly yet, am so afraid of the chills, had onions for tea am improved some - 8th All busy preparing for the Association, I received a funny and interesting letter from Sallie & Sam, drawings, had an early tea, about 70 here at the Circle they had 15 essays and a number of dialogues it was certainly very interesting, the last one of the season -- 9th Wrote to Sallie, oh how short the time before I go 10th Worked in the flower garden awhile, received a letter from Cornelia with the translation of W's short hand. a hard rain in the P.M. 11th A beautiful though cold morning, we were up at 5 - I went over to see Dollie, showed her the translation - West Point, following "Saturday", etc. etc. etc. etc. etc. etc. etc. etc. About [half] past 7 6 of us started to Tarrytown, to spend the day, we were at Jacob Mott's, had a most splendid time, after dinner took a delightful ride, went to Washington Irving's place, and a beautiful spot it is. perfectly splendid, & delightful view of the Hudson, then we went to a great many other handsome places, to see the monument of Major Andre. etc. came home after tea, had a lovely ride it was so moonlight. I sat in front cold hands - 12th Anna was quite sick, I went to meeting with Edward & the children, in the P.M. Jim Brouwer was here & M. Underhill - 77 13th About [half] past one, I went with all my pupils to Dollie's school, she had a Reharsal, the room was trimmed up beautifully with green leaves & flowers, they dialogues, singing etc. - and it was interesting - Edward B. & S brought us home as it rained - Dollie was here to tea & W. Havland & wife spent eve - 14th A very warm day indeed. Edward told me he talked of going to [Philadelphia] on 7th day - to get a teacher. I will be so sorry when I leave, they would like me to stay. I wrote home in great haste telling them he would be there. 15th Anna and the boys went to Meeting, I was very tired after school, but got dressed up, a pleasant evening - 16th I was over to see Dollie a few minutes this morning a lovely day though quite warm. 17th A & E went to the Plains - It rained quite hard The compositions were letters, they heard them some very good - 18th All bright and beautiful, up early, and Sam and I took Edward to Rye. He is going to Philadelphia in the 9 oclock train We went to Portchester did some shopping & came home - this P.M. Anna & the boys went and made some calls. I dressed to take a RIDE but did not go, went to see Dollie - 19 I slept with Anna last night, & oh what comfort we took, such nice talks. Dollie came over we had a long talk - I went to Meeting, after dinner Willie came, wanted me to go to ride, but I declined Anna being alone - James Brouwer came down. I slept with Anna - nice times indeed - 20th Very rainy all day, Edward came from Philadelphia, he went out to Darby on 7th day, staid all night 78. had a very pleasant visit indeed. he did not get suited in a teacher, but heard of several - - Wille wanted me to ride today but it stormed so - 21st Edward brought me a long letter from home last night and two from the office this eve - Dollie was here awhile 22nd Anna and the boys went to Meeting, after school she and I drove up to David Barnes, Anna was home and we had a very peasant visit we then went to Thomas Field's staid to tea & had a very nice time - - 23rd After school Barnes Hoppers & Dollie came to rehearse the pieces they intend speaking at the May Party - 24th It has rained nearly all day, cloudy, - Willie Willets, etc. etc. etc. were here fixing up the bower, throne & brought flowers 25th Very dull this morning, but we were all busy at work fixing for the May Party, after while the sun came out, and we worked hard, fixing the throne which was arched and erected on a large platform covered with green and most splendid flowers, Sadie Mott Brouwer was crowned having maids of Honor & twenty girls nearly all dressed in white with beautiful boquets, in their hands, all did very well indeed spoke well; they looked very pretty indeed, afterwards all were invited to a dinner, the table being set under the trees, all was done out in the orchard when Edward had erected their throne etc. - The tables looked splendid flowers, boquets, cake ice cream, lemonade, strawberries & every thing, Robert S., Jacob Brouwer, Jacob Mott and every body else most that we invited was here, the orchard was most full of 79. carriage, etc. we counted over 140 and probably there was more than that - altogether we had a very delightful pleasant time indeed, saw so many. we had a number of motto's which caused much fun I received one which I guess was pretty true - G Y gave it I had an invitation to attend Chappaqua Reading Circle Pic Nic, but it comes a week too soon for my school - Several of our's got together and proposed having one at the Beach in two weeks - I do not know whether they will make it out - - I [?] a while to day - Sadie looked sweet - This may party will long be remembered by all who attended but particularly, by my dear pupils who I think can appreciate -, the kindness of our dear friends here surely they have done all that could be done to make us happy and truly we have been so it has been to me one of the pleasantest years of my life & surely I can never be thankful enough for all their kindness - Edward received a letter from Anna Kaighn this morning, applying for the school also one from E. Clements declining. 26th I did not go to Meeting, as I was tired & had much writing to do, I wrote long letters to Aunt Jane, Allie Schofield, Jane Hillborn, and sister Lyd - It has been a pleasant day this P.M. we made ice cream & had a good feast - The girls wanted to ride, so they put the side saddle on and Sadie, Hannah & I rode around the yard, it was real nice to be on horse back again, we had a real nice time. Mary Griffins Father and Mother called awhile, she did not go home last night, how much she had improved since 80. she came here, it has really done her good to be away from home, for she is a truly noble girl improves so much upon acquaintance, she has many noble qualities - I have been very busy writing all day - so many letters to answer 27th After tea we all walked to meet Edward, all got in the hay wagon and had a real nice ride - Anna not well - 28th This evening received a letter from Jennie S & Aunt E - a very pleasant day indeed though quite warm 29th Robert B was here to invite me to a Pic Nic - so about [half] past three he called, we had a delightful ride to the Sound, drove close to the water on the beach, we had a pleasant time, about 50 there such a splendid view - before long became so dark we could not see the horse and poured with rain, so when we got to William Havilands, we stopped for about an hour, it was a dreadful storm, rained very much when we came home, we had a lantern, found kind Anna & Edward waiting for me. The thermometer at 95 in the shade 30th A lovely cool morning, I sprained one of my feet last night and have to limp along JULT 1st I called school at 8 & closed at three, then we attended the funeral of Sarah Carpenter - I gave E. pincushion 2nd Edward, boys & self took Hannah Pierce to White Plains she was going home. we had a pleasant ride I feel very sorry, She is going away - After dinner Sade & I went to tea, pictures Anna called twins etc. etc. - Yesterday I bought a traveling dress, & duster also a dress for Charlotte - 81 3rd Went to [Meeting] had a pretty good one, wrote in the P.M. in the evening Robert Barnes & Jacob A came 4th A very cool morning indeed. Mr McCauley was here a while - school closed at 3 - The girls went to Rye Pond Anna to Aarons, me left alone but did not care rather enjoyed it - wrote to Uncle Hall, Lide etc. 5th After school Anna and I went to Portchester, I drove we did some shopping. I got her a small tea bell - 6th Feel better though am miserable yet, after dinner Anna & I were in her room laying down - I felt sad - This eve I wrote to Cousin Mattie - a letter from Jane H 7th I cannot eat anything, am miserable though will try to keep up until school is over, only one more day - All the girls went and took tea at Thomas Suttons, after tea Dollie came then, two Griffens & a cousin 8th Misty this morning, but cleared off soon, I reviewed my pupils in all their lessons, after dinner Edward and Anna came up in the school room, also Anna Barnes and the parents of most of the children, they recited the Painter of Seville, then each spoke a piece afterwards I read the compositions, some of which were beautiful, Lizzie H. was poetry, Sadie's was a Farewell Address, several others also, all of which were beautiful, the Sadie came up and read a note at the same time presenting me with a most SPLENDID NAPKIN RING, with M. S. on the out side and "Martha Schofield from her pupils" inside, it was a very heavy one and will be valued as much for the sake of the dear ones that gave it to me, I was so surprised that 82. could scarcely express my thanks, though I told them words had not the power to express them - Afterwards I read a Farewell Address that I had written, it was seventeen pages, altogether we had a pleasant time, though each felt that we were to separate, and while some of the essays were being read there was not a dry eye in the room - As school closed Stephen Willets gave me a box in which was a beautiful FRUIT KNIFE, silver, with my name on it, so kind and thoughtful in him. then after school Anna gave me a very pretty Fan - and thus it is one after another I received, such beautiful gits, which will always be highly valued - as evidences of the love and affections of my dear pupils, I guess this day will not be forgotten by any of us, it has been one of pleasure as well as pain - and will be recorded on the pages of memory as one in which we all felt, that the tie, which bound our little band, would be severed, we have been a happy circle, under the paternal care and guidance of our highly esteemed and valued friends How strange it will be for me not to have any more school, and though I know my health needs rest, and would give out if I did not quit, still I will miss the pleasant smiles and kind words of those who have not only been my pupils in school, but my friends and companions out, they have been to me like sisters. 83 Attended school this afternoon was much interested in the exercises - some very good compositions. A feeling of sorrow pervaded the whole assembly at the thought of parting with their beloved teacher Edward [?] 6 Pills. My beautiful gifts will ever be treasured as evidences of the love of my pupils, and surely that love is returned, for I know our hearts are bound by affections chord which I trust will be as lasting as life itself - The hours I have spent with them have been happy ones indeed, and my earnest prayer will ever be that they may live a righteous and happy life and be prepared for their hope in Heaven -. 9th This morning Sadie Hannah and myself took Alice McCauley up to Allan Suttons where she is going to remain until school opens again. The boys went with us to the [Meeting] House and there we left them - About 12 oclock James Brouwer came down; after dinner Robert Barnes came and we all went to Rye Beech, there was a Pic Nic got up by our Reading Circle about seventy there, There was quite a report about me but I contradicted it & Sadie helped me - We had a nice time though I felt sad knowing I was so soon to leave my dear home here, about nine eve started home, had a very nice ride, found them up, soon after we left for Chappaqua, as we wished to reach there that night it was beautiful and moonlight and we really had 84. a nice ride reached there about [half] past one, went round awhile then retired, next morning was 10 introduced to Jacob Amerman a young gentleman from New York a cousin of Sadies, we went to Meeting saw quite a number and had much preaching - In the P.M. Robert S. Haviland and his sisters came, at tea I used my beautiful napkin ring, we had a very pleasant visit from them - a lovely moonlight one 11 Very warm indeed, this morn we three Jacob Sadie & self went down to take Jim something to eat, a nice walk - after tea we called on Maryanna Birch & baby - 12 After breakfast five of us started for Sing Sing, the horse balked, we called at Havlands, gooseberries etc. stopped awhile at Sing Sing then went down to Tarrytown found Jacob Holts looking for us we had a warm ride but very pleasant, after dinner we undressed and slept, awhile, before we went down Maria Mallery came, she remained to tea & then we all got in Jim's wagon and went to her home which to a most splendid place, commanding a delightful view of the village and river, also of the surrounding country, while there the full moon rose beautiful casting a pale light over all things making them look beautiful, we had a delightful time, Jim and Jacob returned home, we remained till ten, then James waited on us (Sadie & me) home then we had lemonade it was very warm indeed, thermometer over 100 17th at [?] Singsing - likeness, not mean anything 85. 13th Very warm indeed, so hot we could not go out to ride I wrote home, we slept, talked and lolled round after dinner, untill we got dressed, when we then went over to Hannah Motts intending making a call, and then returning to Jacobs having an early tea and going to ride around to see Tarrytown, but while we were at Hannah a very hard thunder shower came up, a great deal of rain and very high wind which did much damage, the lightening was very sharp, after it was over it was too late to ride, so Sadie and I went down to Mary Jane Fields made a pleasant call - 14th A lovely morning, after the rain, we all started for Chappaqua, on the way I christened my silver knife by using it to cut cake, in the road, we went up to monthly Meeting, had a very long one - Afterwards we all went to Esther Havilands to dine there was considerable company there, Alfred Sutton & his intended bride - Sadie & I eat Philopenas with R S and both [?] after tea James & Jacob came after us - 15th Jack & Mary Jackson came up yesterday, this morn we rode down to the meadow in a hay wagon, waited untill they loaded up then we waited till they got on the hill then we all got on and had a jolly ride, when we got to the house found Susan Ann Haight there to make a call - It has been quite cool - 16th Rainy all day, we had a pleasant time in the house Jacob got me some braid to work the slippers, I tried in Tarrytown but could not match. Jacob B. came up - 86. 17 A lovely morning, so bright and beautiful, before we were up Mary came in and said we might go to Yorktown so we got up and after breakfast, Jacob Jim Sadie M Underhill started for George Hallecks which is about ten miles, we had a delightful time going up over big hills crossing Croton River etc. - found all had gone to Meeting except Sarah Jane so we went too, they had several sermons, we then went back with Hannah Pierce to dine, in the P.M. went to the mill and were weighed, me one hundred and thirty, I am much better than I was, take PILLS every day. We had an early tea and then left, went over Turkey Hill Mountain, and down to Croton Lake, we got out crossed over, walked all around, enjoyed the beautiful scenery, etc. it was about sunset and every thing looked so pretty, the water falling so far, rushing and foaming along, - But the walk here will be remembered without be put on paper - - - Afterwards we went to a Hotel had lemonade etc. - then rode home, Jacob sat back a little of the way, my shaw, cover --- 18th I wrote two pages in Sadies Piece Book, after tea Jim took Sadie and me to call on Susan Ann Haight - 19th So rainy all day did not get off to Purchase - yesterday Jacob Amerman returned to New York to his business - 20th After breakfast Sadie James and myself left Cherry Hill Cottage, we had a nice ride down, they staid to dinner, then returned, we had cut the Queens cake so brought some of it down for Anna to have some - 87. Hannah Carpenter Esther Field Benjamin Williamson wife children & sister in law were here to tea. Just before we sat down, Arthur Baker and his father came, they remained all night, interesting talker - [?] [?] 21st This morn Anna the bosy and my self went up the Hills left the horse and walked a mile very romantic country After dinner she and I went down to Rye to get the mail - When I came from Chappaqua I found a letter from Uncle Hall also Lide & Mother, Lide said Carrie Willets had written to her, that she was engaged and was very very happy I do hope she will always be so for she is a nice girl and Charley is a good fellow - 22nd Sarah Sherwood came yesterday and remained untill this PM - About 4 we walked over and made a call on Stephen Willits found Robert & wife there This eve I gave Anna a pair of slippers I had worked for her, they were braided on black cloth, blue & gold - Quite a thunder storm and some sharp lightening 23rd A very cool morning, wind blowing all day, This P.M. Hannah and I went over to Samuel Burlings to tea quite a number there M. I Hatfield - tea table laugh [?] 24th I finished my letter home, then we went to Meeting - had a very long one, and I was quite tired - After dinner we all went to Daniel Griffen's, had a very pleasant visit indeed they live at a very pretty place 25th I sewed all day on my new dress, as the dress maker I engaged could not come her sister was so sick - about 4 oclock we went over the Plains, to get 88 Arabella Hoyt and her sister, who are going to board here her sister has her little child with her 26th After dinner Hannah Edward and myself went over to Underhills, he went to the Village. We had a very nice visit, they were very kind indeed did all they could to entertain us - While we were there, a thunder storm came up, and the rain poured down in torrents, though we did not see much lightening; but very soon, the clouds disappeared and the Sun's bright, cheering rays penetrated every nook and corner, making all Nature look so beautiful, and even chasing the shadows from our hearts, so that we could better appreciate the beauty of the scene, the glistening dew-drops looked like traces of tears after the smiles had come -- We remained to tea - afterwards came home - Hannah is learning to drive, so drove nearly all the way. we were the carriage [?] [?] [?] 27th Went to Monthly Meeting, had a good one, with my thoughts, and reflections - This afternoon Hannah and I went to Edmund Fields, spent a pleasant afternoon. Hannah L. was very kind indeed, came home before dark - 28th A most lovely morning though, very cool for this month Busy sewing all day visiting in the evening. Never to be forgotten G. T. [?] notes 29th My thoughts were so busy last night, that I could not sleep just lay thinking - got up before 5 and finished a letter, sitting at my room window - went down to get some pills received a paper etc. etc. the contents must be forgotten, or cannot be recorded here - nothing but unnatural strength keeps me able to appear well & happy 89. I drove two horses to White Plains. Emma, Bell, Charlotte & Hannah, had quite a pleasant ride, at least they would think so though I suffered deeply - could not eat anything - He who reads all hearts knows the cause of my anguish, may he give me strength to bear it, is my hourly prayer - H C cut my duster & tried it on - [?] reply - This P.M. Hannah and myself went to Esther Havilands to tea had a nice time only I felt miserable - Alone in my room I read the answer - oh God, what agitation of mind, what anguish of soul I have known in the last three days, I never knew so much mental suffering in so short a time, made still more hard to bear, by my having to appear as I always felt pleasant and agreeable, it seemed almost too much for me, such constant exercise of mind, caused my health to fail, I could eat nothing a relish for food gone entirely - I see too, another suffers deeply, It is my earnest prayer we may be restored to our old cheerfulness and ease - I hope I may forget & let it be buried with the past there are times when my brain is dizzy and I feel as if I must give up, but no, I must seem to others what I always have - I keep promises - 30th I am better in body and mind, than I have been for several days still, when I see the one who has known all, who suffers too I feel heavy hearted It is a lovely morning, the sun shines bright & beautiful, busy pulling flowers making them in boquets etc. Received a letter from Sallie, saying they had heard Guy Roberts had requested a certificate of marriage, Charley had told them I was to be one of the bridemaids, the first I knew of it - a letter must have been miscarried. At the same time they told of the death of Uncle Charley's Hettie, dear little creature is now an angel in Heaven - away from all trouble and pain - Poor Uncle seems disconsolate, his troubles are numerous & his afflictions are great - I too have my share of trouble. - 90. This P.M. Benjamin Tilton wife and family came to board, Emma's husband and Bells sister came all so - took a walk after tea - 31st Nearly all went to Meeting there was a funeral there, we had a long and good sermon from David Barnes, his wife spoke also Spent a pleasant afternoon outwardly though there were many moments when my mind suffered - AUGUST 1st Benjamin and Tunis returned to the city - before noon Bell and I went and gathered some moss to make a fire board - I worked at it this P.M. after tea we took a walk & rode back in the hay wagon. just as I retired E gave me some splendid apples 2nd Anna came up and gave me some medicine, she is really worried about my appetite, it is strange, how my body feels pretty well & I have not eaten a meals victuals for one week - when I sit down to the table thoughts came quick and fast, and food will not go down - This morning I received 7 elegant pears, with the remark "thou didn't eat anything" how kind, in every little act, my wishes scarcely dare be expressed - I was helping Anna prepare for Quarterly Meeting - baking etc. - I do begin to feel happier, & I trust all will be well - If I could forget - 3rd We went to Quarterly Meeting this morning, saw a great number I knew, Mary Calley was there and spoke very well in the last [meeting] We had a number here to dine, and stay all night. Jacob Mott, wife, etc. - Sadie Hannah's Willets & Pierce & myself slept on the sofa bedstead and great fun we had too - 4th Calls this morning and then all went to Meeting Chappagua friends were there. After dinner Dollie, Albert Sutton etc. called then Anna and I went to David Barnes, saw considerable company had an invitation to attend the Pic Nic to come off to morrow - did not accept. 5th I am better than I was, body and mind. Dollie & Phebe came 91 over with an invitation to the Pic Nic. I would not accept - It rained quite hard all the P.M. Lizzie & Charlotte Griffen here to tea. 6th A lovely though cool morning. busy making boquets etc. - This afternoon Edward drove to Barnes's with me, but Anna being away, I returned, Bell Emma & self called on R Tilton, she said she and Willie intended going to [Philadelphia] and would go see me - Edward went to the Depot brought back Messrs D A, Tilton, [?] etc. we spent a jolly evening though my heart often felt sad - 7th Another splendid morning. yesterday Bell and I called on Mrs Tilton she said they were coming in to see us. We spent a very pleasant day, my last first day at Purchase 8th I went to David Barnes and remained all night, nice time 9th Ezra Hoyt came up from New York, quite a pleasant gentleman 10th Anna is better this morning, Edward and myself went down to Mamaroneck to Monthly Meeting about 10 miles had a most delightful ride returned to dinner, then he took me to Lizzies & he [?] [?] called for me on his return it was a splendid morning at evening & one long to be remembered although there is but little conversation - I was almost 11th of AUGUST Another splendid morning but our hearts were sad and sorrowful for the time had come that we must separate & we knew not how soon we would meet again, I was sad parting & I feel that I was leaving one of the dearest homes on earth, but the last tearful farewell was felt words would not be spoken and then I took my last look at the dear ones there, it [?] seemed like severing my heartstrings to leave those well beloved ones. Edward was with me and we had a pleasant though silent ride to the city [?] ]?] Then we went through the tunnels then I was very 92. sick, but he gave me some lozenges & I was better soon. on arriving in New York, we found the boat would not leave for Flushing till one oclock, so we left my carpet bag there & we went to [?] He had to go to some Banks & I went along, then we walked down to the Custom House etc., He wanted very much to [?] me in and get some dinner but I could not eat and so we did not go, in our walk we called at Hodenpyls, and had a pleasant chat - he brought me Godeys Lady Book wrote my name in it, also, crackers, cakes fruit etc. which [?] [?] on deck the Enoch Dean as we were there an hour or so before it [?], He remained with me till the last moment, and then we parted, [?] [?] had become true friends, for he is one I can look to for advice, he stood and watched me till the boat moved out of sight & then how teary and desolate I felt, utterly alone, but I laid down awhile & then felt refreshed. [?] and Maria Ladd came in to meet me & said Uncle & Aunt E had gone to Niagara, then indeed I felt almost homesick, and after reaching Bayside [?] my heart in a letter to Sallie, and very soon the sadness disappeared, so much that when Richard Bell called & invited me to take a ride I went, we drove to Little Bayside, where there was a whale for exhibition one that had been found there a few days before it was small and young only 30 feet long, but well worth seeing, it was dead though alive when found - 12th A most beautiful morning, after dinner we went and called at Cousin Roberts then at S. Willets, where I remained all night, had such a delightful visit Sarah [?] and I had such nice talks, real old times again, so kind [?] 13 Rainy this morning but cleared off in the P.M. they took me home & we found [?] [?][?] Uncle remained [?] [?] [?] is there also [?] I thought Niagara a grand and magnificent sight, [?][?] ought to see - a sight calculated to [?][?] one with a great [?][?] 14 I wrote a long letter to Edward and Anna then went to Meeting 93. In the PM Lile & Richard came also Charley and Carie, a noble couple they will be and a happy one I hope - though their troubles must come 15th Called on Mary Mickle, then went to Cousin R's staid all night, they seemed to think I was changed, as I used to be so lively and now was sober & serious, I did [?] appear pleasant and think before I left I succeeded - Richard was away 16th Went over to Uncles then we all went and took a walk down to the Pond etc. In the afternoon read my Address to Aunt E. after tea she went to call at [?] I felt nervous & knew not what I wanted, but there was a longing for something a feeling that there was a vaccum, a loneliness -, I waited long and anxiously in the evening and was made most happy by receiving three long letters from [?] Harrison & Uncle, I felt so differently, there was a load of my heart Edward was not very well, but wrote me a long letter, telling all about his visit to Providence - where he went after he left me to secure a teacher for their school which he did at the school there, I do hope they will love & be [?] with her - he said the missed me there, but oh how much more I miss the pleasant words, and kind attention, & their paternal care over me 17 [?] nice cool morning Aby took me over to Cousin Roberts, from there we went to Rockaway [?] wagon loaded Lile [?] drove us, Dick being at Catskill, there was quite a Pic Nic about 30 & all kinds of provisions, pies, cakes etc. the part I enjoyed the most was silently gazing at the deep blue ocean, one has a grand sight and so well calculated to make one feel still more the greatness the [?] words fail to convey the grandeur of the scene - I felt that I could gaze on it for a long long while - listening to the roaring of the waves as they dashed upon the beach,. how I would have loved some of my dearest friends company I can never forget my first day spent on the ocean shore - 18th [?][?] for Aunt E. then went to Meeting, in the P.M. we took [?] at Pearsalls 19th [?][?][?][?] Flushing, then to the [?] House [?] 20th [?][?][?] took tea called at Laurences, Edward & Lydia's 91. 21. I did not go to Meeting but sent some letters, while they were gone. I copied the Piece by I Baddressed to J. H. [?] family, for Anna and commented upon it only I think it is beautiful, and expresses so much of my feelings - 22 I went over to Sarahs on Red Bird, then down to Mickles to dine, afterwards Bownes, - Met Nina Fremonts, [?] [?] adopted daughter & niece [?] [?] 23 Company, Dick Lile, his sisters, Sara W etc. - We made arrangements to [?] home - 24th Dull and cloudy, but, notwithstanding Aby and myself left Bayside me, perhaps for a long long while, we met Lile & Richard the boat and we all went to the city, met Lily Jackson and then all started for [Philadelphia], had an agreeable ride, Lily met George & and went with him, we went and had some dinner then came out home. found all well, and glad to see us, it had rained quite hard letters from Chalk boy Sadie & allie 25th Cleared off Sister Sallie and myself went to the city to shop I bought a white dress to wear to Lizzies wedding, came out on the carriage found much young company here, Harry Child etc. we all took a long walk along the creek Richard and I called on Mart Jones. 26th Boy went to [Philadelphia] then went to Aunt Esters, Cousin John came for us we spent a nice afternoon, Sallie & us went down to see a woman leave [?] [?] 27th We [?] [?] went to the city, then to Earles Gallery, Girard College. Laurel Hill, Fairmont etc. met Harry, Edward W. etc. came out again [?] [?] 28th Went to Meeting Mother spoke very well. after dinner Cousin John came down [?] the boy riding, Lizzie & myself went to Uncle W. they came here, we rode home with him, then took a walk, such a beautiful light night, the heavens were brilliant with the Northern lights exceedingly anything I had ever seen. 29th Rose went to Sharon to [?] [?] left our home for Poterville & out to Crosswicks. We will miss them after having been here [?] 30th I sent a letter to Anna inclosed [?] a gold [?] [?] [?] 31st This [?] [?] [?] [?] walked [?] [?] Cousin H I had a letter from [?] 95. SEPTEMBER 1st Cousin Ephraim brought us home we found Uncle Charley and Johnny here, they all left i the afternoon for home - 2nd I was busy sewing at my white dress and other things 3rd Aunt Hennie and I have people were here to tea Sam also 4th Ben came down for me, after tea Sam Sallie and self had a nice walk [?] 5th Ben and I went to Uncles via [Philadelphia] - I bought Coz a wedding gift, of a silver sugar spoon - all were very glad to see me Sallie there 6th all busy preparing for the approaching nuptials Sallie & I [?] [?] 7th A windy day, we all very busy, I made some bread - Chalk [?] [?] 8th of SEPTEMBER - A most beautiful day and the one chosen for my dear Cousin to become a wife - we had the table all set and then went to dress and at 5 oclock P.M. all went down to the parlor. there were six waiters Brother & Sallie Bouman, Cousin Olive, and Sallie Rich, Chalkley Holt and myself - we had no preaching - They said the ceremony very well indeed - every thing passed off well, we waited in table and had our own fun - indeed years we will not forget it soon - 37 staid all night a number of beds on the floor in the garrets - The waiters (except the first) straw for shutting up the house, then had a cozy talk to ourselves, [?] 9th [?] not sleep very good last night we [?] waited on table at each meal, - every thing was very nice indeed plenty meat from the city. In the evening we three couples took a splendid moonlight ride to Norristown & Bobtail - each in separate carriages 10 Cleaning up all day - sending cake out etc. etc. a cloudy day 11th Sallie [?] [?] Norristown, I had Aunt & Coz my address - after [?] [?] [?] took Cousin [?] [?] home, I read all [?] 12 A [?] day [?] [?] [?] woman at it all day 13th I was doing some writing for Cousin H. her [?] [?] Niagara 96. 14 - Quite cool. I was busy writing nearly all day. 15 This P.M. the bridal party [?] went to Charley Williams, [?] had an elegant tea and a very pleasant time, four visitors - before we left Soloman and Susan Lukens came staid all night 16 Dull and rainy, Ben went to the city [?] H and Guy with him 17th Rained very hard all day. they did not return, Ben came last eve 18th Beautiful and clear, Uncle and I went to meeting, just at dinner Sam and Sallie came, in the afternoon we went to Norristown. 19th Spent a pleasant time, they went home this P.M. [?] & Coz came 20th Dear sister Sallie and Sam passed meeting I can scarcely [?] [?] After tea Cozzie read me the journal she kept while gone to Canada 21st Rainy all day Newtowns exhibition comes off to day 22 Rain again real equnoxtial storm - Chalk here, [?] [?] town 23 - I have talked of going home several days but it is so stormy 24 Cloudy - I marked a great deal - John S. Williams & Kitty here - 25 Clear - they went and then Cozzie Ol and I started home, Aunty gave me a small piece of furniture a dear little stool - We arrived here about one; found company he returned in the [?] 26th We washed I fixed my drawers - and consumed to the fames some papers that were precious to me, although they were connected with some of the greatest [?], with I can hardly [?] sorrow, agony, agitation etc. how can I ever forget [?] It is only by constant prayer that I am enabled to bear up so well -. [?] & [?] Sunday evening 27 Wrote to John S. Williams. Aunt Jane came down in the [?] Came here to spend the evening Cousin C & [?] in the morrow 28 Father Mother Aunt & [?] [?] [?] [?] at to [?] to dine I was very much disappointed [?] not getting a letter from Ed [?] [?] [?] [?] some of them are sick [?] [?] not on the [?] [?] 97 [?] [?] [?] all bereaved hearts know the [?] and consolation in pouring forth the soul in prayer in [?] [?] The Eternal [?] and [?] the heart [?] [?] [?] strengthening arm is ever stretched forth to aid the weary ones of earth to help those who trust in him - oh Father it is the [?] influences of thy love that enable me to be sometimes overcome my naturally quick temper, but ah even now it is not half [?], of time after having given way on offering up a prayer [?] the [?] [?] given me I know a that thy holy love and the [?], [?] placed in Thee is the only way in which I can become fit for thy heavenly mansion - would that my heart were purified and fit for eternity '' 29 [?] [?] [?] quite [?] pleasant [?] [?] [?] [?] and Lide went to Uncle Williams Sam was here [?] [?] [?] 30 Another lovely morning, making all seem cheerful & happy Aunt and Father went to the depot for little Mary Price This P.M. Samuel Wallie, Martha Anthone and husband came I made a pincushion filled it with [?] rain [?] October 1st Another beautiful day and just one year ago I went to Harrison [?] a stranger to all but know I feel that I know them all well and love them too yes although I have left there as a teacher the [?] formed in that revised spot and my intimate acquaintance with [?] and have made the very [?] dear to me it is with pleasure it [?] [?] the time spent there and although I saw [?] sad and [?] hour [?] [?] [?] them 7 [?] [?] those with [?] affection [?] [?] [?] they may receive the blessing of our Heavenly Father I know God that to heart bountiful in thy goodness that I have received persons of thy love and goodness, more perhaps than I deserve but if I would not ask one blessing it would be that [?] were 98. so kind to me whose constant care and good example made me feel that I was among those whom I will love, that these may not know sorrow or unhappiness - that they may receive thy blessings - Uncle, Aunt, Father, Mother and Sallie gone to the city the last three to Crosswicks 2nd Another Sabbath morning has dawned upon the world a day of rest to all, a day in which thousands will assemble in the houses of worship there to give thanks to God, but how many there are that weekly congregate to hear preaching that know not the beauty of silent worship - To me the best time for sober thoughts and serious reflection is when alone in my chamber, not when surrounded by a gay crowd - I know we should go to Meeting but there we find much to lead the thoughts away much that is calculated to draw our minds from searching into our hearts and finding out our own feelings. 3rd Could not get a woman so we washed,, I was very very tired, am not able to bear as much hand work as I once was, though I try not to complain Cousin Mary [?] Eph here to tea she brought a beautiful silver cake basket as a bridal gift for Sallie - very good and kind in her - 4 A most beautiful lovely morning and I try hard to keep [?] [?] with Nature, yielding to her gentle influences yet [?] from my heart strings are harshly touched and tears never on my Eyelids I am apt to feel too keenly the thoughtless words that a [?] [?] [?] Sallie came home from Jersey Sam with her to spend the evening 5th Busy all morning in the kitchen, endeavoring to fulfill well my duties in the household - and although I am thankful for my many blessings - it is only by putting my faith and trust in Him who judgeth all that I can get along I had a letter from Sadie a [?] [?] dearest friends - tho [?] I love so dearly 99 These sweet tokens of love and the dear memories of the past, contribute much to my present happiness. The remembrance of their goodness will ever stimulate me to do right I hardly see how it is that in one short year my heart could have become so intertwined with them, making me [?] highly every endeavor of the love & value all pertaining to my home there strange that even in the deepest cup of bitterness and sorrow, happiness may be linked & love [?] be [?] Aunt Emily came down today - I remained alone in my chamber deep in thought 6th There are moments when my weary soul seemed sinking beneath the sorrow that sometimes encompass it. then after a prayer for strength my heart resumes its once joyful elasticity - I have often much happiness & am grateful for it when again, often the merry laugh is a mockery of the burning heart within - yet I strive to be always cheerful, believing that such a disposition will contribute much to the pleasures of those around me - We went to Cousin [?] in P.M. Ned Sam & I. Shin here in the eve - It seems as if I can never do [?] right because I carried on a conversation with Ned they said I was a flirt & Lide will scarely speak to me - oh! if she knew, if she would believe it was done without my intention of [?] [?] his [?], if she knew that I would not [?] [?] [?] to any thing not that intentionally to sadden her young heart no no I am no coquette - I care not for him only as a friend & always [?] to act accordingly [?] . very busy entertaining Rebecca & Jacob I thought better about it 7th [?] [?] [?] a beautiful day. Sallie went to the City this A.M. 8th Went [?] [?] [?] to do some shopping with Sallie bought [?] [?] dark silk [?] . It rained so hard [?] we [?] home [?] kept on all night 9th [?] [?] [?] [?] Edward and Anna, did not go to meeting, [?] had mine at home. Newton [?] in the afternoon also Sam at [?] [?] [?] 10th Raining quite hard but at last the Sun [?] out though clouds still [?] and [?] [?] [?] it is emblematic of the future [?] [?] 100 dear ones at Purchase. This day [?] school commenced again how well I remember my feelings on a like occasion and now [?] sincere prayer [?] for their welfare, and that He in his goodness will give them strength to perform the work to lead those young minds and hearts in the right path so that all may go on in [?] [?] My thoughts and spirit has been with them wherein to day and [?] would I love to be of the number on that dear old schoolroom Uncle [?] here this morning Oldden here in the afternoon Sam in eve - 11th A most beautiful day and every thing looks green and fresh although Autums changing hand will soon vary the leaves, and give a brilliant hue to the forest - It is [?] sorrow darkens the soul that most we feel the need of an even sustaining Arm, and I am oft times afraid that in my happier moments i am too forgetful of Him who bestows the blessings - But I try to be grateful for all those [?] it to give me a hope it will lead to follow Him 12th Another nice day and this is the one fixed for our friends Joseph & Mart to return from England, they will meet with a warm welcome when they reach here. This eve we started [?] to Mother Buntings but met them coming to John Andrews so we came back with them [?] 13th Much company Cousin Cyrus, Aunt [?] the dress maker from the city which kept us all very busy - I am [?] in the evening Aunt R brought Sallie a beautiful bridal present of a silver butter holder 14 Extremely busy all day making Sallie's weddings dress & others 15th A nice lovely day though very cool, [?] [?] [?] [?] here 16th [?] the church bell sounds calling all to worship and how dearly I love to listen to its solemn peals - my home has been so much [?] the last few days I have had little time for silent reflection [?] [?] my heart had uttered a prayer for strength and assistance 111. This P.M. Father Mother and self rode home [?] to Aunt Esther's I returned with E. J. R Eph Packson is some better though still ill The say that every heart knoweth its own bitterness [?] saying how little do we know by the outward appearance that the heart [?] is sometimes groaning under a weight of agony, that the sorrow stricken soul longs to trust the bonds and be free [?] [?] sympathize with these so have I known [?] drank deeply of lifes bitter draughts - my only consolation [?] [?] is to pray and have faith and trust in God, we know not what may be His aim in leading us through the firey furnace of affliction perhaps that the soul may come forth purified and [?] 17 - Sent my letter to dear Sadie - very busy all day [?] the [?] [?] and Ned here, surely they could not call me a flirt now, for I moved when he sat next me, and carried on no conversation with him than too my thoughts were of another sorrow and [?] [?] 18 Rainy cold windy day - just like myself way is it I can not be bitter than little things disturb me my almost [?] - to be all that I am capable of - still there are so many [?] backs so many hard thoughts and feelings that should be kept [?] a heart that has been blessed by a Holy Fathers love - 19 Not very well but sad because one whom I love is almost [?] [?] by [?] [?] [?] The cloud comes & we are [?] day of [?] [?] [?] [?] is all that can sustain [?] through [?] such afflictions 20 Cold windy day Aunt [?] [?] [?] [?] [?] [?] [?] 21st All went to the city I sent a letter to my [?] [?] found To day has been one of thoughts and reflection I have spent [?] [?] [?] [?] quiet that I had time to think for [?] [?] [?] it is [?] [?] [?] [?] [?] but for others 102. 22nd A cool day warm [?] [?] that [?] fast [?] [?] 23rd Went to meeting this morning and it was one of worship I felt the power and influence of my Heavenly Fathers love & gratified [?] my heart for my numerous blessings though I oftimes feel unworthy - In the afternoon, Father Mother Lide and myself rode down to Mathew Ash's a pleasant ride the country down there being intirely new when we returned found Oldden had been here - Just before tea Eph came remained and spent the evening with Lide & me the others all having gone out - our conversation in the Hall etc. 24th Very busy all day getting Sallie's clothes ready ironing & [?] 25th I have [?] lovely day, our monthly Meeting [?] object made [?] [?] Sallie's marriage - she went to the city this P.M. Lide's name was mentioned on a committee to [?] [?] for [?] at Quarterly Meeting [?] which comes next week. [?] here [?] 26th Busy cleaning house - Sallie returned from the city - I received letters from E & H Willets - [?] containing sad sad news - Hannah's [?] [?] that the bright happy spirit of Maggie Underhill has passed from earth, she was one of my beloved pupils in the bloom of youth, 16 summers, having passed over her head she was the youngest, the [?] petted and beloved, and there will be a blank in her bereaved family I feel deeply for the afflicted ones - Thus it is that Death [?] almost every home, desolating the hearts, casting [?] & sorrow around [?] [?] to choose the weary ones of earth - She was ill two weeks not dangerously so till the last. What a warning such cases are that we should be prepared when the messenger comes to for our long way home. Edward told me that a few days before [?] [?] Anna were returning from D.M. Griffins something gave [?] [?] horses [?] off throwing Anna out & hurting her very 103 [?] , John too was thrown out, but not injured, Anna was [?] home, no bones broken but ankle sprained & several deep cuts one [?] bone 3 or 4 inches in length poor dear Anna how I wish I was there to assist her all I could, I am so sorry she has to suffer so but oh what a blessing her life was spared I can scarcely be thankful enough that the [?] power of events spared her so from [?] life would be [?] indeed without her love and care - She is [?] far dearer to me than any one except some of my nearest relatives how much I love her God only knows, the deep and true affection that flows from my heart to that one being is [?] and boundless - 27th Sallie and Lyd went to the city to hear George W. Curtis. I wrote to H. W. 28th [?]HB sent a note down for me to call at her school, which I did, she told M. Hunt was going to leave and she wanted me to apply [?] Bartram John Brooks [?] spent the eve and Mary Jones 29th [?] PM - Lide & I went round to the Meeting House help fixing curtains & they have been new roofing it & making a porch all the way in front & one end cleaning whitewashing etc. 30th A dull day raw & cold I went to Meeting had a good one although my thoughts were with the loved & suffering ones at Harrison Ed wrote us to[?][?] 31st Very busy preparing for Quarterly Meeting - G. Truman & [?] coming here NOVEMBER 1st This morn Lide & I were at the cars to say good bye to May & Lizzie Jackson who are going to School at Providence, Attended [Meeting] which was very large George Truman spoke beautifully and my meeting was very good - much company to dine After tea Ned came with the good tidings that our dear friends [?] [?][?] had safely reached [Philadelphia] [?] [?] [?] was here 2 [?][?] Anna [?] was quite [?] [?] called to see her [?] [?] sounded [?] & [?] for my [?] [?] eve 104 Father and Mother went to I. H. Andrews to call in [?] [?] [?] 3rd Aunt Jane is some better and we are all so glad. Sallie went to the city - 4th day I received two letters written for Stephen but by mistake sent to me I returned them to Edward, and had the right one from there to day. My dear Anna is improving, I do pray sincerely that she will soon recover 4th Lidi Father and myself went to the city did some shopping at Fourth a beautiful [?] as a present for my darling sister, Sallie, & Lide got a silver gravy ladly - I felt a strong drawing in at George Taylors and on going in met Stephen Willets & wife from [New York] very glad indeed to meet them, they were going to Haddonfield [?] this noon - Ned Andrews here to spend the evening - We gave Sallie her presents - 5th Most lovely weather real indian summer - Uncle T & and Aunt E. came out to [?] have been to Baltimore Yearly Meeting Sam and Amos came, Sallie received a present of [one] dozen small teaspoons [half] dozen large ones, & butter knives all from Richard Price, very unexpected and handsome too - also a dozen tea spoons from Uncle Thomas & [one] dozen damask linen napkins from Aunt Eliza. she has received many bridal gifts 6th Sam Amos Hannah Ann Earl & James Shin all here busy playing cards [?] Bunting & Evan Cadwalader, Polly & Gretel here awhile 7th Every day brings nearer the one which our dear Sallie will become a wife 8th We are preparing for to morrow & each one hopes it may be [?] [?] 9th Damp and foggy, Brother and myself went in the city to purchase [?] [?] , and bring out the cake from the confectionary, [?] [?] [?] [?] him found the groomsman had been here and we [?] [?] after dinner Carrie Budd came [?] braid Sallie & Lids hair which she [?] P.M. I went up the Public School to be examined for the [?] the superindent was then 24 applicants the directors were [an hour and a half] deciding between a Miss [?] and myself one was chosen. A white [?] M. Russell, I [?] who to have had it but perhaps she needs it most - Uncle & [?] [?] [?] & Ben will here came only at [?] [?] [?] [?] Dear [105] did very beautifully, all wore white flowers, her sisters & his were bridesmaids, Amos [?] & Lyd, Ben & Hannah Anna Boyd [?] Earl & Lide. There were between 61 & 70 here all passed quiet - but the day [?] impressed so vividly on my mind it is [?] wish it it was the day that my own darling sister became anothers, they said the ceremony very well & when it was over, the thought came she is gone, no longer ours but has become the wife of one who has promised to be "faithful and loving" till death - that moment was agony to me, I felt as if I could not bear the weight of anguish, it was a hard struggle and I have tears [?] to conceal my grief or I could not them [?] [?] our other cousins were here - some Aunt & Uncle Mother Sister - we did very well at the table waiters waited on the others - bride [?] sweet. 10th Another beautiful day, clearing up sending dishes home etc. This P.M. they went in the city in the carriage [Cousin] Linnie & Lide & self in the cars all to tea at Sarah Coopers friend oysters and an elegant cake then we went to hear George W. Curtis lecture on Dickens, very good - Lyd and I staid [?] night - Sallie & Sam found many presents from his friends, a handsome Bible from Earl Shin his Uncle [?] table marble top, elegant stuffed arm chair - brush and comb books etc. she is fixed very nicely. 11th After helping dear Sallie fix Lyd and I went out to the Barbers, he cut hair all off and champooned it, cut close just like a boy, it was so short and uneven I could no nothing with it - I came home found them gone to Cousin M. 12th [?] and boy went home Sam & Sadie came out to tea [?] 13th All went to Meeting, They went in to Ash's to dine, [?] [?] [?] and hard [?] [?] Earl came for us we went down after tea [?] [?] [?] in and "[?] dont be alarmed it is not your [?] but [?] [?] [?] [?] [?] down" of course we [?] alarmed and [?] came [?] [?] fainted hearing [?] shortly we went [?] [?] [?] [?] [?] [?] 106 composed [?] the [?] all [?], but the wind being west [?] the horse from catching. Ned waited on us home, spent evening [14th] Jennie went home today, Sallie returned to the city, Aunt R came [15th] Attended the funeral of I. Hancock - a young married man left a wife and a babe, poor thing I sympathize with her [?] Budd here 16th I have been suffering bodily all day, have tried to bear it patiently it is nothing compared to mental anguish - I sometimes wonder how it was that I was able to bear so much - those few days were more agonizing to me than many years of my life, my brain was on fire & the weight of agony almost drove reason from her throne I would have given much to have been unconscious for a while - 17th Cloudy and foggy, a 6 oclock Lizzie Andrews became the wife of Isaac Hibberd - it was clear before the time appointed 18th Rainy nearly all day Mother gone down to George Truman's I felt much better to day, had long letters from Harrison this week - 19th Very rainy but cleared off about 11 then Lyd, Lide & myself went in the city she to go to Heatons, we to Byberry - Lizzie James went to [?] to meet us we then drove to James Townsends, the sewing circle met there so we had an opportunity to see many old fiends - 20th We made our home at Jesse James and met with a warm welcome, went to Meeting with them - Ed Pickering & five took tea at [?] 21st Went to Bowmans to tea, it rained quite hard but we got back safely Jesse 22nd Took tea at Dr Comlys - Mary Bowman went home with [?]. 23rd Spent the day at Thomas James after we came back Ben Vandegrefts etc. came [24th] We sent up to Attelborough Quarter saw many we had not meet for years Cynthia Holcomb, Speak Buckman etc. had not seen him for 10 [years] we dined at John [?] had an elegant time pleasant ride - 25th Dined at Emer Comly's, called at [?] [?] [?] it Robert [?] 107 26th Attended the Sewing Circle at [Thomas] James had a delightful time a good many there - several old schoolmates and acquaintances 27th Lizzie and I rode to [Meeting] with Jesse, George H. went home with us 4 on one seat - There was other company invited & we had a splendid time 28th George returned & in the P.M. we bid farewell to our dear friends there who had been so kind - 4 years had passed since I had visited them so felt almost a stranger, though every one was remembered - They took us to Bristol - we found Cousin C going to Crosswicks 29th Took tea at Uncle Charles Pierce, they are all so kind, Emmy is lovely - 30th The [Reverend] Edwin Chase and sister took tea at Cousin C's - in the evening we attended the Lyceum which was very interesting indeed - good speaking. DECEMBER 1st Hector Ivins and Mary came over and spent the evening. C. Pierce brought word M. Mc[?] had gone to Harpers Ferry with Mrs Brown we shall feel very anxious to hear of his safe return - We went home with Brother Hectors SECOND 2 A warm lovely day too beautiful for the accomplishment of such a deed as the hanging of Poor Old John Brown - a man so noble and heroic should not meet with such a death - The whole country seems agitated. Meetings held to exhibit the sympathy of friends - 3rd So rainy and cold we did not leave Hectors, had a nice time - 4th First day we went to Meeting, then spent the rest of the day with dear Hector and Mary, our visit was so very pleasant 5th We got up intending to go home but it was so stormy we did not 6th Rainy again in the P.M. rode to Morrisville, N. Field & [?] went home with us spent a delightful evening 7th [?] did come home stopped in [?] awhile, rained hard 8th & 9th We staid at home company in the evenings. Pusey [?] 10th Lide and I went all around begging money for the Fair [?] [?] 8 [dollars] and [?] a great deal for Darby in [?] little [?] [?] and [?] came out from town. 108. 11th Went to Isaac Hibbards to tea Jim Rhoads there 12th The Anti Slavery Fair commenced to day at Concert Hall 13th Lide and I went it I was waiter at the provision table we staid at Samuel Childs all night saw a great great many of our friends 14th Attended the convention heard Theodore Tilton, he speaks beautifully 15th Very busy at the Fair Room at meal times - Harry took me to hear Dr. Chapin last evening on Modern Chivalry, very good Today the Hall was seized by the Sheriff - they said for rent from the lessee but they did not mean us to have it - we had a very great excitement a number locked in - I slipped passed an office and got in - The Sheriff and his men behaved very orderly and gentlemanly there was a clause in the lease, that the owners could seize it if there was any danger of property being injured, some threatened to burn the hall if we remained in it - we moved to the Assembly Buildings house crowded. We went to hear G. W. Curtis on the Present appeal of the Slavery questions the house was well filled thousands on the outside to break it up but the Mayor and 600 police kept them from setting fire to it - high windows were broken and vitriol thrown in etc. several disorderly ones taken out, and locked up - 16th Attended Fair had my pocket picked, came home at 10 P.M. This week will long be remembered by those who attended the Fair 17th Very Rainy but at 5 oclock Jesse, Lib, Tacie, Mary Parry George & Maggie came we spent a very pleasant evening Pie Fashion, Ned and Poet here stormy, Gertrude 18th George came out early and we all went to Meeting 10 of us young folks came here afterwards - in the evening Ned, Chalk & Joe had a nice time Harry Sam & Thomas here 19th They left us had [?] visit from them such nice young folks 20th Went to Monthly Meeting, rain very had Uncle Bartram brought us home. 109. 21st Father took [?] to the depot [?] I went to [?] Uncle Benjamin met me and [?] we [?] out to Uncle Paxsons found Aunt [?] better than I expected. I remained there [?] than a week and it will ever be remembered as one of pleasure [?] were both lively and Aunt Jane said she never laughed more then she did during that time, one P.M. Albi and I drove to Edward's school, Christmas had a dinner at uncles Turkey suppers etc. 25th Uncle [?] and family ate Christmas dinner here - We took tea at [?] 30th We went to [Meeting] in the sleigh I was very sorry to leave [?] Lide for I had so much pleasure the past week with our Aunt [?] Uncle P. came down with me then went to Cousin Ephraims [?] 31st At 9 oclock Oldden and I started for Uncles had a most splendid ride along the Schuylkill and Wissahickon every thing covered with [?] made all look beautiful - arrived here before dinner all well JANUARY, FIRST, EIGHTEEN HUNDRED SIXTY. 1860. First of the year first of the month and first of the week as I lay in my quiet chamber this morn - I offered prayers for strength to carry out my resolve to be better in the future, to become purified in spirit It is quite cold and we all remained at home enjoyed the conversation In the P.M. [Cousin] [?] & Oldden went to Bucks County Doylestown 2nd Very cold indeed thermometer down to zero, good sleighing 3rd We went & got Sallie Bowman then spent eve at [?] nice time 5th Took Sallie to Norristown very good sleighing and snow every day 7th [?] v P.M. M [Cousin] and Oldden came back very wet indeed 8th Oldden Ben and I came home they [?] away after [?] 9th [?] [?] [?] [?] - beautiful [?] [?] but [?] [?] [?] 10th Foggy - Father Mother started for Jonathan Paxsons [?] [?] 110. 10th Foggy all day Lyd and I attended Dr Fussels lecture last eve 11th Foggy snowing a little, Clear at night - I am busy sewing 12th Alone yes alone with my thoughts which often are almost benefical companies - mine are varied & in looking over the past can see much that will do for a lesson in the future - I have been writing stopping occasionally to think of the many scenes I have witnessed which prove a warning for me. I am not blind my eyes often penetrate the exterior and I behold the outward is no index for the interior how often are many deceived by appearances. 13th Preparing to go to Long Island repairing some dresses. [14th] Very raining and wet Sallie came out in the morn Sam in eve [?] here 15th Uncle Charley came out we went to meeting John Bunting here in the P.M. Sallie and Sam came to stay all night - from his fathers. 16th I went in the city with them did some shopping, in the evening we went to Race [Street] Reading Circle had a delightful time George Hancocks waited on me home a very pleasant walk remained at Sallies 17th Went up to Samuel & S. Childs and purchased a gold hunting watch for myself then went to Cozzies remained all night 18th Had a good communication from the spirits quite comforting then went to Cherry [Street] monthly meeting, then back to Sallies & out home - 19th Attended [Meeting], Phebe Fell & Mart here John B. here in the evening - 20th Busy sewing all day Joseph and Mart here in the evening 21st [Called?] up to Aunt Esthers, found Mary Bonsal here & Johny & Willie 22nd Went to meeting George Hancock here & came home with us to [?] & tea 23rd Jabez Bunting and wife spent the evening here 24th To Monthly Meeting this morn I was appointed on a committee got up and excused myself saying I expected to leave home and would not be able to serve etc. This P.M. went to Cousin Mary 111. 25th In the afternoon took a social cup of tea at Uncle W's spent eve at Jones 26th Warm beautiful weather in the P.M. Father & Mother went to [Philadelphia] I [?] some in the evening Ned and Joe here, said good Bye 27th Sallie came out in the morn - Father & Mother in the afternoon & Sam in the eve I had a letter from Edward saying he would be glad to meet me at Rye 28th Quite cold this morning. Packing my trunk to go to [New York] 29th Lizzie Saterthwait came out yesterday also Hall Price & in the afternoon Dr Ash and wife took tea here - George Ridgway and Lide went to Chester - To day we attended meeting in the evening Chalk B, Humphry and many others were here - Oldden staid till all were gone then we had a long serious talk, but it must not be written here, my heart uttered a prayer for him, yes a heartfelt wish for his happiness - I thank him truly 30th Sam Sallie Lizzie and self left home, I wore a smile and waved a pleasant good bye, but if I had not learned before how to restrain my tears they would have come plentifully then - Sam and S escorted me to Camden, he giving me some candy to eat on the way but my kind mother & sister Lyd had supplied me with six turn over pies, two of which I ate and carried the rest to my dear Anna - I was deeply interested in reading the Hidden Path so the time did not seem long before I reached [New York], I then waiting at the N.H. depot till four when I took cars for Rye, where I found my friend Edward, Hannah and Sadie all appeared glad to see me, and I was warmly welcomed by dear dear Anna as well as all the rest of the household, oh how natural to be once more among my dearly beloved friends Anna has not yet entirely recovered from the accident, a great scar 31st Preparing for [two] [Meetings] Robert S Haviland took tea here & eve 112. FEBRUARY FIRST 1860 - To day is my birth day twenty one years of my life have fled, and I wonder if the recording angel has written "worthless" if so oh Father show me a path which will lead me to be all that thou willest [?] Let me not be a drone in society, let me meet the trials of ' the world with a christian spirit, and if some of my cherished hopes be not fulfilled, give me strength to bear the burden, and I would this day ask one boon, that I may receive thy forgiveness and that the past may be obliterated, Thee knows how I suffered those few days of firey trial, how I longed to leave [?] earth but it was not thy will and now all is well - We attended Quarterly Meeting although very cold thermometer 2 degrees below zero, saw many of my old friends & acquaintances 2nd Again went to Meeting which was much larger in the P.M. Jacob Mott & wife there, after tea 15 of us sent in one wagon to the Literary Association which met at Edward Barnes - a number there and we had a very interesting time such good essays. 3rd Sadie went home with her Uncle, after dinner we went to call at James Underhill, I sympathised greatly with them, they feel dear Maggies loss so much, her Father can scarcely bear it - came back to tea then spent the evening at Aaron Havilands - 4th Dear Anna and I did have such nice talks all so very kind and I soon learned to love Mary S. Moore - we spent the P.M. in the school room, they have improved so nicely, dear little Johnny loved me just as much as ever - all welcomed me - 5th Mr McCauly came up very interesting talker, I did not go to [Meeting] for several reasons I heard W. T. was home & did not want to see him - We spent the eve at David H. Barnes - 113. 6th So very rainy I did not go - Anna wrote in the Bibles I in two Albums. S. M. B. & S. S a nice day to ourselves - Thomas S for Sarah Once, once only did I loose my self command and then I would have given worlds to have been alone, no word was spoken, but my cheeks betrayed my thoughts and each felt - the gaze must be elsewhere - But I will succeed at last, I feel I will - 7th Edward took me to Rye & left them all, all those dear ones not knowing when we should meet again - I arrived in [New York] about 11 found the streets in a dreadful condition, waited two hours on the boat, then we left and I did not get off at Hunters Point they did not tell us and I thought they went no farther, no one moved from the cabin so we all went to Astoria then back and on arriving at Flushing found Aunt E. there to meet me, when we got here eat supper then went to Cousin R's to spend the eve - 8th Opened school with 3 as Lilly wanted so much to come is here 2 hours we have the room over the dining room, & get along so nicely - Went to Sarah Willets to tea had a real nice time 9th Sent off three or four letters, had one from Lide, and my opinion is that some men Post masters have a great deal of curiosity & ill manners - after school Aunt and I drove down to Lydia Laurences - [?] at Carry L 10th Aby Aunty & Anne went to William Frames to tea - Carrie W & Eddy here to tea - made a mistake in the evening we had a nice time 11th No school - very cold I was busy unpacking trunk and fixing room W. & S Titus, N. Frame & R M B here to tea - R and I wrote to S. M. B. Brooklyn 12th did not attend meeting, had a good quiet time for myself wrote to Lyde - also replied to that particular thing which was none of his business - 13th Aunt went to New York to stay all night - Wrote to Cousin Hannah 15th Snowed hard all the afternoon Aunt came up from the city - 114. 16th I feel very sad I know not why, but shadows are around me - that must be shaken off - after School went over to Cousin R - helped Catharin get ready for the Reading Circle which met there, and we had a very nice time much pleasanter than I expected, Willie Willets was there. Carrie gave the President my essay and no one suspected me not even Aunt E. - The President was absent but the Vice one served who was no other than Sam Willets the gentleman. Nettie and I met & when wished to light his cigar Fortunately he did not recognize me - I was voted in a member - so will endeavor to do my part Fred took me home 17th Aunt Eliza remained home all day - I had a letter from home which did me much good - after school rode over to [Cousin] R's in the pony [?] [?] nothing so soon brings the elasticity to my heart, as a ride or walk, where I can more fully see the beauties of glorious Nature - it soothes my troubled mind, elevates my thoughts and raises me above all worldly trouble and vexations, then my spirit leaps to the Author of all and my soul is filled with praise - 18th Aunt & Uncle went to Yonkers, it snowed all day, but we cleared up the house, etc. I felt rather miserable, a dull kind of pain in the back of my head & the one sore spot in my chest - 19th I sent my watch to [Philadelphia] by Express. It is beautiful out this snowy morning every thing so laden with snow, the wind blowing fast, and strong - yet Aby Anne and self went to Meeting in the sleigh - John D. Wright there and spoke a long while - very good and although I try to be profited by such things, and reflect at such time, often the one forbidden subject crowds into my mind, and as the snake charms the bird but to destroy so my thoughts dwell upon that, I have prayed to forget and can partially do so - 115 I feel that I am changed, that I am older, and oh sometimes there is such a longing, a thirsting after I know not what - I feel there is something needed, and know not what - is perhaps it may be my soul craves Peace and is not yet prepared to receive it, then oh Father help me to wait patiently till Thy time comes - strengthen me to do right - that I may be worthy of thy love - Silas Titus here I took a sleigh ride with him to Pearsalls 20th A cold morning, but I had a sweet note from Carrie which did me so much good, wants me to go spend the night with her -. Aunt and Uncle came home, but it is the truth, and perhaps I should not say it, but it is a comfort to write my thoughts here - that my heart beats no faster at her return. I do not feel that leaping of the soul when I hear her coming - there is no bounding to meet her and why, ah, I partially know - Never from her do I receive any [?] of affection, no caress, no kiss is ever given unless I make the first advances and these are what my heart needs, what I desire above all things - for instance she put her head in the school room & said Anne hand out that tea, thee should have had it all ready - a nod was what I received three days absent and this is the greeting - oh God let not my heart ever become accustomed to such coldness - though she knows not how I long for her love - I mean love that shows itself by actions of affections - All costly presents never can free the place of true love & feeling - Aby took me over to Carries her Mother was away, and oh what a nice long talk - we had dear dear soul my earnest prayer will ever be for her happiness - she is truly blessed in being loved by such as he - We wrote a little poetry for the Circle, rather funny and not finished yet - but we felt like talking oh she told me so much dear good girl I wish we could always be friends, I hope we may [?] I commenced putting Iodine on my frosted feet. 116. 21st Aby came after me, I held school till one then closed - had an invitation to go a sleigh riding with a party, but having told Carrie I would go with her I did not accept - She called and we went over to Newtown had a delightful time and ride, though the sleighing is getting poor - I had a nice letter from Aunt Jane dear Creature - 22nd Warm and cloudy looks like rain - I feel dull constant pain in the back of my head, just as if I had had a fall - makes me very dull and indifferent to things - [?] rained all day. Gilbert Laurence here all night 23rd The snow all gone and the bright sun makes it warm & sunshiny - I wrote to M. Jackson - Yesterday finished my composition on LOVE to be sent to the Reading Association - nearly four pages - Rode down to E L and over to Cousin Roberts on the pony, and felt much better for it. Still have my cough which has troubled me for more than a year, sometimes worse than others - I sometimes think it originates in that one spot on my left lung - so dry & hard 24th Mary Hicks Laurence and Richard here to dine on Turkey - 25th Last evening received nice long letters from Harrison E & H accompanied with which was a copy of an essay by Edward Barnes on "[Woman's] Rights" which they desired me to answer which I accordingly did, and I guess some of them will open their eyes for it was pretty spicy - showing a little what men were - This P.M. we were over at Sarah W's to tea Carrie and I finished the poetry we commenced for the Reading Circle - 26th I sent 13 pages to Harrison this morning - did not attend meeting all the rest went - and I was left entirely alone but I [?] that, then I can think better, and not be disturbed - It is a lovely day, so bright - and beautiful. I took a walk before breakfast Mr and Mrs [?] and children here to tea - afterward I slipped off an wrote to Aunt Jane and Cousin Mattie 117. 27th Aunt Eliza went out and made some calls, after school I went home with Lillie - found Cousin C more comfortable she has been suffering with a bad boil on her back. After tea Richard and I drove to Flushing had a very nice time indeed beautiful and moonlight we went round by "College Point" etc. so called,- Played checquers after we came home 28th A mot beautiful morning - I came over home - Must have eaten something that disagreed with me for I feel miserable - so depressed I know my system is out of order, my tongue is coated and almost every afternoon my burning cheeks show the fever there is about me-. I do what I know best, and do not want to complain -. Aunt E does not see my needs as well as dear Anna used to - it is not her nature - she does not understand me -. S Willets and children here to dine I went home with them - 29th Had a real nice time last evening - John brought me home - dull and foggy all day - cold too and real unpleasant - MARCH 1st Real rainy day. Lillie brought me two letters one from Sadie written two weeks since: the other from home telling me the sad the news that Lizzie Child Thomas' eldest was buried a few days before, died with the throat disease - It will be a great trial for she was a darling child about 15 & so good every one loved her - sweet disposition. She was sick only a week I felt real sad all the afternoon, but after tea we went over to the Readidng Circle at S. Willets, she was quite poorly though better and we had a pleasant time -. Carrie did so well. Had several pieces read, I had one on "What is Love" read it myself Robert W. asked permission to take it home which he did -. They appointed me to read at the next Meeting which meets here - 2nd Cleared off beautifully, I try to take a little walk before breakfast I wrote to Lizzie W. [?] [?], Aby copied in the Essay book - nearly all retired early. I love that boy he is pure and sincere untainted by the world. 118. 3rd A beautiful morning though rained before night. I went over to Cousin R. came back to dinner then worked on my slippers. In the evening read Sewards Speech eat ice-cream etc. - wrote to [?] 4th Went to Meeting then to John Bounes to dine A & I had a nice time. Richard & William here in the evening. quite a pleasant visit - - 5th Another beautiful morning so sunshiny and bright -. Aunt E went to Willets brought Carrie home with her afterward she Aby & I Richard and Emmy, went to Flushing to attend a lecture, R had made a mistake in the evening so we promenaded & called at Frames, a nice time - 6th Another lovely day, I drove Carrie home. Uncle went to New York, brought home my watch which had come by express - it is not the same one, the number of this is 20365. Patent Lever Hunting base - In the evening Aby and self went to Cousin Roberts there Richard May HIcks, Sallie, William Silas & us went to Ahlis and spent a very pleasant evening. Reached home at 11 retired at 12. Had a letter for [?] My cough is quite troublesome. Every afternoon one scarlet spot comes on my cheek, and I fear fever is burning within - I am very careful -. 7th Rainy nearly all day - Foggy weather makes me feel dull - 8th Cloudy again to day - They went to meeting. Sewing school in the P.M. 9th Clear in the afternoon, Aunt went over to Sarah Willets - 10th Cold and windy, after dinner we drove to Flushing, then we all went to Titus's to tea had a very pleasant time indeed. 11th Blustery, and cold I did not go Meeting wrote to Sallie & Sadie 12th Cloudy and cleared off before night - Han Laurence here she and I had a long talk - after tea Aby and I went to Flushing to attend a lecture by the Rev. W. H. Millburn, subject was what a blind man saw in England - He was blind himself but I have scarcely ever heard a better lecturer - he was very eloquent - gave us an interesting account of his trip to England. 119. showing us true English Character, and drawing comparisons between them an Americans - No one would have thought of his being blind his delivery was so good and every movement corresponding with his words -. He was witty and instructive - and I should have been very sorry indeed to have missed it -. Richard, Fred, etc. were there - Retired [half] pass 12. 13. Quite cold again kind of snow and hail. After school went to L. W. [?] Carrie quite poorly in bed I staid and talked awhile to cheer her up. 14th Maria Weaver here. Baking for the Circle I wrote to K. and gave it just as I retired -. 15th Beautiful day - getting much warmer, I received a letter from Aunt also a paper from Sam, and through mail a very handsome edition of Charles Lambs poems, no name was attached and I could not make out the Post Mark but doubt not it was from my friend Robert L. The Reading Circle met here about 30, and we had a very pleasant time, a little dance on the common parlor afterwards - I read Capital Punishment and an Essay of my own on Life. I was very tired after all was over, felt all the evening as if something was wanted, that the longing of my soul was not obtained 16th A splendid day, Hetty Bloodgood staid here all night - Cleared up Aunt away. In the evening wrote to Aunt Jane -. Robert S and Oldden - I feel my health is going down again - It seems impossible to eat anything when my tongue is so evated, my stomach too is full of fever - Day after day as eve draws night the same burning spots appear on my cheeks -. But no one notices it Aunt does not see, the symptoms of disease, and I cannot oh I cannot tell her. I did try and take medicine. She laughs & thinks it's nonsense I do not eat more says I live on air etc. but does not think my system is so disordered it refuses food - I look healthy and strong, but I know I have several week points - That one in my chest is often very sore - & so much bad taste in my mouth 120 17th Dull and cloudy in the morning but cleared off - in the Morning I went to see Cousin Catharine, in the afternoon called on Mrs. Mickle, Carrie came with their new horse for me to take a ride, we called at Titus's, and then went on had an elegant time -. Ahlis's, Richard, Titus's etc. were here to tea, we had a very pleasant time - I talked with Sile about [?] 18th Had a letter from Sallie last evening she told me Uncle Joseph and wife had gone out west - how I would like to have seen him once more - poor man, my heart aches for him - such a wife, too -. Went to [Meeting] and in the P.M. Aby and I were out and walking eating nuts swinging etc. - dear good boy I hope he will be free from - 19th Sent 15 pages to Lide a good long letter - Aunt E was out 20th Aunt E went over to Sarah W's to spend the day - I feel quite miserable 21st Real cold and wintery, I rode over to S. W.'s on the pony on an errand - read Van Wycks speech in Congress which was very good indeed. 22nd I took Aby and Anne into Flushing they are going to Yonkers - It snowed quite hard. Richard came over & I went home with him. 23rd R brought us home, the white covering is fast melting away 24th Uncle, Aunt Carrie and I went to New York Aunt took Doctor Wilkes, to see about my cough, he gave me a large bottle of medicine to take three times a day, and some dreadful pills - he did not hear me cough so could not tell much about it -. He also looked at my frosted feet, said I must use Iodyne not so strong as I had been -. That india rubber shoes did not agree with me and I must not put them on but get thick cork sole walking books which I accordingly did, they are lined with canton flannel & lace over the ankle - I went to Park Row where Sadie was waiting for me, had gone over to invite me there, but I could not go - Aby Anne and I came up at [?] 121. found an invitation to Pearsalls to tea, Alice had accepted so we went the other young folks there, So we had a very pleasant time indeed - 25th Attended Meeting this morning, but I did not derive much benefit could not get that quiet peace which is necessary to silent worship - After dinner we had a nice quiet time, every day I see something more in that dear boy, I feel drawn towards him, by an invisible chain and if it be my lot to help polish such a priceless gem, I hope I may be given strength to do it aright - we are very good friends - Carrie sent for us to go there to tea, Aby and I did, had a delightful time, I drove home - he will be blessed for doing so much for me so kind - Directly after we left here Silas, William and Richard came, then went to Laurences, and after we returned called here - [half] past 9 great boy S. 26th Cloudy but getting warmer -. They came from Yonkers. A kind a loving word, what power they have only the angels who look down on the lives fall can tell the good they do -. They drop gently into the earth and nourish the plant of love -. they make everything beautiful - a movement, an act often causes me to be happy, then again in just as slights only opposite may drive sunshine from my heart - . When oh when can I learn to take my life as God gives it, or learn to be good -. I search my heart often to see if I am fit to die and sometimes think if it were His will I am now most prepared, I have passed through the fire of affliction and have put my faith in Him who never forsakes those who ask for help and strength. There is ever one star constant in its light to brighten my Soul -. 27th A cool though beautiful day - I had a sweet note from [blank] , in my room early - I hope I may be truly thankful for such evidences of love & sincerity - 28th Had 12 pages from Harrison, E sent me a copy of some essays, comments on the one I wrote - how I love to get letters from them - wrote to Anna 122. 29. A lovely day though somewhat cold. the wind wend down & this evening we attended the last of the Reading Circles for this winter at Edward Powells, had a delightful time, a little dance after my partner was the Vice President - letters from H. W. 30th A perfectly splendid day, the birds singing so sweetly - and all so beautiful - it does me good to see so much sunshine 31st A very pleasant day. Uncle, Aunt Carrie and myself went to [New York] we looked at sewing machines and they bought one of the Gray and Grace, very simple but I guess good, 65 dollars cabinet one, then I went over to Brooklyn to Sadies, they were very glad to see me -, in the P.M. Mary S. Moore, Sadie & I went over to call on R. Willets they were out; we returned to Brooklyn to tea - APRIL 1st A very warm morning we attended Meeting, The house was crowded, an Indian woman sat under the gallery and spoke very well indeed, commenced with saying "She was thankful to the Almighty that her poor Soul was allowed to drink of the waters that flowed from the throne of God", it was really affecting -. She wished to raise money to visit the Queen as her tribe were imposed upon, could not hold property in their own name she attended the [meetings] in New York, and at one received over 120 dollars. Mr Matlack was at Brouwers to tea, afterwards we went to Henry Ward Beechers church, had a first rate sermon on lying splendid music 2nd We went with Mary to 27th [Street], saw Dollie & her husband -. then we walked down Broadway, made some calls & did some shopping etc. - - After dinner went to see Maria, she was very glad to see us, gave cake etc. then we were so long going to the Ferry the Enock Dean had gone, Sadie wanted me to go back but I did not came up in the 6 oclock & Charley took me to a Livery Stable where I hired a carriage and came out - Aunt E got very soon had been to William [?] to tea, if she had only gone to the cars.... 123. I was almost homesick - really felt miserable - no appetite again - eat no supper or breakfast 3rd A cloudy day and I do not feel very well - so chilly all the time - Carrie Emmy and Fred here to dine - a very nice time, we took them home 4th Rainy in the afternoon - which will do much good - I am better in health and spirits tho still have such an unhealthy taste & feeling. Sewed on the Machine which worked very well - a letter from Ma 5th All except Carrie and I went to [Meeting] then to Smarts to dine - we walked down to the shore - after tea Richard called for me to go to Willets's - had a very pleasant time - waited up for me -. 6th A lovely morning shower last night - makes all so fresh - John and Hannah Bowne here to tea - Cousin Phebe arrived from New Orleans 7th A lovely morning and the beautiful birds make such sweet music I often hope when the time comes for me to be called to a better home it may be in spring time, when all is so bright and beautiful, when all nature is full of gladness, and every thing seems nearer heaven, I would have the happy birds sing their sweet songs, as my spirit wafts it way to the eternal Throne, let my last-look be upon nature, then I may go to Nature's God -. Such might be my wish - but oh there is One who will direct all aright - and I trust by His mercy and goodness I may be prepared when the messenger is sent - be ready to give up all earthly things and become immortal -. 8th I had fondly hoped the medicine would have restored me, but the same old miserable feeling has returned - I am very weak, suppose it is because I have eaten nothing scarcely for 3 days - but I cannot -. To day I am scarcely able to be in school, but I had none 2nd day so will make up to-day -. I look very well, at least no eye here is keen enough to see but what I am, and of course I will not complain - try even to laugh and be merry - it might worry them I go to the table take victuals but leave them untouched, food will not go down - I went to Cousin R to tea Aby came in the evening for me a very nice time 124. 8th Quite rainy all the morning none of us went to [Meeting] but I had a delightful time reading Timothy Titcombs Gold Foil which is a most excellent book in my opinion - In the afternoon we went to Sarahs found Carries grand father there, we had a pleasant call - Richard & Fred here to tea. 9th Rainy again to day which makes me feel dull and good for nothing - Cousin Phebe here to tea I went home with them and staid all night - had a very nice time - 10th Showery all day. Richard brought us over - I staid here as we thought of going to New York to-morrow - 11th Rainy so we did not get off. In the P.M. I went over to Cousin R. Richard asked me to ride so we went met Emma Ahlis, talked awhile Silas Titus, he jumped in one then went to Joe's had a great time Richard went home with Bell & at [a quarter] of 9 then all three came for me to go Ahlis's so we did and had a great time - after we went out to get in the wagon etc. etc. - Dick brought me some letters, but did not give them till we got Ahlis's for he said he was afraid I would stop to read their papers too - 12th Walked over then went up to the garden - Aunt E went to [Meeting] in the afternoon to Cousin R - I went over and staid all night, as they said it would do me good to spend a week there and I have been nearly every night - . R and I had quite a talk about likeness [?] 13th Real showery, Lillie and I came over at one o'clock Uncle and I went to [New York] I intended going to Brooklyn, to stay all night, & then go see the doctor, when we got there we went down to the vessel in which Saunders and Rebecca expect to Sail, it is the Invincible and very handsome - only 7 cabin passengers - then we went to Park Row, and Uncle said I might as well go to Yonkers with him so we went up there staid all night at the girls a pleasant time - 125 14th A cool morning and quite windy but the Sun shoe bright on the Palasades and the beautiful Hudson looked glorious as its waters were dotted with the sails of many a sloop or the puffing steamers glided onward towards the great Metropolis - Uncles, brothers, sisters & children (16 in all) came down with us, we then went to the wharf and got in a tow boat to sail out to the vessel, it was very rough and the waves washed over the deck - I was quite sea sick but some were not, was soon relieved of my breakfast then felt much better - when we reached they went on and we returned to the city - Uncle came up I went to Maria's found her just going over to [New York] to dine with her brother Abraham insisted so much on my going I did & we had a most interesting time, met her brothers friend a Spanish gentleman, a doctor, and good phrenologist, most interesting, intelligent smart man. told me my character just as well as if he had known me always - said my lungs were large & sound but I would use them too much, that I did all I undertook with all my heart - etc. etc. -. I believe I do overtax my brain with too deep thought for I am often hard at thinking even when carrying on light conversation - I came up in the 5 oclock boat, they both escorted me to the dock - Fred and Aby met me but Fred did not come out with us - letter from Bub 15th First day morning again but I did not go to Meeting, wrote 2 letters - Could not eat any dinner, Aunt E, but no I will not write it. I went to my room and found comfort in prayer just as I always do when my heart is overburned with grief - in [half] an hour I had on my old smile, and tried to forget - She was very kind then, Uncle knew I had been wronged -. Aby the children and I had an elegant walk in the woods gone all the afternoon - then eat hazel nuts - in the evening read a little and combed heads - R here awhile - 126. 16. Aunt E out to spend the day, it was clear but soon commenced raining and kept on all day most - no appetite at all 17th Aunt E down to Mickles to spend the day - more cutting remarks. 18th After school Carrie and I walked down to the shore - gathered some water cresses - at dusk we started for Cousin R - to get the letters, Richard drove in and gave me some, said my friend Sadie & a gent had come up in the boat and were waiting in Flushing for us - Aby and I went right in & found her and Jim brought them out -. I had not received her letter -. tho I got it that evening - also some from home - 19th A most beautiful day we took Jim to the cars, as he had to go to business - then went to the Barbers and I had my hair cut - from there to Watson Bourons (her Uncle) where we had a delightful call, then to the Green house where we saw many beautiful flowers, called at Effingham Cock, but they were at [Meeting] back here, then down to Ed Laurences - home to dine - afterwards to Mickle's went in the green house etc. then over to see Carrie W. drove to the Sound back here to tea, found the Ahlis's & Richard and Silas in the evening also Thomas Frame and Sarah Willets. 20th Cloudy, I had school till 11 oclock, then M. Mickle L Mott & Thorne called here to eat most elegant ice cream, then we walked down to the shore, Sadie enjoyed it very much, we picked up clams and eat them, after tea Aby took us to Pearsalls, a real nice time. 21st Aby took Sadie and me to the boat we then went to [New York] walked up to Dr Wilkes, but he was out in the Country, then we went over to Brooklyn, Mary was so kind, got me cake rice pudding etc. a heavy shower prevented me from leaving till 1 oclock then Sadie went with me to the Drs where we waited 2 hours then he came told me to 127. [?] take more medicine & pills, rub my breast with Croton oil, then we went to the Druggists, but having to wait I went to Samis & bought some shoes walked from [?] City Hall to Fulton Ferry in 15 minutes, bid Sadie good Bye in Broadway reached the boat as the last bell was ringing - quite a pleasant ride up found Aby waiting for me 22nd First day morning quite rainy, but not having been to [Meeting] for some time I went, Phebe Frame and I laughed at the horses - I sent a letter to Sam - We had a nice quiet afternoon - after tea Aby and I went to Titus's to spend the evening, Fred there, eat ice-cream after we came home, had a nice little talk etc. 23rd A beautiful day, Aunt went to Pearsalls, Carrie to Cousin Robert 24th Aunt & Anne went to [New York] to Court - I intend going home in two weeks or less - I went over to Cousin Roberts and staid all night 25th Aunt went over to Sarah Willets, Uncle & Aby to Court, Richard came over with me staid an hour or two - quite a hail storm in the P.M. 26th A beautiful bright morning Aby Aunt E and I started for Westbury Uncle to Court - had a delightful ride over to Hannah Townsends where we stopped, had some lunch talked awhile & went to [Meeting] saw several I knew we returned to Townsends, they had a good deal of company Bill T. Sam Willets, Fred Smart etc. - we spent a very pleasant evening indeed, they are such a nice family, the girls I liked very much 27th We were up early after breakfast 3 carrages went to take a ride down to Hempstead all enjoyed it so much Marty Willets there came back and went to Meeting then to Silas Earl's to dine had a very nice time indeed, then came home, quite a pretty ride. 28th Busy this morning after dinner I walked over to Sarah found them most all poorly, doctored Carrie up & put her to bed. [?] went over after me, eat ice cream when we came home. 128. 29th After breakfast I walked over to Cousin Roberts, received a letter from home, then we dressed and started for Cow Neck meeting called for Richard, went to Edmund Willet's to spend the rest of the day had a most delightful visit, all so kind and polite. beautiful and moonlight - when I came home found Sadie's likeness and a note from her - dear creature I love her so much - 30th Wrote to Sallie Bouman and Aunt Sarah - do not feel very smart - May 1st Richard brought Hatie the dress maker over and we were very busy all day sewing. John Christy from Ireland here - 2nd Busy sewing, I drove over to see Carrie a little while found her very poorly, in the evening Aby and I took her some ice cream - wrote home that she was going with me - we will have such a nice time - 3rd Cousin Roberts here to tea, also Silas Titus & Sarah Willets's - Emmy self and the boys up stairs, wasp stung me, just as Silas was leaving he handed me a package and asked if I would accept it as a Philopeana from him - when I opened I found a very large and handsome edition of Thomas Moorses works - elegantly bound - gilt edged etc. - a very beautiful gift indeed - 4th After tea Aby and I went to Mickles to attend the dramate Reading Circle, over a hundred there splendid entertainment, much dressing etc. - but I would not like to attend very often - 5th Cousin Phebe and Lillie here, after tea Aby and I took [?] home. 6th A lovely warm day, I had 3 papers from home - had a letter from Sallie the other day & she told me -. ever since my heart has breathed a prayer that, Our Father would continue to share His blessings on her - that her husband may prove all - went to [?] 7th A beautiful warm day Aunt E and I went out and made a number of calls, home to dinner & I took tea at [?] Aby out for 129. 8th I went to New York C.P.F. on the boat & I gave him directions to Darby and an invitation to visit us - I went up to the Cooper Institute to attend the Anniversary of the Anti Slavery Society very soon saw Uncle Charles Pierce Emma Han & Sade - heard William Lloyd Garrison, R. Purvis, Wendel Phillips Dr Cheever Elizabeth Cady Stanton etc. it was very good indeed. the meeting adjourned at 2 then I went to the dock to see what kind of boats went to [Philadelphia] by sea - then to Brooklyn where I staid all night & had a grand time with L. Mott & others. 9th At 9 oclock I was at the wharf to go to Flushing found Anne Bell there, Aby met us at Flushing we reached Bayside about 11 and at 1 he and I went again on an excursion as the new boat made a trip, there was quite a party a band of music etc. - good diner, we went up the Sound in Little Neck Bay, many waved handkercheifs etc. altogether had a very nice time, reached home in time to receive my company as Aunty had invited several young folks, we had a delightful time ice cream etc. - played etc. - great time up stairs I did not get to bed till 12 oclock & my last nights on [Long Island] 10th Aunt Aby and I went to [New York] met Eff Laurence & Miss Johnson did some shopping; then we left her and called a few minutes in Brooklyn and just before 5 took passage on board the Kennebec bound for my native shore-. I enjoyed it at first exceedingly, though I soon discovered I was the only female on the ship, the view of [New York] Brooklyn, Battery, Governors Island etc. was grand, [New York] Bay & Long & Staten Island did look beautiful about dusk I was very sea sick & took my state room, did not want to look at anything to eat 130. tho' my appetite had been very poor, Aby staid with me till [half] past ten - both very sick, at one I got on my berth where I slept quite well till next morning - it was very dark and the Captain said a bad night at sea, had to stop to sound 11th I did not leave my state room till after ten as I was so week & sick every time I raised my head then we went on deck - the Captain was very polite - brought me an apple to eat etc. - nothing could be seen but the white waves of the briny deep and the birds walking on the waters except her and there a sail was seen and our own gallant vessel sailing nobly onward, about 1 we reached Cape May - then were again out of sight of land in Delaware Bay - before reaching there met a return vessel that had lain the Bay all night fearing to venture out, gradually the long line of land was transformed into the green fields, budding forest trees, and many cottages that beautify the banks of the Delaware - such a sudden change from the bare ranches on Long Island shore -. We did not reach [Philadelphia] till 8 oclock as it was so very rough the night before we were 5 hours longer coming in - we immediately took cars for home which we reached at 10 - found all pretty well and plenty of company - I was very tired 12th Father and Mother went to the city - Rainy a little. Aby Lide and I laid about as we too were tired & sea sick. I wrote on board to Sadie & Carrie 13th Went to [Meeting] (no preach to)- Company in afternoon & evening 14th To day our [Yearly Meeting] commences - all but Lyd went in the city, [?] Robert S. and his mother were on he went with me to dine as Sister Sallies a real nice time. I saw many many of my friends - 16th Attended [Meeting] which was very good, soon after we took 131. dinner up stairs and went to the Academy of Natural Sciences George Hancock Lizzie J. Lide & Aby went with us but left sooner than we did We enjoyed it very much and it was a very interesting afternoon we were back in time to hear the closing sermons & speak to our friends - 16h A lovely day again to Meeting which was quite interesting & some good preaching took dinner up stairs and 7 of us went to Girard College, up on top and all round - Robert enjoyed it very much - such a splendid view last night we all took tea at Aunt Rachels a very nice time indeed 17th A crowded meeting at Cherry Street, some good sermons we & Jesse James dined at Dr Moores a lovely time - she is so pleasant and lovely -. 18th A Meeting again Robert & [?] went to Dr Trumans to dine - last night Lide and I were at Mary Parry's a very nice time indeed Robert went with [?] where we said good bye as they could not go home with me - Lide & I came out found company 19th Very busy, this morning Sallie Price came, also Hector Ivins wife and two children, in the afternoon Uncle Thomas, Anne and my dear friend Carrie, Aby too came out - & Cousin Cyrus Pierce 20th A most lovely morning 12 of us went to Meeting, a silent one in the afternoon much company Dr Moore's & wife - Samuel Child we went to Sharon and it is beautiful there - all fixed up nicely - In the evening Ned and Chalk were here -a pleasant time - 21st Eight of our friends left this morning - Carrie Aby Lide & I called at Aunt Esthers had a nice ride & a laughable one 22nd Carrie was not so well did not get up till noon, Lyd went to town Mother to Monthly Meeting. we ironed. Aby left us - 23rd We took a ride to Uncle Williams a very pleasant call indeed I do so love to have Carrie with me she is such a dear sweet girl - 24th Carrie and I went in the city this morning, had our likeness 132. taken for each other then to Independence Hall, got our dinners and went to Girard College then to see Miss Dollie Walton the little fairly a perfect little creature and so sweet and pretty -. sang and danced beautifully for us - 25th Sam and Sallie moved out. Called at Jones's this P.M. After tea Oldden and Cousin John came to take us a ride it was a splendid moonlight night & we had a grand time called at Farrens and saw the Swans. I rode with O. a good talk -. 26th Rather a dull day but we had a nice time, went to the cars to meet Charley Frame who came from New York - Father and mother gone to Bucks [County]. 27th Dull - but we went to Meeting, after dinner walked up to Sharon a very nice call indeed in the evening Charley Carrie and I had such a nice talk he is so nice. Ed here -. 28th Escorted Carrie and Charley in the cars, Oldden was there we bid them good bye and I felt so sorry to part with her - 29th To day is Crosswicks Quarter & I expect Father & Mother are there 30th Sam comes out every night and it is delightful to have Sallie here 31st Lide and I went to meeting - afternoon it rained hard - JUNE 1st A lovely day in the P.M. Lide, Mart Jones & self took a walk up the creek - Mart Dodgson here 2nd a beautiful and all nature is looking so beautiful - Ben came home about noon - Lizzie James came to spend a week - 3rd A beautiful morning, George Hancock & brother here to spend the day other company too, all took a walk along the creek, Ned with us - 4th Quite a thunder storm this evening which turned to a real rain -. 5th Mart D over awhile - Mary Jackson here awhile, they are well -. Father and Mother reached home after an absence of ten days we were at Jones. 6th Cloudy in the morning but the Sun shone out awhile - 133. My sea voyage has restored my health, I feel like a different person no longer that burning bad taste in my mouth, no longer does the fever within redden my cheeks as night comes on -. my chest too is so much better tho often hurts me much As it is my Makers will, I trust I am duly thankful for this great blessing. I remember all, praises are [?] and oh how often is a silent prayer breathed forth, that I may so live as to be worthy the blessings bestowed on me - God is good, is merciful and tho afflictions come we can ever find peace and rest in Him - He loves as unselfishly - and if we live in obedience all will be well -. He knows how much we can bear - George Hancock and Nathan Sellers here, in the P.M. we were at Sharon. 7th To meeting this morn wrote to Carrie this P.M. [Cousin] yesterday 8th This P.M. started out to take a walk, it commenced raining we had to wait at the Hotel nearly two hours last evening we spent at Uncle Williams a very nice time indeed, Ned took us aftewards we took a ride - Lizzie sang 9th Lizzie started home, Lyd went in the city to see the Japanese in the P.M. we went to Cousin Marys they wanted me to stay all night so I did, after tea Jacksons Hays etc. came in grand time eating strawberries etc. etc. - Eph played & we danced a little 10th A most lovely morning and we all spent such a pleasant day to-gether, it is a beautiful place & I love to be there . Oldden brought me home in the eve Nathan I & cousin here 11th Busy all day company to tea - I felt very sad indeed, my thoughts [?] upon life & death and there is a stirring to prepare for that Eternal Home where sorrow never enters - 12th [?] etc. out from town to spend the day 9 here to tea. 134. 13th Another lovely through very warm day, we called on Mart R. the rest were out to tea & I had a nice quiet time - A sweet letter from Carrie, and also Sadie, two dear girls how I love them. 14th Four of us went to the city in the carriage they went to Emmy Kaighns [?]. I did some shopping and then went to see the Model of Solomon's Temple on exhibition at National Hall - It was well worth visiting, is 35 feet long and is made as near as possible like the one of old - it cost 26,000 [dollars] and was got up and is owned by a Woman -. there were 500 small figures dressed in Jewish costume, the different courts, the Brazen Lea upheld with 12 oxen etc. - it is impossible to describe it and must have cost much time and labor, and though as I looked on its magnificence, it was nothing compared to the original, and yet was all such show acceptable to Him for whom it was constructed, Solomon may have done it in his ignorance, but now how often are smaller idols worshipped [?] our hearts, which become dearer than His love & will -. 15th Uncle Had and family came this afternoon, went to Uncle W. to stay all night and came back here after we had retired -. 16th This evening we all went to Uncle W's to a party, about 50 there and we had a first rate time, elegant entertainment - Uncle George and Ben came down here Ben took me 17th A warm sultry 1st day morning, we went to meeting about 1 we had a very hard shower sun came afternoon Uncle Halls all here to stay all night came from Cousin W's 18 Uncle G went home, about 11 they went up to [?] sale - At [half] past twelve Cousin Robert [?] etc. came - I went to Sharon with the girls then to the Sale, great crowds of people there . 135. 19th They went at 9 oclock - All of us went to Dr Longstreth's to tea it rained quite hard, but we all got home safely after a pleasant visit. 20th We had company to tea the Buntings here, Joe & Lizzie & dear little Georgie 21st Quite a dull day. John Child came out, we went to Sharon, Annie came [?] with us 22nd Our folks went to [Philadelphia] - In the afternoon Lizzie Satterthwait came out She is a lovely girl, after tea we went to Sharon, Jane gave Lide a dear little canary bird which sings so sweetly. its name is cherry 23rd A lovely day, after dinner Lide Lizzie & myself went to Cousin Mary's I drove, and we did have a real nice time - they are all so kind - At 4 oclock this morning Sam & Sallie left here for New York. 24th A very lovely day, I went to meeting, tried to be good, but it is hard sometimes when there are so many things said, I know they are not meant to wound and I am afraid my heart will become hardened and instead of bearing them calmly, will let my naturally quick temper rule - I know it is only by prayer & constant striving I can resist the impetuous & angry word but I will try to have faith and strive to do & act the right - 25th A beautiful day, I was busy sewing - They returned to-day 27th A very warm day, summer appears to have come in earnest We went to Puseys to tea had a very pleasant time "indade". 28th Company from town to tea - Mart Jones etc. here awhile 29th A warm day, but a lovely shower in the afternoon - 30th Sam & Sallie came home and Aunt & Carrie, after tea we went to Sharon JULY 1st Quite a dull morning and shower at noon - in the P.M. I drove Aunt E. & children & Lide to see Jacob and Nancy Gross are here a very nice time indeed. In the evening I wrote a long long letter to my dear Anna how badly I want to hear from her - 136. 2nd Sam Sallie etc. went to the city, they rented a house 18th & Mt. Vernon It also with much furniture. how much I desire all will be well -. 3rd A drizzly day they went to Cousin Marys - took Aunt E and Carrie - 4th I took Lizzie in town then went to Cousin Matties' found [?] and all very ill indeed poor fellow consumption marked him for a [?] -. 5th Randall is no better but is entirely willing to go - I help [?] on him. 6th Death hovers around but he is still living though very weak indeed. I had to leave after dinner, went to Aunt R's & to [?] 18th [Street] then came out home found all well - I bought a new dress - 7th Sam, wife & Lyd went to Aunt Janes - Ben and I went to Byberry to Knights to tea then I to Hillborns a lovely visit there - 8th Mary and I went to Meeting then I went home with James - had a lovely time, spent the evening at H's - George was up -- 9th Lib and I took G to the stage - she was sick most all day - 10th I tried to be useful in helping about [?] & Parrys then to dine and to tea - Ben was there also - Lizzie & I talked -. 11th Ben and I came home, stopped at Lizzie's found Randall gone - 12th Attended Meeting this morning, had company to tea. 13th They went out visiting - I was very busy sewing on my dress 14th Nearly all went to town - so we had a nice quiet time, I baked and sewed on my dress - [?] and Charley here to tea - 15th A beautiful morning, and the birds are singing sweetly company 16th Very warm all day, rain is needed very much indeed 17th Busy doing housework baking etc. also cleaning the parlor 18th Sallie went to spend the day with Cousin Mattie 19th Went to Meeting it was extremely warm mercury at 90 Lide and I went to Sharon came home by the [?] oclock Clarkson Taylor wife etc. were her in the evening Sallie came home to day. 137. 20th Rachie Ivin came with father Mother he and I were at JH[?] got some ice cream on our way home while making the bread Lizzie called me to run out and we saw a beautiful meteor shoot along the sky towards the east - it was a grand sight but went with such velocity was not long visible 21st Busy baking after dinner Sam and Sallie went to grand mother [?] It is very warm but a good wind & stiring - no rain yet 22nd Another Sabbath morn, very cool early but by noon was quite warm again - company from the city, but I wrote after dinner to M.J. 23rd I was quite sick all day so I was extremely weak could scarcely sit up 24th I am better to day tho not able to attend Monthly meeting which I regret exceedingly Cousin Mary was here to spend the day, and I went home with her thinking it would do me good, a change some times is very beneficial 25th Improving in health, spent a pleasant day assisting cousin M. In the evening had a long serious talk with E. I feel closely bound to those children for i am well aware there is much good to be found in all their hearts. we understand each other so well no harm can be done 26th A beautiful day though a heavy and refreshing shower did [?] Our folks came down to tea, but O. brought me home and our conversation was one to be remembered, I trust we will both be benefited by such free thought We attended the first Reading Association at the school house, organized [?] I hope it may be continued [?] carried on right will be improving 27th Suffered intensely bodily but endeavored to maintain a meek and quiet spirit, but am so often unsuccessful. I retired early to have a better opportunity to reflect, prayed earnestly for strength to walk correctly -. 28th A cool day, though at noon my quiet temper gave a reply to Mother which call forth expression of displeasure, I did not mean to wound and she knows not how her daughter's breast yearns to be good. I do so 138. long to be more of a deciple of our Savior, sometimes the bursting heart can only feel all it could wish to say in prayer, but He hears it and I rise with a more peaceful spirit after casting the burden upon him -. 29th Another 1st day morning, and a warm it is, company all day but I step off in the evening to write to Lizzie James & my own Sadie 30th A little after 7 Father mother and myself went to Concord had a very nice ride indeed, took dinner at M Palmers, and went to Uncle John Speakmans to stay all night, met with a warm welcome, though I could scarcely believe Aunt R was my dear grand mothers own sisters - their boys were very polite indeed 31st Went to Meeting this A.M. - heard some very good preaching - we dined at D Painters and went to Uncle Paxsons to stay all night - AUGUST 1st We attended an appointed [Meeting] at Birmingham and had a good sermon from L. Hunt - company to dine - 2nd We all went to Thomas Hooke's to spend the day left I. & Mart at Wilsons - I returned with Uncle Paxsons, it was a splendid moonlight evening 3rd Father & Mother went home, Aunty and I were busy all morning in the afternoon El Satterthwait came to spend a couple of weeks - 4th We young folks went to Temples to tea, a very nice visit indeed a grand good supper, George and Charley both asked [?] go to Longwood - I accepted C as he gave me the first invitation and I did not wish to offend - 5th I went to Longwood with C. El with Ed, had a good sermon from Lucretia Mott company in and after tea, a splendid moonlight evening [?] [?] 6th I cannot write to day's thoughts & feelings they must not be put on paper - Eph Ridgway came to dinner, then we went to Painters to tea, had a very nice visit indeed I was greatly disappointed in W Painters looks, more noble than I expected, we left at 6 oclock, had a splendid ride home, though for the first time in my life, could not [?] told whether the road was hilly or not too much talk. We stopped at Media and got some ice cream 139. We found company at Cousin Ephraims, all gone to bed, but after giving Cousin M some medicine went to bed, though not too sleep much, waking up at intervals, with only one thought burning in my brain - I hope to get over my intense indignation to the unknown one, though my sympathies are with the wronged, and I shall give my advice when I feel it right -. 7th Cousin M better tho not able to be down stairs, so weak - I presided at breakfast and came home with Tomlinsons found them busy ironing -. Spent most of the P.M. in thought and writing doing what I believed to be right, hoping to receive the approval of Him who watches over all our actions. I have followed the dictates of conscience in [?] so 8th Our folks went to Cousin Ephraims -. While sitting alone Eph came in we had a good long talk and both feel better for it, I showed him a copy, and he was satisfied - he is a good noble fellow & I believe him worthy - 9th I went to the office to post a letter - We went to meeting, and I tried to think good, but many times my thought wandered to that subject which has filled my mind for the last few days. It is extremely warm, and rain is very much needed, so many weeks of dry weather have destroyed the crops of corn, but we must try to [?] a spirit of contentment, hoping all things & keeping our faith in God 10th This morning my heart was made deeply sad by the sight of a poor human soul seeking to find the free soil of Canada He came here and we fed and directed him, the earnest prayer of my heart is that he will find a free home & get safely on, what a horrid system of cruelty to thus enslave an immortal soul, [?] to bondage [?] of our Fathers children - when will the time come that our nation will be free from this curse of Slavery - 11th A dark cloudy morning and some rain but scarcely enough to do much though all looks refreshed -. I am often thinking of the ones who will to day receive evidence of esteem -. 140. 12th A pleasant Sabbath morn, went to Meeting and heard a good sermon from our dear mother She spoke beautifully and it was very impressive - Aunt Esther and Cousin John came down to tea -. Lide took a ride with Ned. 13th About ten oclock it commenced raining, quite a thunder Shower, then turned into a real storm and continued all day, and there will be many a heart filled with thankfulness, that it has at last come after so many days of dry weather, which prevented the corn from growing end coming to perfection - Cousin M & Mary W spent the day 14th Continued to rain nearly all the morning & kept cloudy all day. The committee to nominate officers for the Lyceum met here and we got through our business very satisfactory, I do hope we will succeed 15th The new cushions for the [Meeting] House came and we were around there, Amos Hillborn was here to tea - returned to the city in the cars. 16th Did not attend [Meeting] because there was so much to attend to at home, we washed up Sallie's things for housekeeping, sheets, etc. company 17th After dinner we went to Cousin Mary's had a real nice time, John S. etc. were there Eph and I had a long talk we went up to get some corn -. Lib James here - 18th Lizzie went home as she only came to pay a short visit, I was at the baking table 5 hours and a half, making bread pies cakes etc. was very tired all day - Aunt Jane El, & Rachie came down to stay till 3rd day 19th I was quite sick in the night vomited a great deal but felt so much better this morning that Sam and I took a lovely ride on horse back I enjoyed it so much. We went to meeting and had a long sermon from John Hunt - it was a very good one a very large meeting indeed, afterwards, the Lloyds went to drive past and upset his carriage but no one was in, they soon raised it up & no damage was done -. Edward Wilson was here the rest of the day, Eph and Oldden to tea Aunt Jane [?] [?] and Lyd went to Aunt Esthers, I had a long 150 talk with E also Ed Wilson and if all he said was true I have cause to be thankful that I have been enabled through my Heavenly Fathers power to be the means of some good, hope I may still keep on - 20th They went to Cousin Marys to tea. John Jackson here awhile 21st Attended Monthly [Meeting], soon after Ellie and I left I the cars Ben too the rest in the carriage we left the city at [half] past two reached Bordentown when we found Uncle Charley and Dave they took us out, it rained very hard awhile but cleared off beautifully found them all well 22nd A beautiful day Ellis Ridgway spent most of the morning here Lide Ellie & Lizzie went to the Reading Circle a real party it was too - 23rd A very hard shower early this morning but cleared off again -. Uncle went to Aarons and brought word that Achah's pure spirit had left the mortal frame and ascended to that other home where all is bright and beautiful, she was prepared to die, her sufferings had been great - This P.M. we took a pleasant ride and had a beautiful view of the country 24th Uncle Paxson and Mollie came also a friend of Lizzies Ella Thorne a sweet singer, staid to tea and we took her back to Crosswicks after tea 25th Uncle took a ride , Marshal Palmer & R Satterthwait here, Ellie & Rodgers Janie and I went to call at Aarons a little while, my heart was in sympathy for the afflicted ones, she had been such a loving faithful creature 26th Went to [Meeting] and at 1 attended the funeral, the meeting house was crowded and Henry Ridgway gave us a most solemn and impressive sermon He spoke of the saints of old said that many thought that all the good had gone with them, but that was not his belief, he believed the dear sister was as good as many of those who lived in the past, he felt bound to say that a better woman never lived, it was a strong assertion but he could speak it that since she entered on the path of religion a better woman never lived, he spoke beautifully to her children said in such an impressive manner Remember your mother, and remember that the same power that upheld 151. her through all her trials can uphold you the whole meeting was affected and it certainly was calculated to fill one with the holiest reflections, I thought many times, if every life could be so full of good, and purity could so closely adhere to the right through all the trials of this world, I prayed that mine might be one as spotless & full of goodness as hers had been. 27th I enjoy being here very much indeed so many nice talks with the girls and I find dear Ellie & Lizzie take kindly all my serious conversations if they knew how deeply I was interested in their welfare I love them all dear sweet Janie is a precious jewel and will [?] the love I can bestow - Ellis was here also Anna Eliza Roberts Henry Satterthwait and wife - 28th Uncles Jennie and I went to Mount Holly [Quarterly Meeting] then to William Clothiers to dine a real pleasant ride and most delightful ride with tea at Ben's - 29th I answered Sams letter by 3 oclock at [half] past Uncle Paxson left to spend the day at Bristol and then journey homeward. Ellis was here we have had great times eating watermelons, he is good hearted, nice open pleasant young man, but lacks a business energy which is a very great pity for he has the material to make a very fine man - Marshall here 30th Marshal took Ellie and Ellis the rest of us over to Trenton we had a splendid ride went to the Prison and saw the convicts then out to the Asylum which is a splendid building 3 miles beyond, were shown all over it and saw some who appeared to have plenty of reason their [?] looked wild we then went over the Capitol and from there to a beautiful grove where we eat our dinners of Crackers, cheese, cakes candies peaches etc. indeed we all enjoyed it very much [?] ride home was very pleasant & we spent a delightful evening, Marshal bid us good bye as he returns to Delaware -. 31st We took a ride this afternoon, while at tea in came Cousin John & Oldden we were very glad to see them, Ellis was over and we enjoyed the evening, all took a little ride by the moonlight, had real fun Ellie & I helped make bread 152. SEPTEMBER 1st A beautiful day, we all took a walk in the woods met Ellis out gunning so he joined us and we had a real nice time - He was over in the afternoon and asked me to ride we went round to Shellltown & enjoyed it very much, he staid to tea and quite late - I would not retire without Lide, so was censured but I believed my course was right so endeavored to do what seemed best tho did not wish to offend 2nd Went to [Meeting], it is a splendid day, spent a pleasant afternoon, gentleman smoked and then I quietly left for a couple of hours Ellis here after tea we started to take a walk, he offered his arm, but I had to refuse on account of his cigar I was very sorry, but I will not vary from what I believe right We walked home together and had a long satisfactory talk & [?] are good friends 3rd We bid all farewell and started home after spending two weeks most delightfully, it is a visit long to be remembered - parted with John & Oldden in the city when we reached home found Lyd better she had been suffering with a carbuncle 4th Mart Dodgson here awhile Ben & Ed Satterthwait have gone in business together were out here a little while I do hope they will succeed, & keep to the right 5th All very busy moving Sallie & Sam to their new home in the city 18th [Street] Ned & Eph here to assist, she and I went in the cars and opened the house were very busy all day, planning and fixing things in their places - 6th Busy all day helping sister Sallie went out to get marketing etc. - came out home and hurried off to the Lyceum, the room was full, and we chose officers then heard a most beautiful and eloquent lecture from Dr Herman it was full of eloquence on Literature afterward Dr Jones read an original essay on Knowledge which was excellent tho most too long as we were all tired - Ned and Chalk waited on us home. 7th Cousin John here awhile, after tea I made some calls on Jones etc. etc. etc. 8th Did my baking before breakfast and went to town at [half] past 7. they were very glad to see me I went out and did a great deal of shopping for Sallie procured things for kitchen etc. came out at 7 oclock found M. Jones here 153. 9th A lovely cool day, a great change since yesterday, Mary Jones and I took a splendid ride did not get back til 10 oclock. Joseph and Mart Dodgson here awhile also Newton I wrote to [?] ... 10th I was very busy all day as the washerwoman did not come, about noon Uncle George and Aunt Sarah came. After tea we went to Newtons to attend the Temperance Society, but we found it very different from what we accepted, there was entirely too much show and form, I was disappointed for I had hoped it would be plain and simple - still it may do good and I hope it will -. 11th A cloudy day which I suppose has disappointed a great many as this is the day fixed for the Political Meeting on the Brandywine Battlefield - a number went from Darby - It is also Lidie's 20th birth-day. 12th Real windy and cold, rained some in the night - I took from my finger 2 rings [?] I went to the city, found them all pretty well after dinner Sallie and I went down town to do some shopping called at Sarah Coopers - 13th Uncle G & wife spent the day at Sallie's. Rebecca Ash there to tea 14th Mother came in and we went and did some shopping - came home with Pa 15th Had a sweet letter from dear Anna, their school is quite large - Father mother and Lide went to Aunt Esthers to tea, I had a nice quiet time to think, it is good to be alone and reflect -. 16th Attended meeting this morning, in the afternoon Oldden came, after tea we went and took a delightful ride, when we came back found Willie Bartram & Mr Rhoads here, Nate Sellers came also - . 17th They returned to the city, and I trembled when I thought what might happen before our dear Sallie would visit us again I pray for [?]. 18th Aunt Rachel here awhile to dine - This P.M. we went to Cousin Mary had a real nice time, I love to visit there it is so home-like. 154. 19th This morning we cleaned the 3rd stories, Lide and Lizzie Jackson took a horse back ride went to see Hattie Johnson, just before reaching there the horse threw Lide, supposed he was [?], she was not hurt except bruised -. I spent the evening with Mary Jones, reading to her her eyes are so weak - 20th Went to Preparative Meeting but there was no business. Nellie Bartram here 21st I have been very busy preserving preparing for the winter season, our friends have been very kind in sending us fruit - so it may be with spiritual things and that which is given by our Heavenly Friend may be of most service when the winter season comes and the clouds of life darken for a while the sunshine, but what has been laid up in times of joy may be sufficient to prove to us, that Our Father ever watched over us, and doing all things for the best -. I wrote to Carrie, dear young creature how I hope her hopes may not be [?] - 22nd Our folks went to town. I went up to Sharon and helped them make carpets, they are making the house so warm and comfortable 23rd Tillie McAllister came home to dine with us, Ben B. & Ned here in the eve. At meeting I gave [?] a small package well wrapped up - 24th Busy all day, preserving fruit, elegant quinces Hector sent us. 25th Went to monthly meeting. Ben & Lyd were out, very heavy shower & hail 26th Mother went to the city to stay with Sallie while Lyd went to Han Purvis wedding -. I went to Sharon and was busy all day helping sew - 27th Beautiful bright morning, but commenced raining and was stormy - Father went to the Fair at Powelton, met Uncle Charley - Rainy all day. 28th Mother came out from town - Cousin Jane Graham here to tea Israel in the eve 29th Aby Bell and Anne came brought us a basket of elegant pears & apples. 30th Went to [Meeting], had a short sermon from Israel Grahame, very good [?] Bartram here - Hall Price brought Sallie down to Sharon I wrote a letter to Aunt Jane - dear creature she is - I do love her 155. OCTOBER 1st Quite a dull rainy day, after dinner Aby and Hall started for Chester County - Mary Jones here also Oldden 2nd Very busy all day ironing and cleaning house - it is quite warm -. 3rd There was a very large Republican meeting here, addressed by John Hickman and others, over a thousand persons - we were on Purvis porch. the clubs had a grand torch light procession which was very beautiful indeed they passed by here. Will Bartram and us came up, and saw them from here Will was so polite - 4th Mother went to town, Aby came out to tea. I wrote to Jenna P. S. 5th A damp warm misty morning, after breakfast Lide & Aby & self went to Sharon then to Uncle Williams - I was at Jones this P.M. Ma came home 6th I was very busy baking etc. - they went to Cousin Marys 7th All went to meeting had a good sermon from Ma - company EIGHTH Ben came out for mother, she went right in but before she arrived, our dear Sallie had a fine little son, after 8 hours suffering Mother sent word right out and it was a relief to know it was over, another immortal soul to live and care for - I do hope the mother will be strengthened to bear the burden, my most sincere prayers are offered up for her. my own angel sister -. Father went to the city, returned in the evening -. 9th This is election day and an exciting one to politicians, cousin Ephraim was here to spend the day, Oldden Ned & Chalk to spend the eve 10th Lide and I went to the city to see our little nephew, found Sallie doing well though very week - the nurse seems to take very good care of her we did not spend much time in her room & after dinner went shopping Lide brought herself an Arab cloak - we returned home that evening 11th Went to week day meeting, which was quite large [?] Sharon scholars increase the size of [?] very much indeed. 156. Our Lyceum met this eve, the editor read our paper which was very good, then I read the Painter of Seville, afterwards Rebecca read the Trumpet. The [meeting] was quite interesting Ned and Will Bartram waited on his home - great boys those. 12th Cousin Mary came out from town after dinner Father & Mother took her home 13th Busy white washing and cleaning the dining room Mother went to town - 14th We went to meeting, it has been quite dull and rainy all day, which has made the time pass very slowly - mother being absent makes it worse 15th Mother returned home left Sallie and the baby doing very well 16th After dinner Lide & I went to take a walk called at Phebes then went to a chestnut tree, Ben and Charlie knocked us some - They were making the new road - 17th Gave a poor woman her breakfast - she had been deserted by her husband - 18th Attended [Meeting], busy sewing on my bonnet as I am trying to make one! 19th Cloudy and dull commenced raining towards evening - high winds 20th Rainy all day the sun scarcely shone out once - leaves falling fast - 21st Cloudy and dull - we went to meeting heard a beautiful prayer from Mother - Just before dinner Hall Price came after Humphrey Ash E. S. [?] 22nd West but cleared off after dinner. Father and Mother went to Abraham Hunt's funeral Last evening Eph and I spent part of the evening with Lide Price at Lowells 23rd Our monthly Meeting, quite large after dinner all went to town, soon Hannah McAllister called then Aunt Esther and Cousin John came the women went to Bartrams and John and I had a nice talk. Mary Jones here a little while I finished my bonnet that I made all myself [?] 24th Cleaned the parlor I was not very well, but kept it to myself 25th Busy cleaning cellar. Lide went to Sharon after dinner they to ride. Our Lyceum met and we had a real nice time over 60 there Nellie [?] 26th I suffered very much nearly all night - with a bad tooth ache little better We went to Cousin Ephraims had a nice time only I had tooth ache 27th Some lovely warm weather - Busy most all day preparing for Quarterly [Meeting]. 28th Did not go to [Meeting] [?] [?] [?] [?] Dr's out to tea 29th A good deal of company - Sarah Mendenhall and Mary 157. Jesse James and wife Clarkson Taylor and wife - also Jennie Satterthwait several more here to tea these staid all night - We young folks took a walk in the eve -. 30th Just after we started to Quarterly Meeting it commenced raining quite hard, Uncle Paxson came back in the carriage and we all got there safely. Jennie and myself had a seat in the window very comfortable the meeting was quite large, after meeting it rained very hard indeed but the carriage went many times and brought all - we had a good deal of company - Marshall Palmer spent the afternoon here - after tea Chalk & Ned came to take us to Uncle Williams, but M. was not home so they staid here - soon after Cousin John and Oldden came, we had a real nice time 31st Mother and Aunt Jane went to town - soon after Aunt Esther and cousin John came they staid to tea, afterwards Ned & Chalk came in a two horse carriage and took us to Aunt Esthers, it was a beautiful moonlight evening and we had a splendid time - it was hollow eve and many gates were off - Well here I am on the last page of my book I have written many foolish and worthless things that had better been left out, but I wrote just as I felt in my mind often was various - sometimes, gay and joyous, others sad and weary - it has often been a great comfort to come and pen my thoughts here a kind of relief to my heart, perhaps no good will be done by it, yet as it gives me great pleasure I write on - hoping the next book may be better - dear dear book I am sorry it is full - but good bye good bye - [Back Board] Her first teaching - P1 Male sex - P2 Social life visits Catholic church 3 & 4 [Back Cover]